1. APRIL SEVENTH, 1928
The Sound and the Fury / 喧哗与骚动
1Through the fence, between the curling flower spaces, I could see them hitting. They were coming toward where the flag was and I went along the fence. Luster was hunting in the grass by the flower tree. They took the flag out, and they were hitting. Then they put the flag back and they went to the table, and he hit and the other hit. Then they went on, and I went along the fence. Luster came away from the flower tree and we went along the fence and they stopped and we stopped and I looked through the fence while Luster was hunting in the grass.
2“Here, caddie.” He hit. They went away across the pasture. I held to the fence and watched them going away.
3“Listen at you, now.” Luster said. “Aint you something, thirty-three years old, going on that way. After I done went all the way to town to buy you that cake. Hush up that moaning. Aint you going to help me find that quarter so I can go to the show tonight.”
4They were hitting little, across the pasture. I went back along the fence to where the flag was. It flapped on the bright grass and the trees.
5“Come on.” Luster said. “We done looked there. They aint no more coming right now. Lets go down to the branch and find that quarter before them niggers finds it.”
6It was red, flapping on the pasture. Then there was a bird slanting and tilting on it. Luster threw. The flag flapped on the bright grass and the trees. I held to the fence.
7“Shut up that moaning,” Luster said. “I cant make them come if they aint coming, can I. If you dont hush up, mammy aint going to have no birthday for you. If you dont hush, you know what I going to do. I going to eat that cake all up. Eat them candles, too. Eat all them thirty-three candles. Come on, let’s go down to the branch. I got to find my quarter. Maybe we can find one of they balls. Here. Here they is. Way over yonder. See.” He came to the fence and pointed his arm. “See them. They aint coming back here no more. Come on.”
8We went along the fence and came to the garden fence, where our shadows were. My shadow was higher than Luster’s on the fence. We came to the broken place and went through it.
9“Wait a minute.” Luster said. “You snagged on that nail again. Cant you never crawl through here without snagging on that nail.”
10Caddy uncaught me and we crawled through. Uncle Maury said to not let anybody see us, so we better stoop over, Caddy said. Stoop over, Benjy. Like this, see. We stooped over and crossed the garden, where the flowers rasped and rattled against us. The ground was hard. We climbed the fence, where the pigs were grunting and snuffing. I expect they’re sorry because one of them got killed today, Caddy said. The ground was hard, churned and knotted.
11Keep your hands in your pockets, Caddy said. Or they’ll get froze. You don’t want your hands froze on Christmas, do you.
12“It’s too cold out there.” Versh said. “You dont want to go out doors.”
13“What is it now.” Mother said.
14“He want to go out doors.” Versh said.
15“Let him go.” Uncle Maury said.
16“It’s too cold.” Mother said. “He’d better stay in. Benjamin. Stop that, now.”
17“It wont hurt him.” Uncle Maury said.
18“You, Benjamin.” Mother said. “If you dont be good, you’ll have to go to the kitchen.”
19“Mammy say keep him out the kitchen today.” Versh said. “She say she got all that cooking to get done.”
20“Let him go, Caroline.” Uncle Maury said. “You’ll worry yourself sick over him.”
21“I know it.” Mother said. “It’s a judgment on me. I sometimes wonder”
22“I know, I know.” Uncle Maury said. “You must keep your strength up. I’ll make you a toddy.”
23“It just upsets me that much more.” Mother said. “Dont you know it does.”
24“You’ll feel better.” Uncle Maury said. “Wrap him up good, boy, and take him out for a while.”
25Uncle Maury went away. Versh went away.
26“Please hush.” Mother said. “We’re trying to get you out as fast as we can. I dont want you to get sick.”
27Versh put my overshoes and overcoat on and we took my cap and went out. Uncle Maury was putting the bottle away in the sideboard in the dining-room.
28“Keep him out about half an hour, boy.” Uncle Maury said. “Keep him in the yard, now.”
29“Yes, sir.” Versh said. “We dont never let him get off the place.”
30We went out doors. The sun was cold and bright.
31“Where you heading for.” Versh said. “You dont think you going to town, does you.” We went through the rattling leaves. The gate was cold. “You better keep them hands in your pockets.” Versh said, “You get them froze onto that gate, then what you do. Whyn’t you wait for them in the house.” He put my hands into my pockets. I could hear him rattling in the leaves. I could smell the cold. The gate was cold.
32“Here some hickeynuts. Whooey. Git up that tree. Look here at this squirl, Benjy.”
33I couldn’t feel the gate at all, but I could smell the bright cold.
34“You better put them hands back in your pockets.”
35Caddy was walking. Then she was running, her book-satchel swinging and jouncing behind her.
36“Hello, Benjy.” Caddy said. She opened the gate and came in and stooped down. Caddy smelled like leaves. “Did you come to meet me.” she said. “Did you come to meet Caddy. What did you let him get his hands so cold for, Versh.”
37“I told him to keep them in his pockets.” Versh said. “Holding onto that ahun gate.”
38“Did you come to meet Caddy.” she said, rubbing my hands. “What is it. What are you trying to tell Caddy.” Caddy smelled like trees and like when she says we were asleep.
39What are you moaning about, Luster said. You can watch them again when we get to the branch. Here. Here’s you a jimson weed. He gave me the flower. We went through the fence, into the lot.
40“What is it.” Caddy said. “What are you trying to tell Caddy. Did they send him out, Versh.”
41“Couldn’t keep him in.” Versh said. “He kept on until they let him go and he come right straight down here, looking through the gate.”
42“What is it.” Caddy said. “Did you think it would be Christmas when I came home from school. Is that what you thought. Christmas is the day after tomorrow. Santy Claus, Benjy. Santy Claus. Come on, let’s run to the house and get warm.” She took my hand and we ran through the bright rustling leaves. We ran up the steps and out of the bright cold, into the dark cold. Uncle Maury was putting the bottle back in the sideboard. He called Caddy. Caddy said,
43“Take him in to the fire, Versh. Go with Versh.” she said. “I’ll come in a minute.”
44We went to the fire. Mother said,
45“Is he cold, Versh.”
46“Nome.” Versh said.
47“Take his overcoat and overshoes off.” Mother said. “How many times do I have to tell you not to bring him into the house with his overshoes on.”
48“Yessum.” Versh said. “Hold still, now.” He took my overshoes off and unbuttoned my coat. Caddy said,
49“Wait, Versh. Cant he go out again, Mother. I want him to go with me.”
50“You’d better leave him here.” Uncle Maury said. “He’s been out enough today.”
51“I think you’d both better stay in.” Mother said. “It’s getting colder, Dilsey says.”
52“Oh, Mother.” Caddy said.
53“Nonsense.” Uncle Maury said. “She’s been in school all day. She needs the fresh air. Run along, Candace.”
54“Let him go, Mother.” Caddy said. “Please. You know he’ll cry.”
55“Then why did you mention it before him.” Mother said. “Why did you come in here. To give him some excuse to worry me again. You’ve been out enough today. I think you’d better sit down here and play with him.”
56“Let them go, Caroline.” Uncle Maury said. “A little cold wont hurt them. Remember, you’ve got to keep your strength up.”
57“I know.” Mother said. “Nobody knows how I dread Christmas. Nobody knows. I am not one of those women who can stand things. I wish for Jason’s and the children’s sakes I was stronger.”
58“You must do the best you can and not let them worry you.” Uncle Maury said. “Run along, you two. But dont stay out long, now. Your mother will worry.”
59“Yes, sir.” Caddy said. “Come on, Benjy. We’re going out doors again.” She buttoned my coat and we went toward the door.
60“Are you going to take that baby out without his overshoes.” Mother said. “Do you want to make him sick, with the house full of company.”
61“I forgot.” Caddy said. “I thought he had them on.”
62We went back. “You must think.” Mother said. Hold still now Versh said. He put my overshoes on. “Someday I’ll be gone, and you’ll have to think for him.” Now stomp Versh said. “Come here and kiss Mother, Benjamin.”
63Caddy took me to Mother’s chair and Mother took my face in her hands and then she held me against her.
64“My poor baby.” she said. She let me go. “You and Versh take good care of him, honey.”
65“Yessum.” Caddy said. We went out. Caddy said,
66“You needn’t go, Versh. I’ll keep him for a while.”
67“All right.” Versh said. “I aint going out in that cold for no fun.” He went on and we stopped in the hall and Caddy knelt and put her arms around me and her cold bright face against mine. She smelled like trees.
68“You’re not a poor baby. Are you. You’ve got your Caddy. Haven’t you got your Caddy.”
69Cant you shut up that moaning and slobbering, Luster said. Aint you shamed of yourself, making all this racket. We passed the carriage house, where the carriage was. It had a new wheel.
70“Git in, now, and set still until your maw come.” Dilsey said. She shoved me into the carriage. T. P. held the reins. “’Clare I don’t see how come Jason wont get a new surrey.” Dilsey said. “This thing going to fall to pieces under you all some day. Look at them wheels.”
71Mother came out, pulling her veil down. She had some flowers.
72“Where’s Roskus.” she said.
73“Roskus cant lift his arms, today.” Dilsey said. “T. P. can drive all right.”
74“I’m afraid to.” Mother said. “It seems to me you all could furnish me with a driver for the carriage once a week. It’s little enough I ask, Lord knows.”
75“You know just as well as me that Roskus got the rheumatism too bad to do more than he have to, Miss Cahline.” Dilsey said. “You come on and get in, now. T. P. can drive you just as good as Roskus.”
76“I’m afraid to.” Mother said. “With the baby.”
77Dilsey went up the steps. “You calling that thing a baby,” she said. She took Mother’s arms. “A man big as T. P. Come on, now, if you going.”
78“I’m afraid to.” Mother said. They came down the steps and Dilsey helped Mother in. “Perhaps it’ll be the best thing, for all of us.” Mother said.
79“Aint you shamed, talking that way.” Dilsey said. “Dont you know it’ll take more than a eighteen year old nigger to make Queenie run away. She older than him and Benjy put together. And dont you start no projecking with Queenie, you hear me, T. P. If you dont drive to suit Miss Cahline, I going to put Roskus on you. He aint too tied up to do that.”
80“Yessum.” T. P. said.
81“I just know something will happen.” Mother said. “Stop, Benjamin.”
82“Give him a flower to hold.” Dilsey said, “That what he wanting.” She reached her hand in.
83“No, no.” Mother said. “You’ll have them all scattered.”
84“You hold them.” Dilsey said. “I’ll get him one out.” She gave me a flower and her hand went away.
85“Go on now, ’fore Quentin see you and have to go too.” Dilsey said.
86“Where is she.” Mother said.
87“She down to the house playing with Luster.” Dilsey said. “Go on, T. P. Drive that surrey like Roskus told you, now.”
88“Yessum.” T. P. said. “Hum up, Queenie.”
89“Quentin.” Mother said. “Don’t let”
90“Course I is.” Dilsey said.
91The carriage jolted and crunched on the drive. “I’m afraid to go and leave Quentin.” Mother said. “I’d better not go. T. P.” We went through the gate, where it didn’t jolt anymore. T. P. hit Queenie with the whip.
92“You, T. P.” Mother said.
93“Got to get her going.” T. P. said. “Keep her wake up till we get back to the barn.”
94“Turn around.” Mother said. “I’m afraid to go and leave Quentin.”
95“Cant turn here.” T. P. said. Then it was broader.
96“Cant you turn here.” Mother said.
97“All right.” T. P. said. We began to turn.
98“You, T. P.” Mother said, clutching me.
99“I got to turn around somehow.” T. P. said. “Whoa, Queenie.” We stopped.
100“You’ll turn us over.” Mother said.
101“What you want to do, then.” T. P. said.
102“I’m afraid for you to try to turn around.” Mother said.
103“Get up, Queenie.” T. P. said. We went on.
104“I just know Dilsey will let something happen to Quentin while I’m gone.” Mother said. “We must hurry back.”
105“Hum up, there.” T. P. said. He hit Queenie with the whip.
106“You, T. P.” Mother said, clutching me. I could hear Queenie’s feet and the bright shapes went smooth and steady on both sides, the shadows of them flowing across Queenie’s back. They went on like the bright tops of wheels. Then those on one side stopped at the tall white post where the soldier was. But on the other side they went on smooth and steady, but a little slower.
107“What do you want.” Jason said. He had his hands in his pockets and a pencil behind his ear.
108“We’re going to the cemetery.” Mother said.
109“All right.” Jason said. “I dont aim to stop you, do I. Was that all you wanted with me, just to tell me that.”
110“I know you wont come.” Mother said. “I’d feel safer if you would.”
111“Safe from what.” Jason said. “Father and Quentin cant hurt you.”
112Mother put her handkerchief under her veil. “Stop it, Mother.” Jason said. “Do you want to get that damn loony to bawling in the middle of the square. Drive on, T. P.”
113“Hum up, Queenie.” T. P. said.
114“It’s a judgment on me.” Mother said. “But I’ll be gone too, soon.”
115“Here.” Jason said.
116“Whoa.” T. P. said. Jason said,
117“Uncle Maury’s drawing on you for fifty. What do you want to do about it.”
