18. Chapter XVIII Church

Adam Bede / 亚当·比德

1Hetty, Hetty, dont you know church begins at two, and its gone half after one aready? Have you got nothing better to think on this good Sunday as poor old Thias Bedes to be put into the ground, and him drownded ithdead othe night, as its enough to make ones back run cold, but you must be ’dizening yourself as if there was a wedding i’stid of a funeral?”

2Well, Aunt,” said Hetty, “I cant be ready so soon as everybody else, when Ive got Tottys things to put on. And Id ever such work to make her stand still.”

3Hetty was coming downstairs, and Mrs. Poyser, in her plain bonnet and shawl, was standing below. If ever a girl looked as if she had been made of roses, that girl was Hetty in her Sunday hat and frock. For her hat was trimmed with pink, and her frock had pink spots, sprinkled on a white ground. There was nothing but pink and white about her, except in her dark hair and eyes and her little buckled shoes. Mrs. Poyser was provoked at herself, for she could hardly keep from smiling, as any mortal is inclined to do at the sight of pretty round things. So she turned without speaking, and joined the group outside the house door, followed by Hetty, whose heart was fluttering so at the thought of some one she expected to see at church that she hardly felt the ground she trod on.

4And now the little procession set off. Mr. Poyser was in his Sunday suit of drab, with a red-and-green waistcoat and a green watch-ribbon having a large cornelian seal attached, pendant like a plumb-line from that promontory where his watch-pocket was situated; a silk handkerchief of a yellow tone round his neck; and excellent grey ribbed stockings, knitted by Mrs. Poyser’s own hand, setting off the proportions of his leg. Mr. Poyser had no reason to be ashamed of his leg, and suspected that the growing abuse of top-boots and other fashions tending to disguise the nether limbs had their origin in a pitiable degeneracy of the human calf. Still less had he reason to be ashamed of his round jolly face, which was good humour itself as he said, “Come, Hettycome, little uns!” and giving his arm to his wife, led the way through the causeway gate into the yard.

5Thelittle unsaddressed were Marty and Tommy, boys of nine and seven, in little fustian tailed coats and knee-breeches, relieved by rosy cheeks and black eyes, looking as much like their father as a very small elephant is like a very large one. Hetty walked between them, and behind came patient Molly, whose task it was to carry Totty through the yard and over all the wet places on the road; for Totty, having speedily recovered from her threatened fever, had insisted on going to church to-day, and especially on wearing her red-and-black necklace outside her tippet. And there were many wet places for her to be carried over this afternoon, for there had been heavy showers in the morning, though now the clouds had rolled off and lay in towering silvery masses on the horizon.

6You might have known it was Sunday if you had only waked up in the farmyard. The cocks and hens seemed to know it, and made only crooning subdued noises; the very bull-dog looked less savage, as if he would have been satisfied with a smaller bite than usual. The sunshine seemed to call all things to rest and not to labour. It was asleep itself on the moss-grown cow-shed; on the group of white ducks nestling together with their bills tucked under their wings; on the old black sow stretched languidly on the straw, while her largest young one found an excellent spring-bed on his mothers fat ribs; on Alick, the shepherd, in his new smock-frock, taking an uneasy siesta, half-sitting, half-standing on the granary steps. Alick was of opinion that church, like other luxuries, was not to be indulged in often by a foreman who had the weather and the ewes on his mind. “Church! NayIn gotten summat else to think on,” was an answer which he often uttered in a tone of bitter significance that silenced further question. I feel sure Alick meant no irreverence; indeed, I know that his mind was not of a speculative, negative cast, and he would on no account have missed going to church on Christmas Day, Easter Sunday, and “Whissuntide.” But he had a general impression that public worship and religious ceremonies, like other non-productive employments, were intended for people who had leisure.

7Theres Father a-standing at the yard-gate,” said Martin Poyser. I reckon he wants to watch us down the field. Its wonderful what sight he has, and him turned seventy-five.”

8Ah, I often think its withold folks as it is withe babbies,” said Mrs. Poyser; “theyre satisfied wilooking, no matter what theyre looking at. Its God Amightys way oquieteningem, I reckon, afore they go to sleep.”

9Old Martin opened the gate as he saw the family procession approaching, and held it wide open, leaning on his stickpleased to do this bit of work; for, like all old men whose life has been spent in labour, he liked to feel that he was still usefulthat there was a better crop of onions in the garden because he was by at the sowingand that the cows would be milked the better if he stayed at home on a Sunday afternoon to look on. He always went to church on Sacrament Sundays, but not very regularly at other times; on wet Sundays, or whenever he had a touch of rheumatism, he used to read the three first chapters of Genesis instead.

10Theyll haputten Thias Bede ithe ground afore ye get to the churchyard,” he said, as his son came up. It ’ud habeen better luck if theyd haburied him ithe forenoon when the rain was fallin’; theres no likelihoods of a drop now; anthe moon lies like a boat there, dost see? Thats a sure sign ofair weathertheres a many as is false but thats sure.”

11Aye, aye,” said the son, “Im in hopes itll hold up now.”

12Mind what the parson says, mind what the parson says, my lads,” said Grandfather to the black-eyed youngsters in knee-breeches, conscious of a marble or two in their pockets which they looked forward to handling, a little, secretly, during the sermon.

