26. Chapter XXVI The Dance

Adam Bede / 亚当·比德

1Arthur had chosen the entrance-hall for the ballroom: very wisely, for no other room could have been so airy, or would have had the advantage of the wide doors opening into the garden, as well as a ready entrance into the other rooms. To be sure, a stone floor was not the pleasantest to dance on, but then, most of the dancers had known what it was to enjoy a Christmas dance on kitchen quarries. It was one of those entrance-halls which make the surrounding rooms look like closetswith stucco angels, trumpets, and flower-wreaths on the lofty ceiling, and great medallions of miscellaneous heroes on the walls, alternating with statues in niches. Just the sort of place to be ornamented well with green boughs, and Mr. Craig had been proud to show his taste and his hothouse plants on the occasion. The broad steps of the stone staircase were covered with cushions to serve as seats for the children, who were to stay till half-past nine with the servant-maids to see the dancing, and as this dance was confined to the chief tenants, there was abundant room for every one. The lights were charmingly disposed in coloured-paper lamps, high up among green boughs, and the farmerswives and daughters, as they peeped in, believed no scene could be more splendid; they knew now quite well in what sort of rooms the king and queen lived, and their thoughts glanced with some pity towards cousins and acquaintances who had not this fine opportunity of knowing how things went on in the great world. The lamps were already lit, though the sun had not long set, and there was that calm light out of doors in which we seem to see all objects more distinctly than in the broad day.

2It was a pretty scene outside the house: the farmers and their families were moving about the lawn, among the flowers and shrubs, or along the broad straight road leading from the east front, where a carpet of mossy grass spread on each side, studded here and there with a dark flat-boughed cedar, or a grand pyramidal fir sweeping the ground with its branches, all tipped with a fringe of paler green. The groups of cottagers in the park were gradually diminishing, the young ones being attracted towards the lights that were beginning to gleam from the windows of the gallery in the abbey, which was to be their dancing-room, and some of the sober elder ones thinking it time to go home quietly. One of these was Lisbeth Bede, and Seth went with hernot from filial attention only, for his conscience would not let him join in dancing. It had been rather a melancholy day to Seth: Dinah had never been more constantly present with him than in this scene, where everything was so unlike her. He saw her all the more vividly after looking at the thoughtless faces and gay-coloured dresses of the young womenjust as one feels the beauty and the greatness of a pictured Madonna the more when it has been for a moment screened from us by a vulgar head in a bonnet. But this presence of Dinah in his mind only helped him to bear the better with his mothers mood, which had been becoming more and more querulous for the last hour. Poor Lisbeth was suffering from a strange conflict of feelings. Her joy and pride in the honour paid to her darling son Adam was beginning to be worsted in the conflict with the jealousy and fretfulness which had revived when Adam came to tell her that Captain Donnithorne desired him to join the dancers in the hall. Adam was getting more and more out of her reach; she wished all the old troubles back again, for then it mattered more to Adam what his mother said and did.

3Eh, its fine talkin’ o’ dancin’,” she said, “anthy father not a five week ins grave. AnI wish I war there too, i’stid o’ bein’ left to take up merrier folkss room above ground.”

4Nay, dont look at it ithat way, Mother,” said Adam, who was determined to be gentle to her to-day. I dont mean to danceI shall only look on. And since the captain wishes me to be there, it ’ud look as if I thought I knew better than him to say as Id rather not stay. And thee knowst how hes behaved to me to-day.”

5Eh, theet do as thee lik’st, for thy old mothers got no right thinder thee. Shes nought but thold husk, and theest slipped away from her, like the ripe nut.”

6Well, Mother,” said Adam, “Ill go and tell the captain as it hurts thy feelings for me to stay, and Id rather go home upo’ that account: he wont take it ill then, I daresay, and Im willing.” He said this with some effort, for he really longed to be near Hetty this evening.

7Nay, nay, I wonna hathee do thatthe young squire ’ull be angered. Go ando what theet ordered to do, anme and Seth ’ull go whome. I know its a grit honour for thee to be so looked onanwhos to be prouder on it nor thy mother? Hadna she the cumber o’ rearin’ thee an’ doin’ for thee all theseears?”

