14. Chapter XIV How Lucy Faced the External Situation Bravely

A Room With A View / 看得见风景的房间

1Of course Miss Bartlett accepted. And, equally of course, she felt sure that she would prove a nuisance, and begged to be given an inferior spare roomsomething with no view, anything. Her love to Lucy. And, equally of course, George Emerson could come to tennis on the Sunday week.

2Lucy faced the situation bravely, though, like most of us, she only faced the situation that encompassed her. She never gazed inwards. If at times strange images rose from the depths, she put them down to nerves. When Cecil brought the Emersons to Summer Street, it had upset her nerves. Charlotte would burnish up past foolishness, and this might upset her nerves. She was nervous at night. When she talked to Georgethey met again almost immediately at the Rectoryhis voice moved her deeply, and she wished to remain near him. How dreadful if she really wished to remain near him! Of course, the wish was due to nerves, which love to play such perverse tricks upon us. Once she had suffered fromthings that came out of nothing and meant she didn’t know what.” Now Cecil had explained psychology to her one wet afternoon, and all the troubles of youth in an unknown world could be dismissed.

3It is obvious enough for the reader to conclude, “She loves young Emerson.” A reader in Lucys place would not find it obvious. Life is easy to chronicle, but bewildering to practice, and we welcomenervesor any other shibboleth that will cloak our personal desire. She loved Cecil; George made her nervous; will the reader explain to her that the phrases should have been reversed?

4But the external situationshe will face that bravely.

5The meeting at the Rectory had passed off well enough. Standing between Mr. Beebe and Cecil, she had made a few temperate allusions to Italy, and George had replied. She was anxious to show that she was not shy, and was glad that he did not seem shy either.

6A nice fellow,” said Mr. Beebe afterwardsHe will work off his crudities in time. I rather mistrust young men who slip into life gracefully.”

7Lucy said, “He seems in better spirits. He laughs more.”

8Yes,” replied the clergyman. He is waking up.”

9That was all. But, as the week wore on, more of her defences fell, and she entertained an image that had physical beauty. In spite of the clearest directions, Miss Bartlett contrived to bungle her arrival. She was due at the South-Eastern station at Dorking, whither Mrs. Honeychurch drove to meet her. She arrived at the London and Brighton station, and had to hire a cab up. No one was at home except Freddy and his friend, who had to stop their tennis and to entertain her for a solid hour. Cecil and Lucy turned up at four oclock, and these, with little Minnie Beebe, made a somewhat lugubrious sextette upon the upper lawn for tea.

10I shall never forgive myself,” said Miss Bartlett, who kept on rising from her seat, and had to be begged by the united company to remain. I have upset everything. Bursting in on young people! But I insist on paying for my cab up. Grant that, at any rate.”

11Our visitors never do such dreadful things,” said Lucy, while her brother, in whose memory the boiled egg had already grown unsubstantial, exclaimed in irritable tones: “Just what Ive been trying to convince Cousin Charlotte of, Lucy, for the last half hour.”

12I do not feel myself an ordinary visitor,” said Miss Bartlett, and looked at her frayed glove.

13All right, if youd really rather. Five shillings, and I gave a bob to the driver.”

14Miss Bartlett looked in her purse. Only sovereigns and pennies. Could any one give her change? Freddy had half a quid and his friend had four half-crowns. Miss Bartlett accepted their moneys and then said: “But who am I to give the sovereign to?”

15Lets leave it all till mother comes back,” suggested Lucy.

16No, dear; your mother may take quite a long drive now that she is not hampered with me. We all have our little foibles, and mine is the prompt settling of accounts.”

17Here Freddy’s friend, Mr. Floyd, made the one remark of his that need be quoted: he offered to toss Freddy for Miss Bartlett’s quid. A solution seemed in sight, and even Cecil, who had been ostentatiously drinking his tea at the view, felt the eternal attraction of Chance, and turned round.

18But this did not do, either.

19PleasepleaseI know I am a sad spoil-sport, but it would make me wretched. I should practically be robbing the one who lost.”

20“Freddy owes me fifteen shillings,” interposed Cecil. So it will work out right if you give the pound to me.”

21Fifteen shillings,” said Miss Bartlett dubiously. How is that, Mr. Vyse?”

22Because, dont you see, Freddy paid your cab. Give me the pound, and we shall avoid this deplorable gambling.”

23Miss Bartlett, who was poor at figures, became bewildered and rendered up the sovereign, amidst the suppressed gurgles of the other youths. For a moment Cecil was happy. He was playing at nonsense among his peers. Then he glanced at Lucy, in whose face petty anxieties had marred the smiles. In January he would rescue his Leonardo from this stupefying twaddle.

24But I dont see that!” exclaimed Minnie Beebe who had narrowly watched the iniquitous transaction. I dont see why Mr. Vyse is to have the quid.”

25Because of the fifteen shillings and the five,” they said solemnly. Fifteen shillings and five shillings make one pound, you see.”

26But I dont see—”

27They tried to stifle her with cake.