118“Why ask me.” Mother said. “I dont have any say so. I try not to worry you and Dilsey. I’ll be gone soon, and then you”
119“Go on, T. P.” Jason said.
120“Hum up, Queenie.” T. P. said. The shapes flowed on. The ones on the other side began again, bright and fast and smooth, like when Caddy says we are going to sleep.
121Cry baby, Luster said. Aint you shamed. We went through the barn. The stalls were all open. You aint got no spotted pony to ride now, Luster said. The floor was dry and dusty. The roof was falling. The slanting holes were full of spinning yellow. What do you want to go that way for. You want to get your head knocked off with one of them balls.
122“Keep your hands in your pockets.” Caddy said, “Or they’ll be froze. You dont want your hands froze on Christmas, do you.”
123We went around the barn. The big cow and the little one were standing in the door, and we could hear Prince and Queenie and Fancy stomping inside the barn. “If it wasn’t so cold, we’d ride Fancy.” Caddy said, “But it’s too cold to hold on today.” Then we could see the branch, where the smoke was blowing. “That’s where they are killing the pig.” Caddy said. “We can come back by there and see them.” We went down the hill.
124“You want to carry the letter.” Caddy said. “You can carry it.” She took the letter out of her pocket and put it in mine. “It’s a Christmas present.” Caddy said. “Uncle Maury is going to surprise Mrs Patterson with it. We got to give it to her without letting anybody see it. Keep your hands in your pockets good, now.” We came to the branch.
125“It’s froze.” Caddy said, “Look.” She broke the top of the water and held a piece of it against my face. “Ice. That means how cold it is.” She helped me across and we went up the hill. “We cant even tell Mother and Father. You know what I think it is. I think it’s a surprise for Mother and Father and Mr Patterson both, because Mr Patterson sent you some candy. Do you remember when Mr Patterson sent you some candy last summer.”
126There was a fence. The vine was dry, and the wind rattled in it.
127“Only I dont see why Uncle Maury didn’t send Versh.” Caddy said. “Versh wont tell.” Mrs Patterson was looking out the window. “You wait here.” Caddy said. “Wait right here, now. I’ll be back in a minute. Give me the letter.” She took the letter out of my pocket. “Keep your hands in your pockets.” She climbed the fence with the letter in her hand and went through the brown, rattling flowers. Mrs Patterson came to the door and opened it and stood there.
128Mr Patterson was chopping in the green flowers. He stopped chopping and looked at me. Mrs Patterson came across the garden, running. When I saw her eyes I began to cry. You idiot, Mrs Patterson said, I told him never to send you alone again. Give it to me. Quick. Mr Patterson came fast, with the hoe. Mrs Patterson leaned across the fence, reaching her hand. She was trying to climb the fence. Give it to me, she said, Give it to me. Mr Patterson climbed the fence. He took the letter. Mrs Patterson’s dress was caught on the fence. I saw her eyes again and I ran down the hill.
129“They aint nothing over yonder but houses.” Luster said. “We going down to the branch.”
130They were washing down at the branch. One of them was singing. I could smell the clothes flapping, and the smoke blowing across the branch.
131“You stay down here.” Luster said. “You aint got no business up yonder. Them folks hit you, sho.”
132“What he want to do.”
133“He dont know what he want to do.” Luster said. “He think he want to go up yonder where they knocking that ball. You sit down here and play with your jimson weed. Look at them chillen playing in the branch, if you got to look at something. How come you cant behave yourself like folks.” I sat down on the bank, where they were washing, and the smoke blowing blue.
134“Is you all seen anything of a quarter down here.” Luster said.
135“What quarter.”
136“The one I had here this morning.” Luster said. “I lost it somewhere. It fell through this here hole in my pocket. If I dont find it I cant go to the show tonight.”
137“Where’d you get a quarter, boy. Find it in white folks’ pocket while they aint looking.”
138“Got it at the getting place.” Luster said. “Plenty more where that one come from. Only I got to find that one. Is you all found it yet.”
139“I aint studying no quarter. I got my own business to tend to.”
140“Come on here.” Luster said. “Help me look for it.”
141“He wouldn’t know a quarter if he was to see it, would he.”
142“He can help look just the same.” Luster said. “You all going to the show tonight.”
143“Dont talk to me about no show. Time I get done over this here tub I be too tired to lift my hand to do nothing.”
144“I bet you be there.” Luster said. “I bet you was there last night. I bet you all be right there when that tent open.”
145“Be enough niggers there without me. Was last night.”
146“Nigger’s money good as white folks, I reckon.”
147“White folks gives nigger money because know first white man comes along with a band going to get it all back, so nigger can go to work for some more.”
148“Aint nobody going make you go to that show.”
149“Aint yet. Aint thought of it, I reckon.”
150“What you got against white folks.”
151“Aint got nothing against them. I goes my way and lets white folks go theirs. I aint studying that show.”
152“Got a man in it can play a tune on a saw. Play it like a banjo.”
153“You go last night.” Luster said. “I going tonight. If I can find where I lost that quarter.”
154“You going take him with you, I reckon.”
155“Me.” Luster said. “You reckon I be found anywhere with him, time he start bellering.”
156“What does you do when he start bellering.”
157“I whips him.” Luster said. He sat down and rolled up his overalls. They played in the branch.
158“You all found any balls yet.” Luster said.
159“Aint you talking biggity. I bet you better not let your grandmammy hear you talking like that.”
160Luster got into the branch, where they were playing. He hunted in the water, along the bank.
161“I had it when we was down here this morning.” Luster said.
162“Where ’bouts you lose it.”
163“Right out this here hole in my pocket.” Luster said. They hunted in the branch. Then they all stood up quick and stopped, then they splashed and fought in the branch. Luster got it and they squatted in the water, looking up the hill through the bushes.
164“Where is they.” Luster said.
165“Aint in sight yet.”
166Luster put it in his pocket. They came down the hill.
167“Did a ball come down here.”
168“It ought to be in the water. Didn’t any of you boys see it or hear it.”
169“Aint heard nothing come down here.” Luster said. “Heard something hit that tree up yonder. Dont know which way it went.”
170They looked in the branch.
171“Hell. Look along the branch. It came down here. I saw it.”
172They looked along the branch. Then they went back up the hill.
173“Have you got that ball.” the boy said.
174“What I want with it.” Luster said. “I aint seen no ball.”
175The boy got in the water. He went on. He turned and looked at Luster again. He went on down the branch.
176The man said “Caddie” up the hill. The boy got out of the water and went up the hill.
177“Now, just listen at you.” Luster said. “Hush up.”
178“What he moaning about now.”
179“Lawd knows.” Luster said. “He just starts like that. He been at it all morning. Cause it his birthday, I reckon.”
180“How old he.”
181“He thirty-three.” Luster said. “Thirty-three this morning.”
182“You mean, he been three years old thirty years.”
183“I going by what mammy say.” Luster said. “I dont know. We going to have thirty-three candles on a cake, anyway. Little cake. Wont hardly hold them. Hush up. Come on back here.” He came and caught my arm. “You old loony.” he said. “You want me to whip you.”
184“I bet you will.”
185“I is done it. Hush, now.” Luster said. “Aint I told you you cant go up there. They’ll knock your head clean off with one of them balls. Come on, here.” He pulled me back. “Sit down.” I sat down and he took off my shoes and rolled up my trousers. “Now, git in that water and play and see can you stop that slobbering and moaning.”
186I hushed and got in the water and Roskus came and said to come to supper and Caddy said,
187It’s not supper time yet. I’m not going.
188She was wet. We were playing in the branch and Caddy squatted down and got her dress wet and Versh said,
189“Your mommer going to whip you for getting your dress wet.”
190“She’s not going to do any such thing.” Caddy said.
191“How do you know.” Quentin said.
192“That’s all right how I know.” Caddy said. “How do you know.”
193“She said she was.” Quentin said. “Besides, I’m older than you.”
194“I’m seven years old.” Caddy said, “I guess I know.”
195“I’m older than that.” Quentin said. “I go to school. Dont I, Versh.”
196“I’m going to school next year.” Caddy said, “When it comes. Aint I, Versh.”
197“You know she whip you when you get your dress wet.” Versh said.
198“It’s not wet.” Caddy said. She stood up in the water and looked at her dress. “I’ll take it off.” she said. “Then it’ll dry.”
199“I bet you wont.” Quentin said.
200“I bet I will.” Caddy said.
201“I bet you better not.” Quentin said.
202Caddy came to Versh and me and turned her back.
203“Unbutton it, Versh.” she said.
204“Dont you do it, Versh.” Quentin said.
205“Taint none of my dress.” Versh said.
206“You unbutton it, Versh.” Caddy said, “Or I’ll tell Dilsey what you did yesterday.” So Versh unbuttoned it.
207“You just take your dress off.” Quentin said. Caddy took her dress off and threw it on the bank. Then she didn’t have on anything but her bodice and drawers, and Quentin slapped her and she slipped and fell down in the water. When she got up she began to splash water on Quentin, and Quentin splashed water on Caddy. Some of it splashed on Versh and me and Versh picked me up and put me on the bank. He said he was going to tell on Caddy and Quentin, and then Quentin and Caddy began to splash water at Versh. He got behind a bush.
208“I’m going to tell mammy on you all.” Versh said.
209Quentin climbed up the bank and tried to catch Versh, but Versh ran away and Quentin couldn’t. When Quentin came back Versh stopped and hollered that he was going to tell. Caddy told him that if he wouldn’t tell, they’d let him come back. So Versh said he wouldn’t, and they let him.
210“Now I guess you’re satisfied.” Quentin said, “We’ll both get whipped now.”
211“I dont care.” Caddy said. “I’ll run away.”
212“Yes you will.” Quentin said.
213“I’ll run away and never come back.” Caddy said. I began to cry. Caddy turned around and said “Hush.” So I hushed. Then they played in the branch. Jason was playing too. He was by himself further down the branch. Versh came around the bush and lifted me down into the water again. Caddy was all wet and muddy behind, and I started to cry and she came and squatted in the water.
214“Hush now.” she said. “I’m not going to run away.” So I hushed. Caddy smelled like trees in the rain.
215What is the matter with you, Luster said. Cant you get done with that moaning and play in the branch like folks.
216Whyn’t you take him on home. Didn’t they told you not to take him off the place.
217He still think they own this pasture, Luster said. Cant nobody see down here from the house, noways.
218We can. And folks dont like to look at a loony. Taint no luck in it.
219Roskus came and said to come to supper and Caddy said it wasn’t supper time yet.
220“Yes tis.” Roskus said. “Dilsey say for you all to come on to the house. Bring them on, Versh.” He went up the hill, where the cow was lowing.
221“Maybe we’ll be dry by the time we get to the house.” Quentin said.
222“It was all your fault.” Caddy said. “I hope we do get whipped.” She put her dress on and Versh buttoned it.
223“They wont know you got wet.” Versh said. “It dont show on you. Less me and Jason tells.”
224“Are you going to tell, Jason.” Caddy said.
225“Tell on who.” Jason said.
226“He wont tell.” Quentin said. “Will you, Jason.”
227“I bet he does tell.” Caddy said. “He’ll tell Damuddy.”
228“He cant tell her.” Quentin said. “She’s sick. If we walk slow it’ll be too dark for them to see.”
229“I dont care whether they see or not.” Caddy said. “I’m going to tell, myself. You carry him up the hill, Versh.”
230“Jason wont tell.” Quentin said. “You remember that bow and arrow I made you, Jason.”
231“It’s broke now.” Jason said.
232“Let him tell.” Caddy said. “I dont give a cuss. Carry Maury up the hill, Versh.” Versh squatted and I got on his back.
233See you all at the show tonight, Luster said. Come on, here. We got to find that quarter.
234“If we go slow, it’ll be dark when we get there.” Quentin said.
235“I’m not going slow.” Caddy said. We went up the hill, but Quentin didn’t come. He was down at the branch when we got to where we could smell the pigs. They were grunting and snuffing in the trough in the corner. Jason came behind us, with his hands in his pockets. Roskus was milking the cow in the barn door.
236The cows came jumping out of the barn.
237“Go on.” T. P. said. “Holler again. I going to holler myself. Whooey.” Quentin kicked T. P. again. He kicked T. P. into the trough where the pigs ate and T. P. lay there. “Hot dogs.” T. P. said, “Didn’t he get me then. You see that white man kick me that time. Whooey.”
238I wasn’t crying, but I couldn’t stop. I wasn’t crying, but the ground wasn’t still, and then I was crying. The ground kept sloping up and the cows ran up the hill. T. P. tried to get up. He fell down again and the cows ran down the hill. Quentin held my arm and we went toward the barn. Then the barn wasn’t there and we had to wait until it came back. I didn’t see it come back. It came behind us and Quentin set me down in the trough where the cows ate. I held on to it. It was going away too, and I held to it. The cows ran down the hill again, across the door. I couldn’t stop. Quentin and T. P. came up the hill, fighting. T. P. was falling down the hill and Quentin dragged him up the hill. Quentin hit T. P. I couldn’t stop.
