36. CHAPTER 36 BEAUTY FOR ASHES

Anne's House of Dreams / 梦中小屋的安妮

1Any news from Green Gables, Anne?”

2Nothing very especial,” replied Anne, folding up Marilla’s letter. Jake Donnell has been there shingling the roof. He is a full-fledged carpenter now, so it seems he has had his own way in regard to the choice of a life-work. You remember his mother wanted him to be a college professor. I shall never forget the day she came to the school and rated me for failing to call him St. Clair.”

3Does anyone ever call him that now?”

4Evidently not. It seems that he has completely lived it down. Even his mother has succumbed. I always thought that a boy with Jakes chin and mouth would get his own way in the end. Diana writes me that Dora has a beau. Just think of itthat child!”

5Dora is seventeen,” said Gilbert. Charlie Sloane and I were both mad about you when you were seventeen, Anne.”

6Really, Gilbert, we must be getting on in years,” said Anne, with a half-rueful smile, “when children who were six when we thought ourselves grown up are old enough now to have beaux. Doras is Ralph Andrews—Janes brother. I remember him as a little, round, fat, white-headed fellow who was always at the foot of his class. But I understand he is quite a fine-looking young man now.”

7Dora will probably marry young. Shes of the same type as Charlotta the Fourthshell never miss her first chance for fear she might not get another.”

8Well; if she marries Ralph I hope he will be a little more up-and-coming than his brother Billy,” mused Anne.

9For instance,” said Gilbert, laughing, “let us hope he will be able to propose on his own account. Anne, would you have married Billy if he had asked you himself, instead of getting Jane to do it for him?”

10I might have.” Anne went off into a shriek of laughter over the recollection of her first proposal. The shock of the whole thing might have hypnotized me into some such rash and foolish act. Let us be thankful he did it by proxy.”

11I had a letter from George Moore yesterday,” said Leslie, from the corner where she was reading.

12Oh, how is he?” asked Anne interestedly, yet with an unreal feeling that she was inquiring about some one whom she did not know.

13He is well, but he finds it very hard to adapt himself to all the changes in his old home and friends. He is going to sea again in the spring. Its in his blood, he says, and he longs for it. But he told me something that made me glad for him, poor fellow. Before he sailed on the Four Sisters he was engaged to a girl at home. He did not tell me anything about her in Montreal, because he said he supposed she would have forgotten him and married someone else long ago, and with him, you see, his engagement and love was still a thing of the present. It was pretty hard on him, but when he got home he found she had never married and still cared for him. They are to be married this fall. Im going to ask him to bring her over here for a little trip; he says he wants to come and see the place where he lived so many years without knowing it.”

14What a nice little romance,” said Anne, whose love for the romantic was immortal. And to think,” she added with a sigh of self-reproach, “that if I had had my way George Moore would never have come up from the grave in which his identity was buried. How I did fight against Gilberts suggestion! Well, I am punished: I shall never be able to have a different opinion from Gilberts again! If I try to have, he will squelch me by casting George Moores case up to me!”

15As if even that would squelch a woman!” mocked Gilbert. At least do not become my echo, Anne. A little opposition gives spice to life. I do not want a wife like John MacAllister’s over the harbor. No matter what he says, she at once remarks in that drab, lifeless little voice of hers, 'That is very true, John, dear me!’”

16Anne and Leslie laughed. Annes laughter was silver and Leslies golden, and the combination of the two was as satisfactory as a perfect chord in music.

17Susan, coming in on the heels of the laughter, echoed it with a resounding sigh.

18Why, Susan, what is the matter?” asked Gilbert.

19Theres nothing wrong with little Jem, is there, Susan?” cried Anne, starting up in alarm.

20No, no, calm yourself, Mrs. Doctor, dear. Something has happened, though. Dear me, everything has gone catawampus with me this week. I spoiled the bread, as you know too welland I scorched the doctors best shirt bosomand I broke your big platter. And now, on the top of all this, comes word that my sister Matilda has broken her leg and wants me to go and stay with her for a spell.”

21Oh, Im very sorrysorry that your sister has met with such an accident, I mean,” exclaimed Anne.