13“Dood-bye, Dandad,” said Totty. Me doin’ to church. Me dot my neklace on. Dive me a peppermint.”

14Grandad, shaking with laughter at thisdeep little wench,” slowly transferred his stick to his left hand, which held the gate open, and slowly thrust his finger into the waistcoat pocket on which Totty had fixed her eyes with a confident look of expectation.

15And when they were all gone, the old man leaned on the gate again, watching them across the lane along the Home Close, and through the far gate, till they disappeared behind a bend in the hedge. For the hedgerows in those days shut out ones view, even on the better-managed farms; and this afternoon, the dog-roses were tossing out their pink wreaths, the nightshade was in its yellow and purple glory, the pale honeysuckle grew out of reach, peeping high up out of a holly bush, and over all an ash or a sycamore every now and then threw its shadow across the path.

16There were acquaintances at other gates who had to move aside and let them pass: at the gate of the Home Close there was half the dairy of cows standing one behind the other, extremely slow to understand that their large bodies might be in the way; at the far gate there was the mare holding her head over the bars, and beside her the liver-coloured foal with its head towards its mothers flank, apparently still much embarrassed by its own straddling existence. The way lay entirely through Mr. Poyser’s own fields till they reached the main road leading to the village, and he turned a keen eye on the stock and the crops as they went along, while Mrs. Poyser was ready to supply a running commentary on them all. The woman who manages a dairy has a large share in making the rent, so she may well be allowed to have her opinion on stock and theirkeep”—an exercise which strengthens her understanding so much that she finds herself able to give her husband advice on most other subjects.

17Theres that shorthorned Sally,” she said, as they entered the Home Close, and she caught sight of the meek beast that lay chewing the cud and looking at her with a sleepy eye. I begin to hate the sight othe cow; and I say now what I said three weeks ago, the sooner we get rid of her the better, for theres that little yallow cow as doesn’t give half the milk, and yet Ive twice as much butter from her.”

18Why, theet not like the women in general,” said Mr. Poyser; “they like the shorthorns, as give such a lot omilk. Theres Chowne’s wife wants him to buy no other sort.”

19Whats it sinnify what Chowne’s wife likes? A poor soft thing, wino more head-piece nor a sparrow. Shed take a big cullender to strain her lard wi’, and then wonder as the scratchin’s run through. Ive seen enough of her to know as Ill niver take a servant from her house againall hugger-muggerand youd niver know, when you went in, whether it was Monday or Friday, the wash draggin’ on to thend othe week; and as for her cheese, I know well enough it rose like a loaf in a tin last year. And then she talks othe weather bein’ ifault, as theres folks ’ud stand on their heads and then say the fault was itheir boots.”

20Well, Chowne’s been wanting to buy Sally, so we can get rid of her if thee lik’st,” said Mr. Poyser, secretly proud of his wifes superior power of putting two and two together; indeed, on recent market-days he had more than once boasted of her discernment in this very matter of shorthorns. Aye, them as choose a soft for a wife mays well buy up the shorthorns, for if you get your head stuck in a bog, your legs mays well go after it. Eh! Talk olegs, theres legs for you,” Mrs. Poyser continued, as Totty, who had been set down now the road was dry, toddled on in front of her father and mother. Theres shapes! Anshes got such a long foot, shell be her fathers own child.”

21Aye, shell be welly such a one as Hetty iten yearstime, ony shes got thy coloured eyes. I niver remember a blue eye imy family; my mother had eyes as black as sloes, just like Hettys.”

22The child ’ull be none the worse for having summat as isn’t like Hetty. AnIm none for having her so overpretty. Though for the matter othat, theres people wilight hair anblue eyes as pretty as them wiblack. If Dinah had got a bit ocolour in her cheeks, an’ didn’t stick that Methodist cap on her head, enough to frighten the cows, folks ’ud think her as pretty as Hetty.”

23Nay, nay,” said Mr. Poyser, with rather a contemptuous emphasis, “thee dostna know the pints of a woman. The men ’ud niver run after Dinah as they would after Hetty.”

24What care I what the men ’ud run after? Its well seen what choice the most ofem know how to make, by the poor draggle-tails owives you see, like bits ogauze ribbin, good for nothing when the colours gone.”

25Well, well, thee canstna say but what I knowed how to make a choice when I married thee,” said Mr. Poyser, who usually settled little conjugal disputes by a compliment of this sort; “and thee wast twice as buxom as Dinah ten year ago.”

26I niver said as a woman had need to be ugly to make a good missis of a house. Theres Chowne’s wife ugly enough to turn the milk ansave the rennet, but shell niver save nothing any other way. But as for Dinah, poor child, shes niver likely to be buxom as long as shell make her dinner ocake and water, for the sake ogiving to them as want. She provoked me past bearing sometimes; and, as I told her, she went clean againthe Scriptur’, for that says, ‘Love your neighbour as yourself’; ‘but,’ I said, ‘if you loved your neighbour no better nor you do yourself, Dinah, its little enough youd do for him. Youd be thinking he might do well enough on a half-empty stomach.’ Eh, I wonder where she is this blessed Sunday! Sitting by that sick woman, I daresay, as shed set her heart on going to all of a sudden.”

