11. CHAPTER 11 THE STORY OF LESLIE MOORE

Anne's House of Dreams / 梦中小屋的安妮

1Yes, the eighth baby arrived a fortnight ago,” said Miss Cornelia, from a rocker before the fire of the little house one chilly October afternoon. Its a girl. Fred was ranting madsaid he wanted a boywhen the truth is he didn’t want it at all. If it had been a boy hed have ranted because it wasn’t a girl. They had four girls and three boys before, so I cant see that it made much difference what this one was, but of course hed have to be cantankerous, just like a man. The baby is real pretty, dressed up in its nice little clothes. It has black eyes and the dearest, tiny hands.”

2I must go and see it. I just love babies,” said Anne, smiling to herself over a thought too dear and sacred to be put into words.

3I dont say but what theyre nice,” admitted Miss Cornelia. But some folks seem to have more than they really need, believe ME. My poor cousin Flora up at the Glen had eleven, and such a slave as she is! Her husband suicided three years ago. Just like a man!”

4What made him do that?” asked Anne, rather shocked.

5“Couldn’t get his way over something, so he jumped into the well. A good riddance! He was a born tyrant. But of course it spoiled the well. Flora could never abide the thought of using it again, poor thing! So she had another dug and a frightful expense it was, and the water as hard as nails. If he HAD to drown himself there was plenty of water in the harbor, wasn’t there? Ive no patience with a man like that. Weve only had two suicides in Four Winds in my recollection. The other was Frank WestLeslie Moores father. By the way, has Leslie ever been over to call on you yet?”

6No, but I met her on the shore a few nights ago and we scraped an acquaintance,” said Anne, pricking up her ears.

7Miss Cornelia nodded.

8Im glad, dearie. I was hoping youd foregather with her. What do you think of her?”

9I thought her very beautiful.”

10Oh, of course. There was never anybody about Four Winds could touch her for looks. Did you ever see her hair? It reaches to her feet when she lets it down. But I meant how did you like her?”

11I think I could like her very much if shed let me,” said Anne slowly.

12But she wouldn’t let youshe pushed you off and kept you at arms length. Poor Leslie! You wouldn’t be much surprised if you knew what her life has been. Its been a tragedya tragedy!” repeated Miss Cornelia emphatically.

13I wish you would tell me all about herthat is, if you can do so without betraying any confidence.”

14Lord, dearie, everybody in Four Winds knows poor Leslies story. Its no secretthe OUTSIDE, that is. Nobody knows the INSIDE but Leslie herself, and she doesn’t take folks into her confidence. Im about the best friend she has on earth, I reckon, and shes never uttered a word of complaint to me. Have you ever seen Dick Moore?”

15No.”

16Well, I may as well begin at the beginning and tell you everything straight through, so youll understand it. As I said, Leslies father was Frank West. He was clever and shiftlessjust like a man. Oh, he had heaps of brainsand much good they did him! He started to go to college, and he went for two years, and then his health broke down. The Wests were all inclined to be consumptive. So Frank came home and started farming. He married Rose Elliott from over harbor. Rose was reckoned the beauty of Four WindsLeslie takes her looks from her mother, but she has ten times the spirit and go that Rose had, and a far better figure. Now you know, Anne, I always take the ground that us women ought to stand by each other. Weve got enough to endure at the hands of the men, the Lord knows, so I hold we hadn’t ought to clapper-claw one another, and it isn’t often youll find me running down another woman. But I never had much use for Rose Elliott. She was spoiled to begin with, believe ME, and she was nothing but a lazy, selfish, whining creature. Frank was no hand to work, so they were poor as Jobs turkey. Poor! They lived on potatoes and point, believe ME. They had two childrenLeslie and Kenneth. Leslie had her mothers looks and her fathers brains, and something she didn’t get from either of them. She took after her Grandmother Westa splendid old lady. She was the brightest, friendliest, merriest thing when she was a child, Anne. Everybody liked her. She was her fathers favorite and she was awful fond of him. They were 'chums,’ as she used to say. She couldn’t see any of his faultsand he WAS a taking sort of man in some ways.