8Well, good-bye, then, Mothergood-bye, ladremember Gyp when you get home,” said Adam, turning away towards the gate of the pleasure-grounds, where he hoped he might be able to join the Poysers, for he had been so occupied throughout the afternoon that he had had no time to speak to Hetty. His eye soon detected a distant group, which he knew to be the right one, returning to the house along the broad gravel road, and he hastened on to meet them.

9Why, Adam, Im glad to get sight on yagain,” said Mr. Poyser, who was carrying Totty on his arm. Youre going thave a bit ofun, I hope, now your works all done. And heres Hetty has promised no end opartners, anIve just been askin’ her if shed agreed to dance wiyou, anshe says no.”

10Well, I didn’t think odancing to-night,” said Adam, already tempted to change his mind, as he looked at Hetty.

11Nonsense!” said Mr. Poyser. Why, everybodys goin’ to dance to-night, all but thold squire and Mrs. Irwine. Mrs. Bests been tellin’ us as Miss Lyddy and Miss Irwine ’ull dance, anthe young squire ’ull pick my wife for his first partner, topen the ball: so shell be forced to dance, though shes laid by ever sinthe Christmas afore the little un was born. You canna for shame stand still, Adam, anyou a fine young fellow and can dance as well as anybody.”

12Nay, nay,” said Mrs. Poyser, “it ’ud be unbecomin’. I know the dancin’s nonsense, but if you stick at everything because its nonsense, you wonna go far ithis life. When your broths ready-made for you, you mun swallow the thickenin’, or else let the broth alone.”

13Then if Hetty ’ull dance with me,” said Adam, yielding either to Mrs. Poyser’s argument or to something else, “Ill dance whichever dance shes free.”

14Ive got no partner for the fourth dance,” said Hetty; “Ill dance that with you, if you like.”

15Ah,” said Mr. Poyser, “but you mun dance the first dance, Adam, else itll look partic’ler. Theres plenty onice partners to pick anchoose from, anits hard for the gells when the men stanby and dont askem.”

16Adam felt the justice of Mr. Poyser’s observation: it would not do for him to dance with no one besides Hetty; and remembering that Jonathan Burge had some reason to feel hurt to-day, he resolved to ask Miss Mary to dance with him the first dance, if she had no other partner.

17Theres the big clock strikin’ eight,” said Mr. Poyser; “we must make haste in now, else the squire and the ladies ’ull be in afore us, anthat wouldna look well.”

18When they had entered the hall, and the three children under Mollys charge had been seated on the stairs, the folding-doors of the drawing-room were thrown open, and Arthur entered in his regimentals, leading Mrs. Irwine to a carpet-covered dais ornamented with hot-house plants, where she and Miss Anne were to be seated with old Mr. Donnithorne, that they might look on at the dancing, like the kings and queens in the plays. Arthur had put on his uniform to please the tenants, he said, who thought as much of his militia dignity as if it had been an elevation to the premiership. He had not the least objection to gratify them in that way: his uniform was very advantageous to his figure.

19The old squire, before sitting down, walked round the hall to greet the tenants and make polite speeches to the wives: he was always polite; but the farmers had found out, after long puzzling, that this polish was one of the signs of hardness. It was observed that he gave his most elaborate civility to Mrs. Poyser to-night, inquiring particularly about her health, recommending her to strengthen herself with cold water as he did, and avoid all drugs. Mrs. Poyser curtsied and thanked him with great self-command, but when he had passed on, she whispered to her husband, “Ill lay my life hes brewin’ some nasty turn against us. Old Harry doesna wag his tail so for nothin’.” Mr. Poyser had no time to answer, for now Arthur came up and said, “Mrs. Poyser, Im come to request the favour of your hand for the first dance; and, Mr. Poyser, you must let me take you to my aunt, for she claims you as her partner.”