27Ah, it was a pity she should take such megrims into her head, when she might hastayed wius all summer, and eaten twice as much as she wanted, and it ’ud niver habeen missed. She made no odds in thhouse at all, for she sat as still at her sewing as a bird on the nest, and was uncommon nimble at running to fetch anything. If Hetty gets married, theedst like to ha’ Dinah withee constant.”

28Its no use thinking othat,” said Mrs. Poyser. You might as well beckon to the flying swallow as ask Dinah to come anlive here comfortable, like other folks. If anything could turn her, I should haturned her, for Ive talked to her for a hour on end, and scolded her too; for shes my own sisters child, and it behoves me to do what I can for her. But eh, poor thing, as soon as shed said usgood-byeangot into the cart, anlooked back at me with her pale face, as is welly like her Aunt Judith come back from heaven, I begun to be frightened to think othe set-downs Id given her; for it comes over you sometimes as if shed a way oknowing the rights othings more nor other folks have. But Ill niver give in as thatscause shes a Methodist, no more nor a white calfs whitecause it eats out othe same bucket wia black un.”

29Nay,” said Mr. Poyser, with as near an approach to a snarl as his good-nature would allow; “Im no opinion othe Methodists. Its ony tradesfolks as turn Methodists; you nuver knew a farmer bitten withem maggots. Theres maybe a workman now anthen, as isn’t overclever ats work, takes to preachin’ anthat, like Seth Bede. But you see Adam, as has got one othe best head-pieces hereabout, knows better; hes a good Churchman, else Id never encourage him for a sweetheart for Hetty.”

30Why, goodness me,” said Mrs. Poyser, who had looked back while her husband was speaking, “look where Molly is with them lads! Theyre the fields length behind us. How could you letem do so, Hetty? Anybody might as well set a pictur’ to watch the children as you. Run back and tellem to come on.”

31Mr. and Mrs. Poyser were now at the end of the second field, so they set Totty on the top of one of the large stones forming the true Loamshire stile, and awaited the loiterers; Totty observing with complacency, “Dey naughty, naughty boysme dood.”

32The fact was that this Sunday walk through the fields was fraught with great excitement to Marty and Tommy, who saw a perpetual drama going on in the hedgerows, and could no more refrain from stopping and peeping than if they had been a couple of spaniels or terriers. Marty was quite sure he saw a yellow-hammer on the boughs of the great ash, and while he was peeping, he missed the sight of a white-throated stoat, which had run across the path and was described with much fervour by the junior Tommy. Then there was a little greenfinch, just fledged, fluttering along the ground, and it seemed quite possible to catch it, till it managed to flutter under the blackberry bush. Hetty could not be got to give any heed to these things, so Molly was called on for her ready sympathy, and peeped with open mouth wherever she was told, and saidLawks!” whenever she was expected to wonder.

33Molly hastened on with some alarm when Hetty had come back and called to them that her aunt was angry; but Marty ran on first, shouting, “Weve found the speckled turkeys nest, Mother!” with the instinctive confidence that people who bring good news are never in fault.

34Ah,” said Mrs. Poyser, really forgetting all discipline in this pleasant surprise, “thats a good lad; why, where is it?”

35Down in ever such a hole, under the hedge. I saw it first, looking after the greenfinch, and she sat on thnest.”

36You didn’t frighten her, I hope,” said the mother, “else shell forsake it.”

37No, I went away as still as still, and whispered to Molly—didn’t I, Molly?”

38Well, well, now come on,” said Mrs. Poyser, “and walk before Father and Mother, and take your little sister by the hand. We must go straight on now. Good boys dont look after the birds of a Sunday.”

39But, Mother,” said Marty, “you said youd give half-a-crown to find the speckled turkeys nest. Mayn’t I have the half-crown put into my money-box?”

40Well see about that, my lad, if you walk along now, like a good boy.”

41The father and mother exchanged a significant glance of amusement at their eldest-borns acuteness; but on Tommys round face there was a cloud.

42Mother,” he said, half-crying, “Marty’s got ever so much more money in his box nor Ive got in mine.”

43“Munny, me want half-a-toun in my bots,” said Totty.

44Hush, hush, hush,” said Mrs. Poyser, “did ever anybody hear such naughty children? Nobody shall ever see their money-boxes any more, if they dont make haste and go on to church.”

45This dreadful threat had the desired effect, and through the two remaining fields the three pair of small legs trotted on without any serious interruption, notwithstanding a small pond full of tadpoles, alias “bullheads,” which the lads looked at wistfully.

46The damp hay that must be scattered and turned afresh to-morrow was not a cheering sight to Mr. Poyser, who during hay and corn harvest had often some mental struggles as to the benefits of a day of rest; but no temptation would have induced him to carry on any field-work, however early in the morning, on a Sunday; for had not Michael Holdsworth had a pair of oxenswelteredwhile he was ploughing on Good Friday? That was a demonstration that work on sacred days was a wicked thing; and with wickedness of any sort Martin Poyser was quite clear that he would have nothing to do, since money got by such means would never prosper.

47It amost makes your fingers itch to be at the hay now the sun shines so,” he observed, as they passed through theBig Meadow.” “But its poor foolishness to think osaving by going against your conscience. Theres that Jim Wakefield, as they used to callGentleman Wakefield,’ used to do the same of a Sunday as oweekdays, and took no heed to right or wrong, as if there was nayther God nor devil. Anwhats he come to? Why, I saw him myself last market-day a-carrying a basket wioranges int.”

