49. Book Sixth. Chapter XLIX At the Hall Farm

Adam Bede / 亚当·比德

1The first autumnal afternoon sunshine of 1801—more than eighteen months after that parting of Adam and Arthur in the Hermitagewas on the yard at the Hall Farm; and the bull-dog was in one of his most excited moments, for it was that hour of the day when the cows were being driven into the yard for their afternoon milking. No wonder the patient beasts ran confusedly into the wrong places, for the alarming din of the bull-dog was mingled with more distant sounds which the timid feminine creatures, with pardonable superstition, imagined also to have some relation to their own movementswith the tremendous crack of the waggoner’s whip, the roar of his voice, and the booming thunder of the waggon, as it left the rick-yard empty of its golden load.

2The milking of the cows was a sight Mrs. Poyser loved, and at this hour on mild days she was usually standing at the house door, with her knitting in her hands, in quiet contemplation, only heightened to a keener interest when the vicious yellow cow, who had once kicked over a pailful of precious milk, was about to undergo the preventive punishment of having her hinder-legs strapped.

3To-day, however, Mrs. Poyser gave but a divided attention to the arrival of the cows, for she was in eager discussion with Dinah, who was stitching Mr. Poyser’s shirt-collars, and had borne patiently to have her thread broken three times by Totty pulling at her arm with a sudden insistence that she should look atBaby,” that is, at a large wooden doll with no legs and a long skirt, whose bald head Totty, seated in her small chair at Dinah’s side, was caressing and pressing to her fat cheek with much fervour. Totty is larger by more than two yearsgrowth than when you first saw her, and she has on a black frock under her pinafore. Mrs. Poyser too has on a black gown, which seems to heighten the family likeness between her and Dinah. In other respects there is little outward change now discernible in our old friends, or in the pleasant house-place, bright with polished oak and pewter.

4I never saw the like to you, Dinah,” Mrs. Poyser was saying, “when youve once took anything into your head: theres no more moving you than the rooted tree. You may say what you like, but I dont believe thats religion; for whats the Sermon on the Mount about, as youre so fond oreading to the boys, but doing what other folks ’ud have you do? But if it was anything unreasonable they wanted you to do, like taking your cloak off and giving it toem, or lettingem slap you ithe face, I daresay youd be ready enough. Its only when one ’ud have you do whats plain common sense and good for yourself, as youre obstinate thother way.”

5Nay, dear Aunt,” said Dinah, smiling slightly as she went on with her work, “Im sure your wish ’ud be a reason for me to do anything that I didn’t feel it was wrong to do.”

6Wrong! You drive me past bearing. What is there wrong, I should like to know, istaying along wiyour own friends, as are thhappier for having you withem anare willing to provide for you, even if your work didn’t more nor payem for the bit osparrows victual yeat and the bit orag you put on? Anwho is it, I should like to know, as youre bound thelp and comfort ithe world more nor your own flesh and bloodanme thonly aunt youve got above-ground, anam brought to the brink othe grave welly every winter as comes, antheres the child as sits beside you ’ull break her little heart when you go, anthe grandfather not been dead a twelvemonth, anyour uncle ’ull miss you so as never wasa-lighting his pipe anwaiting on him, annow I can trust you withe butter, anhave had all the trouble oteaching you, and theres all the sewing to be done, anI must have a strange gell out o’ Treddles’on to do itanall because you must go back to that bare heap ostones as the very crows fly over anwont stop at.”

7Dear Aunt Rachel,” said Dinah, looking up in Mrs. Poyser’s face, “its your kindness makes you say Im useful to you. You dont really want me now, for Nancy and Molly are clever at their work, and youre in good health now, by the blessing of God, and my uncle is of a cheerful countenance again, and you have neighbours and friends not a fewsome of them come to sit with my uncle almost daily. Indeed, you will not miss me; and at Snowfield there are brethren and sisters in great need, who have none of those comforts you have around you. I feel that I am called back to those amongst whom my lot was first cast. I feel drawn again towards the hills where I used to be blessed in carrying the word of life to the sinful and desolate.”

