1Hornblower came walking into his office at Admiralty House at half past five o’clock in the morning exactly. Now that the summer was come, there was just enough daylight at that time to transact business and it was a fairly cool moment as well. Gerard and Spendlove, his flag lieutenant and secretary, were waiting for him there—it would have gone hard with them if they had not been—and they pulled themselves erect, without any clicking of heels (for in three years they had found that their chief discountenanced the practice), and they said, “Good morning, my lord,” “Good morning, my lord,” as if they were the two barrels of a shotgun.
2“Morning,” said Hornblower. He had not had his breakfast coffee yet; otherwise he would have put “good” in front of “morning.”
3He sat down at his desk, and Spendlove came to hover over his shoulder with a sheaf of papers while Gerard made the dawn report.
4“Weather conditions normal, my lord. High water today at eleven-thirty. No arrivals during the night, and nothing in sight this morning from the signal station. No news of the packet, my lord, and no news of Triton.”
5“A negative report if ever there was one,” said Hornblower. The negatives in the last two phrases balanced each other; H.M.S. Triton was bringing out his successor to relieve him of his command at the end of his three years’ appointment, and Hornblower was not happy over the prospect of ceasing to be commander-in-chief in the West Indies; but the West Indian packet was bringing out his wife, whom he had not seen during all this time, and to whose arrival he was eagerly looking forward. She was coming out so as to make the return voyage to England with him.
6“The packet’s due any day, my lord,” said Gerard soothingly.
7“Your business is to tell me things I don’t know, Mr. Gerard,” snapped Hornblower. It annoyed him to be soothed like a child, and it annoyed him still more that his personal staff should think him human enough to be anxious to see his wife. He looked over his shoulder at his secretary. “What do you have there, Spendlove?”
8Spendlove made a hasty rearrangement of the papers in his hand. Hornblower’s morning coffee was due at any moment, and Spendlove had something he did not want to show his chief until the coffee had come and was half drunk at least.
9“Here are the dockyard returns to the thirty-first ultimo, my lord,” he said.
10“Can’t you say ‘to the end of last month’?” demanded Hornblower, taking them from him.
11“Aye aye, my lord,” said Spendlove, passionately hoping the coffee would come soon.
12“Anything in these?” asked Hornblower, glancing over them.
13“Nothing for your special attention, my lord.”
14“Then why trouble me with them? Next?”
15“The warrants for the new gunner in Clorinda, my lord, and for the dockyard cooper.”
16“Your coffee, my lord,” said Gerard at this moment, the relief in his voice perfectly apparent.
17“Better late than never,” snapped Hornblower. “And for God’s sake don’t fuss round me. I’ll pour it for myself.”
18Spendlove and Gerard were busily making room on his desk for the tray to be put down, and Spendlove hastily withdrew his hand from the coffeepot handle.
19“Too damned hot,” said Hornblower, taking a sip. “It’s always too damned hot.”
20Last week the new system had been begun, whereby coffee was brought in to him after his arrival in his office, instead of awaiting him there, because he had complained then that it was always too cold, but neither Spendlove nor Gerard saw fit to remind him of this.
21“I’ll sign those warrants,” said Hornblower. “Not that I think that cooper’s worth his salt. His barrels open up into birdcages.”
22Spendlove scattered sand from the caster over the wet ink of Hornblower’s signatures, and put the warrants aside. Hornblower took another sip of coffee.
23“Here’s your refusal of the Crichtons’ invitation, my lord. In the third person, so your signature isn’t necessary.”
24If that had been said to him a little while before, Hornblower would have demanded why in that case he was being bothered with it, forgetful of his own standing order that nothing was to go out in his name without his seeing it. But even two sips of coffee had done their work.
25“Very well,” he said, glancing over it, and taking up his cup again.
26Spendlove watched the level of the liquid sink in the cup, and judged the moment to be more propitious now. He laid a letter on the desk.
27“From Sir Thomas, my lord.”
28Hornblower uttered a small groan as he picked it up; Captain Sir Thomas Fell of H.M.S. Clorinda was a fussy individual, and a communication from him usually meant trouble—unnecessary trouble, and therefore to be grudged. Not in this case, though. Hornblower read the official document and then craned over his shoulder at Spendlove.
29“What’s all this about?” he demanded.
30“It’s rather a curious case, I hear, my lord,” answered Spendlove.
31It was a “circumstantial letter,” a formal request from Captain Fell for a court-martial to be held on Bandsman Hudnutt of the Royal Marines, for “wilful and persistent disobedience to orders.” Such a charge if substantiated meant death, or else such a flogging that death would be preferable. Spendlove was perfectly well aware that his admiral detested hangings and floggings.
32“The charges are preferred by the drum-major,” commented Hornblower to himself.
33He knew the drum-major, Cobb, perfectly well, or at least as well as the peculiar circumstances permitted. As admiral and commander-in-chief, Hornblower had his own band, which was under the command of Cobb, holding warrant rank. Previous to all official occasions where music had to be provided Cobb reported to Hornblower for orders and instructions, and Hornblower would go through the farce of agreeing with the suggestions put forward. He had never publicly admitted that he could not tell one note from another; he could actually distinguish one tune from another by the jigginess or otherwise of the time. He was a little uneasy in case all this was more common knowledge than he hoped.
34“What d’you mean by ‘a curious case,’ Spendlove?” he asked.
35“I believe an artistic conscience is involved, my lord,” replied Spendlove cautiously. Hornblower was pouring, and tasting, his second cup of coffee; that might have a bearing on the breaking of Bandsman Hudnutt’s neck, thought Spendlove. At the same time Hornblower was feeling the inevitable irritation resulting from having to listen to gossip. An admiral in his splendid isolation never—or only rarely—knew as much about what was going on as his most junior subordinate.
36“An artistic conscience?” he repeated. “I’ll see the drum-major this morning. Send for him now.”
37“Aye aye, my lord.”
38He had received the one necessary clue, and need not demean himself by prying further unless the interview with Cobb should prove unfruitful.
39“Now let’s have that draught report until he comes.”
40Drum-Major Cobb did not arrive for some time, and his resplendent uniform when he did arrive hinted that he had taken care about his appearance; tunic and pantaloons were freshly ironed, his buttons glittered, his sash was exactly draped, his sword hilt shone like silver. He was an enormous man with an enormous moustache, and he made an enormous entrance into the room, striding over the resounding floor as if he were twice as heavy as he actually was, clashing his boot heels together as he halted before the desk and swept his hand upward in the salute fashionable at the moment among the Royal Marines.
41“Good morning, Mr. Cobb,” said Hornblower mildly; the “Mr.,” like the sword, was an indication that Cobb was a gentleman by virtue of his warrant even though he had risen from the ranks.
42“Good morning, my lord.” There was as much flourish in the phrase as there had been in the salute.
43“I want to hear about these charges against this bandsman—Hudnutt.”
44“Well, my lord—” A sideways glance from Cobb gave Hornblower a hint.
45“Get out of here,” said Hornblower to his staff. “Leave Mr. Cobb alone with me.”
46When the door was shut Hornblower was all good manners.
47“Please sit down, Mr. Cobb. Then you can tell me at your ease what really happened.”
48“Thank you, my lord.”
49“Well, now?”
50“That young ’Udnutt, my lord, ’e’s a fool if ever there was one. I’m sorry this ’as ’appened, my lord, but ’e deserves all ’e’s going to get.”
51“Yes? He’s a fool, you say?”