48Ah, to be sure,” said Mrs. Poyser, emphatically, “you make but a poor trap to catch luck if you go and bait it wiwickedness. The money as is got sos like to burn holes iyour pocket. Id niver wish us to leave our lads a sixpence but what was got ithe rightful way. And as for the weather, theres One above makes it, and we must put up wit: its nothing of a plague to what the wenches are.”

49Notwithstanding the interruption in their walk, the excellent habit which Mrs. Poyser’s clock had of taking time by the forelock had secured their arrival at the village while it was still a quarter to two, though almost every one who meant to go to church was already within the churchyard gates. Those who stayed at home were chiefly mothers, like Timothys Bess, who stood at her own door nursing her baby and feeling as women feel in that positionthat nothing else can be expected of them.

50It was not entirely to see Thias Bedes funeral that the people were standing about the churchyard so long before service began; that was their common practice. The women, indeed, usually entered the church at once, and the farmerswives talked in an undertone to each other, over the tall pews, about their illnesses and the total failure of doctors stuff, recommending dandelion-tea, and other home-made specifics, as far preferableabout the servants, and their growing exorbitance as to wages, whereas the quality of their services declined from year to year, and there was no girl nowadays to be trusted any further than you could see herabout the bad price Mr. Dingall, the Treddleston grocer, was giving for butter, and the reasonable doubts that might be held as to his solvency, notwithstanding that Mrs. Dingall was a sensible woman, and they were all sorry for her, for she had very good kin. Meantime the men lingered outside, and hardly any of them except the singers, who had a humming and fragmentary rehearsal to go through, entered the church until Mr. Irwine was in the desk. They saw no reason for that premature entrancewhat could they do in church if they were there before service began? and they did not conceive that any power in the universe could take it ill of them if they stayed out and talked a little aboutbusness.”

51Chad Cranage looks like quite a new acquaintance to-day, for he has got his clean Sunday face, which always makes his little granddaughter cry at him as a stranger. But an experienced eye would have fixed on him at once as the village blacksmith, after seeing the humble deference with which the big saucy fellow took off his hat and stroked his hair to the farmers; for Chad was accustomed to say that a working-man must hold a candle to a personage understood to be as black as he was himself on weekdays; by which evil-sounding rule of conduct he meant what was, after all, rather virtuous than otherwise, namely, that men who had horses to be shod must be treated with respect. Chad and the rougher sort of workmen kept aloof from the grave under the white thorn, where the burial was going forward; but Sandy Jim, and several of the farm-labourers, made a group round it, and stood with their hats off, as fellow-mourners with the mother and sons. Others held a midway position, sometimes watching the group at the grave, sometimes listening to the conversation of the farmers, who stood in a knot near the church door, and were now joined by Martin Poyser, while his family passed into the church. On the outside of this knot stood Mr. Casson, the landlord of the Donnithorne Arms, in his most striking attitudethat is to say, with the forefinger of his right hand thrust between the buttons of his waistcoat, his left hand in his breeches pocket, and his head very much on one side; looking, on the whole, like an actor who has only a mono-syllabic part entrusted to him, but feels sure that the audience discern his fitness for the leading business; curiously in contrast with old Jonathan Burge, who held his hands behind him and leaned forward, coughing asthmatically, with an inward scorn of all knowingness that could not be turned into cash. The talk was in rather a lower tone than usual to-day, hushed a little by the sound of Mr. Irwine’s voice reading the final prayers of the burial-service. They had all had their word of pity for poor Thias, but now they had got upon the nearer subject of their own grievances against Satchell, the Squires bailiff, who played the part of steward so far as it was not performed by old Mr. Donnithorne himself, for that gentleman had the meanness to receive his own rents and make bargains about his own timber. This subject of conversation was an additional reason for not being loud, since Satchell himself might presently be walking up the paved road to the church door. And soon they became suddenly silent; for Mr. Irwine’s voice had ceased, and the group round the white thorn was dispersing itself towards the church.

52They all moved aside, and stood with their hats off, while Mr. Irwine passed. Adam and Seth were coming next, with their mother between them; for Joshua Rann officiated as head sexton as well as clerk, and was not yet ready to follow the rector into the vestry. But there was a pause before the three mourners came on: Lisbeth had turned round to look again towards the grave! Ah! There was nothing now but the brown earth under the white thorn. Yet she cried less to-day than she had done any day since her husbands death. Along with all her grief there was mixed an unusual sense of her own importance in having aburial,” and in Mr. Irwine’s reading a special service for her husband; and besides, she knew the funeral psalm was going to be sung for him. She felt this counter-excitement to her sorrow still more strongly as she walked with her sons towards the church door, and saw the friendly sympathetic nods of their fellow-parishioners.

53The mother and sons passed into the church, and one by one the loiterers followed, though some still lingered without; the sight of Mr. Donnithorne’s carriage, which was winding slowly up the hill, perhaps helping to make them feel that there was no need for haste.

54But presently the sound of the bassoon and the key-bugles burst forth; the evening hymn, which always opened the service, had begun, and every one must now enter and take his place.