20The wifes pale cheek flushed with a nervous sense of unwonted honour as Arthur led her to the top of the room; but Mr. Poyser, to whom an extra glass had restored his youthful confidence in his good looks and good dancing, walked along with them quite proudly, secretly flattering himself that Miss Lydia had never had a partner in her life who could lift her off the ground as he would. In order to balance the honours given to the two parishes, Miss Irwine danced with Luke Britton, the largest Broxton farmer, and Mr. Gawaine led out Mrs. Britton. Mr. Irwine, after seating his sister Anne, had gone to the abbey gallery, as he had agreed with Arthur beforehand, to see how the merriment of the cottagers was prospering. Meanwhile, all the less distinguished couples had taken their places: Hetty was led out by the inevitable Mr. Craig, and Mary Burge by Adam; and now the music struck up, and the glorious country-dance, best of all dances, began.

21Pity it was not a boarded floor! Then the rhythmic stamping of the thick shoes would have been better than any drums. That merry stamping, that gracious nodding of the head, that waving bestowal of the handwhere can we see them now? That simple dancing of well-covered matrons, laying aside for an hour the cares of house and dairy, remembering but not affecting youth, not jealous but proud of the young maidens by their sidethat holiday sprightliness of portly husbands paying little compliments to their wives, as if their courting days were come againthose lads and lasses a little confused and awkward with their partners, having nothing to sayit would be a pleasant variety to see all that sometimes, instead of low dresses and large skirts, and scanning glances exploring costumes, and languid men in lacquered boots smiling with double meaning.

22There was but one thing to mar Martin Poyser’s pleasure in this dance: it was that he was always in close contact with Luke Britton, that slovenly farmer. He thought of throwing a little glazed coldness into his eye in the crossing of hands; but then, as Miss Irwine was opposite to him instead of the offensive Luke, he might freeze the wrong person. So he gave his face up to hilarity, unchilled by moral judgments.

23How Hettys heart beat as Arthur approached her! He had hardly looked at her to-day: now he must take her hand. Would he press it? Would he look at her? She thought she would cry if he gave her no sign of feeling. Now he was therehe had taken her handyes, he was pressing it. Hetty turned pale as she looked up at him for an instant and met his eyes, before the dance carried him away. That pale look came upon Arthur like the beginning of a dull pain, which clung to him, though he must dance and smile and joke all the same. Hetty would look so, when he told her what he had to tell her; and he should never be able to bear ithe should be a fool and give way again. Hettys look did not really mean so much as he thought: it was only the sign of a struggle between the desire for him to notice her and the dread lest she should betray the desire to others. But Hettys face had a language that transcended her feelings. There are faces which nature charges with a meaning and pathos not belonging to the single human soul that flutters beneath them, but speaking the joys and sorrows of foregone generationseyes that tell of deep love which doubtless has been and is somewhere, but not paired with these eyesperhaps paired with pale eyes that can say nothing; just as a national language may be instinct with poetry unfelt by the lips that use it. That look of Hettys oppressed Arthur with a dread which yet had something of a terrible unconfessed delight in it, that she loved him too well. There was a hard task before him, for at that moment he felt he would have given up three years of his youth for the happiness of abandoning himself without remorse to his passion for Hetty.

24These were the incongruous thoughts in his mind as he led Mrs. Poyser, who was panting with fatigue, and secretly resolving that neither judge nor jury should force her to dance another dance, to take a quiet rest in the dining-room, where supper was laid out for the guests to come and take it as they chose.

25Ive desired Hetty to remember as shes got to dance wiyou, sir,” said the good innocent woman; “for shes so thoughtless, shed be like enough to go anengage herself for ivery dance. So I told her not to promise too many.”

26Thank you, Mrs. Poyser,” said Arthur, not without a twinge. Now, sit down in this comfortable chair, and here is Mills ready to give you what you would like best.”

27He hurried away to seek another matronly partner, for due honour must be paid to the married women before he asked any of the young ones; and the country-dances, and the stamping, and the gracious nodding, and the waving of the hands, went on joyously.

