19. XIX Just a Happy Day

Anne of Avonlea / 少女安妮

1After all,” Anne had said to Marilla once, “I believe the nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid or wonderful or exciting happens but just those that bring simple little pleasures, following one another softly, like pearls slipping off a string.”

2Life at Green Gables was full of just such days, for Annes adventures and misadventures, like those of other people, did not all happen at once, but were sprinkled over the year, with long stretches of harmless, happy days between, filled with work and dreams and laughter and lessons. Such a day came late in August. In the forenoon Anne and Diana rowed the delighted twins down the pond to the sandshore to picksweet grassand paddle in the surf, over which the wind was harping an old lyric learned when the world was young.

3In the afternoon Anne walked down to the old Irving place to see Paul. She found him stretched out on the grassy bank beside the thick fir grove that sheltered the house on the north, absorbed in a book of fairy tales. He sprang up radiantly at sight of her.

4Oh, Im so glad youve come, teacher,” he said eagerly, “because Grandmas away. Youll stay and have tea with me, wont you? Its so lonesome to have tea all by oneself. You know, teacher. Ive had serious thoughts of asking Young Mary Joe to sit down and eat her tea with me, but I expect Grandma wouldn’t approve. She says the French have to be kept in their place. And anyhow, its difficult to talk with Young Mary Joe. She just laughs and says, ‘Well, yous do beat all de kids I ever knowed.’ That isn’t my idea of conversation.”

5Of course Ill stay to tea,” said Anne gaily. I was dying to be asked. My mouth has been watering for some more of your grandmas delicious shortbread ever since I had tea here before.”

6Paul looked very sober.

7If it depended on me, teacher,” he said, standing before Anne with his hands in his pockets and his beautiful little face shadowed with sudden care, “You should have shortbread with a right good will. But it depends on Mary Joe. I heard Grandma tell her before she left that she wasn’t to give me any shortcake because it was too rich for little boysstomachs. But maybe Mary Joe will cut some for you if I promise I wont eat any. Let us hope for the best.”

8Yes, let us,” agreed Anne, whom this cheerful philosophy suited exactly, “and if Mary Joe proves hard-hearted and wont give me any shortbread it doesn’t matter in the least, so you are not to worry over that.”

9Youre sure you wont mind if she doesn’t?” said Paul anxiously.

10Perfectly sure, dear heart.”

11Then I wont worry,” said Paul, with a long breath of relief, “especially as I really think Mary Joe will listen to reason. Shes not a naturally unreasonable person, but she has learned by experience that it doesn’t do to disobey Grandmas orders. Grandma is an excellent woman but people must do as she tells them. She was very much pleased with me this morning because I managed at last to eat all my plateful of porridge. It was a great effort but I succeeded. Grandma says she thinks shell make a man of me yet. But, teacher, I want to ask you a very important question. You will answer it truthfully, wont you?”

12Ill try,” promised Anne.

13Do you think Im wrong in my upper story?” asked Paul, as if his very existence depended on her reply.

14Goodness, no, Paul,” exclaimed Anne in amazement. Certainly youre not. What put such an idea into your head?”

15Mary Joe . . . but she didn’t know I heard her. Mrs. Peter Sloanes hired girl, Veronica, came to see Mary Joe last evening and I heard them talking in the kitchen as I was going through the hall. I heard Mary Joe say, ‘Dat Paul, he is de queeres’ leetle boy. He talks dat queer. I tink dere’s someting wrong in his upper story.’ I couldn’t sleep last night for ever so long, thinking of it, and wondering if Mary Joe was right. I couldn’t bear to ask Grandma about it somehow, but I made up my mind Id ask you. Im so glad you think Im all right in my upper story.”

16Of course you are. Mary Joe is a silly, ignorant girl, and you are never to worry about anything she says,” said Anne indignantly, secretly resolving to give Mrs. Irving a discreet hint as to the advisability of restraining Mary Joes tongue.

17Well, thats a weight off my mind,” said Paul. Im perfectly happy now, teacher, thanks to you. It wouldn’t be nice to have something wrong in your upper story, would it, teacher? I suppose the reason Mary Joe imagines I have is because I tell her what I think about things sometimes.”

18It is a rather dangerous practice,” admitted Anne, out of the depths of her own experience.

19Well, by and by Ill tell you the thoughts I told Mary Joe and you can see for yourself if theres anything queer in them,” said Paul, “but Ill wait till it begins to get dark. That is the time I ache to tell people things, and when nobody else is handy I just have to tell Mary Joe. But after this I wont, if it makes her imagine Im wrong in my upper story. Ill just ache and bear it.”