55I cannot say that the interior of Hayslope Church was remarkable for anything except for the grey age of its oaken pewsgreat square pews mostly, ranged on each side of a narrow aisle. It was free, indeed, from the modern blemish of galleries. The choir had two narrow pews to themselves in the middle of the right-hand row, so that it was a short process for Joshua Rann to take his place among them as principal bass, and return to his desk after the singing was over. The pulpit and desk, grey and old as the pews, stood on one side of the arch leading into the chancel, which also had its grey square pews for Mr. Donnithorne’s family and servants. Yet I assure you these grey pews, with the buff-washed walls, gave a very pleasing tone to this shabby interior, and agreed extremely well with the ruddy faces and bright waistcoats. And there were liberal touches of crimson toward the chancel, for the pulpit and Mr. Donnithorne’s own pew had handsome crimson cloth cushions; and, to close the vista, there was a crimson altar-cloth, embroidered with golden rays by Miss Lydias own hand.

56But even without the crimson cloth, the effect must have been warm and cheering when Mr. Irwine was in the desk, looking benignly round on that simple congregationon the hardy old men, with bent knees and shoulders, perhaps, but with vigour left for much hedge-clipping and thatching; on the tall stalwart frames and roughly cut bronzed faces of the stone-cutters and carpenters; on the half-dozen well-to-do farmers, with their apple-cheeked families; and on the clean old women, mostly farm-labourerswives, with their bit of snow-white cap-border under their black bonnets, and with their withered arms, bare from the elbow, folded passively over their chests. For none of the old people held bookswhy should they? Not one of them could read. But they knew a fewgood wordsby heart, and their withered lips now and then moved silently, following the service without any very clear comprehension indeed, but with a simple faith in its efficacy to ward off harm and bring blessing. And now all faces were visible, for all were standing upthe little children on the seats peeping over the edge of the grey pews, while good Bishop Kens evening hymn was being sung to one of those lively psalm-tunes which died out with the last generation of rectors and choral parish clerks. Melodies die out, like the pipe of Pan, with the ears that love them and listen for them. Adam was not in his usual place among the singers to-day, for he sat with his mother and Seth, and he noticed with surprise that Bartle Massey was absent tooall the more agreeable for Mr. Joshua Rann, who gave out his bass notes with unusual complacency and threw an extra ray of severity into the glances he sent over his spectacles at the recusant Will Maskery.

57I beseech you to imagine Mr. Irwine looking round on this scene, in his ample white surplice that became him so well, with his powdered hair thrown back, his rich brown complexion, and his finely cut nostril and upper lip; for there was a certain virtue in that benignant yet keen countenance as there is in all human faces from which a generous soul beams out. And over all streamed the delicious June sunshine through the old windows, with their desultory patches of yellow, red, and blue, that threw pleasant touches of colour on the opposite wall.

58I think, as Mr. Irwine looked round to-day, his eyes rested an instant longer than usual on the square pew occupied by Martin Poyser and his family. And there was another pair of dark eyes that found it impossible not to wander thither, and rest on that round pink-and-white figure. But Hetty was at that moment quite careless of any glancesshe was absorbed in the thought that Arthur Donnithorne would soon be coming into church, for the carriage must surely be at the church-gate by this time. She had never seen him since she parted with him in the wood on Thursday evening, and oh, how long the time had seemed! Things had gone on just the same as ever since that evening; the wonders that had happened then had brought no changes after them; they were already like a dream. When she heard the church door swinging, her heart beat so, she dared not look up. She felt that her aunt was curtsying; she curtsied herself. That must be old Mr. Donnithorne—he always came first, the wrinkled small old man, peering round with short-sighted glances at the bowing and curtsying congregation; then she knew Miss Lydia was passing, and though Hetty liked so much to look at her fashionable little coal-scuttle bonnet, with the wreath of small roses round it, she didn’t mind it to-day. But there were no more curtsiesno, he was not come; she felt sure there was nothing else passing the pew door but the house-keepers black bonnet and the ladys maids beautiful straw hat that had once been Miss Lydias, and then the powdered heads of the butler and footman. No, he was not there; yet she would look nowshe might be mistakenfor, after all, she had not looked. So she lifted up her eyelids and glanced timidly at the cushioned pew in the chancelthere was no one but old Mr. Donnithorne rubbing his spectacles with his white handkerchief, and Miss Lydia opening the large gilt-edged prayer-book. The chill disappointment was too hard to bear. She felt herself turning pale, her lips trembling; she was ready to cry. Oh, what should she do? Everybody would know the reason; they would know she was crying because Arthur was not there. And Mr. Craig, with the wonderful hothouse plant in his button-hole, was staring at her, she knew. It was dreadfully long before the General Confession began, so that she could kneel down. Two great drops would fall then, but no one saw them except good-natured Molly, for her aunt and uncle knelt with their backs towards her. Molly, unable to imagine any cause for tears in church except faintness, of which she had a vague traditional knowledge, drew out of her pocket a queer little flat blue smelling-bottle, and after much labour in pulling the cork out, thrust the narrow neck against Hettys nostrils. It donna smell,” she whispered, thinking this was a great advantage which old salts had over fresh ones: they did you good without biting your nose. Hetty pushed it away peevishly; but this little flash of temper did what the salts could not have doneit roused her to wipe away the traces of her tears, and try with all her might not to shed any more. Hetty had a certain strength in her vain little nature: she would have borne anything rather than be laughed at, or pointed at with any other feeling than admiration; she would have pressed her own nails into her tender flesh rather than people should know a secret she did not want them to know.

