4. CHAPTER IV. Morning at Green Gables

Anne of Green Gables / 绿山墙的安妮 / 清秀佳人

1IT was broad daylight when Anne awoke and sat up in bed, staring confusedly at the window through which a flood of cheery sunshine was pouring and outside of which something white and feathery waved across glimpses of blue sky.

2For a moment she could not remember where she was. First came a delightful thrill, as something very pleasant; then a horrible remembrance. This was Green Gables and they didn’t want her because she wasn’t a boy!

3But it was morning and, yes, it was a cherry-tree in full bloom outside of her window. With a bound she was out of bed and across the floor. She pushed up the sashit went up stiffly and creakily, as if it hadn’t been opened for a long time, which was the case; and it stuck so tight that nothing was needed to hold it up.

4Anne dropped on her knees and gazed out into the June morning, her eyes glistening with delight. Oh, wasn’t it beautiful? Wasn’t it a lovely place? Suppose she wasn’t really going to stay here! She would imagine she was. There was scope for imagination here.

5A huge cherry-tree grew outside, so close that its boughs tapped against the house, and it was so thick-set with blossoms that hardly a leaf was to be seen. On both sides of the house was a big orchard, one of apple-trees and one of cherry-trees, also showered over with blossoms; and their grass was all sprinkled with dandelions. In the garden below were lilac-trees purple with flowers, and their dizzily sweet fragrance drifted up to the window on the morning wind.

6Below the garden a green field lush with clover sloped down to the hollow where the brook ran and where scores of white birches grew, upspringing airily out of an undergrowth suggestive of delightful possibilities in ferns and mosses and woodsy things generally. Beyond it was a hill, green and feathery with spruce and fir; there was a gap in it where the gray gable end of the little house she had seen from the other side of the Lake of Shining Waters was visible.

7Off to the left were the big barns and beyond them, away down over green, low-sloping fields, was a sparkling blue glimpse of sea.

8Annes beauty-loving eyes lingered on it all, taking everything greedily in. She had looked on so many unlovely places in her life, poor child; but this was as lovely as anything she had ever dreamed.

9She knelt there, lost to everything but the loveliness around her, until she was startled by a hand on her shoulder. Marilla had come in unheard by the small dreamer.

10Its time you were dressed,” she said curtly.

11Marilla really did not know how to talk to the child, and her uncomfortable ignorance made her crisp and curt when she did not mean to be.

12Anne stood up and drew a long breath.

13Oh, isn’t it wonderful?” she said, waving her hand comprehensively at the good world outside.

14Its a big tree,” said Marilla, “and it blooms great, but the fruit dont amount to much neversmall and wormy.”

15Oh, I dont mean just the tree; of course its lovelyyes, its radiantly lovelyit blooms as if it meant itbut I meant everything, the garden and the orchard and the brook and the woods, the whole big dear world. Dont you feel as if you just loved the world on a morning like this? And I can hear the brook laughing all the way up here. Have you ever noticed what cheerful things brooks are? Theyre always laughing. Even in winter-time Ive heard them under the ice. Im so glad theres a brook near Green Gables. Perhaps you think it doesn’t make any difference to me when youre not going to keep me, but it does. I shall always like to remember that there is a brook at Green Gables even if I never see it again. If there wasn’t a brook Id be haunted by the uncomfortable feeling that there ought to be one. Im not in the depths of despair this morning. I never can be in the morning. Isn’t it a splendid thing that there are mornings? But I feel very sad. Ive just been imagining that it was really me you wanted after all and that I was to stay here for ever and ever. It was a great comfort while it lasted. But the worst of imagining things is that the time comes when you have to stop and that hurts.”

16Youd better get dressed and come down-stairs and never mind your imaginings,” said Marilla as soon as she could get a word in edgewise. Breakfast is waiting. Wash your face and comb your hair. Leave the window up and turn your bedclothes back over the foot of the bed. Be as smart as you can.”

17Anne could evidently be smart to some purpose for she was down-stairs in ten minutestime, with her clothes neatly on, her hair brushed and braided, her face washed, and a comfortable consciousness pervading her soul that she had fulfilled all Marilla’s requirements. As a matter of fact, however, she had forgotten to turn back the bedclothes.

18Im pretty hungry this morning,” she announced as she slipped into the chair Marilla placed for her. The world doesn’t seem such a howling wilderness as it did last night. Im so glad its a sunshiny morning. But I like rainy mornings real well, too. All sorts of mornings are interesting, dont you think? You dont know whats going to happen through the day, and theres so much scope for imagination. But Im glad its not rainy today because its easier to be cheerful and bear up under affliction on a sunshiny day. I feel that I have a good deal to bear up under. Its all very well to read about sorrows and imagine yourself living through them heroically, but its not so nice when you really come to have them, is it?”

19For pitys sake hold your tongue,” said Marilla. You talk entirely too much for a little girl.”

20Thereupon Anne held her tongue so obediently and thoroughly that her continued silence made Marilla rather nervous, as if in the presence of something not exactly natural. Matthew also held his tongue,—but this was natural,—so that the meal was a very silent one.

21As it progressed Anne became more and more abstracted, eating mechanically, with her big eyes fixed unswervingly and unseeingly on the sky outside the window. This made Marilla more nervous than ever; she had an uncomfortable feeling that while this odd childs body might be there at the table her spirit was far away in some remote airy cloudland, borne aloft on the wings of imagination. Who would want such a child about the place?