20And if the ache gets too bad you can come up to Green Gables and tell me your thoughts,” suggested Anne, with all the gravity that endeared her to children, who so dearly love to be taken seriously.

21Yes, I will. But I hope Davy wont be there when I go because he makes faces at me. I dont mind very much because he is such a little boy and I am quite a big one, but still it is not pleasant to have faces made at you. And Davy makes such terrible ones. Sometimes I am frightened he will never get his face straightened out again. He makes them at me in church when I ought to be thinking of sacred things. Dora likes me though, and I like her, but not so well as I did before she told Minnie May Barry that she meant to marry me when I grew up. I may marry somebody when I grow up but Im far too young to be thinking of it yet, dont you think, teacher?”

22Rather young,” agreed teacher.

23Speaking of marrying, reminds me of another thing that has been troubling me of late,” continued Paul. Mrs. Lynde was down here one day last week having tea with Grandma, and Grandma made me show her my little mothers picture . . . the one father sent me for my birthday present. I didn’t exactly want to show it to Mrs. Lynde. Mrs. Lynde is a good, kind woman, but she isn’t the sort of person you want to show your mothers picture to. You know, teacher. But of course I obeyed Grandma. Mrs. Lynde said she was very pretty but kind of actressy looking, and must have been an awful lot younger than father. Then she said, ‘Some of these days your pa will be marrying again likely. How will you like to have a new ma, Master Paul?’ Well, the idea almost took my breath away, teacher, but I wasn’t going to let Mrs. Lynde see that. I just looked her straight in the face . . . like this . . . and I said, ‘Mrs. Lynde, father made a pretty good job of picking out my first mother and I could trust him to pick out just as good a one the second time.’ And I can trust him, teacher. But still, I hope, if he ever does give me a new mother, hell ask my opinion about her before its too late. Theres Mary Joe coming to call us to tea. Ill go and consult with her about the shortbread.”

24As a result of theconsultation,” Mary Joe cut the shortbread and added a dish of preserves to the bill of fare. Anne poured the tea and she and Paul had a very merry meal in the dim old sitting room whose windows were open to the gulf breezes, and they talked so muchnonsensethat Mary Joe was quite scandalized and told Veronica the next evening thatde school mees” was as queer as Paul. After tea Paul took Anne up to his room to show her his mothers picture, which had been the mysterious birthday present kept by Mrs. Irving in the bookcase. Pauls little low-ceilinged room was a soft whirl of ruddy light from the sun that was setting over the sea and swinging shadows from the fir trees that grew close to the square, deep-set window. From out this soft glow and glamor shone a sweet, girlish face, with tender mother eyes, that was hanging on the wall at the foot of the bed.

25Thats my little mother,” said Paul with loving pride. I got Grandma to hang it there where Id see it as soon as I opened my eyes in the morning. I never mind not having the light when I go to bed now, because it just seems as if my little mother was right here with me. Father knew just what I would like for a birthday present, although he never asked me. Isn’t it wonderful how much fathers do know?”

26Your mother was very lovely, Paul, and you look a little like her. But her eyes and hair are darker than yours.”

27My eyes are the same color as fathers,” said Paul, flying about the room to heap all available cushions on the window seat, “but fathers hair is gray. He has lots of it, but it is gray. You see, father is nearly fifty. Thats ripe old age, isn’t it? But its only outside hes old. Inside hes just as young as anybody. Now, teacher, please sit here; and Ill sit at your feet. May I lay my head against your knee? Thats the way my little mother and I used to sit. Oh, this is real splendid, I think.”

28Now, I want to hear those thoughts which Mary Joe pronounces so queer,” said Anne, patting the mop of curls at her side. Paul never needed any coaxing to tell his thoughts . . . at least, to congenial souls.

29I thought them out in the fir grove one night,” he said dreamily. Of course I didn’t believe them but I thought them. You know, teacher. And then I wanted to tell them to somebody and there was nobody but Mary Joe. Mary Joe was in the pantry setting bread and I sat down on the bench beside her and I said, ‘Mary Joe, do you know what I think? I think the evening star is a lighthouse on the land where the fairies dwell.’ And Mary Joe said, ‘Well, yous are de queer one. Dare ain’t no such ting as fairies.’ I was very much provoked. Of course, I knew there are no fairies; but that needn’t prevent my thinking there is. You know, teacher. But I tried again quite patiently. I said, ‘Well then, Mary Joe, do you know what I think? I think an angel walks over the world after the sun sets . . . a great, tall, white angel, with silvery folded wings . . . and sings the flowers and birds to sleep. Children can hear him if they know how to listen.’ Then Mary Joe held up her hands all over flour and said, ‘Well, yous are de queer leetle boy. Yous make me feel scare.’ And she really did looked scared. I went out then and whispered the rest of my thoughts to the garden. There was a little birch tree in the garden and it died. Grandma says the salt spray killed it; but I think the dryad belonging to it was a foolish dryad who wandered away to see the world and got lost. And the little tree was so lonely it died of a broken heart.”