17Well, when Leslie was twelve years old, the first dreadful thing happened. She worshipped little Kennethhe was four years younger than her, and he WAS a dear little chap. And he was killed one dayfell off a big load of hay just as it was going into the barn, and the wheel went right over his little body and crushed the life out of it. And mind you, Anne, Leslie saw it. She was looking down from the loft. She gave one screechthe hired man said he never heard such a sound in all his lifehe said it would ring in his ears till Gabriels trump drove it out. But she never screeched or cried again about it. She jumped from the loft onto the load and from the load to the floor, and caught up the little bleeding, warm, dead body, Annethey had to tear it from her before she would let it go. They sent for meI cant talk of it.”

18Miss Cornelia wiped the tears from her kindly brown eyes and sewed in bitter silence for a few minutes.

19Well,” she resumed, “it was all overthey buried little Kenneth in that graveyard over the harbor, and after a while Leslie went back to her school and her studies. She never mentioned Kenneths nameIve never heard it cross her lips from that day to this. I reckon that old hurt still aches and burns at times; but she was only a child and time is real kind to children, Anne, dearie. After a while she began to laugh againshe had the prettiest laugh. You dont often hear it now.”

20I heard it once the other night,” said Anne. It IS a beautiful laugh.”

21Frank West began to go down after Kenneths death. He wasn’t strong and it was a shock to him, because he was real fond of the child, though, as Ive said, Leslie was his favorite. He got mopy and melancholy, and couldn’t or wouldn’t work. And one day, when Leslie was fourteen years of age, he hanged himselfand in the parlor, too, mind you, Anne, right in the middle of the parlor from the lamp hook in the ceiling. Wasn’t that like a man? It was the anniversary of his wedding day, too. Nice, tasty time to pick for it, wasn’t it? And, of course, that poor Leslie had to be the one to find him. She went into the parlor that morning, singing, with some fresh flowers for the vases, and there she saw her father hanging from the ceiling, his face as black as a coal. It was something awful, believe ME!”

22Oh, how horrible!” said Anne, shuddering. The poor, poor child!”

23Leslie didn’t cry at her fathers funeral any more then she had cried at Kenneths. Rose whooped and howled for two, however, and Leslie had all she could do trying to calm and comfort her mother. I was disgusted with Rose and so was everyone else, but Leslie never got out of patience. She loved her mother. Leslie is clannishher own could never do wrong in her eyes. Well, they buried Frank West beside Kenneth, and Rose put up a great big monument to him. It was bigger than his character, believe ME! Anyhow, it was bigger than Rose could afford, for the farm was mortgaged for more than its value. But not long after Leslies old grandmother West died and she left Leslie a little moneyenough to give her a year at Queens Academy. Leslie had made up her mind to pass for a teacher if she could, and then earn enough to put herself through Redmond College. That had been her fathers pet schemehe wanted her to have what he had lost. Leslie was full of ambition and her head was chock full of brains. She went to Queens, and she took two yearswork in one year and got her First; and when she came home she got the Glen school. She was so happy and hopeful and full of life and eagerness. When I think of what she was then and what she is now, I saydrat the men!”

24Miss Cornelia snipped her thread off as viciously as if, Nero-like, she was severing the neck of mankind by the stroke.

25Dick Moore came into her life that summer. His father, Abner Moore, kept store at the Glen, but Dick had a sea-going streak in him from his mother; he used to sail in summer and clerk in his fathers store in winter. He was a big, handsome fellow, with a little ugly soul. He was always wanting something till he got it, and then he stopped wanting itjust like a man. Oh, he didn’t growl at the weather when it was fine, and he was mostly real pleasant and agreeable when everything went right. But he drank a good deal, and there were some nasty stories told of him and a girl down at the fishing village. He wasn’t fit for Leslie to wipe her feet on, thats the long and short of it. And he was a Methodist! But he was clean mad about herbecause of her good looks in the first place, and because she wouldn’t have anything to say to him in the second. He vowed hed have herand he got her!”

26How did he bring it about?”