28No, thank you. Im done. I dont see why—Freddy, dont poke me. Miss Honeychurch, your brothers hurting me. Ow! What about Mr. Floyd’s ten shillings? Ow! No, I dont see and I never shall see why Miss Whats-her-name shouldn’t pay that bob for the driver.”

29I had forgotten the driver,” said Miss Bartlett, reddening. Thank you, dear, for reminding me. A shilling was it? Can any one give me change for half a crown?”

30Ill get it,” said the young hostess, rising with decision.

31Cecil, give me that sovereign. No, give me up that sovereign. Ill get Euphemia to change it, and well start the whole thing again from the beginning.”

32LucyLucywhat a nuisance I am!” protested Miss Bartlett, and followed her across the lawn. Lucy tripped ahead, simulating hilarity. When they were out of earshot Miss Bartlett stopped her wails and said quite briskly: “Have you told him about him yet?”

33No, I havent,” replied Lucy, and then could have bitten her tongue for understanding so quickly what her cousin meant. Let me seea sovereigns worth of silver.”

34She escaped into the kitchen. Miss Bartlett’s sudden transitions were too uncanny. It sometimes seemed as if she planned every word she spoke or caused to be spoken; as if all this worry about cabs and change had been a ruse to surprise the soul.

35No, I havent told Cecil or any one,” she remarked, when she returned. I promised you I shouldn’t. Here is your moneyall shillings, except two half-crowns. Would you count it? You can settle your debt nicely now.”

36Miss Bartlett was in the drawing-room, gazing at the photograph of St. John ascending, which had been framed.

37How dreadful!” she murmured, “how more than dreadful, if Mr. Vyse should come to hear of it from some other source.”

38Oh, no, Charlotte,” said the girl, entering the battle. George Emerson is all right, and what other source is there?”

39Miss Bartlett considered. For instance, the driver. I saw him looking through the bushes at you, remember he had a violet between his teeth.”

40Lucy shuddered a little. We shall get the silly affair on our nerves if we aren’t careful. How could a Florentine cab-driver ever get hold of Cecil?”

41We must think of every possibility.”

42Oh, its all right.”

43Or perhaps old Mr. Emerson knows. In fact, he is certain to know.”

44I dont care if he does. I was grateful to you for your letter, but even if the news does get round, I think I can trust Cecil to laugh at it.”

45To contradict it?”

46No, to laugh at it.” But she knew in her heart that she could not trust him, for he desired her untouched.

47Very well, dear, you know best. Perhaps gentlemen are different to what they were when I was young. Ladies are certainly different.”

48Now, Charlotte!” She struck at her playfully. You kind, anxious thing. What would you have me do? First you sayDont tell’; and then you say, ‘Tell’. Which is it to be? Quick!”

49Miss Bartlett sighedI am no match for you in conversation, dearest. I blush when I think how I interfered at Florence, and you so well able to look after yourself, and so much cleverer in all ways than I am. You will never forgive me.”

50Shall we go out, then. They will smash all the china if we dont.”

51For the air rang with the shrieks of Minnie, who was being scalped with a teaspoon.

52Dear, one momentwe may not have this chance for a chat again. Have you seen the young one yet?”

53Yes, I have.”

54What happened?”

55We met at the Rectory.”

56What line is he taking up?”

57No line. He talked about Italy, like any other person. It is really all right. What advantage would he get from being a cad, to put it bluntly? I do wish I could make you see it my way. He really wont be any nuisance, Charlotte.”

58Once a cad, always a cad. That is my poor opinion.”

59Lucy paused. “Cecil said one dayand I thought it so profoundthat there are two kinds of cadsthe conscious and the subconscious.” She paused again, to be sure of doing justice to Cecils profundity. Through the window she saw Cecil himself, turning over the pages of a novel. It was a new one from Smiths library. Her mother must have returned from the station.

60Once a cad, always a cad,” droned Miss Bartlett.

61What I mean by subconscious is that Emerson lost his head. I fell into all those violets, and he was silly and surprised. I dont think we ought to blame him very much. It makes such a difference when you see a person with beautiful things behind him unexpectedly. It really does; it makes an enormous difference, and he lost his head: he doesn’t admire me, or any of that nonsense, one straw. Freddy rather likes him, and has asked him up here on Sunday, so you can judge for yourself. He has improved; he doesn’t always look as if hes going to burst into tears. He is a clerk in the General Managers office at one of the big railwaysnot a porter! and runs down to his father for week-ends. Papa was to do with journalism, but is rheumatic and has retired. There! Now for the garden.” She took hold of her guest by the arm. Suppose we dont talk about this silly Italian business any more. We want you to have a nice restful visit at Windy Corner, with no worriting.”

62Lucy thought this rather a good speech. The reader may have detected an unfortunate slip in it. Whether Miss Bartlett detected the slip one cannot say, for it is impossible to penetrate into the minds of elderly people. She might have spoken further, but they were interrupted by the entrance of her hostess. Explanations took place, and in the midst of them Lucy escaped, the images throbbing a little more vividly in her brain.