26. CHAPTER XX. A Plea

A Tale of Two Cities / 双城记

1When the newly-married pair came home, the first person who appeared, to offer his congratulations, was Sydney Carton. They had not been at home many hours, when he presented himself. He was not improved in habits, or in looks, or in manner; but there was a certain rugged air of fidelity about him, which was new to the observation of Charles Darnay.

2He watched his opportunity of taking Darnay aside into a window, and of speaking to him when no one overheard.

3Mr. Darnay,” said Carton, “I wish we might be friends.”

4We are already friends, I hope.”

5You are good enough to say so, as a fashion of speech; but, I dont mean any fashion of speech. Indeed, when I say I wish we might be friends, I scarcely mean quite that, either.”

6Charles Darnay—as was naturalasked him, in all good-humour and good-fellowship, what he did mean?

7Upon my life,” said Carton, smiling, “I find that easier to comprehend in my own mind, than to convey to yours. However, let me try. You remember a certain famous occasion when I was more drunk thanthan usual?”

8I remember a certain famous occasion when you forced me to confess that you had been drinking.”

9I remember it too. The curse of those occasions is heavy upon me, for I always remember them. I hope it may be taken into account one day, when all days are at an end for me! Dont be alarmed; I am not going to preach.”

10I am not at all alarmed. Earnestness in you, is anything but alarming to me.”

11Ah!” said Carton, with a careless wave of his hand, as if he waved that away. On the drunken occasion in question (one of a large number, as you know), I was insufferable about liking you, and not liking you. I wish you would forget it.”

12I forgot it long ago.”

13Fashion of speech again! But, Mr. Darnay, oblivion is not so easy to me, as you represent it to be to you. I have by no means forgotten it, and a light answer does not help me to forget it.”

14If it was a light answer,” returned Darnay, “I beg your forgiveness for it. I had no other object than to turn a slight thing, which, to my surprise, seems to trouble you too much, aside. I declare to you, on the faith of a gentleman, that I have long dismissed it from my mind. Good Heaven, what was there to dismiss! Have I had nothing more important to remember, in the great service you rendered me that day?”

15As to the great service,” said Carton, “I am bound to avow to you, when you speak of it in that way, that it was mere professional claptrap, I dont know that I cared what became of you, when I rendered it.—Mind! I say when I rendered it; I am speaking of the past.”

16You make light of the obligation,” returned Darnay, “but I will not quarrel with your light answer.”

17Genuine truth, Mr. Darnay, trust me! I have gone aside from my purpose; I was speaking about our being friends. Now, you know me; you know I am incapable of all the higher and better flights of men. If you doubt it, ask Stryver, and hell tell you so.”

18I prefer to form my own opinion, without the aid of his.”

19Well! At any rate you know me as a dissolute dog, who has never done any good, and never will.”

20I dont know that younever will.’”

21But I do, and you must take my word for it. Well! If you could endure to have such a worthless fellow, and a fellow of such indifferent reputation, coming and going at odd times, I should ask that I might be permitted to come and go as a privileged person here; that I might be regarded as an useless (and I would add, if it were not for the resemblance I detected between you and me, an unornamental) piece of furniture, tolerated for its old service, and taken no notice of. I doubt if I should abuse the permission. It is a hundred to one if I should avail myself of it four times in a year. It would satisfy me, I dare say, to know that I had it.”

22Will you try?”

23That is another way of saying that I am placed on the footing I have indicated. I thank you, Darnay. I may use that freedom with your name?”

24I think so, Carton, by this time.”

25They shook hands upon it, and Sydney turned away. Within a minute afterwards, he was, to all outward appearance, as unsubstantial as ever.

26When he was gone, and in the course of an evening passed with Miss Pross, the Doctor, and Mr. Lorry, Charles Darnay made some mention of this conversation in general terms, and spoke of Sydney Carton as a problem of carelessness and recklessness. He spoke of him, in short, not bitterly or meaning to bear hard upon him, but as anybody might who saw him as he showed himself.

27He had no idea that this could dwell in the thoughts of his fair young wife; but, when he afterwards joined her in their own rooms, he found her waiting for him with the old pretty lifting of the forehead strongly marked.

28We are thoughtful to-night!” said Darnay, drawing his arm about her.

29Yes, dearest Charles,” with her hands on his breast, and the inquiring and attentive expression fixed upon him; “we are rather thoughtful to-night, for we have something on our mind to-night.”

30What is it, my Lucie?”

31Will you promise not to press one question on me, if I beg you not to ask it?”

32Will I promise? What will I not promise to my Love?”

33What, indeed, with his hand putting aside the golden hair from the cheek, and his other hand against the heart that beat for him!

34I think, Charles, poor Mr. Carton deserves more consideration and respect than you expressed for him to-night.”

35Indeed, my own? Why so?”

36That is what you are not to ask me. But I thinkI knowhe does.”

37If you know it, it is enough. What would you have me do, my Life?”

38I would ask you, dearest, to be very generous with him always, and very lenient on his faults when he is not by. I would ask you to believe that he has a heart he very, very seldom reveals, and that there are deep wounds in it. My dear, I have seen it bleeding.”

39It is a painful reflection to me,” said Charles Darnay, quite astounded, “that I should have done him any wrong. I never thought this of him.”

40My husband, it is so. I fear he is not to be reclaimed; there is scarcely a hope that anything in his character or fortunes is reparable now. But, I am sure that he is capable of good things, gentle things, even magnanimous things.”

41She looked so beautiful in the purity of her faith in this lost man, that her husband could have looked at her as she was for hours.

42And, O my dearest Love!” she urged, clinging nearer to him, laying her head upon his breast, and raising her eyes to his, “remember how strong we are in our happiness, and how weak he is in his misery!”

43The supplication touched him home. I will always remember it, dear Heart! I will remember it as long as I live.”

44He bent over the golden head, and put the rosy lips to his, and folded her in his arms. If one forlorn wanderer then pacing the dark streets, could have heard her innocent disclosure, and could have seen the drops of pity kissed away by her husband from the soft blue eyes so loving of that husband, he might have cried to the nightand the words would not have parted from his lips for the first time

45God bless her for her sweet compassion!”