27Oh, it was an iniquitous thing! Ill never forgive Rose West. You see, dearie, Abner Moore held the mortgage on the West farm, and the interest was overdue some years, and Dick just went and told Mrs. West that if Leslie wouldn’t marry him hed get his father to foreclose the mortgage. Rose carried on terriblefainted and wept, and pleaded with Leslie not to let her be turned out of her home. She said it would break her heart to leave the home shed come to as a bride. I wouldn’t have blamed her for feeling dreadful bad over itbut you wouldn’t have thought shed be so selfish as to sacrifice her own flesh and blood because of it, would you? Well, she was.

28And Leslie gave inshe loved her mother so much she would have done anything to save her pain. She married Dick Moore. None of us knew why at the time. It wasn’t till long afterward that I found out how her mother had worried her into it. I was sure there was something wrong, though, because I knew how she had snubbed him time and again, and it wasn’t like Leslie to turn faceabout like that. Besides, I knew that Dick Moore wasn’t the kind of man Leslie could ever fancy, in spite of his good looks and dashing ways. Of course, there was no wedding, but Rose asked me to go and see them married. I went, but I was sorry I did. Id seen Leslies face at her brothers funeral and at her fathers funeraland now it seemed to me I was seeing it at her own funeral. But Rose was smiling as a basket of chips, believe ME!

29Leslie and Dick settled down on the West placeRose couldn’t bear to part with her dear daughter! and lived there for the winter. In the spring Rose took pneumonia and dieda year too late! Leslie was heart-broken enough over it. Isn’t it terrible the way some unworthy folks are loved, while others that deserve it far more, youd think, never get much affection? As for Dick, hed had enough of quiet married lifejust like a man. He was for up and off. He went over to Nova Scotia to visit his relationshis father had come from Nova Scotia—and he wrote back to Leslie that his cousin, George Moore, was going on a voyage to Havana and he was going too. The name of the vessel was the Four Sisters and they were to be gone about nine weeks.

30It must have been a relief to Leslie. But she never said anything. From the day of her marriage she was just what she is nowcold and proud, and keeping everyone but me at a distance. I wont BE kept at a distance, believe ME! Ive just stuck to Leslie as close as I knew how in spite of everything.”

31She told me you were the best friend she had,” said Anne.

32Did she?” exclaimed Miss Cornelia delightedly. Well, Im real thankful to hear it. Sometimes Ive wondered if she really did want me around at allshe never let me think so. You must have thawed her out more than you think, or she wouldn’t have said that much itself to you. Oh, that poor, heart-broken girl! I never see Dick Moore but I want to run a knife clean through him.”

33Miss Cornelia wiped her eyes again and having relieved her feelings by her blood-thirsty wish, took up her tale.

34Well, Leslie was left over there alone. Dick had put in the crop before he went, and old Abner looked after it. The summer went by and the Four Sisters didn’t come back. The Nova Scotia Moores investigated, and found she had got to Havana and discharged her cargo and took on another and left for home; and that was all they ever found out about her. By degrees people began to talk of Dick Moore as one that was dead. Almost everyone believed that he was, though no one felt certain, for men have turned up here at the harbor after theyd been gone for years. Leslie never thought he was deadand she was right. A thousand pities too! The next summer Captain Jim was in Havana—that was before he gave up the sea, of course. He thought hed poke round a bitCaptain Jim was always meddlesome, just like a manand he went to inquiring round among the sailorsboarding houses and places like that, to see if he could find out anything about the crew of the Four Sisters. Hed better have let sleeping dogs lie, in my opinion! Well, he went to one out-of-the-way place, and there he found a man he knew at first sight it was Dick Moore, though he had a big beard. Captain Jim got it shaved off and then there was no doubtDick Moore it washis body at least. His mind wasn’t thereas for his soul, in my opinion he never had one!”

35What had happened to him?”

