22. Chapter IX. The Sensualists

The Brothers Karamazov / 卡拉马佐夫兄弟

1Grigory and Smerdyakov ran into the room after Dmitri. They had been struggling with him in the passage, refusing to admit him, acting on instructions given them by Fyodor Pavlovitch some days before. Taking advantage of the fact that Dmitri stopped a moment on entering the room to look about him, Grigory ran round the table, closed the double doors on the opposite side of the room leading to the inner apartments, and stood before the closed doors, stretching wide his arms, prepared to defend the entrance, so to speak, with the last drop of his blood. Seeing this, Dmitri uttered a scream rather than a shout and rushed at Grigory.

2Then shes there! Shes hidden there! Out of the way, scoundrel!”

3He tried to pull Grigory away, but the old servant pushed him back. Beside himself with fury, Dmitri struck out, and hit Grigory with all his might. The old man fell like a log, and Dmitri, leaping over him, broke in the door. Smerdyakov remained pale and trembling at the other end of the room, huddling close to Fyodor Pavlovitch.

4Shes here!” shouted Dmitri. I saw her turn towards the house just now, but I couldn’t catch her. Where is she? Where is she?”

5That shout, “Shes here!” produced an indescribable effect on Fyodor Pavlovitch. All his terror left him.

6Hold him! Hold him!” he cried, and dashed after Dmitri. Meanwhile Grigory had got up from the floor, but still seemed stunned. Ivan and Alyosha ran after their father. In the third room something was heard to fall on the floor with a ringing crash: it was a large glass vasenot an expensive oneon a marble pedestal which Dmitri had upset as he ran past it.

7At him!” shouted the old man. Help!”

8Ivan and Alyosha caught the old man and were forcibly bringing him back.

9Why do you run after him? Hell murder you outright,” Ivan cried wrathfully at his father.

10Ivan! Alyosha! She must be here. Grushenka’s here. He said he saw her himself, running.”

11He was choking. He was not expecting Grushenka at the time, and the sudden news that she was here made him beside himself. He was trembling all over. He seemed frantic.

12But youve seen for yourself that she hasn’t come,” cried Ivan.

13But she may have come by that other entrance.”

14You know that entrance is locked, and you have the key.”

15Dmitri suddenly reappeared in the drawingroom. He had, of course, found the other entrance locked, and the key actually was in Fyodor Pavlovitch’s pocket. The windows of all the rooms were also closed, so Grushenka could not have come in anywhere nor have run out anywhere.

16Hold him!” shrieked Fyodor Pavlovitch, as soon as he saw him again. “Hes been stealing money in my bedroom.” And tearing himself from Ivan he rushed again at Dmitri. But Dmitri threw up both hands and suddenly clutched the old man by the two tufts of hair that remained on his temples, tugged at them, and flung him with a crash on the floor. He kicked him two or three times with his heel in the face. The old man moaned shrilly. Ivan, though not so strong as Dmitri, threw his arms round him, and with all his might pulled him away. Alyosha helped him with his slender strength, holding Dmitri in front.

17Madman! Youve killed him!” cried Ivan.

18Serve him right!” shouted Dmitri breathlessly. If I havent killed him, Ill come again and kill him. You cant protect him!”

19“Dmitri! Go away at once!” cried Alyosha commandingly.

20“Alexey! You tell me. Its only you I can believe; was she here just now, or not? I saw her myself creeping this way by the fence from the lane. I shouted, she ran away.”

21I swear shes not been here, and no one expected her.”

22But I saw her.... So she must ... Ill find out at once where she is.... Goodby, Alexey! Not a word to Æsop about the money now. But go to Katerina Ivanovna at once and be sure to say, ‘He sends his compliments to you!’ Compliments, his compliments! Just compliments and farewell! Describe the scene to her.”

23Meanwhile Ivan and Grigory had raised the old man and seated him in an armchair. His face was covered with blood, but he was conscious and listened greedily to Dmitri’s cries. He was still fancying that Grushenka really was somewhere in the house. Dmitri looked at him with hatred as he went out.

24I dont repent shedding your blood!” he cried. Beware, old man, beware of your dream, for I have my dream, too. I curse you, and disown you altogether.”

25He ran out of the room.

26Shes here. She must be here. Smerdyakov! Smerdyakov!” the old man wheezed, scarcely audibly, beckoning to him with his finger.

27No, shes not here, you old lunatic!” Ivan shouted at him angrily. Here, hes fainting! Water! A towel! Make haste, Smerdyakov!”

28Smerdyakov ran for water. At last they got the old man undressed, and put him to bed. They wrapped a wet towel round his head. Exhausted by the brandy, by his violent emotion, and the blows he had received, he shut his eyes and fell asleep as soon as his head touched the pillow. Ivan and Alyosha went back to the drawingroom. Smerdyakov removed the fragments of the broken vase, while Grigory stood by the table looking gloomily at the floor.

29“Shouldn’t you put a wet bandage on your head and go to bed, too?” Alyosha said to him. Well look after him. My brother gave you a terrible blowon the head.”

30Hes insulted me!” Grigory articulated gloomily and distinctly.

31Hesinsultedhis father, not only you,” observed Ivan with a forced smile.

32I used to wash him in his tub. Hes insulted me,” repeated Grigory.

33Damn it all, if I hadn’t pulled him away perhaps hed have murdered him. It wouldn’t take much to do for Æsop, would it?” whispered Ivan to Alyosha.