8You feel! Yes,” said Mrs. Poyser, returning from a parenthetic glance at the cows, “thats allays the reason Im to sit down wi’, when youve a mind to do anything contrairy. What do you want to be preaching for more than youre preaching now? Dont you go off, the Lord knows where, every Sunday a-preaching and praying? Anhavent you got Methodists enow at Treddles’on to go and look at, if church-folkss faces are too handsome to please you? An’ isn’t there them ithis parish as youve got under hand, and theyre like enough to make friends wiOld Harry again as soon as your backs turned? Theres that Bessy Cranage—shell be flaunting inew finery three weeks after youre gone, Ill be bound. Shell no more go on in her new ways without you than a dog ’ull stand on its hind-legs when theres nobody looking. But I suppose it doesna matter so much about folkss souls ithis country, else youd be for staying with your own aunt, for shes none so good but what you might help her to be better.”

9There was a certain something in Mrs. Poyser’s voice just then, which she did not wish to be noticed, so she turned round hastily to look at the clock, and said: “See there! Its tea-time; anif Martins ithe rick-yard, hell like a cup. Here, Totty, my chicken, let mother put your bonnet on, and then you go out into the rick-yard and see if Fathers there, and tell him he mustn’t go away again without coming thave a cup otea; and tell your brothers to come in too.”

10Totty trotted off in her flapping bonnet, while Mrs. Poyser set out the bright oak table and reached down the tea-cups.

11You talk othem gells Nancy and Molly being clever itheir work,” she began again; “its fine talking. Theyre all the same, clever or stupidone cant trustem out oones sight a minute. They want somebodys eye onem constant if theyre to be kept to their work. Ansuppose Im ill again this winter, as I was the winter before last? Whos to look afterem then, if youre gone? Antheres that blessed childsomethings sure thappen to hertheyll let her tumble into the fire, or get at the kettle withe boiling lard int, or some mischief as ’ull lame her for life; anitll be all your fault, Dinah.”

12Aunt,” said Dinah, “I promise to come back to you in the winter if youre ill. Dont think I will ever stay away from you if youre in real want of me. But, indeed, it is needful for my own soul that I should go away from this life of ease and luxury in which I have all things too richly to enjoyat least that I should go away for a short space. No one can know but myself what are my inward needs, and the besetments I am most in danger from. Your wish for me to stay is not a call of duty which I refuse to hearken to because it is against my own desires; it is a temptation that I must resist, lest the love of the creature should become like a mist in my soul shutting out the heavenly light.”

13It passes my cunning to know what you mean by ease and luxury,” said Mrs. Poyser, as she cut the bread and butter. Its true theres good victual enough about you, as nobody shall ever say I dont provide enough and to spare, but if theres ever a bit oodds anends as nobody else ’ud eat, youre sure to pick it out... but look there! Theres Adam Bede a-carrying the little un in. I wonder how it is hes come so early.”

14Mrs. Poyser hastened to the door for the pleasure of looking at her darling in a new position, with love in her eyes but reproof on her tongue.

15Oh for shame, Totty! Little gells ofive year old should be ashamed to be carried. Why, Adam, shell break your arm, such a big gell as that; set her downfor shame!”

16Nay, nay,” said Adam, “I can lift her with my handIve no need to take my arm to it.”

17Totty, looking as serenely unconscious of remark as a fat white puppy, was set down at the door-place, and the mother enforced her reproof with a shower of kisses.

18Youre surprised to see me at this hour othe day,” said Adam.

19Yes, but come in,” said Mrs. Poyser, making way for him; “theres no bad news, I hope?”

20No, nothing bad,” Adam answered, as he went up to Dinah and put out his hand to her. She had laid down her work and stood up, instinctively, as he approached her. A faint blush died away from her pale cheek as she put her hand in his and looked up at him timidly.

21Its an errand to you brought me, Dinah,” said Adam, apparently unconscious that he was holding her hand all the while; “mothers a bit ailing, and shes set her heart on your coming to stay the night with her, if youll be so kind. I told her Id call and ask you as I came from the village. She overworks herself, and I cant persuade her to have a little girl thelp her. I dont know whats to be done.”

22Adam released Dinah’s hand as he ceased speaking, and was expecting an answer, but before she had opened her lips Mrs. Poyser said, “Look there now! I told you there was folks enow thelp ithis parish, wiout going further off. Theres Mrs. Bede getting as old and cas’alty as can be, and she wont let anybody but you go a-nigh her hardly. The folks at Snowfield have learnt by this time to do better wiout you nor she can.”

23Ill put my bonnet on and set off directly, if you dont want anything done first, Aunt,” said Dinah, folding up her work.

24Yes, I do want something done. I want you thave your tea, child; its all readyand youll have a cup, Adam, if yarena in too big a hurry.”

25Yes, Ill have a cup, please; and then Ill walk with Dinah. Im going straight home, for Ive got a lot otimber valuations to write out.”