52“ ’E’s a downright fool, my lord. I’m not saying ’e isn’t a good musician, ’cause ’e is. There ain’t no one ’oo can play the cornet the way ’e does. That’s the truth, my lord. ’E’s a boy wonder at it. The cornet’s a newfangled instrument, my lord. We ain’t ’ad it in our bands for more’n a year. Blow it like a trumpet, you do; you ’ave to ’ave a lip for it, although it ’as keys as well, my lord. An’ ’e’s a marvel at it, or ’e was, my lord.”
53That change to the past tense indicated that in Cobb’s positive opinion Hudnutt, through death or disablement, would never play the cornet again.
54“He’s young?”
55“Nineteen, my lord.”
56“And what did he do?”
57“It was mutiny, my lord, flat mutiny, although I’ve only charged him with disobedience to orders.”
58Mutiny meant death by the Articles of War; disobedience to orders meant “death, or such less punishment . . .”
59“How did it happen?”
60“Well, my lord, it was like this. We was rehearsing the new march that come out in the last packet. ‘Dondello,’ it’s called, my lord. Just the cornet an’ the drums. An’ it sounded different, an’ I had ’Udnutt play it again. I could ’ear what ’e was doin’, my lord. There’s a lot of B flat accidentals in that march, an’ ’e wasn’t flatting them. I asked ’im what ’e meant by it, an’ ’e said it sounded too sweet. That’s what ’e said, my lord. An’ it’s written on the music. Dolce, it says, and dolce means sweet, my lord.”
61“I know,” lied Hornblower.
62“So I says, ‘You play that again and you flat those B’ s.’ An’ ’e says, ‘I can’ t.’ An’ I says, ‘You mean you won’t?’ An’ then I says, ‘I’ll give you one more chance’—although by rights I shouldn’t ’ave, my lord. An’ I says, ‘This is an order, remember,’ an’ I gives ’em the beat an they starts off and there was the B natural s. So I says, ‘You ’eard me give you an order?’ An’ ’e says, ‘Ye s.’ So there wasn’t nothing I could do after that, my lord. I calls the guard an’ I ’ad ’im marched to the guard’ouse. An’ then I ’ad to prefer charges, my lord. ”
63“This happened with the band present?”
64“Yes, my lord. The ’ole band, sixteen of ’em.”
65Wilful disobedience to an order, before sixteen witnesses. It hardly mattered if there were six or sixteen or sixty; the point was that every one in Hornblower’s command knew by now that discipline had been defied, an order deliberately disobeyed. The man must die, or he must be flogged into a crippled wreck, lest other men defy orders. Hornblower knew he had his command well in hand, but he knew, too, of the turbulence that lay below the surface. And yet—if the order that had been disobeyed had been something different, if there had been a refusal to lay out along a yard, say, however perilous the conditions, Hornblower would not have given all this thought to the matter, despite his detestation of physical cruelty. That sort of order must be instantly obeyed. “Artistic conscience,” Spendlove had said. Hornblower had no idea of any difference between B and B flat, but he could dimly understand that it might be important to some people. A man might be tempted to refuse to do something that offended his artistic sensibilities.
66“I suppose the man was sober?” he demanded suddenly.
67“As sober as you an’ me, my lord.”
68Another idea crossed Hornblower’s mind.
69“What’s the chances of a misprint in the music?” he asked; he was struggling with things he did not understand.
70“Well, my lord, there is such things. But it’s for me to say if there’s a misprint or not. An’ although ’e can read music I don’t know if ’e can read print, my lord, an’ if ’e can I don’t expect ’e can read Eyetalian, but there it says dolce, it says, on the official music, my lord.”
71In Cobb’s eyes this aggravated the offense, if aggravation were possible. Not only had his order been disobeyed, but Hudnutt had not respected the written instructions sent by whoever was responsible in London for sending out music to marine bands. Cobb was a marine first and a musician second; Hudnutt might be a musician first and a marine second. But—Hornblower pulled himself up sharply—that made Hudnutt’s condemnation all the more necessary. A marine had to be a marine, first, foremost, and all the time. If marines started to choose whether they could be marines or not, the Royal Regiment would cease to be a military body, and it was his duty to maintain it as a military body.
72Hornblower studied Cobb’s expression intently. The man was speaking the truth, at least as far as the truth was apparent to him. He was not wilfully distorting facts because of personal prejudice or as a result of some old feud. If his action, and his report on it, had been influenced by jealousy or natural cruelty, he was unaware of it. A court-martial would be impressed by his reliability as a witness. And he remained unperturbed under Hornblower’s steady stare.
73“Thank you, Mr. Cobb,” said Hornblower at last “I am glad to have had such a clear statement of the facts. That will be all for the present.”
74“Thank you, my lord,” answered Cobb, shooting his great bulk up out of the chair with an astonishing mixture of agility and military rigidity. His heels clashed as his hand swept up in the salute; he turned about with parade precision, and marched out of the room with resounding steps as precise as if timed by his own metronome.
75Gerard and Spendlove came back into the room to find Hornblower staring at nothing, but Hornblower shook off his preoccupation instantly. It would never do for his subordinates to guess that he was moved by human feelings over a mere administrative matter.
76“Draft an answer to Sir Thomas for my signature, if you please, Mr. Spendlove. It can be a mere acknowledgment, but then add that there is no possibility of immediate action, because I cannot assemble the necessary number of captains at present with so many ships detached.”
77Except in emergency a court where sentence of death might be passed could not be convened unless there were at least seven captains and commanders available as judges. That gave him time to consider what action he should take.
78“This man’s in the dockyard prison, I suppose,” went on Hornblower. “Remind me to take a look at him on my way through the dockyard today.”
79“Aye aye, my lord,” said Gerard, careful to betray no surprise at an admiral allotting time to visit a mutinous marine.
80Yet it was not far out of Hornblower’s way. When the time came he strolled slowly down through the beautiful garden of Admiralty House, and Evans, the disabled sailor who was head gardener, came in a jerky hurry to open the wicket gate in the fifteen-foot palisade that protected the dockyard from thieves, in this portion of its course dividing the Admiralty garden from the dockyard. Evans took off his hat and stood bobbing by the gate, his pigtail bobbing at his back, and his swarthy face split by a beaming smile.
81“Thank you, Evans,” said Hornblower, passing through.
82The prison stood isolated at the edge of the dockyard, a small cubical building of mahogany logs, set diagonally in a curious fashion, possibly—probably—more than one layer. It was roofed with palm thatch a yard or more thick, which might at least help to keep it cool under the glaring sun. Gerard had run on ahead from the gate—with Hornblower grinning at the thought of the healthful sweat the exercise would produce—to find the officer in charge and obtain the key to the prison, and Hornblower stood by while the padlock was unfastened and he could look into the darkness within. Hudnutt had risen to his feet at the sound of the key, and when he stepped forward into the light he was revealed as a painfully young man, his cheeks hardly showing a trace of his one day’s beard. He was naked except for a waistcloth, and the officer in charge clucked with annoyance.
83“Get some clothes on and be decent,” he growled, but Hornblower checked him.
84“No matter. I’ve very little time. I want this man to tell me why he is under charges. You others keep out of earshot.”
85Hudnutt had been taken by surprise by this sudden visit, but he was a bewildered person in any case, obviously. He blinked big blue eyes in the sunlight and wriggled his gangling form with embarrassment.
86“What happened? Tell me,” said Hornblower.
87“Well, sir—”
88Hornblower had to coax the story out of him, but bit by bit it confirmed all that Cobb had said.
89“I couldn’t play that music, sir, not for nothing.”
90The blue eyes looked over Hornblower’s head at infinity; perhaps at some vision invisible to the rest of the world.