22Ah, well, man was made to mourn, Mrs. Doctor, dear. That sounds as if it ought to be in the Bible, but they tell me a person named Burns wrote it. And there is no doubt that we are born to trouble as the sparks fly upward. As for Matilda, I do not know what to think of her. None of our family ever broke their legs before. But whatever she has done she is still my sister, and I feel that it is my duty to go and wait on her, if you can spare me for a few weeks, Mrs. Doctor, dear.”

23Of course, Susan, of course. I can get someone to help me while you are gone.”

24If you cannot I will not go, Mrs. Doctor, dear, Matildas leg to the contrary notwithstanding. I will not have you worried, and that blessed child upset in consequence, for any number of legs.”

25Oh, you must go to your sister at once, Susan. I can get a girl from the cove, who will do for a time.”

26Anne, will you let me come and stay with you while Susan is away?” exclaimed Leslie. Do! Id love toand it would be an act of charity on your part. Im so horribly lonely over there in that big barn of a house. Theres so little to doand at night Im worse than lonelyIm frightened and nervous in spite of locked doors. There was a tramp around two days ago.”

27Anne joyfully agreed, and next day Leslie was installed as an inmate of the little house of dreams. Miss Cornelia warmly approved of the arrangement.

28It seems Providential,” she told Anne in confidence. Im sorry for Matilda Clow, but since she had to break her leg it couldn’t have happened at a better time. Leslie will be here while Owen Ford is in Four Winds, and those old cats up at the Glen wont get the chance to meow, as they would if she was living over there alone and Owen going to see her. They are doing enough of it as it is, because she doesn’t put on mourning. I said to one of them, 'If you mean she should put on mourning for George Moore, it seems to me more like his resurrection than his funeral; and if its Dick you mean, I confess I cant see the propriety of going into weeds for a man who died thirteen years ago and good riddance then!’ And when old Louisa Baldwin remarked to me that she thought it very strange that Leslie should never have suspected it wasn’t her own husband I said, 'YOU never suspected it wasn’t Dick Moore, and you were next-door neighbor to him all his life, and by nature youre ten times as suspicious as Leslie.’ But you cant stop some peoples tongues, Anne, dearie, and Im real thankful Leslie will be under your roof while Owen is courting her.”

29Owen Ford came to the little house one August evening when Leslie and Anne were absorbed in worshipping the baby. He paused at the open door of the living room, unseen by the two within, gazing with greedy eyes at the beautiful picture. Leslie sat on the floor with the baby in her lap, making ecstatic dabs at his fat little hands as he fluttered them in the air.

30Oh, you dear, beautiful, beloved baby,” she mumbled, catching one wee hand and covering it with kisses.

31“Isn’t him ze darlingest itty sing,” crooned Anne, hanging over the arm of her chair adoringly. Dem itty wee pads are ze very tweetest handies in ze whole big world, isn’t dey, you darling itty man.”

32Anne, in the months before Little Jem’s coming, had pored diligently over several wise volumes, and pinned her faith to one in especial, “Sir Oracle on the Care and Training of Children.” Sir Oracle implored parents by all they held sacred never to talkbaby talkto their children. Infants should invariably be addressed in classical language from the moment of their birth. So should they learn to speak English undefiled from their earliest utterance. How,” demanded Sir Oracle, “can a mother reasonably expect her child to learn correct speech, when she continually accustoms its impressionable gray matter to such absurd expressions and distortions of our noble tongue as thoughtless mothers inflict every day on the helpless creatures committed to their care? Can a child who is constantly called 'tweet itty wee singie’ ever attain to any proper conception of his own being and possibilities and destiny?”

33Anne was vastly impressed with this, and informed Gilbert that she meant to make it an inflexible rule never, under any circumstances, to talkbaby talkto her children. Gilbert agreed with her, and they made a solemn compact on the subjecta compact which Anne shamelessly violated the very first moment Little Jem was laid in her arms. Oh, the darling itty wee sing!” she had exclaimed. And she had continued to violate it ever since. When Gilbert teased her she laughed Sir Oracle to scorn.

