294. CHAPTER VI—THE AGONY OF DEATH AFTER THE AGONY OF LIFE

Les Misérables / 悲惨世界

1A peculiarity of this species of war is, that the attack of the barricades is almost always made from the front, and that the assailants generally abstain from turning the position, either because they fear ambushes, or because they are afraid of getting entangled in the tortuous streets. The insurgentswhole attention had been directed, therefore, to the grand barricade, which was, evidently, the spot always menaced, and there the struggle would infallibly recommence. But Marius thought of the little barricade, and went thither. It was deserted and guarded only by the fire-pot which trembled between the paving-stones. Moreover, the Mondétour alley, and the branches of the Rue de la Petite Truanderie and the Rue du Cygne were profoundly calm.

2As Marius was withdrawing, after concluding his inspection, he heard his name pronounced feebly in the darkness.

3“Monsieur Marius!”

4He started, for he recognized the voice which had called to him two hours before through the gate in the Rue Plumet.

5Only, the voice now seemed to be nothing more than a breath.

6He looked about him, but saw no one.

7Marius thought he had been mistaken, that it was an illusion added by his mind to the extraordinary realities which were clashing around him. He advanced a step, in order to quit the distant recess where the barricade lay.

8“Monsieur Marius!” repeated the voice.

9This time he could not doubt that he had heard it distinctly; he looked and saw nothing.

10At your feet,” said the voice.

11He bent down, and saw in the darkness a form which was dragging itself towards him.

12It was crawling along the pavement. It was this that had spoken to him.

13The fire-pot allowed him to distinguish a blouse, torn trousers of coarse velvet, bare feet, and something which resembled a pool of blood. Marius indistinctly made out a pale head which was lifted towards him and which was saying to him:—

14You do not recognize me?”

15No.”

16“Éponine.”

17Marius bent hastily down. It was, in fact, that unhappy child. She was dressed in mens clothes.

18How come you here? What are you doing here?”

19I am dying,” said she.

20There are words and incidents which arouse dejected beings. Marius cried out with a start:—

21You are wounded! Wait, I will carry you into the room! They will attend to you there. Is it serious? How must I take hold of you in order not to hurt you? Where do you suffer? Help! My God! But why did you come hither?”

22And he tried to pass his arm under her, in order to raise her.

23She uttered a feeble cry.

24Have I hurt you?” asked Marius.

25A little.”

26But I only touched your hand.”

27She raised her hand to Marius, and in the middle of that hand Marius saw a black hole.

28What is the matter with your hand?” said he.

29It is pierced.”

30Pierced?”

31Yes.”

32What with?”

33A bullet.”

34How?”

35Did you see a gun aimed at you?”

36Yes, and a hand stopping it.”

37It was mine.”

38Marius was seized with a shudder.

39What madness! Poor child! But so much the better, if that is all, it is nothing, let me carry you to a bed. They will dress your wound; one does not die of a pierced hand.”

40She murmured:—

41The bullet traversed my hand, but it came out through my back. It is useless to remove me from this spot. I will tell you how you can care for me better than any surgeon. Sit down near me on this stone.”

42He obeyed; she laid her head on Marius’ knees, and, without looking at him, she said:—

43Oh! How good this is! How comfortable this is! There; I no longer suffer.”

44She remained silent for a moment, then she turned her face with an effort, and looked at Marius.

45Do you know what, Monsieur Marius? It puzzled me because you entered that garden; it was stupid, because it was I who showed you that house; and then, I ought to have said to myself that a young man like you—”

46She paused, and overstepping the sombre transitions that undoubtedly existed in her mind, she resumed with a heartrending smile:—

47You thought me ugly, didn’t you?”

48She continued:—

49You see, you are lost! Now, no one can get out of the barricade. It was I who led you here, by the way! You are going to die, I count upon that. And yet, when I saw them taking aim at you, I put my hand on the muzzle of the gun. How queer it is! But it was because I wanted to die before you. When I received that bullet, I dragged myself here, no one saw me, no one picked me up, I was waiting for you, I said: ‘So he is not coming!’ Oh, if you only knew. I bit my blouse, I suffered so! Now I am well. Do you remember the day I entered your chamber and when I looked at myself in your mirror, and the day when I came to you on the boulevard near the washerwomen? How the birds sang! That was a long time ago. You gave me a hundred sous, and I said to you: ‘I dont want your money.’ I hope you picked up your coin? You are not rich. I did not think to tell you to pick it up. The sun was shining bright, and it was not cold. Do you remember, Monsieur Marius? Oh! How happy I am! Every one is going to die.”

50She had a mad, grave, and heart-breaking air. Her torn blouse disclosed her bare throat.

51As she talked, she pressed her pierced hand to her breast, where there was another hole, and whence there spurted from moment to moment a stream of blood, like a jet of wine from an open bung-hole.

52Marius gazed at this unfortunate creature with profound compassion.

53Oh!” she resumed, “it is coming again, I am stifling!”

54She caught up her blouse and bit it, and her limbs stiffened on the pavement.

55At that moment the young cocks crow executed by little Gavroche resounded through the barricade.

56The child had mounted a table to load his gun, and was singing gayly the song then so popular:—

57En voyant Lafayette,

58Le gendarme répète:—

59Sauvons nous! sauvons nous!

60sauvons nous!

61On beholding Lafayette,

62The gendarme repeats:—

63Let us flee! let us flee!

64let us flee!

65Éponine raised herself and listened; then she murmured:—

66It is he.”

67And turning to Marius:—

68My brother is here. He must not see me. He would scold me.”

69Your brother?” inquired Marius, who was meditating in the most bitter and sorrowful depths of his heart on the duties to the Thénardiers which his father had bequeathed to him; “who is your brother?”

70That little fellow.”

71The one who is singing?”

72Yes.”

73Marius made a movement.

74Oh! dont go away,” said she, “it will not be long now.”

75She was sitting almost upright, but her voice was very low and broken by hiccoughs.

76At intervals, the death rattle interrupted her. She put her face as near that of Marius as possible. She added with a strange expression:—

77Listen, I do not wish to play you a trick. I have a letter in my pocket for you. I was told to put it in the post. I kept it. I did not want to have it reach you. But perhaps you will be angry with me for it when we meet again presently? Take your letter.”

78She grasped Marius’ hand convulsively with her pierced hand, but she no longer seemed to feel her sufferings. She put Marius’ hand in the pocket of her blouse. There, in fact, Marius felt a paper.

79Take it,” said she.

80Marius took the letter.

81She made a sign of satisfaction and contentment.

82Now, for my trouble, promise me—”

83And she stopped.

84What?” asked Marius.

85Promise me!”

86I promise.”

87Promise to give me a kiss on my brow when I am dead.—I shall feel it.”

88She dropped her head again on Marius’ knees, and her eyelids closed. He thought the poor soul had departed. Éponine remained motionless. All at once, at the very moment when Marius fancied her asleep forever, she slowly opened her eyes in which appeared the sombre profundity of death, and said to him in a tone whose sweetness seemed already to proceed from another world:—

89And by the way, Monsieur Marius, I believe that I was a little bit in love with you.”

90She tried to smile once more and expired.