22Yet Matthew wished to keep her, of all unaccountable things! Marilla felt that he wanted it just as much this morning as he had the night before, and that he would go on wanting it. That was Matthews waytake a whim into his head and cling to it with the most amazing silent persistencya persistency ten times more potent and effectual in its very silence than if he had talked it out.

23When the meal was ended Anne came out of her reverie and offered to wash the dishes.

24Can you wash dishes right?” asked Marilla distrustfully.

25Pretty well. Im better at looking after children, though. Ive had so much experience at that. Its such a pity you havent any here for me to look after.”

26I dont feel as if I wanted any more children to look after than Ive got at present. Youre problem enough in all conscience. Whats to be done with you I dont know. Matthew is a most ridiculous man.”

27I think hes lovely,” said Anne reproachfully. He is so very sympathetic. He didn’t mind how much I talkedhe seemed to like it. I felt that he was a kindred spirit as soon as ever I saw him.”

28Youre both queer enough, if thats what you mean by kindred spirits,” said Marilla with a sniff. Yes, you may wash the dishes. Take plenty of hot water, and be sure you dry them well. Ive got enough to attend to this morning for Ill have to drive over to White Sands in the afternoon and see Mrs. Spencer. Youll come with me and well settle whats to be done with you. After youve finished the dishes go up-stairs and make your bed.”

29Anne washed the dishes deftly enough, as Marilla who kept a sharp eye on the process, discerned. Later on she made her bed less successfully, for she had never learned the art of wrestling with a feather tick. But is was done somehow and smoothed down; and then Marilla, to get rid of her, told her she might go out-of-doors and amuse herself until dinner time.

30Anne flew to the door, face alight, eyes glowing. On the very threshold she stopped short, wheeled about, came back and sat down by the table, light and glow as effectually blotted out as if some one had clapped an extinguisher on her.

31Whats the matter now?” demanded Marilla.

32I dont dare go out,” said Anne, in the tone of a martyr relinquishing all earthly joys. If I cant stay here there is no use in my loving Green Gables. And if I go out there and get acquainted with all those trees and flowers and the orchard and the brook Ill not be able to help loving it. Its hard enough now, so I wont make it any harder. I want to go out so mucheverything seems to be calling to me, ‘Anne, Anne, come out to us. Anne, Anne, we want a playmate’—but its better not. There is no use in loving things if you have to be torn from them, is there? And its so hard to keep from loving things, isn’t it? That was why I was so glad when I thought I was going to live here. I thought Id have so many things to love and nothing to hinder me. But that brief dream is over. I am resigned to my fate now, so I dont think Ill go out for fear Ill get unresigned again. What is the name of that geranium on the window-sill, please?”

33Thats the apple-scented geranium.”

34Oh, I dont mean that sort of a name. I mean just a name you gave it yourself. Didn’t you give it a name? May I give it one then? May I call itlet me seeBonny would domay I call it Bonny while Im here? Oh, do let me!”

35Goodness, I dont care. But where on earth is the sense of naming a geranium?”

36Oh, I like things to have handles even if they are only geraniums. It makes them seem more like people. How do you know but that it hurts a geraniums feelings just to be called a geranium and nothing else? You wouldn’t like to be called nothing but a woman all the time. Yes, I shall call it Bonny. I named that cherry-tree outside my bedroom window this morning. I called it Snow Queen because it was so white. Of course, it wont always be in blossom, but one can imagine that it is, cant one?”

37I never in all my life saw or heard anything to equal her,” muttered Marilla, beating a retreat down to the cellar after potatoes. She is kind of interesting as Matthew says. I can feel already that Im wondering what on earth shell say next. Shell be casting a spell over me, too. Shes cast it over Matthew. That look he gave me when he went out said everything he said or hinted last night over again. I wish he was like other men and would talk things out. A body could answer back then and argue him into reason. But whats to be done with a man who just looks?”

38Anne had relapsed into reverie, with her chin in her hands and her eyes on the sky, when Marilla returned from her cellar pilgrimage. There Marilla left her until the early dinner was on the table.

39I suppose I can have the mare and buggy this afternoon, Matthew?” said Marilla.

40Matthew nodded and looked wistfully at Anne. Marilla intercepted the look and said grimly:

41Im going to drive over to White Sands and settle this thing. Ill take Anne with me and Mrs. Spencer will probably make arrangements to send her back to Nova Scotia at once. Ill set your tea out for you and Ill be home in time to milk the cows.”

42Still Matthew said nothing and Marilla had a sense of having wasted words and breath. There is nothing more aggravating than a man who wont talk backunless it is a woman who wont.

43Matthew hitched the sorrel into the buggy in due time and Marilla and Anne set off. Matthew opened the yard gate for them and as they drove slowly through, he said, to nobody in particular as it seemed:

44Little Jerry Buote from the Creek was here this morning, and I told him I guessed Id hire him for the summer.”

45Marilla made no reply, but she hit the unlucky sorrel such a vicious clip with the whip that the fat mare, unused to such treatment, whizzed indignantly down the lane at an alarming pace. Marilla looked back once as the buggy bounced along and saw that aggravating Matthew leaning over the gate, looking wistfully after them.