20. CHAPTER 20 LOST MARGARET

Anne's House of Dreams / 梦中小屋的安妮

1Anne found that she could go on living; the day came when she even smiled again over one of Miss Cornelia’s speeches. But there was something in the smile that had never been in Annes smile before and would never be absent from it again.

2On the first day she was able to go for a drive Gilbert took her down to Four Winds Point, and left her there while he rowed over the channel to see a patient at the fishing village. A rollicking wind was scudding across the harbor and the dunes, whipping the water into white-caps and washing the sandshore with long lines of silvery breakers.

3Im real proud to see you here again, Mistress Blythe,” said Captain Jim. Sit downsit down. Im afeared its mighty dusty here todaybut theres no need of looking at dust when you can look at such scenery, is there?”

4I dont mind the dust,” said Anne, “but Gilbert says I must keep in the open air. I think Ill go and sit on the rocks down there.”

5Would you like company or would you rather be alone?”

6If by company you mean yours Id much rather have it than be alone,” said Anne, smiling. Then she sighed. She had never before minded being alone. Now she dreaded it. When she was alone now she felt so dreadfully alone.

7Heres a nice little spot where the wind cant get at you,” said Captain Jim, when they reached the rocks. I often sit here. Its a great place jest to sit and dream.”

8Ohdreams,” sighed Anne. I cant dream now, Captain JimIm done with dreams.”

9Oh, no, youre not, Mistress Blythe—oh, no, youre not,” said Captain Jim meditatively. I know how you feel jest nowbut if you keep on living youll get glad again, and the first thing you know youll be dreaming againthank the good Lord for it! If it wasn’t for our dreams they might as well bury us. Howd we stand living if it wasn’t for our dream of immortality? And thats a dream thats BOUND to come true, Mistress Blythe. Youll see your little Joyce again some day.”

10But she wont be my baby,” said Anne, with trembling lips. Oh, she may be, as Longfellow says, 'a fair maiden clothed with celestial grace’—but shell be a stranger to me.”

11God will manage bettern THAT, I believe,” said Captain Jim.

12They were both silent for a little time. Then Captain Jim said very softly:

13Mistress Blythe, may I tell you about lost Margaret?”

14Of course,” said Anne gently. She did not know wholost Margaretwas, but she felt that she was going to hear the romance of Captain Jims life.

15Ive often wanted to tell you about her,” Captain Jim went on.

16Do you know why, Mistress Blythe? Its because I want somebody to remember and think of her sometime after Im gone. I cant bear that her name should be forgotten by all living souls. And now nobody remembers lost Margaret but me.”

17Then Captain Jim told the storyan old, old forgotten story, for it was over fifty years since Margaret had fallen asleep one day in her fathers dory and driftedor so it was supposed, for nothing was ever certainly known as to her fateout of the channel, beyond the bar, to perish in the black thundersquall which had come up so suddenly that long-ago summer afternoon. But to Captain Jim those fifty years were but as yesterday when it is past.

18I walked the shore for months after that,” he said sadly, “looking to find her dear, sweet little body; but the sea never give her back to me. But Ill find her sometime, Mistress Blythe—Ill find her sometime. Shes waiting for me. I wish I could tell you jest how she looked, but I cant. Ive seen a fine, silvery mist hanging over the bar at sunrise that seemed like herand then again Ive seen a white birch in the woods back yander that made me think of her. She had pale, brown hair and a little white, sweet face, and long slender fingers like yours, Mistress Blythe, only browner, for she was a shore girl. Sometimes I wake up in the night and hear the sea calling to me in the old way, and it seems as if lost Margaret called in it. And when theres a storm and the waves are sobbing and moaning I hear her lamenting among them. And when they laugh on a gay day its HER laughlost Margarets sweet, roguish, little laugh. The sea took her from me, but some day Ill find her. Mistress Blythe. It cant keep us apart forever.”

19I am glad you have told me about her,” said Anne. I have often wondered why you had lived all your life alone.”

20I couldn’t ever care for anyone else. Lost Margaret took my heart with herout there,” said the old lover, who had been faithful for fifty years to his drowned sweetheart. You wont mind if I talk a good deal about her, will you, Mistress Blythe? Its a pleasure to mefor all the pain went out of her memory years ago and jest left its blessing. I know youll never forget her, Mistress Blythe. And if the years, as I hope, bring other little folks to your home, I want you to promise me that youll tell THEM the story of lost Margaret, so that her name wont be forgotten among humankind.”