26. Chapter VI. Tending to Refute the Popular Prejudice against the Present of a Pocket-Knife

The Mill on the Floss / 弗洛斯河上的磨坊

1In that dark time of December, the sale of the household furniture lasted beyond the middle of the second day. Mr Tulliver, who had begun, in his intervals of consciousness, to manifest an irritability which often appeared to have as a direct effect the recurrence of spasmodic rigidity and insensibility, had lain in this living death throughout the critical hours when the noise of the sale came nearest to his chamber. Mr Turnbull had decided that it would be a less risk to let him remain where he was than to remove him to Lukes cottage,—a plan which the good Luke had proposed to Mrs Tulliver, thinking it would be very bad if the master wereto waken upat the noise of the sale; and the wife and children had sat imprisoned in the silent chamber, watching the large prostrate figure on the bed, and trembling lest the blank face should suddenly show some response to the sounds which fell on their own ears with such obstinate, painful repetition.

2But it was over at last, that time of importunate certainty and eye-straining suspense. The sharp sound of a voice, almost as metallic as the rap that followed it, had ceased; the tramping of footsteps on the gravel had died out. Mrs Tulliver’s blond face seemed aged ten years by the last thirty hours; the poor womans mind had been busy divining when her favourite things were being knocked down by the terrible hammer; her heart had been fluttering at the thought that first one thing and then another had gone to be identified as hers in the hateful publicity of the Golden Lion; and all the while she had to sit and make no sign of this inward agitation. Such things bring lines in well-rounded faces, and broaden the streaks of white among the hairs that once looked as if they had been dipped in pure sunshine. Already, at three oclock, Kezia, the good-hearted, bad-tempered housemaid, who regarded all people that came to the sale as her personal enemies, the dirt on whose feet was of a peculiarly vile quality, had begun to scrub and swill with an energy much assisted by a continual low muttering againstfolks as came to buy up other folks things,” and made light of “scrazing” the tops of mahogany tables over which better folks than themselves had had tosuffer a waste of tissue through evaporation. She was not scrubbing indiscriminately, for there would be further dirt of the same atrocious kind made by people who had still to fetch away their purchases; but she was bent on bringing the parlour, where thatpipe-smoking pig,” the bailiff, had sat, to such an appearance of scant comfort as could be given to it by cleanliness and the few articles of furniture bought in for the family. Her mistress and the young folks should have their tea in it that night, Kezia was determined.

3It was between five and six oclock, near the usual teatime, when she came upstairs and said that Master Tom was wanted. The person who wanted him was in the kitchen, and in the first moments, by the imperfect fire and candle light, Tom had not even an indefinite sense of any acquaintance with the rather broad-set but active figure, perhaps two years older than himself, that looked at him with a pair of blue eyes set in a disc of freckles, and pulled some curly red locks with a strong intention of respect. A low-crowned oilskin-covered hat, and a certain shiny deposit of dirt on the rest of the costume, as of tablets prepared for writing upon, suggested a calling that had to do with boats; but this did not help Toms memory.

4“Sarvant, Master Tom,” said he of the red locks, with a smile which seemed to break through a self-imposed air of melancholy. You dont know me again, I doubt,” he went on, as Tom continued to look at him inquiringly; “but Id like to talk to you by yourself a bit, please.”

5Theres a fire ithe parlour, Master Tom,” said Kezia, who objected to leaving the kitchen in the crisis of toasting.

6Come this way, then,” said Tom, wondering if this young fellow belonged to Guest & Co. s Wharf, for his imagination ran continually toward that particular spot; and uncle Deane might any time be sending for him to say that there was a situation at liberty.

7The bright fire in the parlour was the only light that showed the few chairs, the bureau, the carpetless floor, and the one tableno, not the one table; there was a second table, in a corner, with a large Bible and a few other books upon it. It was this new strange bareness that Tom felt first, before he thought of looking again at the face which was also lit up by the fire, and which stole a half-shy, questioning glance at him as the entirely strange voice said:

8Why! you dont remember Bob, then, as you gen the pocket-knife to, Mr Tom?”

9The rough-handled pocket-knife was taken out in the same moment, and the largest blade opened by way of irresistible demonstration.

10What! Bob Jakin?” said Tom, not with any cordial delight, for he felt a little ashamed of that early intimacy symbolised by the pocket-knife, and was not at all sure that Bobs motives for recalling it were entirely admirable.

