8. CHAPTER VIII. Anne’s Bringing-up Is Begun

Anne of Green Gables / 绿山墙的安妮 / 清秀佳人

1FOR reasons best known to herself, Marilla did not tell Anne that she was to stay at Green Gables until the next afternoon. During the forenoon she kept the child busy with various tasks and watched over her with a keen eye while she did them. By noon she had concluded that Anne was smart and obedient, willing to work and quick to learn; her most serious shortcoming seemed to be a tendency to fall into daydreams in the middle of a task and forget all about it until such time as she was sharply recalled to earth by a reprimand or a catastrophe.

2When Anne had finished washing the dinner dishes she suddenly confronted Marilla with the air and expression of one desperately determined to learn the worst. Her thin little body trembled from head to foot; her face flushed and her eyes dilated until they were almost black; she clasped her hands tightly and said in an imploring voice:

3Oh, please, Miss Cuthbert, wont you tell me if you are going to send me away or not? Ive tried to be patient all the morning, but I really feel that I cannot bear not knowing any longer. Its a dreadful feeling. Please tell me.”

4You havent scalded the dishcloth in clean hot water as I told you to do,” said Marilla immovably. Just go and do it before you ask any more questions, Anne.”

5Anne went and attended to the dishcloth. Then she returned to Marilla and fastened imploring eyes of the latters face. Well,” said Marilla, unable to find any excuse for deferring her explanation longer, “I suppose I might as well tell you. Matthew and I have decided to keep youthat is, if you will try to be a good little girl and show yourself grateful. Why, child, whatever is the matter?”

6Im crying,” said Anne in a tone of bewilderment. I cant think why. Im glad as glad can be. Oh, glad doesn’t seem the right word at all. I was glad about the White Way and the cherry blossomsbut this! Oh, its something more than glad. Im so happy. Ill try to be so good. It will be uphill work, I expect, for Mrs. Thomas often told me I was desperately wicked. However, Ill do my very best. But can you tell me why Im crying?”

7I suppose its because youre all excited and worked up,” said Marilla disapprovingly. Sit down on that chair and try to calm yourself. Im afraid you both cry and laugh far too easily. Yes, you can stay here and we will try to do right by you. You must go to school; but its only a fortnight till vacation so it isn’t worth while for you to start before it opens again in September.”

8What am I to call you?” asked Anne. Shall I always say Miss Cuthbert? Can I call you Aunt Marilla?”

9No; youll call me just plain Marilla. Im not used to being called Miss Cuthbert and it would make me nervous.”

10It sounds awfully disrespectful to just say Marilla,” protested Anne.

11I guess therell be nothing disrespectful in it if youre careful to speak respectfully. Everybody, young and old, in Avonlea calls me Marilla except the minister. He says Miss Cuthbert—when he thinks of it.”

12Id love to call you Aunt Marilla,” said Anne wistfully. Ive never had an aunt or any relation at allnot even a grandmother. It would make me feel as if I really belonged to you. Cant I call you Aunt Marilla?”

13No. Im not your aunt and I dont believe in calling people names that dont belong to them.”

14But we could imagine you were my aunt.”

15I couldn’t,” said Marilla grimly.

16Do you never imagine things different from what they really are?” asked Anne wide-eyed.

17No.”

18Oh!” Anne drew a long breath. Oh, Miss—Marilla, how much you miss!”

19I dont believe in imagining things different from what they really are,” retorted Marilla. When the Lord puts us in certain circumstances He doesn’t mean for us to imagine them away. And that reminds me. Go into the sitting room, Annebe sure your feet are clean and dont let any flies inand bring me out the illustrated card thats on the mantelpiece. The Lords Prayer is on it and youll devote your spare time this afternoon to learning it off by heart. Theres to be no more of such praying as I heard last night.”

20I suppose I was very awkward,” said Anne apologetically, “but then, you see, Id never had any practice. You couldn’t really expect a person to pray very well the first time she tried, could you? I thought out a splendid prayer after I went to bed, just as I promised you I would. It was nearly as long as a ministers and so poetical. But would you believe it? I couldn’t remember one word when I woke up this morning. And Im afraid Ill never be able to think out another one as good. Somehow, things never are so good when theyre thought out a second time. Have you ever noticed that?”

21Here is something for you to notice, Anne. When I tell you to do a thing I want you to obey me at once and not stand stock-still and discourse about it. Just you go and do as I bid you.”

22Anne promptly departed for the sitting-room across the hall; she failed to return; after waiting ten minutes Marilla laid down her knitting and marched after her with a grim expression. She found Anne standing motionless before a picture hanging on the wall between the two windows, with her eyes a-star with dreams. The white and green light strained through apple trees and clustering vines outside fell over the rapt little figure with a half-unearthly radiance.