28At last the time had come for the fourth dancelonged for by the strong, grave Adam, as if he had been a delicate-handed youth of eighteen; for we are all very much alike when we are in our first love; and Adam had hardly ever touched Hettys hand for more than a transient greetinghad never danced with her but once before. His eyes had followed her eagerly to-night in spite of himself, and had taken in deeper draughts of love. He thought she behaved so prettily, so quietly; she did not seem to be flirting at all, she smiled less than usual; there was almost a sweet sadness about her. God bless her!” he said inwardly; “Id make her life a happyun, if a strong arm to work for her, and a heart to love her, could do it.”

29And then there stole over him delicious thoughts of coming home from work, and drawing Hetty to his side, and feeling her cheek softly pressed against his, till he forgot where he was, and the music and the tread of feet might have been the falling of rain and the roaring of the wind, for what he knew.

30But now the third dance was ended, and he might go up to her and claim her hand. She was at the far end of the hall near the staircase, whispering with Molly, who had just given the sleeping Totty into her arms before running to fetch shawls and bonnets from the landing. Mrs. Poyser had taken the two boys away into the dining-room to give them some cake before they went home in the cart with Grandfather and Molly was to follow as fast as possible.

31Let me hold her,” said Adam, as Molly turned upstairs; “the children are so heavy when theyre asleep.”

32Hetty was glad of the relief, for to hold Totty in her arms, standing, was not at all a pleasant variety to her. But this second transfer had the unfortunate effect of rousing Totty, who was not behind any child of her age in peevishness at an unseasonable awaking. While Hetty was in the act of placing her in Adams arms, and had not yet withdrawn her own, Totty opened her eyes, and forthwith fought out with her left fist at Adams arm, and with her right caught at the string of brown beads round Hettys neck. The locket leaped out from her frock, and the next moment the string was broken, and Hetty, helpless, saw beads and locket scattered wide on the floor.

33My locket, my locket!” she said, in a loud frightened whisper to Adam; “never mind the beads.”

34Adam had already seen where the locket fell, for it had attracted his glance as it leaped out of her frock. It had fallen on the raised wooden dais where the band sat, not on the stone floor; and as Adam picked it up, he saw the glass with the dark and light locks of hair under it. It had fallen that side upwards, so the glass was not broken. He turned it over on his hand, and saw the enamelled gold back.

35It isn’t hurt,” he said, as he held it towards Hetty, who was unable to take it because both her hands were occupied with Totty.

36Oh, it doesn’t matter, I dont mind about it,” said Hetty, who had been pale and was now red.

37Not matter?” said Adam, gravely. You seemed very frightened about it. Ill hold it till youre ready to take it,” he added, quietly closing his hand over it, that she might not think he wanted to look at it again.

38By this time Molly had come with bonnet and shawl, and as soon as she had taken Totty, Adam placed the locket in Hettys hand. She took it with an air of indifference and put it in her pocket, in her heart vexed and angry with Adam because he had seen it, but determined now that she would show no more signs of agitation.

39See,” she said, “theyre taking their places to dance; let us go.”

40Adam assented silently. A puzzled alarm had taken possession of him. Had Hetty a lover he didn’t know of? For none of her relations, he was sure, would give her a locket like that; and none of her admirers, with whom he was acquainted, was in the position of an accepted lover, as the giver of that locket must be. Adam was lost in the utter impossibility of finding any person for his fears to alight on. He could only feel with a terrible pang that there was something in Hettys life unknown to him; that while he had been rocking himself in the hope that she would come to love him, she was already loving another. The pleasure of the dance with Hetty was gone; his eyes, when they rested on her, had an uneasy questioning expression in them; he could think of nothing to say to her; and she too was out of temper and disinclined to speak. They were both glad when the dance was ended.