26Why, Adam, lad, are you here?” said Mr. Poyser, entering warm and coatless, with the two black-eyed boys behind him, still looking as much like him as two small elephants are like a large one. How is it weve got sight oyou so long before foddering-time?”

27I came on an errand for Mother,” said Adam. Shes got a touch of her old complaint, and she wants Dinah to go and stay with her a bit.”

28Well, well spare her for your mother a little while,” said Mr. Poyser. But we wonna spare her for anybody else, ony her husband.”

29Husband!” said Marty, who was at the most prosaic and literal period of the boyish mind. Why, Dinah hasn’t got a husband.”

30Spare her?” said Mrs. Poyser, placing a seed-cake on the table and then seating herself to pour out the tea. But we must spare her, it seems, and not for a husband neither, but for her own megrims. Tommy, what are you doing to your little sisters doll? Making the child naughty, when shed be good if youd let her. You shanna have a morsel ocake if you behave so.”

31Tommy, with true brotherly sympathy, was amusing himself by turning Dollys skirt over her bald head and exhibiting her truncated body to the general scornan indignity which cut Totty to the heart.

32What do you think Dinah’s been a-telling me since dinner-time?” Mrs. Poyser continued, looking at her husband.

33Eh! Im a poor un at guessing,” said Mr. Poyser.

34Why, she means to go back to Snowfield again, and work ithe mill, and starve herself, as she used to do, like a creatur as has got no friends.”

35Mr. Poyser did not readily find words to express his unpleasant astonishment; he only looked from his wife to Dinah, who had now seated herself beside Totty, as a bulwark against brotherly playfulness, and was busying herself with the childrens tea. If he had been given to making general reflections, it would have occurred to him that there was certainly a change come over Dinah, for she never used to change colour; but, as it was, he merely observed that her face was flushed at that moment. Mr. Poyser thought she looked the prettier for it: it was a flush no deeper than the petal of a monthly rose. Perhaps it came because her uncle was looking at her so fixedly; but there is no knowing, for just then Adam was saying, with quiet surprise, “Why, I hoped Dinah was settled among us for life. I thought shed given up the notion ogoing back to her old country.”

36Thought! Yes,” said Mrs. Poyser, “and so would anybody else hathought, as had got their right end up’ards. But I suppose you must be a Methodist to know what a Methodist ’ull do. Its ill guessing what the bats are flying after.”

37Why, what have we done to you, Dinah, as you must go away from us?” said Mr. Poyser, still pausing over his tea-cup. Its like breaking your word, welly, for your aunt never had no thought but youd make this your home.”

38Nay, Uncle,” said Dinah, trying to be quite calm. When I first came, I said it was only for a time, as long as I could be of any comfort to my aunt.”

39Well, anwho said youd ever left off being a comfort to me?” said Mrs. Poyser. If you didna mean to stay wime, youd better never hacome. Them as hanever had a cushion dont miss it.”

40Nay, nay,” said Mr. Poyser, who objected to exaggerated views. Thee mustna say so; we should habeen ill off wiout her, Lady day was a twelvemont’. We mun be thankful for that, whether she stays or no. But I canna think what she mun leave a good home for, to go back int’ a country where the land, most ont, isna worth ten shillings an acre, rent and profits.”

41Why, thats just the reason she wants to go, as fur as she can give a reason,” said Mrs. Poyser. She says this countrys too comfortable, antheres too much teat, anfolks arena miserable enough. And shes going next week. I canna turn her, say what I will. Its allays the way withem meek-faced people; you mays well pelt a bag ofeathers as talk toem. But I say it isna religion, to be so obstinateis it now, Adam?”

42Adam saw that Dinah was more disturbed than he had ever seen her by any matter relating to herself, and, anxious to relieve her, if possible, he said, looking at her affectionately, “Nay, I cant find fault with anything Dinah does. I believe her thoughts are better than our guesses, letem be what they may. I should habeen thankful for her to stay among us, but if she thinks well to go, I wouldn’t cross her, or make it hard to her by objecting. We owe her something different to that.”

43As it often happens, the words intended to relieve her were just too much for Dinah’s susceptible feelings at this moment. The tears came into the grey eyes too fast to be hidden and she got up hurriedly, meaning it to be understood that she was going to put on her bonnet.

44Mother, whats Dinah crying for?” said Totty. She isn’t a naughty dell.”