239“Stand up.” Quentin said, “You stay right here. Dont you go away until I get back.”
240“Me and Benjy going back to the wedding.” T. P. said. “Whooey.”
241Quentin hit T. P. again. Then he began to thump T. P. against the wall. T. P. was laughing. Every time Quentin thumped him against the wall he tried to say Whooey, but he couldn’t say it for laughing. I quit crying, but I couldn’t stop. T. P. fell on me and the barn door went away. It went down the hill and T. P. was fighting by himself and he fell down again. He was still laughing, and I couldn’t stop, and I tried to get up and I fell down, and I couldn’t stop. Versh said,
242“You sho done it now. I’ll declare if you aint. Shut up that yelling.”
243T. P. was still laughing. He flopped on the door and laughed. “Whooey.” he said, “Me and Benjy going back to the wedding. Sassprilluh.” T. P. said.
244“Hush.” Versh said. “Where you get it.”
245“Out the cellar.” T. P. said. “Whooey.”
246“Hush up.” Versh said, “Where’bouts in the cellar.”
247“Anywhere.” T. P. said. He laughed some more. “Moren a hundred bottles left. Moren a million. Look out, nigger, I going to holler.”
248Quentin said, “Lift him up.”
249Versh lifted me up.
250“Drink this, Benjy.” Quentin said. The glass was hot. “Hush, now.” Quentin said. “Drink it.”
251“Sassprilluh.” T. P. said. “Lemme drink it, Mr Quentin.”
252“You shut your mouth.” Versh said, “Mr Quentin wear you out.”
253“Hold him, Versh.” Quentin said.
254They held me. It was hot on my chin and on my shirt. “Drink.” Quentin said. They held my head. It was hot inside me, and I began again. I was crying now, and something was happening inside me and I cried more, and they held me until it stopped happening. Then I hushed. It was still going around, and then the shapes began. “Open the crib, Versh.” They were going slow. “Spread those empty sacks on the floor.” They were going faster, almost fast enough. “Now. Pick up his feet.” They went on, smooth and bright. I could hear T. P. laughing. I went on with them, up the bright hill.
255At the top of the hill Versh put me down. “Come on here, Quentin.” he called, looking back down the hill. Quentin was still standing there by the branch. He was chunking into the shadows where the branch was.
256“Let the old skizzard stay there.” Caddy said. She took my hand and we went on past the barn and through the gate. There was a frog on the brick walk, squatting in the middle of it. Caddy stepped over it and pulled me on.
257“Come on, Maury.” she said. It still squatted there until Jason poked at it with his toe.
258“He’ll make a wart on you.” Versh said. The frog hopped away.
259“Come on, Maury.” Caddy said.
260“They got company tonight.” Versh said.
261“How do you know.” Caddy said.
262“With all them lights on.” Versh said, “Light in every window.”
263“I reckon we can turn all the lights on without company, if we want to.” Caddy said.
264“I bet it’s company.” Versh said. “You all better go in the back and slip upstairs.”
265“I dont care.” Caddy said. “I’ll walk right in the parlor where they are.”
266“I bet your pappy whip you if you do.” Versh said.
267“I dont care.” Caddy said. “I’ll walk right in the parlor. I’ll walk right in the dining room and eat supper.”
268“Where you sit.” Versh said.
269“I’d sit in Damuddy’s chair.” Caddy said. “She eats in bed.”
270“I’m hungry.” Jason said. He passed us and ran on up the walk. He had his hands in his pockets and he fell down. Versh went and picked him up.
271“If you keep them hands out your pockets, you could stay on your feet.” Versh said. “You cant never get them out in time to catch yourself, fat as you is.”
272Father was standing by the kitchen steps.
273“Where’s Quentin.” he said.
274“He coming up the walk.” Versh said. Quentin was coming slow. His shirt was a white blur.
275“Oh.” Father said. Light fell down the steps, on him.
276“Caddy and Quentin threw water on each other.” Jason said.
277We waited.
278“They did.” Father said. Quentin came, and Father said, “You can eat supper in the kitchen tonight.” He stopped and took me up, and the light came tumbling down the steps on me too, and I could look down at Caddy and Jason and Quentin and Versh. Father turned toward the steps. “You must be quiet, though.” he said.
279“Why must we be quiet, Father.” Caddy said. “Have we got company.”
280“Yes.” Father said.
281“I told you they was company.” Versh said.
282“You did not.” Caddy said, “I was the one that said there was. I said I would”
283“Hush.” Father said. They hushed and Father opened the door and we crossed the back porch and went in to the kitchen. Dilsey was there, and Father put me in the chair and closed the apron down and pushed it to the table, where supper was. It was steaming up.
284“You mind Dilsey, now.” Father said. “Dont let them make any more noise than they can help, Dilsey.”
285“Yes, sir.” Dilsey said. Father went away.
286“Remember to mind Dilsey, now.” he said behind us. I leaned my face over where the supper was. It steamed up on my face.
287“Let them mind me tonight, Father.” Caddy said.
288“I wont.” Jason said. “I’m going to mind Dilsey.”
289“You’ll have to, if Father says so.” Caddy said. “Let them mind me, Father.”
290“I wont.” Jason said, “I wont mind you.”
291“Hush.” Father said. “You all mind Caddy, then. When they are done, bring them up the back stairs, Dilsey.”
292“Yes, sir.” Dilsey said.
293“There.” Caddy said, “Now I guess you’ll mind me.”
294“You all hush, now.” Dilsey said. “You got to be quiet tonight.”
295“Why do we have to be quiet tonight.” Caddy whispered.
296“Never you mind.” Dilsey said, “You’ll know in the Lawd’s own time.” She brought my bowl. The steam from it came and tickled my face. “Come here, Versh.” Dilsey said.
297“When is the Lawd’s own time, Dilsey.” Caddy said.
298“It’s Sunday.” Quentin said. “Dont you know anything.”
299“Shhhhhh.” Dilsey said. “Didn’t Mr Jason say for you all to be quiet. Eat your supper, now. Here, Versh. Git his spoon.” Versh’s hand came with the spoon, into the bowl. The spoon came up to my mouth. The steam tickled into my mouth. Then we quit eating and we looked at each other and we were quiet, and then we heard it again and I began to cry.
300“What was that.” Caddy said. She put her hand on my hand.
301“That was Mother.” Quentin said. The spoon came up and I ate, then I cried again.
302“Hush.” Caddy said. But I didn’t hush and she came and put her arms around me. Dilsey went and closed both the doors and then we couldn’t hear it.
303“Hush, now.” Caddy said. I hushed and ate. Quentin wasn’t eating, but Jason was.
304“That was Mother.” Quentin said. He got up.
305“You set right down.” Dilsey said. “They got company in there, and you in them muddy clothes. You set down too, Caddy, and get done eating.”
306“She was crying.” Quentin said.
307“It was somebody singing.” Caddy said. “Wasn’t it, Dilsey.”
308“You all eat your supper, now, like Mr Jason said.” Dilsey said. “You’ll know in the Lawd’s own time.” Caddy went back to her chair.
309“I told you it was a party.” she said.
310Versh said, “He done et all that.”
311“Bring his bowl here.” Dilsey said. The bowl went away.
312“Dilsey.” Caddy said, “Quentin’s not eating his supper. Hasn’t he got to mind me.”
313“Eat your supper, Quentin.” Dilsey said, “You all got to get done and get out of my kitchen.”
314“I dont want any more supper.” Quentin said.
315“You’ve got to eat if I say you have.” Caddy said. “Hasn’t he, Dilsey.”
316The bowl steamed up to my face, and Versh’s hand dipped the spoon in it and the steam tickled into my mouth.
317“I dont want any more.” Quentin said. “How can they have a party when Damuddy’s sick.”
318“They’ll have it down stairs.” Caddy said. “She can come to the landing and see it. That’s what I’m going to do when I get my nightie on.”
319“Mother was crying.” Quentin said. “Wasn’t she crying, Dilsey.”
320“Dont you come pestering at me, boy.” Dilsey said. “I got to get supper for all them folks soon as you all get done eating.”
321After a while even Jason was through eating, and he began to cry.
322“Now you got to tune up.” Dilsey said.
323“He does it every night since Damuddy was sick and he cant sleep with her.” Caddy said. “Cry baby.”
324“I’m going to tell on you.” Jason said.
325He was crying. “You’ve already told.” Caddy said. “There’s not anything else you can tell, now.”
326“You all needs to go to bed.” Dilsey said. She came and lifted me down and wiped my face and hands with a warm cloth. “Versh, can you get them up the back stairs quiet. You, Jason, shut up that crying.”
327“It’s too early to go to bed now.” Caddy said. “We dont ever have to go to bed this early.”
328“You is tonight.” Dilsey said. “Your pa say for you to come right on up stairs when you et supper. You heard him.”
329“He said to mind me.” Caddy said.
330“I’m not going to mind you.” Jason said.
331“You have to.” Caddy said. “Come on, now. You have to do like I say.”
332“Make them be quiet, Versh.” Dilsey said. “You all going to be quiet, aint you.”
333“What do we have to be so quiet for, tonight.” Caddy said.
334“Your mommer aint feeling well.” Dilsey said. “You all go on with Versh, now.”
335“I told you Mother was crying.” Quentin said. Versh took me up and opened the door onto the back porch. We went out and Versh closed the door black. I could smell Versh and feel him. “You all be quiet, now. We’re not going up stairs yet. Mr Jason said for you to come right up stairs. He said to mind me. I’m not going to mind you. But he said for all of us to. Didn’t he, Quentin.” I could feel Versh’s head. I could hear us. “Didn’t he, Versh. Yes, that’s right. Then I say for us to go out doors a while. Come on.” Versh opened the door and we went out.
336We went down the steps.
337“I expect we’d better go down to Versh’s house, so we’ll be quiet.” Caddy said. Versh put me down and Caddy took my hand and we went down the brick walk.
338“Come on.” Caddy said, “That frog’s gone. He’s hopped way over to the garden, by now. Maybe we’ll see another one.” Roskus came with the milk buckets. He went on. Quentin wasn’t coming with us. He was sitting on the kitchen steps. We went down to Versh’s house. I liked to smell Versh’s house. There was a fire in it and T. P. squatting in his shirt tail in front of it, chunking it into a blaze.
339Then I got up and T. P. dressed me and we went to the kitchen and ate. Dilsey was singing and I began to cry and she stopped.
340“Keep him away from the house, now.” Dilsey said.
341“We cant go that way.” T. P. said.
342We played in the branch.
343“We cant go around yonder.” T. P. said. “Dont you know mammy say we cant.”
344Dilsey was singing in the kitchen and I began to cry.
345“Hush.” T. P. said. “Come on. Lets go down to the barn.”
346Roskus was milking at the barn. He was milking with one hand, and groaning. Some birds sat on the barn door and watched him. One of them came down and ate with the cows. I watched Roskus milk while T. P. was feeding Queenie and Prince. The calf was in the pig pen. It nuzzled at the wire, bawling.
347“T. P.” Roskus said. T. P. said Sir, in the barn. Fancy held her head over the door, because T. P. hadn’t fed her yet. “Git done there.” Roskus said. “You got to do this milking. I cant use my right hand no more.”
348T. P. came and milked.
349“Whyn’t you get the doctor.” T. P. said.
350“Doctor cant do no good.” Roskus said. “Not on this place.”
351“What wrong with this place.” T. P. said.
352“Taint no luck on this place.” Roskus said. “Turn that calf in if you done.”
353Taint no luck on this place, Roskus said. The fire rose and fell behind him and Versh, sliding on his and Versh’s face. Dilsey finished putting me to bed. The bed smelled like T. P. I liked it.
354“What you know about it.” Dilsey said. “What trance you been in.”
355“Dont need no trance.” Roskus said. “Aint the sign of it laying right there on that bed. Aint the sign of it been here for folks to see fifteen years now.”
356“Spose it is.” Dilsey said. “It aint hurt none of you and yourn, is it. Versh working and Frony married off your hands and T. P. getting big enough to take your place when rheumatism finish getting you.”
357“They been two, now.” Roskus said. “Going to be one more. I seen the sign, and you is too.”
358“I heard a squinch owl that night.” T. P. said. “Dan wouldn’t come and get his supper, neither. Wouldn’t come no closer than the barn. Begun howling right after dark. Versh heard him.”
359“Going to be more than one more.” Dilsey said. “Show me the man what aint going to die, bless Jesus.”
360“Dying aint all.” Roskus said.
361“I knows what you thinking.” Dilsey said. “And they aint going to be no luck in saying that name, lessen you going to set up with him while he cries.”
362“They aint no luck on this place.” Roskus said. “I seen it at first but when they changed his name I knowed it.”
363“Hush your mouth.” Dilsey said. She pulled the covers up. It smelled like T. P. “You all shut up now, till he get to sleep.”
364“I seen the sign.” Roskus said.
365“Sign T. P. got to do all your work for you.” Dilsey said. Take him and Quentin down to the house and let them play with Luster, where Frony can watch them, T. P. , and go and help your pa.