11Ay, ay, Bob Jakin, if Jakin it must be, ’cause theres so many Bobs as you went arter the squerrils with, that day as I plumped right down from the bough, and bruised my shins a good unbut I got the squerril tight for all that, ana scratter it was. Anthis littlish blades broke, you see, but I wouldn’t hev a new un put in, ’cause they might be cheatin’ me an’ givin’ me another knife instid, for there isn’t such a blade ithe country,—its got used to my hand, like. Anthere was niver nobody else gen me nothin’ but what I got by my own sharpness, only you, Mr Tom; if it wasn’t Bill Fawks as gen me the terrier pup istid o’ drowndin’t it, anI had to jaw him a good un afore hed give it me.”

12Bob spoke with a sharp and rather treble volubility, and got through his long speech with surprising despatch, giving the blade of his knife an affectionate rub on his sleeve when he had finished.

13Well, Bob,” said Tom, with a slight air of patronage, the foregoing reminscences having disposed him to be as friendly as was becoming, though there was no part of his acquaintance with Bob that he remembered better than the cause of their parting quarrel; “is there anything I can do for you?”

14Why, no, Mr Tom,” answered Bob, shutting up his knife with a click and returning it to his pocket, where he seemed to be feeling for something else. I shouldn’t hacome back upon you now yere itrouble, anfolks say as the master, as I used to frighten the birds for, anhe flogged me a bit for fun when he catched me eatin’ the turnip, as they say hell niver lift up his head no more,—I shouldn’t hacome now to ax you to gime another knifecause you gen me one afore. If a chap gives me one black eye, thats enough for me; I shant ax him for another afore I sarve him out; ana good turns worth as much as a bad un, anyhow. I shall niver grow down’ards again, Mr Tom, anyou war the little chap as I liked the best when I war a little chap, for all you leathered me, and wouldn’t look at me again. Theres Dick Brumby, there, I could leather him as much as Id a mind; but lors! you get tired o’ leatherin’ a chap when you can niver make him see what you want him to shy at. In seen chaps as ’ud stand starin’ at a bough till their eyes shot out, afore theyd see as a birds tail warnt a leaf. Its poor work goin’ wisuch raff. But you war allays a rare un at shying, Mr Tom, anI could trusten to you for droppin’ down wiyour stick in the nick otime at a runnin’ rat, or a stoat, or that, when I war a-beatin’ the bushes.”

15Bob had drawn out a dirty canvas bag, and would perhaps not have paused just then if Maggie had not entered the room and darted a look of surprise and curiosity at him, whereupon he pulled his red locks again with due respect. But the next moment the sense of the altered room came upon Maggie with a force that overpowered the thought of Bobs presence. Her eyes had immediately glanced from him to the place where the bookcase had hung; there was nothing now but the oblong unfaded space on the wall, and below it the small table with the Bible and the few other books.

16Oh, Tom!” she burst out, clasping her hands, “where are the books? I thought my uncle Glegg said he would buy them. Didn’t he? Are those all theyve left us?”

17I suppose so,” said Tom, with a sort of desperate indifference. Why should they buy many books when they bought so little furniture?”

18Oh, but, Tom,” said Maggie, her eyes filling with tears, as she rushed up to the table to see what books had been rescued. “Our dear old Pilgrims Progress that you coloured with your little paints; and that picture of Pilgrim with a mantle on, looking just like a turtleoh dear!” Maggie went on, half sobbing as she turned over the few books, “I thought we should never part with that while we lived; everything is going away from us; the end of our lives will have nothing in it like the beginning!”

19Maggie turned away from the table and threw herself into a chair, with the big tears ready to roll down her cheeks, quite blinded to the presence of Bob, who was looking at her with the pursuant gaze of an intelligent dumb animal, with perceptions more perfect than his comprehension.

20Well, Bob,” said Tom, feeling that the subject of the books was unseasonable, “I suppose you just came to see me because were in trouble? That was very good-natured of you.”

21Ill tell you how it is, Master Tom,” said Bob, beginning to untwist his canvas bag. “You see, In been with a barge this twoear; thats how In been gettin’ my livin’,—if it wasn’t when I was tentin’ the furnace, between whiles, at Torry’s mill. But a fortni’t ago Id a rare bit oluck,—I allays thought I was a lucky chap, for I niver set a trap but what I catched something; but this wasn’t trap, it was a fire i’ Torry’s mill, anI doused it, else it ’ud set thoil alight, anthe genelman gen me ten suvreigns; he gen meem himself last week. Anhe said first, I was a sperrited chap,—but I knowed that afore,—but then he outs withe ten suvreigns, anthat war summat new. Here they are, all but one!” Here Bob emptied the canvas bag on the table. Anwhen Id gotem, my head was all of a boil like a kettle obroth, thinkin’ what sort olife I should take to, for there war a many trades Id thought on; for as for the barge, Im clean tired out wit, for it pulls the days out till theyre as long as pigschitterlings. AnI thought first Id haferrets andogs, anbe a rat-catcher; anthen I thought as I should like a bigger way olife, as I didn’t know so well; for In seen to the bottom orat-catching; anI thought, anthought, till at last I settled Id be a packman,—for theyre knowin’ fellers, the packmen are,—anId carry the lightest things I could imy pack; anthered be a use for a fellers tongue, as is no use neither wirats nor barges. AnI should go about the country far anwide, ancome round the women wimy tongue, anget my dinner hot at the public,—lors! it ’ud be a lovely life!”