59What fluctuations there were in her busy thoughts and feelings, while Mr. Irwine was pronouncing the solemnAbsolutionin her deaf ears, and through all the tones of petition that followed! Anger lay very close to disappointment, and soon won the victory over the conjectures her small ingenuity could devise to account for Arthurs absence on the supposition that he really wanted to come, really wanted to see her again. And by the time she rose from her knees mechanically, because all the rest were rising, the colour had returned to her cheeks even with a heightened glow, for she was framing little indignant speeches to herself, saying she hated Arthur for giving her this painshe would like him to suffer too. Yet while this selfish tumult was going on in her soul, her eyes were bent down on her prayer-book, and the eyelids with their dark fringe looked as lovely as ever. Adam Bede thought so, as he glanced at her for a moment on rising from his knees.

60But Adams thoughts of Hetty did not deafen him to the service; they rather blended with all the other deep feelings for which the church service was a channel to him this afternoon, as a certain consciousness of our entire past and our imagined future blends itself with all our moments of keen sensibility. And to Adam the church service was the best channel he could have found for his mingled regret, yearning, and resignation; its interchange of beseeching cries for help with outbursts of faith and praise, its recurrent responses and the familiar rhythm of its collects, seemed to speak for him as no other form of worship could have done; as, to those early Christians who had worshipped from their childhood upwards in catacombs, the torch-light and shadows must have seemed nearer the Divine presence than the heathenish daylight of the streets. The secret of our emotions never lies in the bare object, but in its subtle relations to our own past: no wonder the secret escapes the unsympathizing observer, who might as well put on his spectacles to discern odours.

61But there was one reason why even a chance comer would have found the service in Hayslope Church more impressive than in most other village nooks in the kingdoma reason of which I am sure you have not the slightest suspicion. It was the reading of our friend Joshua Rann. Where that good shoemaker got his notion of reading from remained a mystery even to his most intimate acquaintances. I believe, after all, he got it chiefly from Nature, who had poured some of her music into this honest conceited soul, as she had been known to do into other narrow souls before his. She had given him, at least, a fine bass voice and a musical ear; but I cannot positively say whether these alone had sufficed to inspire him with the rich chant in which he delivered the responses. The way he rolled from a rich deep forte into a melancholy cadence, subsiding, at the end of the last word, into a sort of faint resonance, like the lingering vibrations of a fine violoncello, I can compare to nothing for its strong calm melancholy but the rush and cadence of the wind among the autumn boughs. This may seem a strange mode of speaking about the reading of a parish clerka man in rusty spectacles, with stubbly hair, a large occiput, and a prominent crown. But that is Natures way: she will allow a gentleman of splendid physiognomy and poetic aspirations to sing woefully out of tune, and not give him the slightest hint of it; and takes care that some narrow-browed fellow, trolling a ballad in the corner of a pot-house, shall be as true to his intervals as a bird.

62Joshua himself was less proud of his reading than of his singing, and it was always with a sense of heightened importance that he passed from the desk to the choir. Still more to-day: it was a special occasion, for an old man, familiar to all the parish, had died a sad deathnot in his bed, a circumstance the most painful to the mind of the peasantand now the funeral psalm was to be sung in memory of his sudden departure. Moreover, Bartle Massey was not at church, and Joshuas importance in the choir suffered no eclipse. It was a solemn minor strain they sang. The old psalm-tunes have many a wail among them, and the words

63Thou sweepst us off as with a flood;

64We vanish hence like dreams”—

65seemed to have a closer application than usual in the death of poor Thias. The mother and sons listened, each with peculiar feelings. Lisbeth had a vague belief that the psalm was doing her husband good; it was part of that decent burial which she would have thought it a greater wrong to withhold from him than to have caused him many unhappy days while he was living. The more there was said about her husband, the more there was done for him, surely the safer he would be. It was poor Lisbeth’s blind way of feeling that human love and pity are a ground of faith in some other love. Seth, who was easily touched, shed tears, and tried to recall, as he had done continually since his fathers death, all that he had heard of the possibility that a single moment of consciousness at the last might be a moment of pardon and reconcilement; for was it not written in the very psalm they were singing that the Divine dealings were not measured and circumscribed by time? Adam had never been unable to join in a psalm before. He had known plenty of trouble and vexation since he had been a lad, but this was the first sorrow that had hemmed in his voice, and strangely enough it was sorrow because the chief source of his past trouble and vexation was for ever gone out of his reach. He had not been able to press his fathers hand before their parting, and say, “Father, you know it was all right between us; I never forgot what I owed you when I was a lad; you forgive me if I have been too hot and hasty now and then!” Adam thought but little to-day of the hard work and the earnings he had spent on his father: his thoughts ran constantly on what the old mans feelings had been in moments of humiliation, when he had held down his head before the rebukes of his son. When our indignation is borne in submissive silence, we are apt to feel twinges of doubt afterwards as to our own generosity, if not justice; how much more when the object of our anger has gone into everlasting silence, and we have seen his face for the last time in the meekness of death!