366We finished eating. T. P. took Quentin up and we went down to T. P. ’s house. Luster was playing in the dirt. T. P. put Quentin down and she played in the dirt too. Luster had some spools and he and Quentin fought and Quentin had the spools. Luster cried and Frony came and gave Luster a tin can to play with, and then I had the spools and Quentin fought me and I cried.
367“Hush.” Frony said, “Aint you shamed of yourself. Taking a baby’s play pretty.” She took the spools from me and gave them back to Quentin.
368“Hush, now.” Frony said, “Hush, I tell you.”
369“Hush up.” Frony said. “You needs whipping, that’s what you needs.” She took Luster and Quentin up. “Come on here.” she said. We went to the barn. T. P. was milking the cow. Roskus was sitting on the box.
370“What’s the matter with him now.” Roskus said.
371“You have to keep him down here.” Frony said. “He fighting these babies again. Taking they play things. Stay here with T. P. now, and see can you hush a while.”
372“Clean that udder good now.” Roskus said. “You milked that young cow dry last winter. If you milk this one dry, they aint going to be no more milk.”
373Dilsey was singing.
374“Not around yonder.” T. P. said. “Dont you know mammy say you cant go around there.”
375They were singing.
376“Come on.” T. P. said. “Lets go play with Quentin and Luster. Come on.”
377Quentin and Luster were playing in the dirt in front of T. P. ’s house. There was a fire in the house, rising and falling, with Roskus sitting black against it.
378“That’s three, thank the Lawd.” Roskus said. “I told you two years ago. They aint no luck on this place.”
379“Whyn’t you get out, then.” Dilsey said. She was undressing me. “Your bad luck talk got them Memphis notions into Versh. That ought to satisfy you.”
380“If that all the bad luck Versh have.” Roskus said.
381Frony came in.
382“You all done.” Dilsey said.
383“T. P. finishing up.” Frony said. “Miss Cahline want you to put Quentin to bed.”
384“I’m coming just as fast as I can.” Dilsey said. “She ought to know by this time I aint got no wings.”
385“That’s what I tell you.” Roskus said. “They aint no luck going be on no place where one of they own chillens’ name aint never spoke.”
386“Hush.” Dilsey said. “Do you want to get him started”
387“Raising a child not to know its own mammy’s name.” Roskus said.
388“Dont you bother your head about her.” Dilsey said. “I raised all of them and I reckon I can raise one more. Hush now. Let him get to sleep if he will.”
389“Saying a name.” Frony said. “He dont know nobody’s name.”
390“You just say it and see if he dont.” Dilsey said. “You say it to him while he sleeping and I bet he hear you.”
391“He know lot more than folks thinks.” Roskus said. “He knowed they time was coming, like that pointer done. He could tell you when hisn coming, if he could talk. Or yours. Or mine.”
392“You take Luster outen that bed, mammy.” Frony said. “That boy conjure him.”
393“Hush your mouth.” Dilsey said, “Aint you got no better sense than that. What you want to listen to Roskus for, anyway. Get in, Benjy.”
394Dilsey pushed me and I got in the bed, where Luster already was. He was asleep. Dilsey took a long piece of wood and laid it between Luster and me. “Stay on your side now.” Dilsey said “Luster little, and you don’t want to hurt him.”
395You can’t go yet, T. P. said. Wait.
396We looked around the corner of the house and watched the carriages go away.
397“Now.” T. P. said. He took Quentin up and we ran down to the corner of the fence and watched them pass. “There he go,” T. P. said. “See that one with the glass in it. Look at him. He laying in there. See him.”
398Come on, Luster said, I going to take this here ball down home, where I wont lose it. Naw, sir, you cant have it. If them men sees you with it, they’ll say you stole it. Hush up, now. You cant have it. What business you got with it. You cant play no ball.
399Frony and T. P. were playing in the dirt by the door. T. P. had lightning bugs in a bottle.
400“How did you all get back out.” Frony said.
401“We’ve got company.” Caddy said. “Father said for us to mind me tonight. I expect you and T. P. will have to mind me too.”
402“I’m not going to mind you.” Jason said. “Frony and T. P. dont have to either.”
403“They will if I say so.” Caddy said. “Maybe I wont say for them to.”
404“T. P. dont mind nobody.” Frony said. “Is they started the funeral yet.”
405“What’s a funeral.” Jason said.
406“Didn’t mammy tell you not to tell them.” Versh said.
407“Where they moans.” Frony said. “They moaned two days on Sis Beulah Clay.”
408They moaned at Dilsey’s house. Dilsey was moaning. When Dilsey moaned Luster said, Hush, and we hushed, and then I began to cry and Blue howled under the kitchen steps. Then Dilsey stopped and we stopped.
409“Oh.” Caddy said, “That’s niggers. White folks dont have funerals.”
410“Mammy said us not to tell them, Frony.” Versh said.
411“Tell them what.” Caddy said.
412Dilsey moaned, and when it got to the place I began to cry and Blue howled under the steps. Luster, Frony said in the window, Take them down to the barn. I cant get no cooking done with all that racket. That hound too. Get them outen here.
413I aint going down there, Luster said. I might meet pappy down there. I seen him last night, waving his arms in the barn.
414“I like to know why not.” Frony said. “White folks dies too. Your grandmammy dead as any nigger can get, I reckon.”
415“Dogs are dead.” Caddy said, “And when Nancy fell in the ditch and Roskus shot her and the buzzards came and undressed her.”
416The bones rounded out of the ditch, where the dark vines were in the black ditch, into the moonlight, like some of the shapes had stopped. Then they all stopped and it was dark, and when I stopped to start again I could hear Mother, and feet walking fast away, and I could smell it. Then the room came, but my eyes went shut. I didn’t stop. I could smell it. T. P. unpinned the bed clothes.
417“Hush.” he said, “Shhhhhhhh.”
418But I could smell it. T. P. pulled me up and he put on my clothes fast.
419“Hush, Benjy.” he said. “We going down to our house. You want to go down to our house, where Frony is. Hush. Shhhhh.”
420He laced my shoes and put my cap on and we went out. There was a light in the hall. Across the hall we could hear Mother.
421“Shhhhhh, Benjy.” T. P. said, “We’ll be out in a minute.”
422A door opened and I could smell it more than ever, and a head came out. It wasn’t Father. Father was sick there.
423“Can you take him out of the house.”
424“That’s where we going.” T. P. said. Dilsey came up the stairs.
425“Hush.” she said, “Hush. Take him down home, T. P. Frony fixing him a bed. You all look after him, now. Hush, Benjy. Go on with T. P.”
426She went where we could hear Mother.
427“Better keep him there.” It wasn’t Father. He shut the door, but I could still smell it.
428We went down stairs. The stairs went down into the dark and T. P. took my hand, and we went out the door, out of the dark. Dan was sitting in the back yard, howling.
429“He smell it.” T. P. said. “Is that the way you found it out.”
430We went down the steps, where our shadows were.
431“I forgot your coat.” T. P. said. “You ought to had it. But I aint going back.”
432Dan howled.
433“Hush now.” T. P. said. Our shadows moved, but Dan’s shadow didn’t move except to howl when he did.
434“I cant take you down home, bellering like you is.” T. P. said. “You was bad enough before you got that bullfrog voice. Come on.”
435We went along the brick walk, with our shadows. The pig pen smelled like pigs. The cow stood in the lot, chewing at us. Dan howled.
436“You going to wake the whole town up.” T. P. said. “Cant you hush.”
437We saw Fancy, eating by the branch. The moon shone on the water when we got there.
438“Naw, sir.” T. P. said, “This too close. We cant stop here. Come on. Now, just look at you. Got your whole leg wet. Come on, here.” Dan howled.
439The ditch came up out of the buzzing grass. The bones rounded out of the black vines.
440“Now.” T. P. said. “Beller your head off if you want to. You got the whole night and a twenty acre pasture to beller in.”
441T. P. lay down in the ditch and I sat down, watching the bones where the buzzards ate Nancy, flapping black and slow and heavy out of the ditch.
442I had it when we was down here before, Luster said. I showed it to you. Didn’t you see it. I took it out of my pocket right here and showed it to you.
443“Do you think buzzards are going to undress Damuddy.” Caddy said. “You’re crazy.”
444“You’re a skizzard.” Jason said. He began to cry.
445“You’re a knobnot.” Caddy said. Jason cried. His hands were in his pockets.
446“Jason going to be rich man.” Versh said. “He holding his money all the time.”
447Jason cried.
448“Now you’ve got him started.” Caddy said. “Hush up, Jason. How can buzzards get in where Damuddy is. Father wouldn’t let them. Would you let a buzzard undress you. Hush up, now.”
449Jason hushed. “Frony said it was a funeral.” he said.
450“Well it’s not.” Caddy said. “It’s a party. Frony dont know anything about it. He wants your lightning bugs, T. P. Let him hold it a while.”
451T. P. gave me the bottle of lightning bugs.
452“I bet if we go around to the parlor window we can see something.” Caddy said. “Then you’ll believe me.”
453“I already knows.” Frony said. “I dont need to see.”
454“You better hush your mouth, Frony.” Versh said. “Mammy going whip you.”
455“What is it.” Caddy said.
456“I knows what I knows.” Frony said.
457“Come on.” Caddy said, “Let’s go around to the front.”
458We started to go.
459“T. P. wants his lightning bugs.” Frony said.
460“Let him hold it a while longer, T. P.” Caddy said. “We’ll bring it back.”
461“You all never caught them.” Frony said.
462“If I say you and T. P. can come too, will you let him hold it.” Caddy said.
463“Aint nobody said me and T. P. got to mind you.” Frony said.
464“If I say you dont have to, will you let him hold it.” Caddy said.
465“All right.” Frony said. “Let him hold it, T. P. We going to watch them moaning.”
466“They aint moaning.” Caddy said. “I tell you it’s a party. Are they moaning, Versh.”
467“We aint going to know what they doing, standing here.” Versh said.
468“Come on.” Caddy said. “Frony and T. P. dont have to mind me. But the rest of us do. You better carry him, Versh. It’s getting dark.”
469Versh took me up and we went on around the kitchen.
470When we looked around the corner we could see the lights coming up the drive. T. P. went back to the cellar door and opened it.
471You know what’s down there, T. P. said. Soda water. I seen Mr Jason come up with both hands full of them. Wait here a minute.
472T. P. went and looked in the kitchen door. Dilsey said, What are you peeping in here for. Where’s Benjy.
473He out here, T. P. said.
474Go on and watch him, Dilsey said. Keep him out the house now.
475Yessum, T. P. said. Is they started yet.
476You go on and keep that boy out of sight, Dilsey said. I got all I can tend to.
477A snake crawled out from under the house. Jason said he wasn’t afraid of snakes and Caddy said he was but she wasn’t and Versh said they both were and Caddy said to be quiet, like father said.
478You aint got to start bellering now, T. P. said. You want some this sassprilluh.
479It tickled my nose and eyes.
480If you aint going to drink it, let me get to it, T. P. said. All right, here tis. We better get another bottle while aint nobody bothering us. You be quiet, now.
481We stopped under the tree by the parlor window. Versh set me down in the wet grass. It was cold. There were lights in all the windows.
482“That’s where Damuddy is.” Caddy said. “She’s sick every day now. When she gets well we’re going to have a picnic.”
483“I knows what I knows.” Frony said.
484The trees were buzzing, and the grass.
485“The one next to it is where we have the measles.” Caddy said. “Where do you and T. P. have the measles, Frony.”
486“Has them just wherever we is, I reckon.” Frony said.
487“They haven’t started yet.” Caddy said.
488They getting ready to start, T. P. said. You stand right here now while I get that box so we can see in the window. Here, les finish drinking this here sassprilluh. It make me feel just like a squinch owl inside.
489We drank the sassprilluh and T. P. pushed the bottle through the lattice, under the house, and went away. I could hear them in the parlor and I clawed my hands against the wall. T. P. dragged the box. He fell down, and he began to laugh. He lay there, laughing into the grass. He got up and dragged the box under the window, trying not to laugh.
490“I skeered I going to holler.” T. P. said. “Git on the box and see is they started.”
491“They haven’t started because the band hasn’t come yet.” Caddy said.
492“They aint going to have no band.” Frony said.
493“How do you know.” Caddy said.
494“I knows what I knows.” Frony said.
495“You dont know anything.” Caddy said. She went to the tree. “Push me up, Versh.”
496“Your paw told you to stay out that tree.” Versh said.
497“That was a long time ago.” Caddy said. “I expect he’s forgotten about it. Besides, he said to mind me tonight. Didn’t he say to mind me tonight.”
498“I’m not going to mind you.” Jason said. “Frony and T. P. are not going to either.”
499“Push me up, Versh.” Caddy said.
500“All right.” Versh said. “You the one going to get whipped. I aint.” He went and pushed Caddy up into the tree to the first limb. We watched the muddy bottom of her drawers. Then we couldn’t see her. We could hear the tree thrashing.
501“Mr Jason said if you break that tree he whip you.” Versh said.
502“I’m going to tell on her too.” Jason said.
