18. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN MOONY, WORMTAIL, PADFOOT, AND PRONGS

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban / 哈利波特与阿兹卡班的囚徒

1It took a few seconds for the absurdity of this statement to sink in. Then Ron voiced what Harry was thinking.

2Youre both mental.”

3Ridiculous!” said Hermione faintly.

4Peter Pettigrew’s dead!” said Harry. “He killed him twelve years ago!” He pointed at Black, whose face twitched convulsively.

5I meant to,” he growled, his yellow teeth bared, “but little Peter got the better of menot this time, though!”

6And Crookshanks was thrown to the floor as Black lunged at Scabbers; Ron yelled with pain as Blacks weight fell on his broken leg.

7“Sirius, NO!” Lupin yelled, launching himself forwards and dragging Black away from Ron again. WAIT! You cant do it just like thatthey need to understandweve got to explain —” “We can explain afterwards!” snarled Black, trying to throw Lupin off. One hand was still clawing the air as it tried to reach Scabbers, who was squealing like a piglet, scratching Rons face and neck as he tried to escape.

8Theyvegotarighttoknoweverything!” Lupin panted, still trying to restrain Black. “Rons kept him as a pet! There are parts of it even I dont understand! And Harryyou owe Harry the truth, Sirius!” Black stopped struggling, though his hollowed eyes were still fixed on Scabbers, who was clamped tightly under Rons bitten, scratched, and bleeding hands.

9All right, then,” Black said, without taking his eyes off the rat. Tell them whatever you like. But make it quick, Remus. I want to commit the murder I was imprisoned for. . . .”

10Youre nutters, both of you,” said Ron shakily, looking round at Harry and Hermione for support. “Ive had enough of this. Im off.” He tried to heave himself up on his good leg, but Lupin raised his wand again, pointing it at Scabbers.

11Youre going to hear me out, Ron,” he said quietly. Just keep a tight hold on Peter while you listen.”

12HES NOT PETER, HES SCABBERS!” Ron yelled, trying to force the rat back into his front pocket, but Scabbers was fighting too hard; Ron swayed and overbalanced, and Harry caught him and pushed him back down to the bed. Then, ignoring Black, Harry turned to Lupin.

13There were witnesses who saw Pettigrew die,” he said. A whole street full of them . . .”

14They didn’t see what they thought they saw!” said Black savagely, still watching Scabbers struggling in Rons hands.

15Everyone thought Sirius killed Peter,” said Lupin, nodding. “I believed it myselfuntil I saw the map tonight. Because the Marauders Map never lies . . . Peters alive. Rons holding him, Harry.” Harry looked down at Ron, and as their eyes met, they agreed, silently: Black and Lupin were both out of their minds. Their story made no sense whatsoever. How could Scabbers be Peter Pettigrew? Azkaban must have unhinged Black after allbut why was Lupin playing along with him?

16Then Hermione spoke, in a trembling, would-be calm sort of voice, as though trying to will Professor Lupin to talk sensibly.

17But Professor Lupin . . . Scabbers cant be Pettigrew . . . it just cant be true, you know it cant . . .”

18Why cant it be true?” Lupin said calmly, as though they were in class, and Hermione had simply spotted a problem in an experiment with grindylows.

19Because . . . because people would know if Peter Pettigrew had been an Animagus. We did Animagi in class with Professor McGonagall. And I looked them up when I did my homeworkthe Ministry of Magic keeps tabs on witches and wizards who can become animals; theres a register showing what animal they become, and their markings and things . . . and I went and looked Professor McGonagall up on the register, and there have been only seven Animagi this century, and Pettigrew’s name wasn’t on the list —”

20Harry had barely had time to marvel inwardly at the effort Hermione put into her homework, when Lupin started to laugh.