34God forbid!” cried Alyosha.

35Why should He forbid?” Ivan went on in the same whisper, with a malignant grimace. One reptile will devour the other. And serve them both right, too.”

36Alyosha shuddered.

37Of course I wont let him be murdered as I didn’t just now. Stay here, Alyosha, Ill go for a turn in the yard. My heads begun to ache.”

38Alyosha went to his fathers bedroom and sat by his bedside behind the screen for about an hour. The old man suddenly opened his eyes and gazed for a long while at Alyosha, evidently remembering and meditating. All at once his face betrayed extraordinary excitement.

39“Alyosha,” he whispered apprehensively, “wheres Ivan?”

40In the yard. Hes got a headache. Hes on the watch.”

41Give me that lookingglass. It stands over there. Give it me.”

42Alyosha gave him a little round folding lookingglass which stood on the chest of drawers. The old man looked at himself in it; his nose was considerably swollen, and on the left side of his forehead there was a rather large crimson bruise.

43What does Ivan say? Alyosha, my dear, my only son, Im afraid of Ivan. Im more afraid of Ivan than the other. Youre the only one Im not afraid of....”

44Dont be afraid of Ivan either. He is angry, but hell defend you.”

45“Alyosha, and what of the other? Hes run to Grushenka. My angel, tell me the truth, was she here just now or not?”

46No one has seen her. It was a mistake. She has not been here.”

47You know Mitya wants to marry her, to marry her.”

48She wont marry him.”

49She wont. She wont. She wont. She wont on any account!”

50The old man fairly fluttered with joy, as though nothing more comforting could have been said to him. In his delight he seized Alyosha’s hand and pressed it warmly to his heart. Tears positively glittered in his eyes.

51That image of the Mother of God of which I was telling you just now,” he said. Take it home and keep it for yourself. And Ill let you go back to the monastery.... I was joking this morning, dont be angry with me. My head aches, Alyosha.... Alyosha, comfort my heart. Be an angel and tell me the truth!”

52Youre still asking whether she has been here or not?” Alyosha said sorrowfully.

53No, no, no. I believe you. Ill tell you what it is: you go to Grushenka yourself, or see her somehow; make haste and ask her; see for yourself, which she means to choose, him or me. Eh? What? Can you?”

54If I see her Ill ask her,” Alyosha muttered, embarrassed.

55No, she wont tell you,” the old man interrupted, “shes a rogue. Shell begin kissing you and say that its you she wants. Shes a deceitful, shameless hussy. You mustn’t go to her, you mustn’t!”

56No, father, and it wouldn’t be suitable, it wouldn’t be right at all.”

57Where was he sending you just now? He shoutedGoas he ran away.”

58To Katerina Ivanovna.”

59For money? To ask her for money?”

60No. Not for money.”

61Hes no money; not a farthing. Ill settle down for the night, and think things over, and you can go. Perhaps youll meet her.... Only be sure to come to me tomorrow in the morning. Be sure to. I have a word to say to you tomorrow. Will you come?”

62Yes.”

63When you come, pretend youve come of your own accord to ask after me. Dont tell any one I told you to. Dont say a word to Ivan.”

64Very well.”

65Goodby, my angel. You stood up for me, just now. I shall never forget it. Ive a word to say to you tomorrowbut I must think about it.”

66And how do you feel now?”

67I shall get up tomorrow and go out, perfectly well, perfectly well!”

68Crossing the yard Alyosha found Ivan sitting on the bench at the gateway. He was sitting writing something in pencil in his notebook. Alyosha told Ivan that their father had waked up, was conscious, and had let him go back to sleep at the monastery.

69“Alyosha, I should be very glad to meet you tomorrow morning,” said Ivan cordially, standing up. His cordiality was a complete surprise to Alyosha.

70I shall be at the Hohlakovs’ tomorrow,” answered Alyosha, “I may be at Katerina Ivanovna’s, too, if I dont find her now.”

71But youre going to her now, anyway? For thatcompliments and farewell,’ ” said Ivan smiling. Alyosha was disconcerted.

72I think I quite understand his exclamations just now, and part of what went before. Dmitri has asked you to go to her and say that hewell, in facttakes his leave of her?”

73Brother, how will all this horror end between father and Dmitri?” exclaimed Alyosha.

74One cant tell for certain. Perhaps in nothing: it may all fizzle out. That woman is a beast. In any case we must keep the old man indoors and not let Dmitri in the house.”

75Brother, let me ask one thing more: has any man a right to look at other men and decide which is worthy to live?”

76Why bring in the question of worth? The matter is most often decided in mens hearts on other grounds much more natural. And as for rightswho has not the right to wish?”

77Not for another mans death?”

78What even if for another mans death? Why lie to oneself since all men live so and perhaps cannot help living so. Are you referring to what I said just nowthat one reptile will devour the other? In that case let me ask you, do you think me like Dmitri capable of shedding Æsop’s blood, murdering him, eh?”

79What are you saying, Ivan? Such an idea never crossed my mind. I dont think Dmitri is capable of it, either.”

80Thanks, if only for that,” smiled Ivan. Be sure, I should always defend him. But in my wishes I reserve myself full latitude in this case. Goodby till tomorrow. Dont condemn me, and dont look on me as a villain,” he added with a smile.

81They shook hands warmly as they had never done before. Alyosha felt that his brother had taken the first step towards him, and that he had certainly done this with some definite motive.