503The tree quit thrashing. We looked up into the still branches.
504“What you seeing.” Frony whispered.
505I saw them. Then I saw Caddy, with flowers in her hair, and a long veil like shining wind. Caddy Caddy
506“Hush.” T. P. said, “They going to hear you. Get down quick.” He pulled me. Caddy. I clawed my hands against the wall Caddy. T. P. pulled me.
507“Hush.” he said, “Hush. Come on here quick.” He pulled me on. Caddy “Hush up, Benjy. You want them to hear you. Come on, les drink some more sassprilluh, then we can come back if you hush. We better get one more bottle or we both be hollering. We can say Dan drunk it. Mr Quentin always saying he so smart, we can say he sassprilluh dog, too.”
508The moonlight came down the cellar stairs. We drank some more sassprilluh.
509“You know what I wish.” T. P. said. “I wish a bear would walk in that cellar door. You know what I do. I walk right up to him and spit in he eye. Gimme that bottle to stop my mouth before I holler.”
510T. P. fell down. He began to laugh, and the cellar door and the moonlight jumped away and something hit me.
511“Hush up.” T. P. said, trying not to laugh, “Lawd, they’ll all hear us. Get up.” T. P. said, “Get up, Benjy, quick.” He was thrashing about and laughing and I tried to get up. The cellar steps ran up the hill in the moonlight and T. P. fell up the hill, into the moonlight, and I ran against the fence and T. P. ran behind me saying “Hush up hush up” Then he fell into the flowers, laughing, and I ran into the box. But when I tried to climb onto it it jumped away and hit me on the back of the head and my throat made a sound. It made the sound again and I stopped trying to get up, and it made the sound again and I began to cry. But my throat kept on making the sound while T. P. was pulling me. It kept on making it and I couldn’t tell if I was crying or not, and T. P. fell down on top of me, laughing, and it kept on making the sound and Quentin kicked T. P. and Caddy put her arms around me, and her shining veil, and I couldn’t smell trees anymore and I began to cry.
512Benjy, Caddy said, Benjy. She put her arms around me again, but I went away. “What is it, Benjy.” she said, “Is it this hat.” She took her hat off and came again, and I went away.
513“Benjy.” she said, “What is it, Benjy. What has Caddy done.”
514“He dont like that prissy dress.” Jason said. “You think you’re grown up, dont you. You think you’re better than anybody else, dont you. Prissy.”
515“You shut your mouth.” Caddy said, “You dirty little beast. Benjy.”
516“Just because you are fourteen, you think you’re grown up, dont you.” Jason said. “You think you’re something. Dont you.”
517“Hush, Benjy.” Caddy said. “You’ll disturb Mother. Hush.”
518But I didn’t hush, and when she went away I followed, and she stopped on the stairs and waited and I stopped too.
519“What is it, Benjy.” Caddy said, “Tell Caddy. She’ll do it. Try.”
520“Candace.” Mother said.
521“Yessum.” Caddy said.
522“Why are you teasing him.” Mother said. “Bring him here.”
523We went to Mother’s room, where she was lying with the sickness on a cloth on her head.
524“What is the matter now.” Mother said. “Benjamin.”
525“Benjy.” Caddy said. She came again, but I went away.
526“You must have done something to him.” Mother said. “Why wont you let him alone, so I can have some peace. Give him the box and please go on and let him alone.”
527Caddy got the box and set it on the floor and opened it. It was full of stars. When I was still, they were still. When I moved, they glinted and sparkled. I hushed.
528Then I heard Caddy walking and I began again.
529“Benjamin.” Mother said, “Come here.” I went to the door. “You, Benjamin.” Mother said.
530“What is it now.” Father said, “Where are you going.”
531“Take him downstairs and get someone to watch him, Jason.” Mother said. “You know I’m ill, yet you”
532Father shut the door behind us.
533“T. P.” he said.
534“Sir.” T. P. said downstairs.
535“Benjy’s coming down.” Father said. “Go with T. P.”
536I went to the bathroom door. I could hear the water.
537“Benjy.” T. P. said downstairs.
538I could hear the water. I listened to it.
539“Benjy.” T. P. said downstairs.
540I listened to the water.
541I couldn’t hear the water, and Caddy opened the door.
542“Why, Benjy.” she said. She looked at me and I went and she put her arms around me. “Did you find Caddy again.” she said. “Did you think Caddy had run away.” Caddy smelled like trees.
543We went to Caddy’s room. She sat down at the mirror. She stopped her hands and looked at me.
544“Why, Benjy. What is it.” she said. “You mustn’t cry. Caddy’s not going away. See here.” she said. She took up the bottle and took the stopper out and held it to my nose. “Sweet. Smell. Good.”
545I went away and I didn’t hush, and she held the bottle in her hand, looking at me.
546“Oh.” she said. She put the bottle down and came and put her arms around me. “So that was it. And you were trying to tell Caddy and you couldn’t tell her. You wanted to, but you couldn’t, could you. Of course Caddy wont. Of course Caddy wont. Just wait till I dress.”
547Caddy dressed and took up the bottle again and we went down to the kitchen.
548“Dilsey.” Caddy said, “Benjy’s got a present for you.” She stooped down and put the bottle in my hand. “Hold it out to Dilsey, now.” Caddy held my hand out and Dilsey took the bottle.
549“Well I’ll declare.” Dilsey said, “If my baby aint give Dilsey a bottle of perfume. Just look here, Roskus.”
550Caddy smelled like trees. “We dont like perfume ourselves.” Caddy said.
551She smelled like trees.
552“Come on, now.” Dilsey said, “You too big to sleep with folks. You a big boy now. Thirteen years old. Big enough to sleep by yourself in Uncle Maury’s room.” Dilsey said.
553Uncle Maury was sick. His eye was sick, and his mouth. Versh took his supper up to him on the tray.
554“Maury says he’s going to shoot the scoundrel.” Father said. “I told him he’d better not mention it to Patterson before hand.” He drank.
555“Jason.” Mother said.
556“Shoot who, Father.” Quentin said. “What’s Uncle Maury going to shoot him for.”
557“Because he couldn’t take a little joke.” Father said.
558“Jason.” Mother said, “How can you. You’d sit right there and see Maury shot down in ambush, and laugh.”
559“Then Maury’d better stay out of ambush.” Father said.
560“Shoot who, Father.” Quentin said, “Who’s Uncle Maury going to shoot.”
561“Nobody.” Father said. “I dont own a pistol.”
562Mother began to cry. “If you begrudge Maury your food, why aren’t you man enough to say so to his face. To ridicule him before the children, behind his back.”
563“Of course I dont.” Father said, “I admire Maury. He is invaluable to my own sense of racial superiority. I wouldn’t swap Maury for a matched team. And do you know why, Quentin.”
564“No, sir.” Quentin said.
565“Et ego in arcadia I have forgotten the latin for hay.” Father said. “There, there.” he said, “I was just joking.” He drank and set the glass down and went and put his hand on Mother’s shoulder.
566“It’s no joke.” Mother said. “My people are every bit as well born as yours. Just because Maury’s health is bad.”
567“Of course.” Father said. “Bad health is the primary reason for all life. Created by disease, within putrefaction, into decay. Versh.”
568“Sir.” Versh said behind my chair.
569“Take the decanter and fill it.”
570“And tell Dilsey to come and take Benjamin up to bed.” Mother said.
571“You a big boy.” Dilsey said, “Caddy tired sleeping with you. Hush now, so you can go to sleep.” The room went away, but I didn’t hush, and the room came back and Dilsey came and sat on the bed, looking at me.
572“Aint you going to be a good boy and hush.” Dilsey said. “You aint, is you. See can you wait a minute, then.”
573She went away. There wasn’t anything in the door. Then Caddy was in it.
574“Hush.” Caddy said. “I’m coming.”
575I hushed and Dilsey turned back the spread and Caddy got in between the spread and the blanket. She didn’t take off her bathrobe.
576“Now.” she said, “Here I am.” Dilsey came with a blanket and spread it over her and tucked it around her.
577“He be gone in a minute.” Dilsey said. “I leave the light on in your room.”
578“All right.” Caddy said. She snuggled her head beside mine on the pillow. “Goodnight, Dilsey.”
579“Goodnight, honey.” Dilsey said. The room went black. Caddy smelled like trees.
580We looked up into the tree where she was.
581“What she seeing, Versh.” Frony whispered.
582“Shhhhhhh.” Caddy said in the tree. Dilsey said,
583“You come on here.” She came around the corner of the house. “Whyn’t you all go on up stairs, like your paw said, stead of slipping out behind my back. Where’s Caddy and Quentin.”
584“I told her not to climb up that tree.” Jason said. “I’m going to tell on her.”
585“Who in what tree.” Dilsey said. She came and looked up into the tree. “Caddy.” Dilsey said. The branches began to shake again.
586“You, Satan.” Dilsey said. “Come down from there.”
587“Hush.” Caddy said, “Dont you know Father said to be quiet.” Her legs came in sight and Dilsey reached up and lifted her out of the tree.
588“Aint you got any better sense than to let them come around here.” Dilsey said.
589“I couldn’t do nothing with her.” Versh said.
590“What you all doing here.” Dilsey said. “Who told you to come up to the house.”
591“She did.” Frony said. “She told us to come.”
592“Who told you you got to do what she say.” Dilsey said. “Get on home, now.” Frony and T. P. went on. We couldn’t see them when they were still going away.
593“Out here in the middle of the night.” Dilsey said. She took me up and we went to the kitchen.
594“Slipping out behind my back.” Dilsey said. “When you knowed it’s past your bedtime.”
595“Shhhh, Dilsey.” Caddy said. “Dont talk so loud. We’ve got to be quiet.”
596“You hush your mouth and get quiet, then.” Dilsey said. “Where’s Quentin.”
597“Quentin’s mad because he had to mind me tonight.” Caddy said. “He’s still got T. P.’s bottle of lightning bugs.”
598“I reckon T. P. can get along without it.” Dilsey said. “You go and find Quentin, Versh. Roskus say he seen him going towards the barn.” Versh went on. We couldn’t see him.
599“They’re not doing anything in there.” Caddy said. “Just sitting in chairs and looking.”
600“They dont need no help from you all to do that.” Dilsey said. We went around the kitchen.
601Where you want to go now, Luster said. You going back to watch them knocking ball again. We done looked for it over there. Here. Wait a minute. You wait right here while I go back and get that ball. I done thought of something.
602The kitchen was dark. The trees were black on the sky. Dan came waddling out from under the steps and chewed my ankle. I went around the kitchen, where the moon was. Dan came scuffling along, into the moon.
603“Benjy.” T. P. said in the house.
604The flower tree by the parlor window wasn’t dark, but the thick trees were. The grass was buzzing in the moonlight where my shadow walked on the grass.
605“You, Benjy.” T. P. said in the house. “Where you hiding. You slipping off. I knows it.”
606Luster came back. Wait, he said. Here. Dont go over there. Miss Quentin and her beau in the swing yonder. You come on this way. Come back here, Benjy.
607It was dark under the trees. Dan wouldn’t come. He stayed in the moonlight. Then I could see the swing and I began to cry.
608Come away from there, Benjy, Luster said. You know Miss Quentin going to get mad.
609It was two now, and then one in the swing. Caddy came fast, white in the darkness.
610“Benjy,” she said. “How did you slip out. Where’s Versh.”
611She put her arms around me and I hushed and held to her dress and tried to pull her away.
612“Why, Benjy.” she said. “What is it. T. P.” she called.
613The one in the swing got up and came, and I cried and pulled Caddy’s dress.
614“Benjy.” Caddy said. “It’s just Charlie. Dont you know Charlie.”
615“Where’s his nigger.” Charlie said. “What do they let him run around loose for.”
616“Hush, Benjy.” Caddy said. “Go away, Charlie. He doesn’t like you.” Charlie went away and I hushed. I pulled at Caddy’s dress.
617“Why, Benjy.” Caddy said. “Aren’t you going to let me stay here and talk to Charlie awhile.”
618“Call that nigger.” Charlie said. He came back. I cried louder and pulled at Caddy’s dress.
619“Go away, Charlie.” Caddy said. Charlie came and put his hands on Caddy and I cried more. I cried loud.
620“No, no.” Caddy said. “No. No.”
621“He cant talk.” Charlie said. “Caddy.”
622“Are you crazy.” Caddy said. She began to breathe fast. “He can see. Dont. Dont.” Caddy fought. They both breathed fast. “Please. Please.” Caddy whispered.
623“Send him away.” Charlie said.
624“I will.” Caddy said. “Let me go.”
625“Will you send him away.” Charlie said.
626“Yes.” Caddy said. “Let me go.” Charlie went away. “Hush.” Caddy said. “He’s gone.” I hushed. I could hear her and feel her chest going.
627“I’ll have to take him to the house.” she said. She took my hand. “I’m coming.” she whispered.
628“Wait.” Charlie said. “Call the nigger.”
629“No.” Caddy said. “I’ll come back. Come on, Benjy.”
630“Caddy.” Charlie whispered, loud. We went on. “You better come back. Are you coming back.” Caddy and I were running. “Caddy.” Charlie said. We ran out into the moonlight, toward the kitchen.