22Bob paused, and then said, with defiant decision, as if resolutely turning his back on that paradisaic picture:

23But I dont mind about it, not a chip! AnIn changed one othe suvreigns to buy my mother a goose for dinner, anIn bought a blue plush wescoat, ana sealskin cap,—for if I meant to be a packman, Id do it respectable. But I dont mind about it, not a chip! My yead isn’t a turnip, anI shall pr’aps have a chance odousing another fire afore long. Im a lucky chap. So Ill thank you to take the nine suvreigns, Mr Tom, and set yoursen up withem somehow, if its true as the masters broke. They mayn’t go fur enough, but theyll help.”

24Tom was touched keenly enough to forget his pride and suspicion.

25Youre a very kind fellow, Bob,” he said, colouring, with that little diffident tremor in his voice which gave a certain charm even to Toms pride and severity, “and I shant forget you again, though I didn’t know you this evening. But I cant take the nine sovereigns; I should be taking your little fortune from you, and they wouldn’t do me much good either.”

26“Wouldn’t they, Mr Tom?” said Bob, regretfully. Now dont say socause you think I wantem. I aren’t a poor chap. My mother gets a good penn’orth wipicking feathers anthings; anif she eats nothin’ but bread-an’-water, it runs to fat. AnIm such a lucky chap; anI doubt you aren’t quite so lucky, Mr Tom,—thold master isn’t, anyhow,—anso you might take a slice omy luck, anno harm done. Lors! I found a leg opork ithe river one day; it had tumbled out oone othem round-sterned Dutchmen, Ill be bound. Come, think better on it, Mr Tom, for old ’quinetance’ sake, else I shall think you bear me a grudge.”

27Bob pushed the sovereigns forward, but before Tom could speak Maggie, clasping her hands, and looking penitently at Bob, said:

28Oh, Im so sorry, Bob; I never thought you were so good. Why, I think youre the kindest person in the world!”

29Bob had not been aware of the injurious opinion for which Maggie was performing an inward act of penitence, but he smiled with pleasure at this handsome eulogy,—especially from a young lass who, as he informed his mother that evening, hadsuch uncommon eyes, they looked somehow as they made him feel nohow.”

30No, indeed Bob, I cant take them,” said Tom; “but dont think I feel your kindness less because I say no. I dont want to take anything from anybody, but to work my own way. And those sovereigns wouldn’t help me muchthey wouldn’t reallyif I were to take them. Let me shake hands with you instead.”

31Tom put out his pink palm, and Bob was not slow to place his hard, grimy hand within it.

32Let me put the sovereigns in the bag again,” said Maggie; “and youll come and see us when youve bought your pack, Bob.”

33Its like as if Id come out omake believe, opurpose to showem you,” said Bob, with an air of discontent, as Maggie gave him the bag again, “a-takingem back ithis way. I am a bit of a Do, you know; but it isn’t that sort oDo,—its ony when a fellers a big rogue, or a big flat, I like to let him in a bit, thats all.”

34Now, dont you be up to any tricks, Bob,” said Tom, “else youll get transported some day.”

35No, no; not me, Mr Tom,” said Bob, with an air of cheerful confidence. Theres no law againflea-bites. If I wasn’t to take a fool in now and then, hed niver get any wiser. But, lors! hev a suvreign to buy you and Miss summat, ony for a tokenjust to match my pocket-knife.”

36While Bob was speaking he laid down the sovereign, and resolutely twisted up his bag again. Tom pushed back the gold, and said, “No, indeed, Bob; thank you heartily, but I cant take it.” And Maggie, taking it between her fingers, held it up to Bob and said, more persuasively:

37Not now, but perhaps another time. If ever Tom or my father wants help that you can give, well let you know; wont we, Tom? Thats what you would like,—to have us always depend on you as a friend that we can go to,—isn’t it, Bob?”

38Yes, Miss, and thank you,” said Bob, reluctantly taking the money; “thats what Id like, anything as you like. AnI wish you good-by, Miss, and good-luck, Mr Tom, and thank you for shaking hands wime, though you wouldn’t take the money.”

39Kezia’s entrance, with very black looks, to inquire if she shouldn’t bring in the tea now, or whether the toast was to get hardened to a brick, was a seasonable check on Bobs flux of words, and hastened his parting bow.