66Ah! I was always too hard,” Adam said to himself. Its a sore fault in me as Im so hot and out opatience with people when they do wrong, and my heart gets shut up againstem, so as I cant bring myself to forgiveem. I see clear enough theres more pride nor love in my soul, for I could sooner make a thousand strokes with thhammer for my father than bring myself to say a kind word to him. And there went plenty opride and temper to the strokes, as the devil will be having his finger in what we call our duties as well as our sins. Mayhap the best thing I ever did in my life was only doing what was easiest for myself. Its allays been easier for me to work nor to sit still, but the real tough job for me ’ud be to master my own will and temper and go right against my own pride. It seems to me now, if I was to find Father at home to-night, I should behave different; but theres no knowingperhaps nothing ’ud be a lesson to us if it didn’t come too late. Its well we should feel as lifes a reckoning we cant make twice over; theres no real making amends in this world, any more nor you can mend a wrong subtraction by doing your addition right.”

67This was the key-note to which Adams thoughts had perpetually returned since his fathers death, and the solemn wail of the funeral psalm was only an influence that brought back the old thoughts with stronger emphasis. So was the sermon, which Mr. Irwine had chosen with reference to Thias’s funeral. It spoke briefly and simply of the words, “In the midst of life we are in death”—how the present moment is all we can call our own for works of mercy, of righteous dealing, and of family tenderness. All very old truthsbut what we thought the oldest truth becomes the most startling to us in the week when we have looked on the dead face of one who has made a part of our own lives. For when men want to impress us with the effect of a new and wonderfully vivid light, do they not let it fall on the most familiar objects, that we may measure its intensity by remembering the former dimness?

68Then came the moment of the final blessing, when the forever sublime words, “The peace of God, which passeth all understanding,” seemed to blend with the calm afternoon sunshine that fell on the bowed heads of the congregation; and then the quiet rising, the mothers tying on the bonnets of the little maidens who had slept through the sermon, the fathers collecting the prayer-books, until all streamed out through the old archway into the green churchyard and began their neighbourly talk, their simple civilities, and their invitations to tea; for on a Sunday every one was ready to receive a guestit was the day when all must be in their best clothes and their best humour.

69Mr. and Mrs. Poyser paused a minute at the church gate: they were waiting for Adam to come up, not being contented to go away without saying a kind word to the widow and her sons.

70Well, Mrs. Bede,” said Mrs. Poyser, as they walked on together, “you must keep up your heart; husbands and wives must be content when theyve lived to rear their children and see one anothers hair grey.”

71Aye, aye,” said Mr. Poyser; “they wonna have long to wait for one another then, anyhow. And yeve got two othe strappingst sons ithcountry; and well you may, for I remember poor Thias as fine a broad-shouldered fellow as need to be; and as for you, Mrs. Bede, why youre straighter ithe back nor half the young women now.”

72Eh,” said Lisbeth, “its poor luck for the platter to wear well when its broke itwo. The sooner Im laid under the thorn the better. Im no good to nobody now.”

73Adam never took notice of his mothers little unjust plaints; but Seth said, “Nay, Mother, thee mustna say so. Thy sons ’ull never get another mother.”

74Thats true, lad, thats true,” said Mr. Poyser; “and its wrong on us to give way to grief, Mrs. Bede; for its like the children cryin’ when the fathers and mothers take things fromem. Theres One above knows better nor us.”

75Ah,” said Mrs. Poyser, “anits poor work allays settin’ the dead above the livin’. We shall all on us be dead some time, I reckonit ’ud be better if folks ’ud make much on us beforehand, i’stid o’ beginnin’ when were gone. Its but little good youll do a-watering the last years crop.”

76Well, Adam,” said Mr. Poyser, feeling that his wifes words were, as usual, rather incisive than soothing, and that it would be well to change the subject, “youll come and see us again now, I hope. I hanna had a talk with you this long while, and the missis here wants you to see what can be done with her best spinning-wheel, for its got broke, and itll be a nice job to mend ittherell want a bit oturning. Youll come as soon as you can now, will you?”

77Mr. Poyser paused and looked round while he was speaking, as if to see where Hetty was; for the children were running on before. Hetty was not without a companion, and she had, besides, more pink and white about her than ever, for she held in her hand the wonderful pink-and-white hot-house plant, with a very long namea Scotch name, she supposed, since people said Mr. Craig the gardener was Scotch. Adam took the opportunity of looking round too; and I am sure you will not require of him that he should feel any vexation in observing a pouting expression on Hettys face as she listened to the gardeners small talk. Yet in her secret heart she was glad to have him by her side, for she would perhaps learn from him how it was Arthur had not come to church. Not that she cared to ask him the question, but she hoped the information would be given spontaneously; for Mr. Craig, like a superior man, was very fond of giving information.

78Mr. Craig was never aware that his conversation and advances were received coldly, for to shift ones point of view beyond certain limits is impossible to the most liberal and expansive mind; we are none of us aware of the impression we produce on Brazilian monkeys of feeble understandingit is possible they see hardly anything in us. Moreover, Mr. Craig was a man of sober passions, and was already in his tenth year of hesitation as to the relative advantages of matrimony and bachelorhood. It is true that, now and then, when he had been a little heated by an extra glass of grog, he had been heard to say of Hetty that thelass was well enough,” and thata man might do worse”; but on convivial occasions men are apt to express themselves strongly.