91“You were a fool to disobey an order.”
92“Yes, sir. Mebbe so, sir.”
93The broad Yorkshire which Hudnutt spoke sounded odd in this tropical setting.
94“How did you come to enlist?”
95“For the music, sir.”
96It called for more questions to extract the story. A boy in a Yorkshire village, not infrequently hungry. A cavalry regiment billeted there, in the last years of the war. The music of its band was like a miracle to this child, who had heard no music save that of wandering pipers in the ten years of his life. It made him conscious of—it did not create, for it already existed—a frightful, overwhelming need. All the children of the village hung round the band (Hudnutt smiled disarmingly as he said this) but none so persistently as he. The trumpeters noticed him soon enough, laughed at his infantile comments about music, but laughed with sympathy as time went on; they let him try to blow their instruments, showed him how to cultivate a lip, and were impressed by the eventual result. The regiment returned after Waterloo, and for two more years the boy went on learning, even though those were the hungry years following the peace when he should have been bird scaring and stone picking from dawn to dark.
97And then the regiment transferred and the hungry years went on, and the boy labourer began to handle the plough, still yearning for music, while a trumpet cost more than a year’s full wages for a man. Then an interlude of pure bliss—the disarming smile again—when he joined a wandering theatrical troupe, as odd-job boy and musician; that was how he came to be able to read music although he could not read the printed word. His belly was empty as often as before; a stable yard meant a luxurious bed to him; those months were months of flea-bitten nights and footsore days, and they ended in his being left behind sick. That happened in Portsmouth, and then it was inevitable that, hungry and weak, he should be picked up by a marine recruiting sergeant marching through the streets with a band. His enlistment coincided with the introduction of the cornet-à-pistons into military music, and the next thing that happened to him was that he was shipped off to the West Indies to take his place in the commander-in-chief’s band under the direction of Drum-Major Cobb.
98“I see,” said Hornblower; and indeed he could dimly see.
99Six months with a travelling theatrical troupe would be poor preparation for the discipline of the Royal Marines; that was obvious. But he could guess at the rest, at this sensitiveness about music which was the real cause of the trouble. He eyed the boy again, seeking for ideas regarding how to deal with this situation.
100“My lord! My lord!” This was Gerard hastening up to him. “The packet’s signalled, my lord. You can see the flag at the lookout station masthead!”
101The packet? Barbara would be on board. It was three years since he had seen her last, and for three weeks now he had been awaiting her from minute to minute.
102“Call away my barge. I’m coming,” he said.
103A wave of excitement swept away his concern regarding the Hudnutt affair. He was about to hurry after Gerard, and then hesitated. What could he say in two seconds to a man awaiting trial for his life? What could he say, when he himself was bubbling with happiness, to this man caged like an animal, like an ox helplessly awaiting the butcher?
104“Good-bye, Hudnutt.” That was all he could say, leaving him standing dumbly there—he could hear the clash of keys and padlock as he hastened after Gerard.
105Eight oars bit into the blue water, but no speed that they could give the dancing barge could be fast enough to satisfy him. There was the brig, her sails trimmed to catch the first hesitant puffs of the sea breeze. There was a white dot at her side, a white figure—Barbara waving her handkerchief. The barge surged alongside and Hornblower swung himself up into the main chains, and there was Barbara in his arms; there were her lips against his, and then her grey eyes smiling at him, and then her lips against his again, and the afternoon sun blazing down on them both. Then they could stand at arm’s length and look at each other, and Barbara could raise her hands and twitch his neckcloth straight, so that he could be sure they were really together, for Barbara’s first gesture was always to straighten his neckcloth.
106“You look well, my dear,” she said.
107“So do you!”
108Her cheeks were golden with sunburn after a month at sea; Barbara never strove after the fashionable creaminess that distinguished the lady of leisure from the milkmaid or the goosegirl. And they laughed in each other’s faces out of sheer happiness before they kissed again and then eventually drew apart.
109“Dear, this is Captain Knyvett, who has looked after me so kindly on the voyage.”
110“Welcome aboard, my lord.” Knyvett was short and stocky and grizzled. “But I fancy you’ll not be staying with us long today.”
111“We’ll both be your passengers when you sail again,” said Barbara.
112“If my relief has come,” said Hornblower, adding to Barbara, “Triton hasn’t arrived yet.”
113“ ’Twill be two full weeks before we’re ready to sail again, my lord,” said Knyvett. “I trust we shall have the pleasure of your company and her ladyship’s.”
114“I sincerely hope so,” said Hornblower. “Meanwhile we’ll leave you for now—I hope you’ll dine at Admiralty House as soon as you have leisure. Can you get down into the barge, my dear?”
115“Of course,” said Barbara.
116“Gerard, you’ll stay on board and look after her ladyship’s baggage.”
117“Aye aye, my lord.”
118“No time even to say how’d ye do to you, Mr. Gerard,” said Barbara, as Hornblower led her away to the main chains.
119Barbara had no hoops in her skirts; she knew enough about shipboard breezes to dispense with those. Hornblower dropped down into the sternsheets of the barge, and a growl from the coxswain at the tiller turned the eyes of the boat’s crew to seaward so that they would see nothing they should not see, while Knyvett and Gerard swung Barbara down into Hornblower’s arms in a flurry of petticoats.
120“Give way!”
121The barge surged away from the ship’s side, over the blue water, towards the Admiralty House pier, with Barbara and Hornblower hand in hand in the sternsheets.
122“Delightful, dear,” said Barbara, looking about her when she landed. “A commander-in-chief’s life is spent in pleasant places.”
123Pleasant enough, thought Hornblower, except for yellow fever and pirates and international crises and temperamental marines awaiting trial, but this was not the time to mention such things. Evans, hobbling on his wooden leg, was at the pier to greet them, and Hornblower could see that he was Barbara’s slave from the first moment that he was presented to her.
124“You must take me round the gardens the first moment I’m free,” said Barbara.
125“Yes, your ladyship. Of course, your ladyship.”
126They walked slowly up to the house; here it was a delicate business to show Barbara round and to present the staff to her, for Admiralty House was run along lines laid down at the Admiralty; to alter a stick of furniture or to change the status of any of the naval ratings working there was something Barbara would not be able to do. She was only a tolerated visitor there, and barely tolerated at that. She would certainly itch to change the furniture about and to reorganize the staff, but she was doomed to frustration.
127“It seems to be as well, darling,” said Barbara with a twinkle, “that my stay here is to be short. How short?”
128“Until Ransome arrives in Triton,” answered Hornblower. “You should know that, dear, considering how much gossip you picked up from Lady Exmouth and the others.”
129“Yes, but it’s still confusing to me. When does your appointment end?”
130“It ended yesterday, legally. But my command continues until I am legally relieved of it by Ransome when he comes. Triton has made a long passage.”
131“And when Ransome comes?”
132“He takes over from me, and of course moves into this house. His Excellency has invited us to be his guests at Government House until we sail for home, dear.”
133“I see. And if Ransome is so late that we miss the packet?”
134“Then we wait for the next. I hope not. It would be uncomfortable.”
135“Is Government House as bad as that?”
136“Its tolerable, dear. But I was thinking of Ransome. No new commander-in-chief wants to have his predecessor staying on.”
137“Criticizing all his actions, of course. Is that what you’d do, dear?”
138“I wouldn’t be human if I did not.”
139“And I know so well you’re human, dear,” said Barbara, putting out her hands to him. They were in the bedroom now, out of sight of servants and staff, and they could be human for a few precious moments, until a thunderous knock at the door heralded the arrival of Gerard and the baggage, and on his heels came Spendlove with a note for Barbara.