631“Caddy.” Charlie said.
632Caddy and I ran. We ran up the kitchen steps, onto the porch, and Caddy knelt down in the dark and held me. I could hear her and feel her chest. “I wont.” she said. “I wont anymore, ever. Benjy. Benjy.” Then she was crying, and I cried, and we held each other. “Hush.” she said. “Hush. I wont anymore.” So I hushed and Caddy got up and we went into the kitchen and turned the light on and Caddy took the kitchen soap and washed her mouth at the sink, hard. Caddy smelled like trees.
633I kept a telling you to stay away from there, Luster said. They sat up in the swing, quick. Quentin had her hands on her hair. He had a red tie.
634You old crazy loon, Quentin said. I’m going to tell Dilsey about the way you let him follow everywhere I go. I’m going to make her whip you good.
635“I couldn’t stop him.” Luster said. “Come on here, Benjy.”
636“Yes you could.” Quentin said. “You didn’t try. You were both snooping around after me. Did Grandmother send you all out here to spy on me.” She jumped out of the swing. “If you dont take him right away this minute and keep him away, I’m going to make Jason whip you.”
637“I cant do nothing with him.” Luster said. “You try it if you think you can.”
638“Shut your mouth.” Quentin said. “Are you going to get him away.”
639“Ah, let him stay.” he said. He had a red tie. The sun was red on it. “Look here, Jack.” He struck a match and put it in his mouth. Then he took the match out of his mouth. It was still burning. “Want to try it.” he said. I went over there. “Open your mouth.” he said. I opened my mouth. Quentin hit the match with her hand and it went away.
640“Goddamn you.” Quentin said. “Do you want to get him started. Dont you know he’ll beller all day. I’m going to tell Dilsey on you.” She went away running.
641“Here, kid.” he said. “Hey. Come on back. I aint going to fool with him.”
642Quentin ran on to the house. She went around the kitchen.
643“You played hell then, Jack.” he said. “Aint you.”
644“He cant tell what you saying.” Luster said. “He deef and dumb.”
645“Is.” he said. “How long’s he been that way.”
646“Been that way thirty-three years today.” Luster said. “Born looney. Is you one of them show folks.”
647“Why.” he said.
648“I dont ricklick seeing you around here before.” Luster said.
649“Well, what about it.” he said.
650“Nothing.” Luster said. “I going tonight.”
651He looked at me.
652“You aint the one can play a tune on that saw, is you.” Luster said.
653“It’ll cost you a quarter to find that out.” he said. He looked at me. “Why dont they lock him up.” he said. “What’d you bring him out here for.”
654“You aint talking to me.” Luster said. “I cant do nothing with him. I just come over here looking for a quarter I lost so I can go to the show tonight. Look like now I aint going to get to go.” Luster looked on the ground. “You aint got no extra quarter, is you.” Luster said.
655“No.” he said. “I aint.”
656“I reckon I just have to find that other one, then.” Luster said. He put his hand in his pocket. “You dont want to buy no golf ball neither, does you.” Luster said.
657“What kind of ball.” he said.
658“Golf ball.” Luster said. “I dont want but a quarter.”
659“What for.” he said. “What do I want with it.”
660“I didn’t think you did.” Luster said. “Come on here, mulehead.” he said. “Come on here and watch them knocking that ball. Here. Here something you can play with along with that jimson weed.” Luster picked it up and gave it to me. It was bright.
661“Where’d you get that.” he said. His tie was red in the sun, walking.
662“Found it under this here bush.” Luster said. “I thought for a minute it was that quarter I lost.”
663He came and took it.
664“Hush.” Luster said. “He going to give it back when he done looking at it.”
665“Agnes Mabel Becky.” he said. He looked toward the house.
666“Hush.” Luster said. “He fixing to give it back.”
667He gave it to me and I hushed.
668“Who come to see her last night.” he said.
669“I dont know.” Luster said. “They comes every night she can climb down that tree. I dont keep no track of them.”
670“Damn if one of them didn’t leave a track.” he said. He looked at the house. Then he went and lay down in the swing. “Go away.” he said. “Dont bother me.”
671“Come on here.” Luster said. “You done played hell now. Time Miss Quentin get done telling on you.”
672We went to the fence and looked through the curling flower spaces. Luster hunted in the grass.
673“I had it right here.” he said. I saw the flag flapping, and the sun slanting on the broad grass.
674“They’ll be some along soon.” Luster said. “There some now, but they going away. Come on and help me look for it.”
675We went along the fence.
676“Hush.” Luster said. “How can I make them come over here, if they aint coming. Wait. They’ll be some in a minute. Look yonder. Here they come.”
677I went along the fence, to the gate, where the girls passed with their booksatchels. “You, Benjy.” Luster said. “Come back here.”
678You cant do no good looking through the gate, T. P. said. Miss Caddy done gone long ways away. Done got married and left you. You cant do no good, holding to the gate and crying. She cant hear you.
679What is it he wants, T. P. Mother said. Cant you play with him and keep him quiet.
680He want to go down yonder and look through the gate, T. P. said.
681Well, he cannot do it, Mother said. It’s raining. You will just have to play with him and keep him quiet. You, Benjamin.
682Aint nothing going to quiet him, T. P. said. He think if he down to the gate, Miss Caddy come back.
683Nonsense, Mother said.
684I could hear them talking. I went out the door and I couldn’t hear them, and I went down to the gate, where the girls passed with their booksatchels. They looked at me, walking fast, with their heads turned. I tried to say, but they went on, and I went along the fence, trying to say, and they went faster. Then they were running and I came to the corner of the fence and I couldn’t go any further, and I held to the fence, looking after them and trying to say.
685“You, Benjy.” T. P. said. “What you doing, slipping out. Dont you know Dilsey whip you.”
686“You cant do no good, moaning and slobbering through the fence.” T. P. said. “You done skeered them chillen. Look at them, walking on the other side of the street.”
687How did he get out, Father said. Did you leave the gate unlatched when you came in, Jason.
688Of course not, Jason said. Dont you know I’ve got better sense than to do that. Do you think I wanted anything like this to happen. This family is bad enough, God knows. I could have told you, all the time. I reckon you’ll send him to Jackson, now. If Mrs Burgess dont shoot him first.
689Hush, Father said.
690I could have told you, all the time, Jason said.
691It was open when I touched it, and I held to it in the twilight. I wasn’t crying, and I tried to stop, watching the girls coming along in the twilight. I wasn’t crying.
692“There he is.”
693They stopped.
694“He cant get out. He wont hurt anybody, anyway. Come on.”
695“I’m scared to. I’m scared. I’m going to cross the street.”
696“He cant get out.”
697I wasn’t crying.
698“Dont be a ’fraid cat. Come on.”
699They came on in the twilight. I wasn’t crying, and I held to the gate. They came slow.
700“I’m scared.”
701“He wont hurt you. I pass here every day. He just runs along the fence.”
702They came on. I opened the gate and they stopped, turning. I was trying to say, and I caught her, trying to say, and she screamed and I was trying to say and trying and the bright shapes began to stop and I tried to get out. I tried to get it off of my face, but the bright shapes were going again. They were going up the hill to where it fell away and I tried to cry. But when I breathed in, I couldn’t breathe out again to cry, and I tried to keep from falling off the hill and I fell off the hill into the bright, whirling shapes.
703Here, loony, Luster said. Here come some. Hush your slobbering and moaning, now.
704They came to the flag. He took it out and they hit, then he put the flag back.
705“Mister.” Luster said.
706He looked around. “What.” he said.
707“Want to buy a golf ball.” Luster said.
708“Let’s see it.” he said. He came to the fence and Luster reached the ball through.
709“Where’d you get it.” he said.
710“Found it.” Luster said.
711“I know that.” he said. “Where. In somebody’s golf bag.”
712“I found it laying over here in the yard.” Luster said. “I’ll take a quarter for it.”
713“What makes you think it’s yours.” he said.
714“I found it.” Luster said.
715“Then find yourself another one.” he said. He put it in his pocket and went away.
716“I got to go to that show tonight.” Luster said.
717“That so.” he said. He went to the table. “Fore, caddie.” he said. He hit.
718“I’ll declare.” Luster said. “You fusses when you dont see them and you fusses when you does. Why cant you hush. Dont you reckon folks gets tired of listening to you all the time. Here. You dropped your jimson weed.” He picked it up and gave it back to me. “You needs a new one. You ’bout wore that one out.” We stood at the fence and watched them.
719“That white man hard to get along with.” Luster said. “You see him take my ball.” They went on. We went on along the fence. We came to the garden and we couldn’t go any further. I held to the fence and looked through the flower spaces. They went away.
720“Now you aint got nothing to moan about.” Luster said. “Hush up. I the one got something to moan over, you aint. Here. Whyn’t you hold on to that weed. You be bellering about it next.” He gave me the flower. “Where you heading now.”
721Our shadows were on the grass. They got to the trees before we did. Mine got there first. Then we got there, and then the shadows were gone. There was a flower in the bottle. I put the other flower in it.
722“Aint you a grown man, now.” Luster said. “Playing with two weeds in a bottle. You know what they going to do with you when Miss Cahline die. They going to send you to Jackson, where you belong. Mr Jason say so. Where you can hold the bars all day long with the rest of the looneys and slobber. How you like that.”
723Luster knocked the flowers over with his hand. “That’s what they’ll do to you at Jackson when you starts bellering.”
724I tried to pick up the flowers. Luster picked them up, and they went away. I began to cry.
725“Beller.” Luster said. “Beller. You want something to beller about. All right, then. Caddy.” he whispered. “Caddy. Beller now. Caddy.”
726“Luster.” Dilsey said from the kitchen.
727The flowers came back.
728“Hush.” Luster said. “Here they is. Look. It’s fixed back just like it was at first. Hush, now.”
729“You, Luster.” Dilsey said.
730“Yessum.” Luster said. “We coming. You done played hell. Get up.” He jerked my arm and I got up. We went out of the trees. Our shadows were gone.
731“Hush.” Luster said. “Look at all them folks watching you. Hush.”
732“You bring him on here.” Dilsey said. She came down the steps.
733“What you done to him now.” she said.
734“Aint done nothing to him.” Luster said. “He just started bellering.”
735“Yes you is.” Dilsey said. “You done something to him. Where you been.”
736“Over yonder under them cedars.” Luster said.
737“Getting Quentin all riled up.” Dilsey said. “Why cant you keep him away from her. Dont you know she dont like him where she at.”
738“Got as much time for him as I is.” Luster said. “He aint none of my uncle.”
739“Dont you sass me, nigger boy.” Dilsey said.
740“I aint done nothing to him.” Luster said. “He was playing there, and all of a sudden he started bellering.”
741“Is you been projecking with his graveyard.” Dilsey said.
742“I aint touched his graveyard.” Luster said.
743“Dont lie to me, boy.” Dilsey said. We went up the steps and into the kitchen. Dilsey opened the firedoor and drew a chair up in front of it and I sat down. I hushed.
744What you want to get her started for, Dilsey said. Whyn’t you keep him out of there.
745He was just looking at the fire, Caddy said. Mother was telling him his new name. We didn’t mean to get her started.
746I knows you didn’t, Dilsey said. Him at one end of the house and her at the other. You let my things alone, now. Dont you touch nothing till I get back.
747“Aint you shamed of yourself.” Dilsey said. “Teasing him.” She set the cake on the table.
748“I aint been teasing him.” Luster said. “He was playing with that bottle full of dogfennel and all of a sudden he started up bellering. You heard him.”
749“You aint done nothing to his flowers.” Dilsey said.
750“I aint touched his graveyard.” Luster said. “What I want with his truck. I was just hunting for that quarter.”
751“You lost it, did you.” Dilsey said. She lit the candles on the cake. Some of them were little ones. Some were big ones cut into little pieces. “I told you to go put it away. Now I reckon you want me to get you another one from Frony.”
752“I got to go to that show, Benjy or no Benjy.” Luster said. “I aint going to follow him around day and night both.”
753“You going to do just what he want you to, nigger boy.” Dilsey said. “You hear me.”
754“Aint I always done it.” Luster said. “Dont I always does what he wants. Dont I, Benjy.”
755“Then you keep it up.” Dilsey said. “Bringing him in here, bawling and getting her started too. You all go ahead and eat this cake, now, before Jason come. I dont want him jumping on me about a cake I bought with my own money. Me baking a cake here, with him counting every egg that comes into this kitchen. See can you let him alone now, less you dont want to go to that show tonight.”
756Dilsey went away.
757“You cant blow out no candles.” Luster said. “Watch me blow them out.” He leaned down and puffed his face. The candles went away. I began to cry. “Hush.” Luster said. “Here. Look at the fire whiles I cuts this cake.”
758I could hear the clock, and I could hear Caddy standing behind me, and I could hear the roof. It’s still raining, Caddy said. I hate rain. I hate everything. And then her head came into my lap and she was crying, holding me, and I began to cry. Then I looked at the fire again and the bright, smooth shapes went again. I could hear the clock and the roof and Caddy.