23Anne, whatever are you thinking of?” demanded Marilla sharply.

24Anne came back to earth with a start.

25That,” she said, pointing to the picturea rather vivid chromo entitled, “Christ Blessing Little Children”—“and I was just imagining I was one of themthat I was the little girl in the blue dress, standing off by herself in the corner as if she didn’t belong to anybody, like me. She looks lonely and sad, dont you think? I guess she hadn’t any father or mother of her own. But she wanted to be blessed, too, so she just crept shyly up on the outside of the crowd, hoping nobody would notice herexcept Him. Im sure I know just how she felt. Her heart must have beat and her hands must have got cold, like mine did when I asked you if I could stay. She was afraid He mightn’t notice her. But its likely He did, dont you think? Ive been trying to imagine it all outher edging a little nearer all the time until she was quite close to Him; and then He would look at her and put His hand on her hair and oh, such a thrill of joy as would run over her! But I wish the artist hadn’t painted Him so sorrowful looking. All His pictures are like that, if youve noticed. But I dont believe He could really have looked so sad or the children would have been afraid of Him.”

26Anne,” said Marilla, wondering why she had not broken into this speech long before, “you shouldn’t talk that way. Its irreverentpositively irreverent.”

27Annes eyes marveled.

28Why, I felt just as reverent as could be. Im sure I didn’t mean to be irreverent.”

29Well I dont suppose you didbut it doesn’t sound right to talk so familiarly about such things. And another thing, Anne, when I send you after something youre to bring it at once and not fall into mooning and imagining before pictures. Remember that. Take that card and come right to the kitchen. Now, sit down in the corner and learn that prayer off by heart.”

30Anne set the card up against the jugful of apple blossoms she had brought in to decorate the dinner-table—Marilla had eyed that decoration askance, but had said nothingpropped her chin on her hands, and fell to studying it intently for several silent minutes.

31I like this,” she announced at length. Its beautiful. Ive heard it beforeI heard the superintendent of the asylum Sunday school say it over once. But I didn’t like it then. He had such a cracked voice and he prayed it so mournfully. I really felt sure he thought praying was a disagreeable duty. This isn’t poetry, but it makes me feel just the same way poetry does. ‘Our Father who art in heaven hallowed be Thy name.’ That is just like a line of music. Oh, Im so glad you thought of making me learn this, Miss—Marilla.”

32Well, learn it and hold your tongue,” said Marilla shortly.

33Anne tipped the vase of apple blossoms near enough to bestow a soft kiss on a pink-cupped bud, and then studied diligently for some moments longer.

34“Marilla,” she demanded presently, “do you think that I shall ever have a bosom friend in Avonlea?”

35Aa what kind of friend?”

36A bosom friendan intimate friend, you knowa really kindred spirit to whom I can confide my inmost soul. Ive dreamed of meeting her all my life. I never really supposed I would, but so many of my loveliest dreams have come true all at once that perhaps this one will, too. Do you think its possible?”

37Diana Barry lives over at Orchard Slope and shes about your age. Shes a very nice little girl, and perhaps she will be a playmate for you when she comes home. Shes visiting her aunt over at Carmody just now. Youll have to be careful how you behave yourself, though. Mrs. Barry is a very particular woman. She wont let Diana play with any little girl who isn’t nice and good.”

38Anne looked at Marilla through the apple blossoms, her eyes aglow with interest.

39What is Diana like? Her hair isn’t red, is it? Oh, I hope not. Its bad enough to have red hair myself, but I positively couldn’t endure it in a bosom friend.”

40Diana is a very pretty little girl. She has black eyes and hair and rosy cheeks. And she is good and smart, which is better than being pretty.”

41Marilla was as fond of morals as the Duchess in Wonderland, and was firmly convinced that one should be tacked on to every remark made to a child who was being brought up.

42But Anne waved the moral inconsequently aside and seized only on the delightful possibilities before it.