140“A note of welcome from Her Excellency, dear,” explained Barbara when she had read it. “We are commanded to dinner en famille.”
141“No more than I expected,” said Hornblower, and then, looking round to see that Spendlove had withdrawn, “No more than I feared.”
142Barbara smiled into his eyes conspiratorially.
143“A time will come,” she said.
144There was so much to talk about, so much news to be exchanged; the long, long letters that had passed between them during their three years’ separation needed amplification and explanation, and in any case Barbara had been five weeks at sea without news. Late on the second day, while they were dining alone together, a mention of Hudnutt came into the conversation. Hornblower explained the situation briefly.
145“You’re going to court-martial him?” asked Barbara.
146“Likely enough, when I can convene a court.”
147“And what will the verdict be?”
148“Guilty, of course. There’s no doubt about it.”
149“I don’t mean the verdict. I mean the sentence. What will that be?” Barbara was entitled to ask questions like this, and even to express an opinion regarding her husband’s performance of his official duties, now that he had let slip a mention of the subject to her.
150Hornblower quoted from the Articles of War, which had regulated his official life for nearly thirty years.
151“Every person so offending, being convicted thereof by the sentence of the court-martial, shall suffer death, or such less punishment as from the nature and degree of the offence the court-martial shall deem him to deserve.”
152“You don’t mean that, dear?” Barbara’s grey eyes opened wide across the little table from him. “Death? But you said ‘such less punishment.’ What could that be?”
153“Flogging round the fleet. Five hundred lashes.”
154“Five hundred lashes? For playing B natural instead of B flat?”
155That was exactly what one might expect a woman to say.
156“Dear, that’s not the charge. The charge is wilful disobedience to orders.”
157“But it’s such a trifling matter.”
158“Dear, disobedience to orders can never be a trifling matter.”
159“Would you flog a man to death because he won’t play a B flat? What a bloodthirsty way to balance the account!”
160“There’s no thought of balancing accounts, dear. Punishment is inflicted to deter other men from disobeying orders. It’s not revenge.”
161But womanlike, Barbara clung to her position, however much her flank might be turned by cold logic.
162“But if you hang him—or if you flog him, I expect—he’ll never play another B natural again. What good does that do?”
163“It’s the good of the service, dear—”
164Hornblower, on his part, was holding a position which he knew to be not quite tenable, but Barbara’s vehemence was causing him to grow heated in defence of his beloved service.
165“They’ll hear about this in England,” said Barbara, and then a new thought struck her. “He can appeal, of course—can’t he?”
166“In home waters he could. But I am a commander-in-chief in a foreign station, and from my decision there is no appeal.”
167It was a sobering speech. Barbara gazed across the table at this man, changed suddenly from her tender, loving, sensitive husband into a potentate who held the power of life and death. And she knew that she could not, she must not, exploit her privileged position as wife to influence his decision. Not because of the good of the service, but for the sake of their married happiness.
168“And the trial will be soon?” she asked; the change in her was apparent in her tone.
169“The moment I can convene a court. Delay in matters of discipline defeats its own object. If a man were to mutiny on Monday he should be tried on Tuesday and hanged on Wednesday. But there are not enough captains available. Triton’s captain, when Ransome arrives, would give the necessary number, but then I shall be relieved of command and the matter will be out of my hands. But if Flora should come in before that—I detached her to the Gulf Coast—I shall be responsible.”
170“I see, dear,” said Barbara, not taking her eyes from his face. Even before he spoke again she was aware that there was something which would modify the harshness of what he had said so far.
171“Naturally I have not made up my mind yet, dear,” he said. “But there is a further possibility which I’m considering.”
172“Yes?” She could hardly breathe the word.
173“The confirmation of the finding and the sentence would be the last act of my command. That would present an excuse—a reason. I could commute the sentence as an act of clemency in recognition of the good behaviour of the squadron during the period I have commanded it.”
174“I see, dear. And if Ransome arrives before Flora?”
175“I can do nothing, except—”
176“Except—?”
177“I could suggest to Ransome that he might begin his command with an act of clemency.”
178“And would he?”
179“I know very little about Ransome, dear. I simply cannot say.”
180Barbara opened her mouth to speak. She was going to say, “Will he think a B flat more important than a man’s life?” but she changed her speech in the nick of time. Instead she said the other thing that had also, and longer, been hovering on her lips.
181“I love you, darling,” she said.
182Again their eyes met across the table, and Hornblower felt his passion flooding to meet hers like a union of two rushing rivers. He knew perfectly well that all he had said about discipline and examples had been of no effect in changing Barbara’s mind; a woman (even more than a man) convinced against her will was of the same opinion still. But Barbara had not said so; she had said something else—and something (as always) more appropriate to the occasion. And not by one single variation of tone, not by a hair’s breadth’s raising of an eyebrow, had she brought into the conversation the fact that he was tone deaf. A lesser woman would have used that as if it were a relevant argument in this matter. She knew of his tone deafness, and he knew she knew, and she knew that he knew; and so on ad infinitum, but there had never been any need for him to admit the defect or for her to admit her knowledge, and he loved her.
183Next morning he had to tell himself that the commander-in-chief in the West Indies, even if he were awaiting his relief, still had duties to do; even if his wife had newly joined him. But it was delightful to have Barbara walk down with him through the Admiralty House gardens to see him on his way as far as the wicket gate in the lofty dockyard palisade. It was a little unfortunate that at the moment Evans was unlocking the gate Hudnutt appeared on the other side of the palisade taking his exercise. He was marching up and down between a file of marines under command of a corporal, the guard in parade uniform with bayonets fixed, Hudnutt hatless as a prisoner under charges had to be.
184“Pris’ner an’ escort—halt!” bellowed the corporal at sight of his admiral. “Escort, present—arms!”
185Hornblower formally acknowledged the salute before turning to say good-bye to his wife.
186“Escort, sl-o-o-ope arms!” bellowed the corporal in marine fashion, as if the escort had been at the other side of the dockyard instead of two yards from him.
187“Is that the bandsman—Hudnutt—dear?” asked Barbara.
188“Yes,” said Hornblower.
189“Pris’ner an’ escort, by the right, quick—march!” bellowed the corporal, and the little group marched off. Barbara watched it go; she could look now that Hudnutt had his back to her and was unaware of it. Previously she had refrained from staring at the man who would soon be on trial for his life. The trim marine uniform could not conceal the gangling undeveloped body; and the sun shone on the fair hair.
190“He’s nothing more than a boy,” said Barbara.
191That could be another irrelevant fact if she wanted to argue with her husband regarding his duty. Seventeen or seventy, a man under orders must obey orders.
192“He’s not very old, dear,” agreed Hornblower.
193Then he kissed the cheek that Barbara held up to him—he was not at all sure if an admiral in uniform should kiss his wife good-bye in the presence of his staff, but Barbara had no doubts about it. He left her standing there by the gate chatting to Evans, looking round her at the lovely garden on the one side of the palisade and at the businesslike dockyard through the palings.
194The presence of his wife was delightful even though it meant greatly increased activities for him. The next two or three days involved considerable entertaining; island society wished to make the most of the fleeting presence of an admiral’s wife, a peeress, and of the bluest of blood in her own right. To Hornblower, regretfully contemplating the immediate end of his period in command, it was a little like the aristocrats during the French Revolution dancing before the summons to the guillotine, but Barbara seemed to enjoy it all, perhaps because she had just endured five very dull weeks at sea and was facing the prospect of five more.
195“You danced a good deal with young Bonner, dear,” he remarked to her when they were home again after the Governor’s party.