41Adam was determined to stay no longer; no one wanted him, and no one would notice if he slipped away. As soon as he got out of doors, he began to walk at his habitual rapid pace, hurrying along without knowing why, busy with the painful thought that the memory of this day, so full of honour and promise to him, was poisoned for ever. Suddenly, when he was far on through the Chase, he stopped, startled by a flash of reviving hope. After all, he might be a fool, making a great misery out of a trifle. Hetty, fond of finery as she was, might have bought the thing herself. It looked too expensive for thatit looked like the things on white satin in the great jewellers shop at Rosseter. But Adam had very imperfect notions of the value of such things, and he thought it could certainly not cost more than a guinea. Perhaps Hetty had had as much as that in Christmas boxes, and there was no knowing but she might have been childish enough to spend it in that way; she was such a young thing, and she couldn’t help loving finery! But then, why had she been so frightened about it at first, and changed colour so, and afterwards pretended not to care? Oh, that was because she was ashamed of his seeing that she had such a smart thingshe was conscious that it was wrong for her to spend her money on it, and she knew that Adam disapproved of finery. It was a proof she cared about what he liked and disliked. She must have thought from his silence and gravity afterwards that he was very much displeased with her, that he was inclined to be harsh and severe towards her foibles. And as he walked on more quietly, chewing the cud of this new hope, his only uneasiness was that he had behaved in a way which might chill Hettys feeling towards him. For this last view of the matter must be the true one. How could Hetty have an accepted lover, quite unknown to him? She was never away from her uncles house for more than a day; she could have no acquaintances that did not come there, and no intimacies unknown to her uncle and aunt. It would be folly to believe that the locket was given to her by a lover. The little ring of dark hair he felt sure was her own; he could form no guess about the light hair under it, for he had not seen it very distinctly. It might be a bit of her fathers or mothers, who had died when she was a child, and she would naturally put a bit of her own along with it.

42And so Adam went to bed comforted, having woven for himself an ingenious web of probabilitiesthe surest screen a wise man can place between himself and the truth. His last waking thoughts melted into a dream that he was with Hetty again at the Hall Farm, and that he was asking her to forgive him for being so cold and silent.

43And while he was dreaming this, Arthur was leading Hetty to the dance and saying to her in low hurried tones, “I shall be in the wood the day after to-morrow at seven; come as early as you can.” And Hettys foolish joys and hopes, which had flown away for a little space, scared by a mere nothing, now all came fluttering back, unconscious of the real peril. She was happy for the first time this long day, and wished that dance would last for hours. Arthur wished it too; it was the last weakness he meant to indulge in; and a man never lies with more delicious languor under the influence of a passion than when he has persuaded himself that he shall subdue it to-morrow.

44But Mrs. Poyser’s wishes were quite the reverse of this, for her mind was filled with dreary forebodings as to the retardation of to-morrow mornings cheese in consequence of these late hours. Now that Hetty had done her duty and danced one dance with the young squire, Mr. Poyser must go out and see if the cart was come back to fetch them, for it was half-past ten oclock, and notwithstanding a mild suggestion on his part that it would be bad manners for them to be the first to go, Mrs. Poyser was resolute on the point, “manners or no manners.”

45What! Going already, Mrs. Poyser?” said old Mr. Donnithorne, as she came to curtsy and take leave; “I thought we should not part with any of our guests till eleven. Mrs. Irwine and I, who are elderly people, think of sitting out the dance till then.”

46Oh, Your Honour, its all right and proper for gentlefolks to stay up by candlelighttheyve got no cheese on their minds. Were late enough as it is, antheres no lettin’ the cows know as they mustn’t want to be milked so early to-morrow mornin’. So, if youll please texcuse us, well take our leave.”

47Eh!” she said to her husband, as they set off in the cart, “Id sooner ha’ brewin’ day and washin’ day together than one othese pleasurin’ days. Theres no work so tirin’ as danglin’ about an’ starin’ annot rightly knowin’ what youre goin’ to do next; and keepin’ your face i’ smilin’ order like a grocer omarket-day for fear people shouldna think you civil enough. Anyouve nothing to show fort when its done, if it isn’t a yallow face wi’ eatin’ things as disagree.”

48Nay, nay,” said Mr. Poyser, who was in his merriest mood, and felt that he had had a great day, “a bit opleasurings good for thee sometimes. Anthee danc’st as well as any ofem, for Ill back thee against all the wives ithe parish for a light foot anankle. Anit was a great honour for the young squire to ask thee firstI reckon it was because I sat at thhead othe table anmade the speech. AnHetty tooshe never had such a partner beforea fine young gentleman in regmentals. Itll serve you to talk on, Hetty, when youre an old womanhow you danced withyoung squire the day he come oage.”

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