18. CHAPTER XVIII

The Blue Castle / 蓝色城堡

1Valancy was acquainted with Barney by nowwell acquainted, it seemed, though she had spoken to him only a few times. But then she had felt just as well acquainted with him the first time they had met. She had been in the garden at twilight, hunting for a few stalks of white narcissus for Cissys room when she heard that terrible old Grey Slosson coming down through the woods from Mistawis—one could hear it miles away. Valancy did not look up as it drew near, thumping over the rocks in that crazy lane. She had never looked up, though Barney had gone racketting past every evening since she had been at Roaring Abel’s. This time he did not racket past. The old Grey Slosson stopped with even more terrible noises than it made going. Valancy was conscious that Barney had sprung from it and was leaning over the ramshackle gate. She suddenly straightened up and looked into his face. Their eyes met—Valancy was suddenly conscious of a delicious weakness. Was one of her heart attacks coming on? But this was a new symptom.

2His eyes, which she had always thought brown, now seen close, were deep violettranslucent and intense. Neither of his eyebrows looked like the other. He was thintoo thinshe wished she could feed him up a bitshe wished she could sew the buttons on his coatand make him cut his hairand shave every day. There was something in his faceone hardly knew what it was. Tiredness? Sadness? Disillusionment? He had dimples in his thin cheeks when he smiled. All these thoughts flashed through Valancy’s mind in that one moment while his eyes looked into hers.

3Good-evening, Miss Stirling.”

4Nothing could be more commonplace and conventional. Any one might have said it. But Barney Snaith had a way of saying things that gave them poignancy. When he said good-evening you felt that it was a good evening and that it was partly his doing that it was. Also, you felt that some of the credit was yours. Valancy felt all this vaguely, but she couldn’t imagine why she was trembling from head to footit must be her heart. If only he didn’t notice it!

5Im going over to the Port,” Barney was saying. Can I acquire merit by getting or doing anything there for you or Cissy?”

6Will you get some salt codfish for us?” said Valancy. It was the only thing she could think of. Roaring Abel had expressed a desire that day for a dinner of boiled salt codfish. When her knights came riding to the Blue Castle, Valancy had sent them on many a quest, but she had never asked any of them to get her salt codfish.

7Certainly. Youre sure theres nothing else? Lots of room in Lady Jane Grey Slosson. And she always gets back some time, does Lady Jane.”

8I dont think theres anything more,” said Valancy. She knew he would bring oranges for Cissy anyhowhe always did.

9Barney did not turn away at once. He was silent for a little. Then he said, slowly and whimsically:

10Miss Stirling, youre a brick! Youre a whole cartload of bricks. To come here and look after Cissyunder the circumstances.”

11Theres nothing so bricky about that,” said Valancy. “Id nothing else to do. AndI like it here. I dont feel as if Id done anything specially meritorious. Mr. Gay is paying me fair wages. I never earned any money beforeand I like it.” It seemed so easy to talk to Barney Snaith, somewaythis terrible Barney Snaith of the lurid tales and mysterious pastas easy and natural as if talking to herself.

12All the money in the world couldn’t buy what youre doing for Cissy Gay,” said Barney. Its splendid and fine of you. And if theres anything I can do to help you in any way, you have only to let me know. If Roaring Abel ever tries to annoy you——”

13He doesn’t. Hes lovely to me. I like Roaring Abel,” said Valancy frankly.

14So do I. But theres one stage of his drunkennessperhaps you havent encountered it yetwhen he sings ribald songs——”

15Oh, yes. He came home last night like that. Cissy and I just went to our room and shut ourselves in where we couldn’t hear him. He apologised this morning. Im not afraid of any of Roaring Abel’s stages.”

16Well, Im sure hell be decent to you, apart from his inebriated yowls,” said Barney. And Ive told him hes got to stop damning things when youre around.”

17Why?” asked Valancy slily, with one of her odd, slanted glances and a sudden flake of pink on each cheek, born of the thought that Barney Snaith had actually done so much for her. I often feel like damning things myself.”

18For a moment Barney stared. Was this elfin girl the little, old-maidish creature who had stood there two minutes ago? Surely there was magic and devilry going on in that shabby, weedy old garden.

19Then he laughed.

20It will be a relief to have some one to do it for you, then. So you dont want anything but salt codfish?”

21Not tonight. But I dare say Ill have some errands for you very often when you go to Port Lawrence. I cant trust Mr. Gay to remember to bring all the things I want.”

22Barney had gone away, then, in his Lady Jane, and Valancy stood in the garden for a long time.