196“He’s a very good dancer,” said Barbara.
197“He’s something of a villain, I believe,” countered Hornblower. “There’s never been anything proved, but much suspected—smuggling, slave running, and all the rest of it.”
198“He’s invited to Government House,” said Barbara.
199“Nothing proved, as I said. But in my official capacity I’ve often been interested in the activities of those fishing boats of his. You may find you’ve been dancing with a jailbird one of these days, dear.”
200“Jailbirds are more amusing than military secretaries,” smiled Barbara.
201Barbara’s activity was astonishing. Even after a night’s gaiety she went riding during the day, and Hornblower was content that she should, as long as there were young men available eager to act as Lady Hornblower’s escort, seeing that he had his duties to attend to and disliked horses in any case. It was even amusing to observe the transparent adoration which she received from everyone, from His Excellency, from the young men who rode with her, from Evans the gardener, from everyone she had anything to do with.
202Barbara was out riding one morning, before the heat of the day, when a messenger was brought in to Hornblower at Admiralty House.
203“Message from the cap’n, my lord. Triton’s signalled. She’s heading in with a fair wind.”
204Hornblower stared for a moment; although this was a message that might have come at any time during the last month, he was not ready for its full impact.
205“Very well. My compliments to the captain, and I’ll come down.”
206So this was the end of his three years as commander-in-chief. Ransome would take over command, possibly today, but certainly tomorrow, and he himself would be on half-pay and due to go home. A queer mixture of thoughts went through his mind as he made himself ready to meet Ransome: young Richard about to enter Eton; the thought of a freezing winter in Smallbridge; the auditing of his final accounts. It was not until he was on his way to his barge that he remembered that now he would be relieved of the necessity to come to a decision in the Hudnutt case.
207Triton wore no admiral’s flag, for Ransome legally held no command until he had taken over; the salutes at the moment merely acknowledged Triton’s joining the West Indian command. Ransome was a burly man with the heavy fashionable side whiskers, more grey than black. He wore the small decoration of Companion of the Bath, insignificant compared with Hornblower’s magnificent Grand Cross. Presumably if he survived this appointment without any great blunder he might hope for knighthood. He presented his captain, Coleman, with whom Hornblower was quite unacquainted, and then turned an attentive ear to Hornblower’s explanation of the arrangements made so far and of future plans.
208“I’ll assume command tomorrow,” decided Ransome.
209“That will allow time to arrange the full ceremonial,” agreed Hornblower. “In that case, sir, would you care to spend tonight at Government House? I understand a command there awaits you if you think it convenient.”
210“No need to move twice,” said Ransome. “I’ll spend tonight on board here.”
211“Admiralty House will be ready for you tomorrow, of course, sir. Perhaps you might like to give us the honour of your company at dinner today? There might perhaps be information that I could give you regarding the situation here.”
212Ransome shot a glance at Hornblower charged with a certain amount of suspicion; he did not wish to have any ready-made policies thrust upon him by his predecessor. Yet the suggestion was obviously sensible.
213“It would be a great pleasure. I must thank you, my lord.”
214Hornblower took a tactful step to allay that suspicion.
215“The packet in which my wife and I are taking passage to England is making ready for sea at present, sir. We sail in her, in a matter of a few days only.”
216“Very well, my lord,” said Ransome.
217“Then, having repeated my welcome, sir, I shall take my leave. Shall we expect you at four o’clock? Or would some other time be convenient?”
218“Four o’clock will suit me well,” said Ransome.
219The King is dead, long live the King, thought Hornblower, on his way back. Tomorrow he would be supplanted, and would become a mere half-pay officer. The splendour and dignity of a commander-in-chief would be transferred from him to Ransome. And he found the thought a little irksome; he had found his polite pose of deference to Ransome more than a little irksome; and he really thought Ransome could have been more polite in return. He gave vent to a good deal of this feeling as he told Barbara about the interview, and he checked himself at sight of Barbara’s amused twinkle and raised eyebrow.
220“You are the sweetest simpleton, my very dearest,” said Barbara. “Have you no idea at all of any possible explanation?”
221“None, I’m afraid,” said Hornblower.
222Barbara came up close to him and looked into his face.
223“No wonder that I love you,” she said. “Don’t you understand that no man could find it easy to replace Hornblower? Your period of command has been overwhelmingly successful. You’ve set a standard Ransome will find it hard to live up to. One might say he’s jealous, envious—and he showed it.”
224“I can’t really believe that,” said Hornblower.
225“And I love you because you can’t believe it,” said Barbara. “I could tell you so in a hundred ways, if I did not have to go and put on my finest gown to win Admiral Ransome’s heart.”
226Ransome was a man of fine presence, bulk and side whiskers and all; Hornblower had not really appreciated the fact at their first meeting. His manner was somewhat more cordial in Barbara’s presence, which might have been the effect of Barbara’s personality, but might also have been, as Hornblower realized, the result of Ransome’s knowing that Lady Hornblower was a person of much influence in political circles. Hornblower did his best to exploit Ransome’s faint cordiality. He passed the wine, he let slip as casually as possible bits of useful information regarding West Indian conditions—casually, so that Ransome could not suspect him of trying to bring influence to bear on him regarding his future policy, and yet useful information that Ransome could snap up and treasure with a smile at Hornblower’s carelessness. Yet all the same dinner was not a tremendous success. There was still a certain tenseness.
227And as dinner was approaching its end Hornblower was conscious of a glance darted at him by Barbara; it was only one glance, and of the most fleeting nature. Ransome could not have been conscious of it, but Hornblower understood. Barbara was jogging his memory regarding a matter that was important to her. He awaited a suitable turn in the conversation before mentioning the subject.
228“Oh, yes,” he said, “there’s a court-martial pending. A marine bandsman—”
229He went on to tell Ransome the circumstances of the case, treating it lightly. He was aware, even if Ransome was not, of the closeness with which Barbara was studying Ransome’s expression as the narrative continued.
230“ ‘Repeated and deliberate disobedience to a lawful order.’ ” Ransome was repeating to himself Hornblower’s own words. “It could have been mutiny.”
231“So it could,” agreed Hornblower. “But it’s rather a curious case. I’m glad you have the decision to make regarding it, and not I.”
232“It seems to me as if the evidence will be quite incontrovertible.”
233“No doubt.” Hornblower made himself smile, telepathically conscious of the intensity of Barbara’s interest. “But the circumstances are a little unusual.”
234The stony expression on Ransome’s face was most discouraging. Hornblower knew the situation to be hopeless. He would have abandoned any further effort if Barbara had not been there; but as it was, he went on, uselessly.
235“If the trial had been held during the period of my command I might have—naturally I had not made up my mind—commuted the sentence to mark my appreciation of the good behaviour of the squadron.”
236“Yes?” said Ransome; no monosyllable could have expressed greater disinterest, but Hornblower plunged on.
237“It had occurred to me that you might find this a favourable opportunity to display clemency as your first official act.”
238“That will be a matter for my own decision.”
239“Of course,” agreed Hornblower.
240“And I cannot imagine my taking any action of that sort, naturally. I cannot have the squadron believing that I shall be lenient as regards discipline. I cannot have my command unsettled at the start.”
241“Of course,” said Hornblower again. He could see the uselessness of further argument, and he might as well be graceful about it. “You are the best judge of all the circumstances, as well as the only judge.”
242“Now I shall leave you gentlemen to your wine,” said Barbara suddenly. Hornblower looked at her just in time to see her frozen expression melt into the smile he knew so well. “I shall say good night to you, Admiral. I shall make every effort—as far as the rules of the navy allow—to see that this house is in good condition for you to take over tomorrow, and I hope you will be comfortable in it.”