34He never had any children of his own, GilbertI am positive he hadn’t or he would never have written such rubbish. You just cant help talking baby talk to a baby. It comes naturaland its RIGHT. It would be inhuman to talk to those tiny, soft, velvety little creatures as we do to great big boys and girls. Babies want love and cuddling and all the sweet baby talk they can get, and Little Jem is going to have it, bless his dear itty heartums.”

35But youre the worst I ever heard, Anne,” protested Gilbert, who, not being a mother but only a father, was not wholly convinced yet that Sir Oracle was wrong. I never heard anything like the way you talk to that child.”

36Very likely you never did. Go awaygo away. Didn’t I bring up three pairs of Hammond twins before I was eleven? You and Sir Oracle are nothing but cold-blooded theorists. Gilbert, JUST look at him! Hes smiling at mehe knows what were talking about. And oo dest agwees wif evy word muzzer says, dont oo, angel-lover?”

37Gilbert put his arm about them. Oh you mothers!” he said. You mothers! God knew what He was about when He made you.”

38So Little Jem was talked to and loved and cuddled; and he throve as became a child of the house of dreams. Leslie was quite as foolish over him as Anne was. When their work was done and Gilbert was out of the way, they gave themselves over to shameless orgies of love-making and ecstasies of adoration, such as that in which Owen Ford had surprised them.

39Leslie was the first to become aware of him. Even in the twilight Anne could see the sudden whiteness that swept over her beautiful face, blotting out the crimson of lip and cheeks.

40Owen came forward, eagerly, blind for a moment to Anne.

41Leslie!” he said, holding out his hand. It was the first time he had ever called her by her name; but the hand Leslie gave him was cold; and she was very quiet all the evening, while Anne and Gilbert and Owen laughed and talked together. Before his call ended she excused herself and went upstairs. Owens gay spirits flagged and he went away soon after with a downcast air.

42Gilbert looked at Anne.

43Anne, what are you up to? Theres something going on that I dont understand. The whole air here tonight has been charged with electricity. Leslie sits like the muse of tragedy; Owen Ford jokes and laughs on the surface, and watches Leslie with the eyes of his soul. You seem all the time to be bursting with some suppressed excitement. Own up. What secret have you been keeping from your deceived husband?”

44Dont be a goose, Gilbert,” was Annes conjugal reply. As for Leslie, she is absurd and Im going up to tell her so.”

45Anne found Leslie at the dormer window of her room. The little place was filled with the rhythmic thunder of the sea. Leslie sat with locked hands in the misty moonshinea beautiful, accusing presence.

46Anne,” she said in a low, reproachful voice, “did you know Owen Ford was coming to Four Winds?”

47I did,” said Anne brazenly.

48Oh, you should have told me, Anne,” Leslie cried passionately. If I had known I would have gone awayI wouldn’t have stayed here to meet him. You should have told me. It wasn’t fair of you, Anneoh, it wasn’t fair!”

49Leslies lips were trembling and her whole form was tense with emotion. But Anne laughed heartlessly. She bent over and kissed Leslies upturned reproachful face.

50Leslie, you are an adorable goose. Owen Ford didn’t rush from the Pacific to the Atlantic from a burning desire to see ME. Neither do I believe that he was inspired by any wild and frenzied passion for Miss Cornelia. Take off your tragic airs, my dear friend, and fold them up and put them away in lavender. Youll never need them again. There are some people who can see through a grindstone when there is a hole in it, even if you cannot. I am not a prophetess, but I shall venture on a prediction. The bitterness of life is over for you. After this you are going to have the joys and hopesand I daresay the sorrows, tooof a happy woman. The omen of the shadow of Venus did come true for you, Leslie. The year in which you saw it brought your lifes best gift for youyour love for Owen Ford. Now, go right to bed and have a good sleep.”

51Leslie obeyed orders in so far that she went to bed: but it may be questioned if she slept much. I do not think she dared to dream wakingly; life had been so hard for this poor Leslie, the path on which she had had to walk had been so strait, that she could not whisper to her own heart the hopes that might wait on the future. But she watched the great revolving light bestarring the short hours of the summer night, and her eyes grew soft and bright and young once more. Nor, when Owen Ford came next day, to ask her to go with him to the shore, did she say him nay.