30And when the poor, foolish little dryad gets tired of the world and comes back to her tree her heart will break,” said Anne.

31Yes; but if dryads are foolish they must take the consequences, just as if they were real people,” said Paul gravely. Do you know what I think about the new moon, teacher? I think it is a little golden boat full of dreams.”

32And when it tips on a cloud some of them spill out and fall into your sleep.”

33Exactly, teacher. Oh, you do know. And I think the violets are little snips of the sky that fell down when the angels cut out holes for the stars to shine through. And the buttercups are made out of old sunshine; and I think the sweet peas will be butterflies when they go to heaven. Now, teacher, do you see anything so very queer about those thoughts?”

34No, laddie dear, they are not queer at all; they are strange and beautiful thoughts for a little boy to think, and so people who couldn’t think anything of the sort themselves, if they tried for a hundred years, think them queer. But keep on thinking them, Paul . . . some day you are going to be a poet, I believe.”

35When Anne reached home she found a very different type of boyhood waiting to be put to bed. Davy was sulky; and when Anne had undressed him he bounced into bed and buried his face in the pillow.

36“Davy, you have forgotten to say your prayers,” said Anne rebukingly.

37No, I didn’t forget,” said Davy defiantly, “but I ain’t going to say my prayers any more. Im going to give up trying to be good, ’cause no matter how good I am youd like Paul Irving better. So I might as well be bad and have the fun of it.”

38I dont like Paul Irving better,” said Anne seriously. I like you just as well, only in a different way.”

39But I want you to like me the same way,” pouted Davy.

40You cant like different people the same way. You dont like Dora and me the same way, do you?”

41Davy sat up and reflected.

42No . . . o . . . o,” he admitted at last, “I like Dora because shes my sister but I like you because youre you.”

43And I like Paul because he is Paul and Davy because he is Davy,” said Anne gaily.

44Well, I kind of wish Id said my prayers then,” said Davy, convinced by this logic. But its too much bother getting out now to say them. Ill say them twice over in the morning, Anne. Wont that do as well?”

45No, Anne was positive it would not do as well. So Davy scrambled out and knelt down at her knee. When he had finished his devotions he leaned back on his little, bare, brown heels and looked up at her.

46Anne, Im gooder than I used to be.”

47Yes, indeed you are, Davy,” said Anne, who never hesitated to give credit where credit was due.

48I know Im gooder,” said Davy confidently, “and Ill tell you how I know it. Today Marilla give me two pieces of bread and jam, one for me and one for Dora. One was a good deal bigger than the other and Marilla didn’t say which was mine. But I give the biggest piece to Dora. That was good of me, wasn’t it?”

49Very good, and very manly, Davy.”

50Of course,” admitted Davy, “Dora wasn’t very hungry and she only et half her slice and then she give the rest to me. But I didn’t know she was going to do that when I give it to her, so I was good, Anne.”

51In the twilight Anne sauntered down to the Dryads Bubble and saw Gilbert Blythe coming down through the dusky Haunted Wood. She had a sudden realization that Gilbert was a schoolboy no longer. And how manly he lookedthe tall, frank-faced fellow, with the clear, straightforward eyes and the broad shoulders. Anne thought Gilbert was a very handsome lad, even though he didn’t look at all like her ideal man. She and Diana had long ago decided what kind of a man they admired and their tastes seemed exactly similar. He must be very tall and distinguished looking, with melancholy, inscrutable eyes, and a melting, sympathetic voice. There was nothing either melancholy or inscrutable in Gilberts physiognomy, but of course that didn’t matter in friendship!