243“Thank you,” said Ransome; the two men were on their feet now.
244“Good night, dear,” said Barbara to Hornblower. The latter was aware that the smile she gave him was not quite real, and he knew her to be acutely upset.
245She left them, and Hornblower passed the port, and settled down again to what proved to be a long evening. Ransome, having asserted himself, and having made it perfectly clear that he would remain uninfluenced by any suggestion Hornblower might put forward, was by no means averse to acquiring any information that might come his way. Nor to finishing the bottle of port and starting on another.
246So that it was very late before Hornblower went to bed, and he used no light for fear of disturbing Barbara. He crept about the room as silently as he could. In the darkness the glances that he directed at the other bed (naval establishments made small allowance for wives, and that allowance did not include double beds) under its mosquito net revealed nothing to him, and he was glad. If Barbara had been awake they could hardly have avoided discussing the Hudnutt case.
247Nor was there any time next morning, for the moment Hornblower was called he had to hurry into the dressing room and array himself in his best uniform with his ribbon and star and hasten away to the ceremony of the change of command. As the officer to be relieved he was first upon the quarterdeck of the Clorinda, and stationed himself on the starboard side, his staff behind him. Captain Sir Thomas Fell had received him, and next busied himself with receiving the other captains as they came on board. The marine band—without Hudnutt—played selections on the poop; the pipes of the bosun’s mates twittered unceasingly to welcome the continuous arrivals; the sun blazed down as if this were just some ordinary day. Then came a pause, intense in its drama. Then the band burst into a march again; there were ruffles of drums and flourishes of bugles as Ransome came up the side with his staff behind him, to take up his station on the port side. Fell came forward to Hornblower with his hand at his hat brim.
248“Ship’s company fallen in, my lord.”
249“Thank you, Sir Thomas.” Spendlove pressed a paper into Hornblower’s hand; Hornblower stepped forward. “Orders from the Lords Commissioners for the execution of the office of Lord High Admiral, to me, Horatio Lord Hornblower, Knight Grand Cross of the Most Honourable Order of the Bath, Rear Admiral of the Red Squadron—”
250He really had trouble in preventing his voice from trembling, forcing himself to read in a harsh and matter-of-fact tone. He folded the paper and gave his last order.
251“Sir Thomas, please have the goodness to haul down my flag.”
252“Aye aye, my lord.”
253The first of the thirteen saluting guns went off as the Red Ensign came slowly down from the mizzen peak. A long, long descent—sixty seconds for thirteen guns—and when the flag completed its descent Hornblower was the poorer by forty-nine pounds three shillings and sevenpence a month command pay. A moment later Ransome came forward, paper in hand, to read the orders of the Lords Commissioners to him, Henry Ransome, Companion of the Most Honourable Order of the Bath, Rear Admiral of the Blue Squadron.
254“Hoist my flag, Sir Thomas.”
255“Aye aye, sir.”
256Up to the mizzen peak rose the Blue Ensign; until it broke at the peak the ship was silent, but then it unfolded itself in the breeze and the salute roared out and the band played. When the last gun fired, Ransome was legally commander-in-chief of His Majesty’s ships and vessels in West Indian waters. More blaring from the band, and in the midst of it Hornblower stepped forward, raising his hand in salute to the new commander-in-chief.
257“Permission to leave the ship, sir?”
258“Permission granted.”
259Ruffles of drums, bugle calls, pipes, and he went down the ship’s side. He might have been sentimental; he might have felt agony of regret; but there was instant distraction awaiting him.
260“My lord,” said Spendlove beside him in the sternsheets.
261“Well?”
262“That prisoner—Hudnutt, the marine bandsman—”
263“What about him?”
264“He’s escaped, my lord. He broke prison during the night.”
265That settled Hudnutt’s fate beyond all doubt. Nothing could save him. He was as good as dead; or soon perhaps he would be worse than dead. No deserter, no escaped prisoner ever succeeded in evading recapture in Jamaica. It was an island, and not too large an island. And there was a standing reward of ten pounds sterling for information resulting in the apprehension of a deserter, and in Jamaica, far more than in England, ten pounds was a fortune. A journeyman’s wages for a year or more; more money than any slave could hope to see in a lifetime. No deserter stood a chance; his white face, to say nothing of his uniform, would call attention to him wherever he might be in the island, and the standing reward made it certain that he would be betrayed. Hudnutt was doomed to recapture. And he was doomed beyond that. There would be additional charges at his court-martial. Prison breaking. Desertion. Damage to government property. Damage to his uniform. He would probably be hanged. The only other chance was that he would be flogged round the fleet to die for certain under the lash. Hudnutt was a dead man, and this was the end of his talent for music.
266It was a sombre enough thought to occupy his mind all the way to the pier, and it kept him silent as he climbed into the Governor’s carriage to be driven to Government House—he had no commander-in-chief’s carriage now. He was still silent as they drove away.
267But they had hardly gone a mile when they met a lively cavalcade clattering down on horseback towards them. First Hornblower saw Barbara—he would have picked her out in any crowd even if she had not been conspicuous on a white horse. His Excellency rode on one side of her and Lady Hooper on the other, chattering eagerly. Behind them came a mixed party of aides-de-camp and civilians; at the rear rode the assistant provost marshal and two troopers of his guard.
268“Ha, Hornblower!” called the Governor, reining up. “Your ceremonial seems to have finished earlier than I expected.”
269“Good morning, sir,” said Hornblower. “Your servant, ma’am.”
270Then he smiled at Barbara—he could always smile at the sight of her, despite any depression. In her hunting veil the smile she gave him in return was hardly apparent.
271“You can join us in our hunt. One of my aides-de-camp will give you his horse,” said Hooper, and then, peering into the carriage, “No, perhaps not, in those silk stockings. You can follow us in the carriage, like a lady with certain expectations. Like the Queen of France, by gad! Turn that carriage, coachman.”
272“What are you hunting, sir?” asked Hornblower, a little bewildered.
273“That deserter of yours. He might show us some sport,” answered Hooper.
274They were hunting man, the biggest game of all—but Hudnutt, dreamy, scatterbrained Hudnutt, would be poor game. Two Negro servants rode in the party, each holding a leash of bloodhounds, tawny and black—grim, horrible creatures. He wanted to have nothing to do with this hunt, nothing whatever. He wanted to order the carriage to turn back again. This was a nightmare, and it was beyond his power to awaken himself from it. It was horrible to see Barbara taking part in it. At the dockyard gate, at the high palisade, the cortege halted.
275“That’s the prison,” said the assistant provost marshal, pointing. “You can see the hole in the roof, sir.”
276An area of thatch had been torn away. Probably that prison was not very strongly built; to escape from it meant that the fifteen-foot palisade had to be scaled next—and even then certain recapture somewhere in the island awaited the man to achieve that feat.
277“Come on,” said the assistant provost marshal, and he and his guard and the men with the bloodhounds trotted into the dockyard to the prison and dismounted. They took the bloodhounds into the prison, where presumably the hounds smelt at the prisoner’s bedding. Then they reappeared at the door, smelling at the ground below the hole in the roof. Instantly they caught the scent, throwing themselves against their leashes so that the Negro servants had a difficult task to remount, and then they came pelting across the dockyard again. They threw themselves against the palisade, leaping up at it, slavering with excitement.
278“Bring ’em round to this side!” shouted the Governor, and then, turning to Hornblower, “Your man’s a marine, isn’t he? Even a sailor would find it hard to scale that palisade.”