79Martin Poyser held Mr. Craig in honour, as a man whoknew his businessand who had great lights concerning soils and compost; but he was less of a favourite with Mrs. Poyser, who had more than once said in confidence to her husband, “Youre mighty fond oCraig, but for my part, I think hes welly like a cock as thinks the suns rose opurpose to hear him crow.” For the rest, Mr. Craig was an estimable gardener, and was not without reasons for having a high opinion of himself. He had also high shoulders and high cheek-bones and hung his head forward a little, as he walked along with his hands in his breeches pockets. I think it was his pedigree only that had the advantage of being Scotch, and not hisbringing up”; for except that he had a stronger burr in his accent, his speech differed little from that of the Loamshire people about him. But a gardener is Scotch, as a French teacher is Parisian.

80Well, Mr. Poyser,” he said, before the good slow farmer had time to speak, “yell not be carrying your hay to-morrow, Im thinking. The glass sticks atchange,’ and ye may rely upo’ my word as well hamore downfall afore twenty-four hours is past. Ye see that darkish-blue cloud there upo’ the ’rizon—ye know what I mean by the ’rizon, where the land and sky seems to meet?”

81Aye, aye, I see the cloud,” said Mr. Poyser, “’rizon or no ’rizon. Its right oer Mike Holdsworth’s fallow, and a foul fallow it is.”

82Well, you mark my words, as that cloud ’ull spread oer the sky pretty nigh as quick as youd spread a tarpaulin over one oyour hay-ricks. Its a great thing to hastudied the look othe clouds. Lord bless you! Thmet’orological almanecks can learn me nothing, but theres a pretty sight othings I could let them up to, if theyd just come to me. And how are you, Mrs. Poyser?—thinking o’ getherin’ the red currants soon, I reckon. Youd a deal better gether ’em afore theyre o’erripe, wisuch weather as weve got to look forward to. How do ye do, Mistress Bede?” Mr. Craig continued, without a pause, nodding by the way to Adam and Seth. I hope yenjoyed them spinach and gooseberries as I sent Chester with thother day. If ye want vegetables while yere in trouble, ye know where to come to. Its well known Im not giving other folksthings away, for when Ive supplied the house, the gardens my own spekilation, and it isna every man thold squire could get as ’ud be equil to the undertaking, let alone asking whether hed be willing. Ive got to run my calkilation fine, I can tell you, to make sure ogetting back the money as I pay the squire. I should like to see some othem fellows as make the almanecks looking as far before their noses as Ive got to do every year as comes.”

83They look pretty fur, though,” said Mr. Poyser, turning his head on one side and speaking in rather a subdued reverential tone. Why, what could come truer nor that pictur othe cock withe big spurs, as has got its head knocked down withanchor, anth’ firin’, anthe ships behind? Why, that pictur was made afore Christmas, and yit its come as true as thBible. Why, thcocks France, anthanchors Nelsonanthey told us that beforehand.”

84Peeee-eh!” said Mr. Craig. A man doesna want to see fur to know as thEnglish ’ull beat the French. Why, I know upo’ good authority as its a big Frenchman as reaches five foot high, anthey live upo’ spoon-meat mostly. I knew a man as his father had a particular knowledge othe French. I should like to know what them grasshoppers are to do against such fine fellows as our young Captain Arthur. Why, it ’ud astonish a Frenchman only to look at him; his arms thicker nor a Frenchmans body, Ill be bound, for they pinch theirsells in wistays; and its easy enough, for theyve got nothing itheir insides.”

85Where is the captain, as he wasna at church to-day?” said Adam. I was talking to him oFriday, and he said nothing about his going away.”

86Oh, hes only gone to Eagledale for a bit ofishing; I reckon hell be back again afore many days are oer, for hes to be at all tharranging and preparing othings for the comin’ oage othe 30th oJuly. But hes fond ogetting away for a bit, now and then. Him and thold squire fit one another like frost and flowers.”

87Mr. Craig smiled and winked slowly as he made this last observation, but the subject was not developed farther, for now they had reached the turning in the road where Adam and his companions must saygood-bye.” The gardener, too, would have had to turn off in the same direction if he had not accepted Mr. Poyser’s invitation to tea. Mrs. Poyser duly seconded the invitation, for she would have held it a deep disgrace not to make her neighbours welcome to her house: personal likes and dislikes must not interfere with that sacred custom. Moreover, Mr. Craig had always been full of civilities to the family at the Hall Farm, and Mrs. Poyser was scrupulous in declaring that she hadnothing to say againhim, ony it was a pity he couldna be hatched oer again, anhatched different.”

88So Adam and Seth, with their mother between them, wound their way down to the valley and up again to the old house, where a saddened memory had taken the place of a long, long anxietywhere Adam would never have to ask again as he entered, “Wheres Father?”

89And the other family party, with Mr. Craig for company, went back to the pleasant bright house-place at the Hall Farmall with quiet minds, except Hetty, who knew now where Arthur was gone, but was only the more puzzled and uneasy. For it appeared that his absence was quite voluntary; he need not have gonehe would not have gone if he had wanted to see her. She had a sickening sense that no lot could ever be pleasant to her again if her Thursday nights vision was not to be fulfilled; and in this moment of chill, bare, wintry disappointment and doubt, she looked towards the possibility of being with Arthur again, of meeting his loving glance, and hearing his soft words with that eager yearning which one may call thegrowing painof passion.