52Gilbert stretched himself out on the ferns beside the Bubble and looked approvingly at Anne. If Gilbert had been asked to describe his ideal woman the description would have answered point for point to Anne, even to those seven tiny freckles whose obnoxious presence still continued to vex her soul. Gilbert was as yet little more than a boy; but a boy has his dreams as have others, and in Gilberts future there was always a girl with big, limpid gray eyes, and a face as fine and delicate as a flower. He had made up his mind, also, that his future must be worthy of its goddess. Even in quiet Avonlea there were temptations to be met and faced. White Sands youth were a ratherfastset, and Gilbert was popular wherever he went. But he meant to keep himself worthy of Annes friendship and perhaps some distant day her love; and he watched over word and thought and deed as jealously as if her clear eyes were to pass in judgment on it. She held over him the unconscious influence that every girl, whose ideals are high and pure, wields over her friends; an influence which would endure as long as she was faithful to those ideals and which she would as certainly lose if she were ever false to them. In Gilberts eyes Annes greatest charm was the fact that she never stooped to the petty practices of so many of the Avonlea girlsthe small jealousies, the little deceits and rivalries, the palpable bids for favor. Anne held herself apart from all this, not consciously or of design, but simply because anything of the sort was utterly foreign to her transparent, impulsive nature, crystal clear in its motives and aspirations.

53But Gilbert did not attempt to put his thoughts into words, for he had already too good reason to know that Anne would mercilessly and frostily nip all attempts at sentiment in the budor laugh at him, which was ten times worse.

54You look like a real dryad under that birch tree,” he said teasingly.

55I love birch trees,” said Anne, laying her cheek against the creamy satin of the slim bole, with one of the pretty, caressing gestures that came so natural to her.

56Then youll be glad to hear that Mr. Major Spencer has decided to set out a row of white birches all along the road front of his farm, by way of encouraging the A.V.I.S.,” said Gilbert. He was talking to me about it today. Major Spencer is the most progressive and public-spirited man in Avonlea. And Mr. William Bell is going to set out a spruce hedge along his road front and up his lane. Our Society is getting on splendidly, Anne. It is past the experimental stage and is an accepted fact. The older folks are beginning to take an interest in it and the White Sands people are talking of starting one too. Even Elisha Wright has come around since that day the Americans from the hotel had the picnic at the shore. They praised our roadsides so highly and said they were so much prettier than in any other part of the Island. And when, in due time, the other farmers follow Mr. Spencer’s good example and plant ornamental trees and hedges along their road fronts Avonlea will be the prettiest settlement in the province.”

57The Aids are talking of taking up the graveyard,” said Anne, “and I hope they will, because there will have to be a subscription for that, and it would be no use for the Society to try it after the hall affair. But the Aids would never have stirred in the matter if the Society hadn’t put it into their thoughts unofficially. Those trees we planted on the church grounds are flourishing, and the trustees have promised me that they will fence in the school grounds next year. If they do Ill have an arbor day and every scholar shall plant a tree; and well have a garden in the corner by the road.”

58Weve succeeded in almost all our plans so far, except in getting the old Boulter house removed,” said Gilbert, “and Ive given that up in despair. Levi wont have it taken down just to vex us. Theres a contrary streak in all the Boulters and its strongly developed in him.”

59Julia Bell wants to send another committee to him, but I think the better way will just be to leave him severely alone,” said Anne sagely.

60And trust to Providence, as Mrs. Lynde says,” smiled Gilbert. Certainly, no more committees. They only aggravate him. Julia Bell thinks you can do anything, if you only have a committee to attempt it. Next spring, Anne, we must start an agitation for nice lawns and grounds. Well sow good seed betimes this winter. Ive a treatise here on lawns and lawnmaking and Im going to prepare a paper on the subject soon. Well, I suppose our vacation is almost over. School opens Monday. Has Ruby Gillis got the Carmody school?”

61Yes; Priscilla wrote that she had taken her own home school, so the Carmody trustees gave it to Ruby. Im sorry Priscilla is not coming back, but since she cant Im glad Ruby has got the school. She will be home for Saturdays and it will seem like old times, to have her and Jane and Diana and myself all together again.”

62Marilla, just home from Mrs. Lynde’s, was sitting on the back porch step when Anne returned to the house.

63Rachel and I have decided to have our cruise to town tomorrow,” she said. Mr. Lynde is feeling better this week and Rachel wants to go before he has another sick spell.”

64I intend to get up extra early tomorrow morning, for Ive ever so much to do,” said Anne virtuously. For one thing, Im going to shift the feathers from my old bedtick to the new one. I ought to have done it long ago but Ive just kept putting it off . . . its such a detestable task. Its a very bad habit to put off disagreeable things, and I never mean to again, or else I cant comfortably tell my pupils not to do it. That would be inconsistent. Then I want to make a cake for Mr. Harrison and finish my paper on gardens for the A.V.I.S., and write Stella, and wash and starch my muslin dress, and make Doras new apron.”

65You wont get half done,” said Marilla pessimistically. I never yet planned to do a lot of things but something happened to prevent me.”