279Hudnutt might have done it in some exalted mood, thought Hornblower—those dreamers were like madmen sometimes.
280The bloodhounds were brought round through the dockyard gate again and led to the corresponding point on the outside of the palisade. They caught the scent again in a flash, throwing themselves against their leashes and galloping down the road.
281“Gone away!” yelled the Governor, spurring his horse after them.
282Hudnutt had climbed that fifteen-foot palisade, then. He must have been insane. The cavalcade had all gone on ahead; the coachman was urging the carriage horses along as fast as their dignity and the inequalities of the road would permit; the carriage lurched and leaped, throwing Hornblower against Gerard beside him and sometimes even against Spendlove opposite. Straight up the road they went, heading for the open country and the Blue Mountains beyond. The horsemen ahead reined back into a trot, and the coachman followed their example, so that the progress of the carriage became more sedate.
283“A hot enough scent, my lord,” said Gerard, peering forward at the bloodhounds still straining at their leashes.
284“And yet this road must have been well travelled since he went along it,” said Spendlove.
285“Ah!” said Gerard, still peering forward. “They’re leaving the road.”
286As the carriage reached the corner they saw that the horsemen had turned up a broad lane through fields of cane; the coachman, nothing daunted, swung up into the lane after them, but after two more miles of rapid progress he pulled his horses to a halt.
287“A check here, Hornblower,” said the Governor. “This lane fords the Hope River here.”
288The halted cavalcade was breathing the horses; Barbara waved her gloved hand to him.
289“No scent the other side,” explained the Governor, and then, calling to the men with the bloodhounds, “Cast upstream as well as down. And on both sides.”
290The assistant provost marshal acknowledged the order with a salute.
291“Your man knew we’d have bloodhounds after him,” said the Governor. “He waded along the river. But he has to come out sooner or later, and we’ll pick up the scent again there.”
292Barbara guided her horse to the side of the carriage, and raised her veil to speak to him.
293“Good morning, dear,” she said.
294“Good morning,” said Hornblower.
295It was hard to say more, when the events of the last hour or two, and all their implications, were allowed for. And Barbara was hardly flushed with the heat and the exercise. She looked drawn and tired; her smile was positively wan. It occurred to Hornblower that she was participating in this hunt as unwillingly as he was. And it seemed likely that she had allowed the move from Admiralty House to Government House this morning to trouble her; womanlike she would not have been able to allow the navy to execute the task without her supervision even though the navy had made similar moves by the hundred thousand. She had tried to order it all and was weary in consequence.
296“Come and sit in the carriage, dear,” he said. “Gerard will take your horse.”
297“Mr. Gerard is wearing silk stockings the same as you are, dear,” replied Barbara, smiling through her weariness, “and I have too much respect for his dignity to set him on a sidesaddle in any case.”
298“My groom will lead your horse, Lady Hornblower,” interposed the Governor. “This hunt looks as if it’s going to turn out badly.”
299Hornblower scrambled down from the carriage to help Barbara from the sidesaddle and up into the carriage. Gerard and Spendlove, who had followed him out, followed them back after a moment’s hesitation and sat with their backs to the horses.
300“We should have heard something from the bloodhounds by now,” said the Governor. The four bloodhounds had now cast up and down both banks for a considerable distance. “Can he have climbed a tree?”
301A man could be more resourceful than any fox, Hornblower knew. But it was an unexpected aspect of Hudnutt’s character.
302“Not a trace of scent, Your Excellency,” said the assistant provost marshal, trotting up. “Nothing at all.”
303“Oh, well, then, we’ll go home again. A poor day’s sport after all. We’ll precede you, Lady Hornblower, with your permission.”
304“We’ll see you at the house, dear Lady Hornblower,” echoed Lady Hooper.
305The carriage turned again and followed the horsemen down the lane.
306“You’ve had a busy morning, I fear, my dear,” said Hornblower; with his staff sitting across the carriage from them he had to retain a certain formality of tone.
307“Not busy at all,” answered Barbara, turning her head to meet his glance. “A very pleasant morning, thank you, dear. And you—your ceremonial went off without a hitch, I hope?”
308“Well enough, thank you. Ransome—” He changed what he was going to say abruptly. What he would say about Ransome to Barbara’s private ear was not the same as what he would say in the hearing of his staff.
309The carriage trotted on, and conversation proceeded only fitfully in the heat. It was long before they swung through the gates of Government House, with Hornblower acknowledging the salute of the sentry, and drew up at the door. Aides-de-camp and butlers and maids awaited them; but Barbara had already dealt with the move, and in the vast cavernous bedroom and dressing room allotted to principal guests Hornblower’s things were already disposed along with hers.
310“At last alone,” smiled Barbara. “Now we can look forward to Smallbridge.”
311Indeed that was so; this was the beginning of one of those periods of transition which Hornblower knew so well, as did every sailor, the strange days, or weeks, between one life and the next. He had ceased to be a commander-in-chief; now he had to endure existence until he would at least be master in his own house. The urgent need at the moment was for a bath; his shirt was sticking to his ribs under his heavy uniform coat. Perhaps never again, never in all his life, would he take a bath under a wash-deck pump somewhere out with the trade winds blowing upon him. On the other hand, he would not, at least while he was in Jamaica, have to wear a uniform again.
312It was later in the day that Barbara made her request to him.
313“Dear, would you please give me some money?”
314“Of course,” said Hornblower.
315He felt a delicacy about this which most men would laugh at. Barbara had brought a good deal of money to their marriage, which of course was now his property, and he felt an absurd guilt that she should have to ask him for money. That feeling of guilt was perfectly ridiculous, of course. Women were not supposed to dispose of money in any way, except small sums for housekeeping. They could not legally sign a cheque; they could enter into no business transactions at all, which was perfectly right and proper, seeing how incapable women were. Except perhaps Barbara. It was the husband’s business to keep all moneys under his own hand and dole out under his own supervision what was needed.
316“How much would you like, dear?” he asked.
317“Two hundred pounds,” said Barbara.
318Two hundred pounds? Two hundred pounds! That was something entirely different. It was a fortune. What in the world would Barbara want two hundred pounds for here in Jamaica? There could not be one single gown or pair of gloves in the whole island that Barbara could possibly want to buy. A few souvenirs perhaps. The most elaborate tortoise-shell toilet set in Jamaica would not cost five pounds. Two hundred pounds? There would be a few maids to whom she would have to give vails on leaving, but five shillings each, half a guinea at most, would settle those.
319“Two hundred pounds?” He said it aloud this time.
320“Yes, dear, if you please.”
321“It will be my business to tip the butler and grooms, of course,” he said, still trying to find reasons why she should think she needed this stupendous sum.
322“Yes, no doubt, dear,” said Barbara patiently. “But I need some money for other purposes.”
323“But it’s a lot of money.”
324“I think we can afford it, though. Please, dear—”
325“Of course, of course,” said Hornblower hastily. He could not bear it that Barbara should have to plead to him. All he had was hers. It was always a pleasure to him to anticipate her wants, to forestall any request so that it never need be uttered. He felt shame that Barbara, exquisite Barbara, should ever have to abase herself so low as to ask a favour of him, unworthy as he was.
326“I’ll write an order on Summers,” he said. “He’s Coutts’s correspondent in Kingston.”
327“Thank you, dear,” said Barbara.
328Yet as he handed the order over he could not refrain from further speech.