23Since then he had called several times, walking down through the barrens, whistling. How that whistle of his echoed through the spruces on those June twilights! Valancy caught herself listening for it every eveningrebuked herselfthen let herself go. Why shouldn’t she listen for it?

24He always brought Cissy fruit and flowers. Once he brought Valancy a box of candythe first box of candy she had ever been given. It seemed sacrilege to eat it.

25She found herself thinking of him in season and out of season. She wanted to know if he ever thought about her when she wasn’t before his eyes, and, if so, what. She wanted to see that mysterious house of his back on the Mistawis island. Cissy had never seen it. Cissy, though she talked freely of Barney and had known him for five years, really knew little more of him than Valancy herself.

26But he isn’t bad,” said Cissy. Nobody need ever tell me he is. He cant have done a thing to be ashamed of.”

27Then why does he live as he does?” asked Valancy—to hear somebody defend him.

28I dont know. Hes a mystery. And of course theres something behind it, but I know it isn’t disgrace. Barney Snaith simply couldn’t do anything disgraceful, Valancy.”

29Valancy was not so sure. Barney must have done somethingsometime. He was a man of education and intelligence. She had soon discovered that, in listening to his conversations and wrangles with Roaring Abel—who was surprisingly well read and could discuss any subject under the sun when sober. Such a man wouldn’t bury himself for five years in Muskoka and live and look like a tramp if there were not too goodor bada reason for it. But it didn’t matter. All that mattered was that she was sure now that he had never been Cissy Gays lover. There was nothing like that between them. Though he was very fond of Cissy and she of him, as any one could see. But it was a fondness that didn’t worry Valancy.

30You dont know what Barney has been to me, these past two years,” Cissy had said simply. Everything would have been unbearable without him.”

31Cissy Gay is the sweetest girl I ever knewand theres a man somewhere Id like to shoot if I could find him,” Barney had said savagely.

32Barney was an interesting talker, with a knack of telling a great deal about his adventures and nothing at all about himself. There was one glorious rainy day when Barney and Abel swapped yarns all the afternoon while Valancy mended tablecloths and listened. Barney told weird tales of his adventures withshackson trains while hoboing it across the continent. Valancy thought she ought to think his stealing rides quite dreadful, but didn’t. The story of his working his way to England on a cattle-ship sounded more legitimate. And his yarns of the Yukon enthralled herespecially the one of the night he was lost on the divide between Gold Run and Sulphur Valley. He had spent two years out there. Where in all this was there room for the penitentiary and the other things?

33If he were telling the truth. But Valancy knew he was.

34Found no gold,” he said. Came away poorer than when I went. But such a place to live! Those silences at the back of the north wind got me. Ive never belonged to myself since.”

35Yet he was not a great talker. He told a great deal in a few well-chosen wordshow well-chosen Valancy did not realise. And he had a knack of saying things without opening his mouth at all.

36I like a man whose eyes say more than his lips,” thought Valancy.

37But then she liked everything about himhis tawny hairhis whimsical smilesthe little glints of fun in his eyeshis loyal affection for that unspeakable Lady Janehis habit of sitting with his hands in his pockets, his chin sunk on his breast, looking up from under his mismated eyebrows. She liked his nice voice which sounded as if it might become caressing or wooing with very little provocation. She was at times almost afraid to let herself think these thoughts. They were so vivid that she felt as if the others must know what she was thinking.

38Ive been watching a woodpecker all day,” he said one evening on the shaky old back verandah. His account of the woodpeckers doings was satisfying. He had often some gay or cunning little anecdote of the wood folk to tell them. And sometimes he and Roaring Abel smoked fiercely the whole evening and never said a word, while Cissy lay in the hammock swung between the verandah posts and Valancy sat idly on the steps, her hands clasped over her knees, and wondered dreamily if she were really Valancy Stirling and if it were only three weeks since she had left the ugly old house on Elm Street.

39The barrens lay before her in a white moon splendour, where dozens of little rabbits frisked. Barney, when he liked, could sit down on the edge of the barrens and lure those rabbits right to him by some mysterious sorcery he possessed. Valancy had once seen a squirrel leap from a scrub pine to his shoulder and sit there chattering to him. It reminded her of John Foster.

40It was one of the delights of Valancy’s new life that she could read John Fosters books as often and as long as she liked. She could read them in bed if she wanted to. She read them all to Cissy, who loved them. She also tried to read them to Abel and Barney, who did not love them. Abel was bored and Barney politely refused to listen at all.

41Piffle,” said Barney.