33. Chapter XXXIII “He Just Kept Coming and Coming”

Anne of the Island / 女大学生安妮 / 小岛上的安妮

1Three days later Anne came home from school and found Janet crying. Tears and Janet seemed so incongruous that Anne was honestly alarmed.

2Oh, what is the matter?” she cried anxiously.

3ImIm forty today,” sobbed Janet.

4Well, you were nearly that yesterday and it didn’t hurt,” comforted Anne, trying not to smile.

5Butbut,” went on Janet with a big gulp, “John Douglas wont ask me to marry him.”

6Oh, but he will,” said Anne lamely. You must give him time, Janet

7Time!” said Janet with indescribable scorn. He has had twenty years. How much time does he want?”

8Do you mean that John Douglas has been coming to see you for twenty years?”

9He has. And he has never so much as mentioned marriage to me. And I dont believe he ever will now. Ive never said a word to a mortal about it, but it seems to me Ive just got to talk it out with some one at last or go crazy. John Douglas begun to go with me twenty years ago, before mother died. Well, he kept coming and coming, and after a spell I begun making quilts and things; but he never said anything about getting married, only just kept coming and coming. There wasn’t anything I could do. Mother died when wed been going together for eight years. I thought he maybe would speak out then, seeing as I was left alone in the world. He was real kind and feeling, and did everything he could for me, but he never said marry. And thats the way it has been going on ever since. People blame me for it. They say I wont marry him because his mother is so sickly and I dont want the bother of waiting on her. Why, Id love to wait on Johns mother! But I let them think so. Id rather theyd blame me than pity me! Its so dreadful humiliating that John wont ask me. And why wont he? Seems to me if I only knew his reason I wouldn’t mind it so much.”

10Perhaps his mother doesn’t want him to marry anybody,” suggested Anne.

11Oh, she does. Shes told me time and again that shed love to see John settled before her time comes. Shes always giving him hintsyou heard her yourself the other day. I thought Id hagone through the floor.”

12Its beyond me,” said Anne helplessly. She thought of Ludovic Speed. But the cases were not parallel. John Douglas was not a man of Ludovic’s type.

13You should show more spirit, Janet,” she went on resolutely. Why didn’t you send him about his business long ago?”

14I couldn’t,” said poor Janet pathetically. You see, Anne, Ive always been awful fond of John. He might just as well keep coming as not, for there was never anybody else Id want, so it didn’t matter.”

15But it might have made him speak out like a man,” urged Anne.

16Janet shook her head.

17No, I guess not. I was afraid to try, anyway, for fear hed think I meant it and just go. I suppose Im a poor-spirited creature, but that is how I feel. And I cant help it.”

18Oh, you could help it, Janet. It isn’t too late yet. Take a firm stand. Let that man know you are not going to endure his shillyshallying any longer. Ill back you up.”

19I dunno,” said Janet hopelessly. I dunno if I could ever get up enough spunk. Things have drifted so long. But Ill think it over.”

20Anne felt that she was disappointed in John Douglas. She had liked him so well, and she had not thought him the sort of man who would play fast and loose with a womans feelings for twenty years. He certainly should be taught a lesson, and Anne felt vindictively that she would enjoy seeing the process. Therefore she was delighted when Janet told her, as they were going to prayer-meeting the next night, that she meant to show some “sperrit.”

21Ill let John Douglas see Im not going to be trodden on any longer.”

22You are perfectly right,” said Anne emphatically.

23When prayer-meeting was over John Douglas came up with his usual request. Janet looked frightened but resolute.

24No, thank you,” she said icily. I know the road home pretty well alone. I ought to, seeing Ive been traveling it for forty years. So you needn’t trouble yourself, Mr. Douglas.”

25Anne was looking at John Douglas; and, in that brilliant moonlight, she saw the last twist of the rack again. Without a word he turned and strode down the road.

26Stop! Stop!” Anne called wildly after him, not caring in the least for the other dumbfounded onlookers. Mr. Douglas, stop! Come back.”

27John Douglas stopped but he did not come back. Anne flew down the road, caught his arm and fairly dragged him back to Janet.

28You must come back,” she said imploringly. Its all a mistake, Mr. Douglasall my fault. I made Janet do it. She didn’t want tobut its all right now, isn’t it, Janet?”

29Without a word Janet took his arm and walked away. Anne followed them meekly home and slipped in by the back door.

30Well, you are a nice person to back me up,” said Janet sarcastically.

31I couldn’t help it, Janet,” said Anne repentantly. I just felt as if I had stood by and seen murder done. I had to run after him.”

32Oh, Im just as glad you did. When I saw John Douglas making off down that road I just felt as if every little bit of joy and happiness that was left in my life was going with him. It was an awful feeling.”

33Did he ask you why you did it?” asked Anne.

34No, he never said a word about it,” replied Janet dully.