43Oh, Im so glad shes pretty. Next to being beautiful oneselfand thats impossible in my caseit would be best to have a beautiful bosom friend. When I lived with Mr s. Thomas she had a bookcase in her sitting room with glass door s. There weren’t any books in it; Mr s. Thomas kept her best china and her preserves therewhen she had any preserves to keep. One of the doors was broken. M r. Thomas smashed it one night when he was slightly intoxicated. But the other was whole and I used to pretend that my reflection in it was another little girl who lived in it. I called her Katie Maurice, and we were very intimate. I used to talk to her by the hour, especially on Sunday, and tell her everything. Katie was the comfort and consolation of my life. We used to pretend that the bookcase was enchanted and that if I only knew the spell I could open the door and step right into the room where Katie Maurice lived, instead of into Mr s. Thomasshelves of preserves and china. And then Katie Maurice would have taken me by the hand and led me out into a wonderful place, all flowers and sunshine and fairies, and we would have lived there happy for ever afte r. When I went to live with Mr s. Hammond it just broke my heart to leave Katie Maurice. She felt it dreadfully, too, I know she did, for she was crying when she kissed me good-bye through the bookcase doo r. There was no bookcase at Mr s. Hammond’ s. But just up the river a little way from the house there was a long green little valley, and the loveliest echo lived there. It echoed back every word you said, even if you didn’t talk a bit loud. So I imagined that it was a little girl called Violetta and we were great friends and I loved her almost as well as I loved Katie Mauricenot quite, but almost, you know. The night before I went to the asylum I said good-bye to Violetta, and oh, her good-bye came back to me in such sad, sad tone s. I had become so attached to her that I hadn’t the heart to imagine a bosom friend at the asylum, even if there had been any scope for imagination there.

44I think its just as well there wasn’t,” said Marilla drily. I dont approve of such goings-on. You seem to half believe your own imaginations. It will be well for you to have a real live friend to put such nonsense out of your head. But dont let Mrs. Barry hear you talking about your Katie Maurices and your Violettas or shell think you tell stories.”

45Oh, I wont. I couldn’t talk of them to everybodytheir memories are too sacred for that. But I thought Id like to have you know about them. Oh, look, heres a big bee just tumbled out of an apple blossom. Just think what a lovely place to livein an apple blossom! Fancy going to sleep in it when the wind was rocking it. If I wasn’t a human girl I think Id like to be a bee and live among the flowers.”

46Yesterday you wanted to be a sea gull,” sniffed Marilla. I think you are very fickle minded. I told you to learn that prayer and not talk. But it seems impossible for you to stop talking if youve got anybody that will listen to you. So go up to your room and learn it.”

47Oh, I know it pretty nearly all nowall but just the last line.”

48Well, never mind, do as I tell you. Go to your room and finish learning it well, and stay there until I call you down to help me get tea.”

49Can I take the apple blossoms with me for company?” pleaded Anne.

50No; you dont want your room cluttered up with flowers. You should have left them on the tree in the first place.”

51I did feel a little that way, too,” said Anne. I kind of felt I shouldn’t shorten their lovely lives by picking themI wouldn’t want to be picked if I were an apple blossom. But the temptation was irresistible. What do you do when you meet with an irresistible temptation?”

52Anne, did you hear me tell you to go to your room?”

53Anne sighed, retreated to the east gable, and sat down in a chair by the window.

54ThereI know this prayer. I learned that last sentence coming upstairs. Now Im going to imagine things into this room so that theyll always stay imagined. The floor is covered with a white velvet carpet with pink roses all over it and there are pink silk curtains at the windows. The walls are hung with gold and silver brocade tapestry. The furniture is mahogany. I never saw any mahogany, but it does sound so luxurious. This is a couch all heaped with gorgeous silken cushions, pink and blue and crimson and gold, and I am reclining gracefully on it. I can see my reflection in that splendid big mirror hanging on the wall. I am tall and regal, clad in a gown of trailing white lace, with a pearl cross on my breast and pearls in my hair. My hair is of midnight darkness and my skin is a clear ivory pallor. My name is the Lady Cordelia Fitzgerald. No, it isn’tI cant make that seem real.”

55She danced up to the little looking-glass and peered into it. Her pointed freckled face and solemn gray eyes peered back at her.

56Youre only Anne of Green Gables,” she said earnestly, “and I see you, just as you are looking now, whenever I try to imagine Im the Lady Cordelia. But its a million times nicer to be Anne of Green Gables than Anne of nowhere in particular, isn’t it?”

57She bent forward, kissed her reflection affectionately, and betook herself to the open window.

58Dear Snow Queen, good afternoon. And good afternoon dear birches down in the hollow. And good afternoon, dear gray house up on the hill. I wonder if Diana is to be my bosom friend. I hope she will, and I shall love her very much. But I must never quite forget Katie Maurice and Violetta. They would feel so hurt if I did and Id hate to hurt anybodys feelings, even a little bookcase girls or a little echo girls. I must be careful to remember them and send them a kiss every day.”

59Anne blew a couple of airy kisses from her fingertips past the cherry blossoms and then, with her chin in her hands, drifted luxuriously out on a sea of daydreams.