759I ate some cake. Luster’s hand came and took another piece. I could hear him eating. I looked at the fire.
760A long piece of wire came across my shoulder. It went to the door, and then the fire went away. I began to cry.
761“What you howling for now.” Luster said. “Look there.” The fire was there. I hushed. “Cant you set and look at the fire and be quiet like mammy told you.” Luster said. “You ought to be ashamed of yourself. Here. Here’s you some more cake.”
762“What you done to him now.” Dilsey said. “Cant you never let him alone.”
763“I was just trying to get him to hush up and not sturb Miss Cahline.” Luster said. “Something got him started again.”
764“And I know what that something name.” Dilsey said. “I’m going to get Versh to take a stick to you when he comes home. You just trying yourself. You been doing it all day. Did you take him down to the branch.”
765“Nome.” Luster said. “We been right here in this yard all day, like you said.”
766His hand came for another piece of cake. Dilsey hit his hand. “Reach it again, and I chop it right off with this here butcher knife.” Dilsey said. “I bet he aint had one piece of it.”
767“Yes he is.” Luster said. “He already had twice as much as me. Ask him if he aint.”
768“Reach hit one more time.” Dilsey said. “Just reach it.”
769That’s right, Dilsey said. I reckon it’ll be my time to cry next. Reckon Maury going to let me cry on him a while, too.
770His name’s Benjy now, Caddy said.
771How come it is, Dilsey said. He aint wore out the name he was born with yet, is he.
772Benjamin came out of the bible, Caddy said. It’s a better name for him than Maury was.
773How come it is, Dilsey said.
774Mother says it is, Caddy said.
775Huh, Dilsey said. Name aint going to help him. Hurt him, neither. Folks dont have no luck, changing names. My name been Dilsey since fore I could remember and it be Dilsey when they’s long forgot me.
776How will they know it’s Dilsey, when it’s long forgot, Dilsey, Caddy said.
777It’ll be in the Book, honey, Dilsey said. Writ out.
778Can you read it, Caddy said.
779Wont have to, Dilsey said. They’ll read it for me. All I got to do is say Ise here.
780The long wire came across my shoulder, and the fire went away. I began to cry.
781Dilsey and Luster fought.
782“I seen you.” Dilsey said. “Oho, I seen you.” She dragged Luster out of the corner, shaking him. “Wasn’t nothing bothering him, was they. You just wait till your pappy come home. I wish I was young like I use to be, I’d tear them years right off your head. I good mind to lock you up in that cellar and not let you go to that show tonight, I sho is.”
783“Ow, mammy.” Luster said. “Ow, mammy.”
784I put my hand out to where the fire had been.
785“Catch him.” Dilsey said. “Catch him back.”
786My hand jerked back and I put it in my mouth and Dilsey caught me. I could still hear the clock between my voice. Dilsey reached back and hit Luster on the head. My voice was going loud every time.
787“Get that soda.” Dilsey said. She took my hand out of my mouth. My voice went louder then and my hand tried to go back to my mouth, but Dilsey held it. My voice went loud. She sprinkled soda on my hand.
788“Look in the pantry and tear a piece off of that rag hanging on the nail.” she said. “Hush, now. You dont want to make your ma sick again, does you. Here, look at the fire. Dilsey make your hand stop hurting in just a minute. Look at the fire.” She opened the fire door. I looked at the fire, but my hand didn’t stop and I didn’t stop. My hand was trying to go to my mouth but Dilsey held it.
789She wrapped the cloth around it. Mother said,
790“What is it now. Cant I even be sick in peace. Do I have to get up out of bed to come down to him, with two grown negroes to take care of him.”
791“He all right now.” Dilsey said. “He going to quit. He just burnt his hand a little.”
792“With two grown negroes, you must bring him into the house, bawling.” Mother said. “You got him started on purpose, because you know I’m sick.” She came and stood by me. “Hush.” she said. “Right this minute. Did you give him this cake.”
793“I bought it.” Dilsey said. “It never come out of Jason’s pantry. I fixed him some birthday.”
794“Do you want to poison him with that cheap store cake.” Mother said. “Is that what you are trying to do. Am I never to have one minute’s peace.”
795“You go on back up stairs and lay down.” Dilsey said. “It’ll quit smarting him in a minute now, and he’ll hush. Come on, now.”
796“And leave him down here for you all to do something else to.” Mother said. “How can I lie there, with him bawling down here. Benjamin. Hush this minute.”
797“They aint nowhere else to take him.” Dilsey said. “We aint got the room we use to have. He cant stay out in the yard, crying where all the neighbors can see him.”
798“I know, I know.” Mother said. “It’s all my fault. I’ll be gone soon, and you and Jason will both get along better.” She began to cry.
799“You hush that, now.” Dilsey said. “You’ll get yourself down again. You come on back up stairs. Luster going to take him to the liberry and play with him till I get his supper done.”
800Dilsey and Mother went out.
801“Hush up.” Luster said. “You hush up. You want me to burn your other hand for you. You aint hurt. Hush up.”
802“Here.” Dilsey said. “Stop crying, now.” She gave me the slipper, and I hushed. “Take him to the liberry.” she said. “And if I hear him again, I going to whip you myself.”
803We went to the library. Luster turned on the light. The windows went black, and the dark tall place on the wall came and I went and touched it. It was like a door, only it wasn’t a door.
804The fire came behind me and I went to the fire and sat on the floor, holding the slipper. The fire went higher. It went onto the cushion in Mother’s chair.
805“Hush up.” Luster said. “Cant you never get done for a while. Here I done built you a fire, and you wont even look at it.”
806Your name is Benjy. Caddy said. Do you hear. Benjy. Benjy.
807Dont tell him that, Mother said. Bring him here.
808Caddy lifted me under the arms.
809Get up, Mau—I mean Benjy, she said.
810Dont try to carry him, Mother said. Cant you lead him over here. Is that too much for you to think of.
811I can carry him, Caddy said. “Let me carry him up, Dilsey.”
812“Go on, Minute.” Dilsey said. “You aint big enough to tote a flea. You go on and be quiet, like Mr. Jason said.”
813There was a light at the top of the stairs. Father was there, in his shirt sleeves. The way he looked said Hush. Caddy whispered,
814“Is Mother sick.”
815Versh set me down and we went into Mother’s room. There was a fire. It was rising and falling on the walls. There was another fire in the mirror. I could smell the sickness. It was a cloth folded on Mother’s head. Her hair was on the pillow. The fire didn’t reach it, but it shone on her hand, where her rings were jumping.
816“Come and tell Mother goodnight.” Caddy said. We went to the bed. The fire went out of the mirror. Father got up from the bed and lifted me up and Mother put her hand on my head.
817“What time is it.” Mother said. Her eyes were closed.
818“Ten minutes to seven.” Father said.
819“It’s too early for him to go to bed.” Mother said. “He’ll wake up at daybreak, and I simply cannot bear another day like today.”
820“There, there.” Father said. He touched Mother’s face.
821“I know I’m nothing but a burden to you.” Mother said. “But I’ll be gone soon. Then you will be rid of my bothering.”
822“Hush.” Father said. “I’ll take him downstairs awhile.” He took me up. “Come on, old fellow. Let’s go downstairs awhile. We’ll have to be quiet while Quentin is studying, now.”
823Caddy went and leaned her face over the bed and Mother’s hand came into the firelight. Her rings jumped on Caddy’s back.
824Mother’s sick, Father said. Dilsey will put you to bed. Where’s Quentin.
825Versh getting him, Dilsey said.
826Father stood and watched us go past. We could hear Mother in her room. Caddy said “Hush.” Jason was still climbing the stairs. He had his hands in his pockets.
827“You all must be good tonight.” Father said. “And be quiet, so you wont disturb Mother.”
828“We’ll be quiet.” Caddy said. “You must be quiet now, Jason.” she said. We tiptoed.
829We could hear the roof. I could see the fire in the mirror too. Caddy lifted me again.
830“Come on, now.” she said. “Then you can come back to the fire. Hush, now.”
831“Candace.” Mother said.
832“Hush, Benjy.” Caddy said. “Mother wants you a minute. Like a good boy. Then you can come back. Benjy.”
833Caddy let me down, and I hushed.
834“Let him stay here, Mother. When he’s through looking at the fire, then you can tell him.”
835“Candace.” Mother said. Caddy stooped and lifted me. We staggered. “Candace.” Mother said.
836“Hush.” Caddy said. “You can still see it. Hush.”
837“Bring him here.” Mother said. “He’s too big for you to carry. You must stop trying. You’ll injure your back. All of our women have prided themselves on their carriage. Do you want to look like a washer-woman.”
838“He’s not too heavy.” Caddy said. “I can carry him.”
839“Well, I dont want him carried, then.” Mother said. “A five year old child. No, no. Not in my lap. Let him stand up.”
840“If you’ll hold him, he’ll stop.” Caddy said. “Hush.” she said. “You can go right back. Here. Here’s your cushion. See.”
841“Dont, Candace.” Mother said.
842“Let him look at it and he’ll be quiet.” Caddy said. “Hold up just a minute while I slip it out. There, Benjy. Look.”
843I looked at it and hushed.
844“You humour him too much.” Mother said. “You and your father both. You dont realise that I am the one who has to pay for it. Damuddy spoiled Jason that way and it took him two years to outgrow it, and I am not strong enough to go through the same thing with Benjamin.”
845“You dont need to bother with him.” Caddy said. “I like to take care of him. Dont I, Benjy.”
846“Candace.” Mother said. “I told you not to call him that. It was bad enough when your father insisted on calling you by that silly nickname, and I will not have him called by one. Nicknames are vulgar. Only common people use them. Benjamin.” she said.
847“Look at me.” Mother said.
848“Benjamin.” she said. She took my face in her hands and turned it to hers.
849“Benjamin.” she said. “Take that cushion away, Candace.”
850“He’ll cry.” Caddy said.
851“Take that cushion away, like I told you.” Mother said. “He must learn to mind.”
852The cushion went away.
853“Hush, Benjy.” Caddy said.
854“You go over there and sit down.” Mother said. “Benjamin.” She held my face to hers.
855“Stop that.” she said. “Stop it.”
856But I didn’t stop and Mother caught me in her arms and began to cry, and I cried. Then the cushion came back and Caddy held it above Mother’s head. She drew Mother back in the chair and Mother lay crying against the red and yellow cushion.
857“Hush, Mother.” Caddy said. “You go upstairs and lay down, so you can be sick. I’ll go get Dilsey.” She led me to the fire and I looked at the bright, smooth shapes. I could hear the fire and the roof.
858Father took me up. He smelled like rain.
859“Well, Benjy.” he said. “Have you been a good boy today.”
860Caddy and Jason were fighting in the mirror.
861“You, Caddy.” Father said.
862They fought. Jason began to cry.
863“Caddy.” Father said. Jason was crying. He wasn’t fighting anymore but we could see Caddy fighting in the mirror and Father put me down and went into the mirror and fought too. He lifted Caddy up. She fought. Jason lay on the floor, crying. He had the scissors in his hand. Father held Caddy.
864“He cut up all Benjy’s dolls.” Caddy said. “I’ll slit his gizzle.”
865“Candace.” Father said.
866“I will.” Caddy said. “I will.” She fought. Father held her. She kicked at Jason. He rolled into the corner, out of the mirror. Father brought Caddy to the fire. They were all out of the mirror. Only the fire was in it. Like the fire was in a door.
867“Stop that.” Father said. “Do you want to make Mother sick in her room.”
868Caddy stopped. “He cut up all the dolls Mau—Benjy and I made.” Caddy said. “He did it just for meanness.”
869“I didn’t.” Jason said. He was sitting up, crying. “I didn’t know they were his. I just thought they were some old papers.”
870“You couldn’t help but know.” Caddy said. “You did it just.”
871“Hush.” Father said. “Jason.” he said.
872“I’ll make you some more tomorrow.” Caddy said. “We’ll make a lot of them. Here, you can look at the cushion, too.”
873Jason came in.
874I kept telling you to hush, Luster said.
875What’s the matter now, Jason said.
876“He just trying hisself.” Luster said. “That the way he been going on all day.”
877“Why dont you let him alone, then.” Jason said. “If you cant keep him quiet, you’ll have to take him out to the kitchen. The rest of us cant shut ourselves up in a room like Mother does.”
878“Mammy say keep him out the kitchen till she get supper.” Luster said.
879“Then play with him and keep him quiet.” Jason said. “Do I have to work all day and then come home to a mad house.” He opened the paper and read it.
880You can look at the fire and the mirror and the cushion too, Caddy said. You wont have to wait until supper to look at the cushion, now. We could hear the roof. We could hear Jason too, crying loud beyond the wall.
881Dilsey said, “You come, Jason. You letting him alone, is you.”
882“Yessum.” Luster said.
883“Where Quentin.” Dilsey said. “Supper near bout ready.”
884“I dont know’m.” Luster said. “I aint seen her.”
885Dilsey went away. “Quentin.” she said in the hall. “Quentin. Supper ready.”
886We could hear the roof. Quentin smelled like rain, too.