36Nobody knows the rights of it. All the folks who kept the boarding house could tell was that about a year before they had found him lying on their doorstep one morning in an awful conditionhis head battered to a jelly almost. They supposed hed got hurt in some drunken row, and likely thats the truth of it. They took him in, never thinking he could live. But he didand he was just like a child when he got well. He hadn’t memory or intellect or reason. They tried to find out who he was but they never could. He couldn’t even tell them his namehe could only say a few simple words. He had a letter on him beginning 'Dear Dickand signed 'Leslie,’ but there was no address on it and the envelope was gone. They let him stay onhe learned to do a few odd jobs about the placeand there Captain Jim found him. He brought him homeIve always said it was a bad days work, though I spose there was nothing else he could do. He thought maybe when Dick got home and saw his old surroundings and familiar faces his memory would wake up. But it hadn’t any effect. There hes been at the house up the brook ever since. Hes just like a child, no more nor less. Takes fractious spells occasionally, but mostly hes just vacant and good humored and harmless. Hes apt to run away if he isn’t watched. Thats the burden Leslie has had to carry for eleven yearsand all alone. Old Abner Moore died soon after Dick was brought home and it was found he was almost bankrupt. When things were settled up there was nothing for Leslie and Dick but the old West farm. Leslie rented it to John Ward, and the rent is all she has to live on. Sometimes in summer she takes a boarder to help out. But most visitors prefer the other side of the harbor where the hotels and summer cottages are. Leslies house is too far from the bathing shore. Shes taken care of Dick and shes never been away from him for eleven yearsshes tied to that imbecile for life. And after all the dreams and hopes she once had! You can imagine what it has been like for her, Anne, deariewith her beauty and spirit and pride and cleverness. Its just been a living death.”

37Poor, poor girl!” said Anne again. Her own happiness seemed to reproach her. What right had she to be so happy when another human soul must be so miserable?

38Will you tell me just what Leslie said and how she acted the night you met her on the shore?” asked Miss Cornelia.

39She listened intently and nodded her satisfaction.

40YOU thought she was stiff and cold, Anne, dearie, but I can tell you she thawed out wonderful for her. She must have taken to you real strong. Im so glad. You may be able to help her a good deal. I was thankful when I heard that a young couple was coming to this house, for I hoped it would mean some friends for Leslie; especially if you belonged to the race that knows Joseph. You WILL be her friend, wont you, Anne, dearie?”

41Indeed I will, if shell let me,” said Anne, with all her own sweet, impulsive earnestness.

42No, you must be her friend, whether shell let you or not,” said Miss Cornelia resolutely. Dont you mind if shes stiff by timesdont notice it. Remember what her life has beenand isand must always be, I suppose, for creatures like Dick Moore live forever, I understand. You should see how fat hes got since he came home. He used to be lean enough. Just MAKE her be friendsyou can do ityoure one of those who have the knack. Only you mustn’t be sensitive. And dont mind if she doesn’t seem to want you to go over there much. She knows that some women dont like to be where Dick isthey complain he gives them the creeps. Just get her to come over here as often as she can. She cant get away so very muchshe cant leave Dick long, for the Lord knows what hed doburn the house down most likely. At nights, after hes in bed and asleep, is about the only time shes free. He always goes to bed early and sleeps like the dead till next morning. That is how you came to meet her at the shore likely. She wanders there considerable.”

43I will do everything I can for her,” said Anne. Her interest in Leslie Moore, which had been vivid ever since she had seen her driving her geese down the hill, was intensified a thousand fold by Miss Cornelia’s narration. The girls beauty and sorrow and loneliness drew her with an irresistible fascination. She had never known anyone like her; her friends had hitherto been wholesome, normal, merry girls like herself, with only the average trials of human care and bereavement to shadow their girlish dreams. Leslie Moore stood apart, a tragic, appealing figure of thwarted womanhood. Anne resolved that she would win entrance into the kingdom of that lonely soul and find there the comradeship it could so richly give, were it not for the cruel fetters that held it in a prison not of its own making.

44And mind you this, Anne, dearie,” said Miss Cornelia, who had not yet wholly relieved her mind, “You mustn’t think Leslie is an infidel because she hardly ever goes to churchor even that shes a Methodist. She cant take Dick to church, of coursenot that he ever troubled church much in his best days. But you just remember that shes a real strong Presbyterian at heart, Anne, dearie.”