21Right again, Hermione!” he said. But the Ministry never knew that there used to be three unregistered Animagi running around Hogwarts.” “If youre going to tell them the story, get a move on, Remus,” snarled Black, who was still watching Scabbers’s every desperate move. Ive waited twelve years, Im not going to wait much longer.” “All right . . . but youll need to help me, Sirius,” said Lupin, “I only know how it began . . .”

22Lupin broke off. There had been a loud creak behind him. The bedroom door had opened of its own accord. All five of them stared at it. Then Lupin strode toward it and looked out into the landing.

23No one there . . .”

24This place is haunted!” said Ron.

25Its not,” said Lupin, still looking at the door in a puzzled way. The Shrieking Shack was never haunted. . . . The screams and howls the villagers used to hear were made by me.”

26He pushed his graying hair out of his eyes, thought for a moment, then said, “Thats where all of this startswith my becoming a werewolf. None of this could have happened if I hadn’t been bitten . . . and if I hadn’t been so foolhardy. . . .”

27He looked sober and tired. Ron started to interrupt, but Hermione said, “Shh!” She was watching Lupin very intently.

28I was a very small boy when I received the bite. My parents tried everything, but in those days there was no cure. The potion that Professor Snape has been making for me is a very recent discovery. It makes me safe, you see. As long as I take it in the week preceding the full moon, I keep my mind when I transform. . . . I am able to curl up in my office, a harmless wolf, and wait for the moon to wane again.

29Before the Wolfsbane Potion was discovered, however, I became a fully fledged monster once a month. It seemed impossible that I would be able to come to Hogwarts. Other parents weren’t likely to want their children exposed to me.

30But then Dumbledore became headmaster, and he was sympathetic. He said that as long as we took certain precautions, there was no reason I shouldn’t come to school. . . .” Lupin sighed, and looked directly at Harry. I told you, months ago, that the Whomping Willow was planted the year I came to Hogwarts. The truth is that it was planted because I came to Hogwarts.

31This house” — Lupin looked miserably around the room — “the tunnel that leads to itthey were built for my use. Once a month, I was smuggled out of the castle, into this place, to transform. The tree was placed at the tunnel mouth to stop anyone coming across me while I was dangerous.” Harry couldn’t see where this story was going, but he was listening raptly all the same. The only sound apart from Lupins voice was Scabbers’s frightened squeaking.

32My transformations in those days werewere terrible. It is very painful to turn into a werewolf. I was separated from humans to bite, so I bit and scratched myself instead. The villagers heard the noise and the screaming and thought they were hearing particularly violent spirits. Dumbledore encouraged the rumor. . . . Even now, when the house has been silent for years, the villagers dont dare approach it. . . .

33But apart from my transformations, I was happier than I had ever been in my life. For the first time ever, I had friends, three great friends. Sirius Black . . . Peter Pettigrew . . . and, of course, your father, HarryJames Potter.

34Now, my three friends could hardly fail to notice that I disappeared once a month. I made up all sorts of stories. I told them my mother was ill, and that I had to go home to see her. . . . I was terrified they would desert me the moment they found out what I was. But of course, they, like you, Hermione, worked out the truth. . . .

35And they didn’t desert me at all. Instead, they did something for me that would make my transformations not only bearable, but the best times of my life. They became Animagi.”

36My dad too?” said Harry, astounded.

37Yes, indeed,” said Lupin. It took them the best part of three years to work out how to do it. Your father and Sirius here were the cleverest students in the school, and lucky they were, because the Animagus transformation can go horribly wrongone reason the Ministry keeps a close watch on those attempting to do it. Peter needed all the help he could get from James and Sirius. Finally, in our fifth year, they managed it. They could each turn into a different animal at will.”

38But how did that help you?” said Hermione, sounding puzzled.

39They couldn’t keep me company as humans, so they kept me company as animals,” said Lupin. A werewolf is only a danger to people. They sneaked out of the castle every month under Jamess Invisibility Cloak. They transformed . . . Peter, as the smallest, could slip beneath the Willows attacking branches and touch the knot that freezes it. They would then slip down the tunnel and join me. Under their influence, I became less dangerous.