45Theest gone a bit too fur,” said Mr. Poyser. Weve no right tinterfere with her doing as she likes. Antheedst be as angry as could be wime, if I said a word against anything she did.”

46Because youd very like be finding fault wiout reason,” said Mrs. Poyser. But theres reason iwhat I say, else I shouldna say it. Its easy talking for them as cant love her so well as her own aunt does. Anme got so used to her! I shall feel as uneasy as a new sheared sheep when shes gone from me. Anto think of her leaving a parish where shes so looked on. Theres Mr. Irwine makes as much of her as if she was a lady, for all her being a Methodist, anwithat maggot opreaching in her headGod forgi’e me if Im ithe wrong to call it so.”

47Aye,” said Mr. Poyser, looking jocose; “but thee dostna tell Adam what he said to thee about it one day. The missis was saying, Adam, as the preaching was the only fault to be found wi’ Dinah, and Mr. Irwine says, ‘But you mustn’t find fault with her for that, Mrs. Poyser; you forget shes got no husband to preach to. Ill answer for it, you give Poyser many a good sermon.’ The parson had thee there,” Mr. Poyser added, laughing unctuously. I told Bartle Massey on it, anhe laughed too.”

48Yes, its a small joke sets men laughing when they sit a-staring at one another with a pipe itheir mouths,” said Mrs. Poyser. Give Bartle Massey his way and hed have all the sharpness to himself. If the chaff-cutter had the making of us, we should all be straw, I reckon. Totty, my chicken, go upstairs to cousin Dinah, and see what shes doing, and give her a pretty kiss.”

49This errand was devised for Totty as a means of checking certain threatening symptoms about the corners of the mouth; for Tommy, no longer expectant of cake, was lifting up his eyelids with his forefingers and turning his eyeballs towards Totty in a way that she felt to be disagreeably personal.

50Youre rare and busy noweh, Adam?” said Mr. Poyser. “Burge’s getting so bad wihis asthmy, its well if hell ever do much riding about again.”

51Yes, weve got a pretty bit obuilding on hand now,” said Adam, “what with the repairs on thestate, and the new houses at Treddles’on.”

52Ill bet a penny that new house Burge is building on his own bit oland is for him and Mary to go to,” said Mr. Poyser. Hell be for laying by business soon, Ill warrant, and be wanting you to take to it all and pay him so much by th’ ’ear. We shall see you living on thhill before another twelvemont’s over.”

53Well,” said Adam, “I should like thave the business in my own hands. It isn’t as I mind much about getting any more money. Weve enough and to spare now, with only our two selves and mother; but I should like thave my own way about thingsI could try plans then, as I cant do now.”

54You get on pretty well withe new steward, I reckon?” said Mr. Poyser.

55Yes, yes; hes a sensible man enough; understands farminghes carrying on the draining, and all that, capital. You must go some day towards the Stonyshire side and see what alterations theyre making. But hes got no notion about buildings. You can so seldom get hold of a man as can turn his brains to more nor one thing; its just as if they wore blinkers like thhorses and could see nothing oone side ofem. Now, theres Mr. Irwine has got notions obuilding more nor most architects; for as for tharchitects, they set up to be fine fellows, but the most ofem dont know where to set a chimney so as it shan’t be quarrelling with a door. My notion is, a practical builder thats got a bit otaste makes the best architect for common things; and Ive ten times the pleasure iseeing after the work when Ive made the plan myself.”

56Mr. Poyser listened with an admiring interest to Adams discourse on building, but perhaps it suggested to him that the building of his corn-rick had been proceeding a little too long without the control of the masters eye, for when Adam had done speaking, he got up and said, “Well, lad, Ill bid you good-bye now, for Im off to the rick-yard again.”

57Adam rose too, for he saw Dinah entering, with her bonnet on and a little basket in her hand, preceded by Totty.

58Youre ready, I see, Dinah,” Adam said; “so well set off, for the sooner Im at home the better.”

59Mother,” said Totty, with her treble pipe, “Dinah was saying her prayers and crying ever so.”

60Hush, hush,” said the mother, “little gells mustn’t chatter.”

61Whereupon the father, shaking with silent laughter, set Totty on the white deal table and desired her to kiss him. Mr. and Mrs. Poyser, you perceive, had no correct principles of education.

62Come back to-morrow if Mrs. Bede doesn’t want you, Dinah,” said Mrs. Poyser: “but you can stay, you know, if shes ill.”

63So, when the good-byes had been said, Dinah and Adam left the Hall Farm together.