887What did Jason do, he said.
888He cut up all Benjy’s dolls, Caddy said.
889Mother said to not call him Benjy, Quentin said. He sat on the rug by us. I wish it wouldn’t rain, he said. You cant do anything.
890You’ve been in a fight, Caddy said. Haven’t you.
891It wasn’t much, Quentin said.
892You can tell it, Caddy said. Father’ll see it.
893I dont care, Quentin said. I wish it wouldn’t rain.
894Quentin said, “Didn’t Dilsey say supper was ready.”
895“Yessum.” Luster said. Jason looked at Quentin. Then he read the paper again. Quentin came in. “She say it bout ready.” Luster said. Quentin jumped down in Mother’s chair. Luster said,
896“Mr Jason.”
897“What.” Jason said.
898“Let me have two bits.” Luster said.
899“What for.” Jason said.
900“To go to the show tonight.” Luster said.
901“I thought Dilsey was going to get a quarter from Frony for you.” Jason said.
902“She did.” Luster said. “I lost it. Me and Benjy hunted all day for that quarter. You can ask him.”
903“Then borrow one from him.” Jason said. “I have to work for mine.” He read the paper. Quentin looked at the fire. The fire was in her eyes and on her mouth. Her mouth was red.
904“I tried to keep him away from there.” Luster said.
905“Shut your mouth.” Quentin said. Jason looked at her.
906“What did I tell you I was going to do if I saw you with that show fellow again.” he said. Quentin looked at the fire. “Did you hear me.” Jason said.
907“I heard you.” Quentin said. “Why dont you do it, then.”
908“Dont you worry.” Jason said.
909“I’m not.” Quentin said. Jason read the paper again.
910I could hear the roof. Father leaned forward and looked at Quentin.
911Hello, he said. Who won.
912“Nobody.” Quentin said. “They stopped us. Teachers.”
913“Who was it.” Father said. “Will you tell.”
914“It was all right.” Quentin said. “He was as big as me.”
915“That’s good.” Father said. “Can you tell what it was about.”
916“It wasn’t anything.” Quentin said. “He said he would put a frog in her desk and she wouldn’t dare to whip him.”
917“Oh.” Father said. “She. And then what.”
918“Yes, sir.” Quentin said. “And then I kind of hit him.”
919We could hear the roof and the fire, and a snuffling outside the door.
920“Where was he going to get a frog in November.” Father said.
921“I dont know, sir.” Quentin said.
922We could hear them.
923“Jason.” Father said. We could hear Jason.
924“Jason.” Father said. “Come in here and stop that.”
925We could hear the roof and the fire and Jason.
926“Stop that, now.” Father said. “Do you want me to whip you again.” Father lifted Jason up into the chair by him. Jason snuffled. We could hear the fire and the roof. Jason snuffled a little louder.
927“One more time.” Father said. We could hear the fire and the roof.
928Dilsey said, All right. You all can come on to supper.
929Versh smelled like rain. He smelled like a dog, too. We could hear the fire and the roof.
930We could hear Caddy walking fast. Father and Mother looked at the door. Caddy passed it, walking fast, She didn’t look. She walked fast.
931“Candace.” Mother said. Caddy stopped walking.
932“Yes, Mother.” she said.
933“Hush, Caroline.” Father said.
934“Come here.” Mother said.
935“Hush, Caroline.” Father said. “Let her alone.”
936Caddy came to the door and stood there, looking at Father and Mother. Her eyes flew at me, and away. I began to cry. It went loud and I got up. Caddy came in and stood with her back to the wall, looking at me. I went toward her, crying, and she shrank against the wall and I saw her eyes and I cried louder and pulled at her dress. She put her hands out but I pulled at her dress. Her eyes ran.
937Versh said, Your name Benjamin now. You know how come your name Benjamin now. They making a bluegum out of you. Mammy say in old time your granpa changed nigger’s name, and he turn preacher, and when they look at him, he bluegum too. Didn’t use to be bluegum, neither. And when family woman look him in the eye in the full of the moon, chile born bluegum. And one evening, when they was about a dozen them bluegum chillen running round the place, he never come home. Possum hunters found him in the woods, et clean. And you know who et him. Them bluegum chillen did.
938We were in the hall. Caddy was still looking at me. Her hand was against her mouth and I saw her eyes and I cried. We went up the stairs. She stopped again, against the wall, looking at me and I cried and she went on and I came on, crying, and she shrank against the wall, looking at me. She opened the door to her room, but I pulled at her dress and we went to the bathroom and she stood against the door, looking at me. Then she put her arm across her face and I pushed at her, crying.
939What are you doing to him, Jason said. Why cant you let him alone.
940I aint touching him, Luster said. He been doing this way all day long. He needs whipping.
941He needs to be sent to Jackson, Quentin said. How can anybody live in a house like this.
942If you dont like it, young lady, you’d better get out, Jason said.
943I’m going to, Quentin said. Dont you worry.
944Versh said, “You move back some, so I can dry my legs off.” He shoved me back a little. “Dont you start bellering, now. You can still see it. That’s all you have to do. You aint had to be out in the rain like I is. You’s born lucky and dont know it.” He lay on his back before the fire.
945“You know how come your name Benjamin now.” Versh said. “Your mamma too proud for you. What mammy say.”
946“You be still there and let me dry my legs off.” Versh said. “Or you know what I’ll do. I’ll skin your rinktum.”
947We could hear the fire and the roof and Versh.
948Versh got up quick and jerked his legs back. Father said, “All right, Versh.”
949“I’ll feed him tonight.” Caddy said. “Sometimes he cries when Versh feeds him.”
950“Take this tray up,” Dilsey said. “And hurry back and feed Benjy.”
951“Dont you want Caddy to feed you.” Caddy said.
952Has he got to keep that old dirty slipper on the table, Quentin said. Why dont you feed him in the kitchen. It’s like eating with a pig.
953If you dont like the way we eat, you’d better not come to the table, Jason said.
954Steam came off of Roskus. He was sitting in front of the stove. The oven door was open and Roskus had his feet in it. Steam came off the bowl. Caddy put the spoon into my mouth easy. There was a black spot on the inside of the bowl.
955Now, now, Dilsey said. He aint going to bother you no more.
956It got down below the mark. Then the bowl was empty. It went away. “He’s hungry tonight.” Caddy said. The bowl came back. I couldn’t see the spot. Then I could. “He’s starved, tonight.” Caddy said. “Look how much he’s eaten.”
957Yes he will, Quentin said. You all send him out to spy on me. I hate this house. I’m going to run away.
958Roskus said, “It going to rain all night.”
959You’ve been running a long time, not to ’ve got any further off than mealtime, Jason said.
960See if I dont, Quentin said.
961“Then I dont know what I going to do.” Dilsey said. “It caught me in the hip so bad now I cant scarcely move. Climbing them stairs all evening.”
962Oh, I wouldn’t be surprised, Jason said. I wouldn’t be surprised at anything you’d do.
963Quentin threw her napkin on the table.
964Hush your mouth, Jason, Dilsey said. She went and put her arm around Quentin. Sit down, honey, Dilsey said. He ought to be shamed of hisself, throwing what aint your fault up to you.
965“She sulling again, is she.” Roskus said.
966“Hush your mouth.” Dilsey said.
967Quentin pushed Dilsey away. She looked at Jason. Her mouth was red. She picked up her glass of water and swung her arm back, looking at Jason. Dilsey caught her arm. They fought. The glass broke on the table, and the water ran into the table. Quentin was running.
968“Mother’s sick again.” Caddy said.
969“Sho she is.” Dilsey said. “Weather like this make anybody sick. When you going to get done eating, boy.”
970Goddamn you, Quentin said. Goddamn you. We could hear her running on the stairs. We went to the library.
971Caddy gave me the cushion, and I could look at the cushion and the mirror and the fire.
972“We must be quiet while Quentin’s studying.” Father said. “What are you doing, Jason.”
973“Nothing.” Jason said.
974“Suppose you come over here to do it, then.” Father said.
975Jason came out of the corner.
976“What are you chewing.” Father said.
977“Nothing.” Jason said.
978“He’s chewing paper again.” Caddy said.
979“Come here, Jason.” Father said.
980Jason threw into the fire. It hissed, uncurled, turning black. Then it was gray. Then it was gone. Caddy and Father and Jason were in Mother’s chair. Jason’s eyes were puffed shut and his mouth moved, like tasting. Caddy’s head was on Father’s shoulder. Her hair was like fire, and little points of fire were in her eyes, and I went and Father lifted me into the chair too, and Caddy held me. She smelled like trees.
981She smelled like trees. In the corner it was dark, but I could see the window. I squatted there, holding the slipper. I couldn’t see it, but my hands saw it, and I could hear it getting night, and my hands saw the slipper but I couldn’t see myself, but my hands could see the slipper, and I squatted there, hearing it getting dark.
982Here you is, Luster said. Look what I got. He showed it to me. You know where I got it. Miss Quentin gave it to me. I knowed they couldn’t keep me out. What you doing, off in here. I thought you done slipped back out doors. Aint you done enough moaning and slobbering today, without hiding off in this here empty room, mumbling and taking on. Come on here to bed, so I can get up there before it starts. I cant fool with you all night tonight. Just let them horns toot the first toot and I done gone.
983We didn’t go to our room.
984“This is where we have the measles.” Caddy said. “Why do we have to sleep in here tonight.”
985“What you care where you sleep.” Dilsey said. She shut the door and sat down and began to undress me. Jason began to cry. “Hush.” Dilsey said.
986“I want to sleep with Damuddy.” Jason said.
987“She’s sick.” Caddy said. “You can sleep with her when she gets well. Cant he, Dilsey.”
988“Hush, now.” Dilsey said. Jason hushed.
989“Our nighties are here, and everything.” Caddy said. “It’s like moving.”
990“And you better get into them.” Dilsey said. “You be unbuttoning Jason.”
991Caddy unbuttoned Jason. He began to cry.
992“You want to get whipped.” Dilsey said. Jason hushed.
993Quentin, Mother said in the hall.
994What, Quentin said beyond the wall. We heard Mother lock the door. She looked in our door and came in and stooped over the bed and kissed me on the forehead.
995When you get him to bed, go and ask Dilsey if she objects to my having a hot water bottle, Mother said. Tell her that if she does, I’ll try to get along without it. Tell her I just want to know.
996Yessum, Luster said. Come on. Get your pants off.
997Quentin and Versh came in. Quentin had his face turned away. “What are you crying for.” Caddy said.
998“Hush.” Dilsey said. “You all get undressed, now. You can go on home, Versh.”
999I got undressed and I looked at myself, and I began to cry. Hush, Luster said. Looking for them aint going to do no good. They’re gone. You keep on like this, and we aint going have you no more birthday. He put my gown on. I hushed, and then Luster stopped, his head toward the window. Then he went to the window and looked out. He came back and took my arm. Here she come, he said. Be quiet, now. We went to the window and looked out. It came out of Quentin’s window and climbed across into the tree. We watched the tree shaking. The shaking went down the tree, than it came out and we watched it go away across the grass. Then we couldn’t see it. Come on, Luster said. There now. Hear them horns. You get in that bed while my foots behaves.
1000There were two beds. Quentin got in the other one. He turned his face to the wall. Dilsey put Jason in with him. Caddy took her dress off.
1001“Just look at your drawers.” Dilsey said. “You better be glad your ma aint seen you.”
1002“I already told on her.” Jason said.
1003“I bound you would.” Dilsey said.
1004“And see what you got by it.” Caddy said. “Tattletale.”
1005“What did I get by it.” Jason said.
1006“Whyn’t you get your nightie on.” Dilsey said. She went and helped Caddy take off her bodice and drawers. “Just look at you.” Dilsey said. She wadded the drawers and scrubbed Caddy behind with them. “It done soaked clean through onto you.” she said. “But you wont get no bath this night. Here.” She put Caddy’s nightie on her and Caddy climbed into the bed and Dilsey went to the door and stood with her hand on the light. “You all be quiet now, you hear.” she said.
1007“All right.” Caddy said. “Mother’s not coming in tonight.” she said. “So we still have to mind me.”
1008“Yes.” Dilsey said. “Go to sleep, now.”
1009“Mother’s sick.” Caddy said. “She and Damuddy are both sick.”
1010“Hush.” Dilsey said. “You go to sleep.”
1011The room went black, except the door. Then the door went black. Caddy said, “Hush, Maury,” putting her hand on me. So I stayed hushed. We could hear us. We could hear the dark.
1012It went away, and Father looked at us. He looked at Quentin and Jason, then he came and kissed Caddy and put his hand on my head.
1013“Is Mother very sick.” Caddy said.
1014“No.” Father said. “Are you going to take good care of Maury.”
1015“Yes.” Caddy said.
1016Father went to the door and looked at us again. Then the dark came back, and he stood black in the door, and then the door turned black again. Caddy held me and I could hear us all, and the darkness, and something I could smell. And then I could see the windows, where the trees were buzzing. Then the dark began to go in smooth, bright shapes, like it always does, even when Caddy says that I have been asleep.