40My body was still wolfish, but my mind seemed to become less so while I was with them.

41Hurry up, Remus,” snarled Black, who was still watching Scabbers with a horrible sort of hunger on his face.

42Im getting there, Sirius, Im getting there . . . well, highly exciting possibilities were open to us now that we could all transform. Soon we were leaving the Shrieking Shack and roaming the school grounds and the village by night. Sirius and James transformed into such large animals, they were able to keep a werewolf in check. I doubt whether any Hogwarts students ever found out more about the Hogwarts grounds and Hogsmeade than we did. . . .

43And thats how we came to write the Marauders Map, and sign it with our nicknames. Sirius is Padfoot. Peter is Wormtail. James was Prongs. ” “What sort of animal — ?” Harry began, but Hermione cut him off.

44That was still really dangerous! Running around in the dark with a werewolf! What if youd given the others the slip, and bitten somebody?” “A thought that still haunts me,” said Lupin heavily. And there were near misses, many of them. We laughed about them afterwards. We were young, thoughtlesscarried away with our own cleverness.

45I sometimes felt guilty about betraying Dumbledore’s trust, of course . . .

46he had admitted me to Hogwarts when no other headmaster would have done so, and he had no idea I was breaking the rules he had set down for my own and otherssafety. He never knew I had led three fellow students into becoming Animagi illegally. But I always managed to forget my guilty feelings every time we sat down to plan our next months adventure. And I havent changed. . . .

47Lupins face had hardened, and there was self-disgust in his voice. All this year, I have been battling with myself, wondering whether I should tell Dumbledore that Sirius was an Animagus. But I didn’t do it. Why? Because I was too cowardly. It would have meant admitting that Id betrayed his trust while I was at school, admitting that Id led others along with me . . . and Dumbledore’s trust has meant everything to me. He let me into Hogwarts as a boy, and he gave me a job when I have been shunned all my adult life, unable to find paid work because of what I am. And so I convinced myself that Sirius was getting into the school using Dark Arts he learned from Voldemort, that being an Animagus had nothing to do with it . . . so, in a way, Snape’s been right about me all along.”

48“Snape?” said Black harshly, taking his eyes off Scabbers for the first time in minutes and looking up at Lupin. “Whats Snape got to do with it?” “Hes here, Sirius,” said Lupin heavily. “Hes teaching here as well.” He looked up at Harry, Ron, and Hermione.

49Professor Snape was at school with us. He fought very hard against my appointment to the Defense Against the Dark Arts job. He has been telling Dumbledore all year that I am not to be trusted. He has his reasons . . . you see, Sirius here played a trick on him which nearly killed him, a trick which involved me —”

50Black made a derisive noise.

51It served him right,” he sneered. Sneaking around, trying to find out what we were up to . . . hoping he could get us expelled. . . .” “Severus was very interested in where I went every month,” Lupin told Harry, Ron, and Hermione. We were in the same year, you know, and weer — didn’t like each other very much. He especially disliked James. Jealous, I think, of Jamess talent on the Quidditch field . . . anyway, Snape had seen me crossing the grounds with Madam Pomfrey one evening as she led me toward the Whomping Willow to transform. Sirius thought it would beeramusing, to tell Snape all he had to do was prod the knot on the tree trunk with a long stick, and hed be able to get in after me. Well, of course, Snape tried itif hed got as far as this house, hed have met a fully grown werewolfbut your father, whod heard what Sirius had done, went after Snape and pulled him back, at great risk to his life . . . Snape glimpsed me, though, at the end of the tunnel. He was forbidden by Dumbledore to tell anybody, but from that time on he knew what I was. . . .” “So thats why Snape doesn’t like you,” said Harry slowly, “because he thought you were in on the joke?”

52Thats right,” sneered a cold voice from the wall behind Lupin.

53Severus Snape was pulling off the Invisibility Cloak, his wand pointing directly at Lupin.