329“You’ll be careful, dear, won’t you?” he said. “Two hundred pounds, whether in notes or gold—”
330His misgivings ceased to be voiced, died away in incoherent mumblings. He had no wish to pry. He had no wish to exert over Barbara the sort of parental authority that both law and custom gave a husband over his wife. And then he thought of a possible explanation. Lady Hooper was a keen and clever card player. Presumably Barbara had lost heavily to her. Well, in that case he need not worry. Barbara was a good player too, and level headed, and cool. She would win it back. In any case she was no gambler. Perhaps on the voyage home they would have a few hands of piquet—if Barbara had any fault at all it was a tendency to discard a little thoughtlessly when playing the younger hand, and he could give a little unobtrusive advice. And there was a smug pleasure, and a tender pleasure, in the thought of Barbara not caring to admit, to a husband who notoriously won, that she had lost at cards. The deep respect that he felt for her was accompanied (as the flavour of a beef steak may be accompanied by that of mustard) by the knowledge that she was still human. Hornblower knew that there can be no love without respect—and no love without a twinkle of amusement as well.
331“You are the dearest man in the world,” said Barbara, and he realized that her eyes had been fixed on his face for the last several seconds.
332“It is my greatest happiness to hear you say so,” he answered, with a sincerity that no one could doubt. And then a recollection of their position in this house, as mere guests, came to them both to modify the intensity of their feelings.
333“And we shall be the most unpopular people in Jamaica if we keep Their Excellencies waiting for their dinner,” said Hornblower.
334They were only guests now, mere hangers-on, their presence only tolerated by people who had their official lives still to live; that was what Hornblower thought at dinnertime when the new commander-in-chief sat in the place of honour. He thought of the Byzantine general, blinded and disgraced, begging in the market place, and he nearly said, “Spare a penny for Belisarius,” when the Governor turned to include him in the conversation.
335“Your marine hasn’t been apprehended yet,” said Hooper.
336“Not my marine any longer, sir,” laughed Hornblower. “Admiral Ransome’s marine now.”
337“I understand there’s no doubt that he will be apprehended,” said Ransome.
338“We’ve not lost a deserter yet during the time of my appointment here,” said Hooper.
339“That’s very reassuring,” was Ransome’s comment.
340Hornblower stole a glance at Barbara across the table. She was eating her dinner with apparent composure; he had feared lest this reminder should upset her, for he knew how strongly she felt about Hudnutt’s fate. A woman was liable to think that the inevitable should not be inevitable in matters in which she was interested. Barbara’s mastery of her feelings was something more to admire about her.
341Lady Hooper changed the subject, and conversation became general and gay. Hornblower actually began to enjoy himself, with a lightheaded feeling of irresponsibility. There were no cares on his shoulders; soon—the moment the packet was ready to sail—he would be on his way to England, and he would be pleasantly settled in Smallbridge while these people here went on dealing with unrewarding problems in tropical heat. Nothing here mattered to him any more. If Barbara was happy, he had not a care in the world, and Barbara was seemingly happy, chattering away to her neighbours on either hand.
342It was pleasant, too, that there was not to be any heavy drinking, for after dinner there was to be a reception in honour of the new commander-in-chief to which all the island society not eligible for dinner had been invited. He found himself looking at life with fresh eyes and actually approving of it.
343After dinner, when the men and the ladies met again in the drawing room and the first new guests were being announced, he was able to exchange a word or two with Barbara and to see that she was happy and not overtired. Her smile was bright and her eyes sparkling. He had to turn away from her in the end to shake hands with Mr. Hough, just arrived with his wife. Other guests were streaming in; a sudden influx of blue and gold and white marked the arrival of Coleman, Triton’s captain, and a couple of his lieutenants. Ransome himself was presenting Coleman to Barbara, and Hornblower could not help hearing the conversation close behind him.
344“Captain Coleman is an old friend of mine,” said Barbara. “You were Perfecto Coleman in those days, weren’t you, Captain?”
345“And you were Lady Leighton, ma’am,” said Coleman.
346A harmless enough remark, but enough to shatter Hornblower’s frail happiness, to darken the brightly lit room, to set the babble of conversation in the room roaring in Hornblower’s ears like a torrent, through the din of which Barbara’s words pierced shrill as a whistle note.
347“Captain Coleman was my first husband’s flag lieutenant,” said Barbara.
348She had had a first husband; she had been Lady Leighton. Hornblower nearly always contrived to forget this. Rear Admiral Sir Percy Leighton had died for his country, of wounds received in the battle of Rosas Bay, thirteen full years ago. But Barbara had been Leighton’s wife, Leighton’s widow. She had been Leighton’s wife before she had been Hornblower’s. Hornblower hardly ever thought about it, but when he did he still experienced a jealousy which he knew to be insane. Any reminder not only reawoke that jealousy, but brought back to him with agonizing clarity the recollection of the despair, the envy, the black self-derision he had known in those days. He had been a desperately unhappy man then, and this made him the same desperately unhappy man now. He was no longer the successful sailor, terminating a brilliant period of command. He was the thwarted lover, despised even by his own despicable self. He knew again all the misery of limitless and yet unsatisfied desire, to blend with the jealousies of the moment.
349Hough was awaiting a reply to some remark he had made. Hornblower forced himself to extemporize some casual sentence which may or may not have been relevant. Hough drifted away, and Hornblower found himself against his will looking over at Barbara. She had her ready smile for him, and he had to smile back, and he knew it to be a dreadful lopsided, mirthless smile, like the grin on the face of a dead man. He saw a worried look come on her face; he knew how instantly she was conscious of his moods, and that made it worse than ever. She was the heartless woman who had spoken of her first husband—that jealousy of his was a mood she knew nothing of, was not susceptible to. He was a man who had stepped suddenly from firm ground into a morass of uncertainty that would engulf him.
350Captain Knyvett had entered the room, bluff and grizzled, dressed in blue broadcloth with unpretentious brass buttons. As he approached, Hornblower could only with an effort remember him as the captain of the Jamaica packet.
351“We sail a week from today, my lord,” he said. “The announcement for the mail will be made tomorrow.”
352“Excellent,” said Hornblower.
353“And I can see from all this,” went on Knyvett, with a gesture indicating Admiral Ransome’s presence, “that I shall have the pleasure of your lordship’s company, and her ladyship’s.”
354“Yes, yes, quite so,” said Hornblower.
355“You will be my only passengers,” said Knyvett.
356“Excellent,” repeated Hornblower.
357“I trust your lordship will find the Pretty Jane a well-found and comfortable ship.”
358“I trust so,” said Hornblower.
359“Her ladyship of course is familiar with the deckhouse that will be your accommodation. I shall ask her if she can suggest any addition that will add to your comfort, my lord.”
360“Very well.”
361Knyvett drifted away after this cold reception, and it was only after he had gone that Hornblower realized that Knyvett must have received an impression of a top-lofty peer with hardly bare politeness for a mere packet captain. He regretted it, and made a desperate effort to get himself under control again. A glance at Barbara revealed her chatting animatedly with young Bonner, the fishing boat owner and general merchant with the shady reputation, against whom Hornblower had already warned her. That could have added to his misery if it were possible.
362Again he made the effort to control himself. He knew the expression on his face to be frozen and blank, and he tried to make it more pleasing as he forced himself to stroll through the crowd.
363“Can we tempt you, Lord Hornblower?” asked an old lady standing by the card table in an alcove. She was a good whist player, Hornblower remembered.
364“Why, certainly, with pleasure,” he made himself say.
365He had something to think about now; for the first few hands it was hard to concentrate, especially as the noise of an orchestra was added to the din of the party, but old habits reasserted themselves with the necessity to remember the distribution of fifty-two cards. By sheer will-power he achieved the transformation of himself into a thinking machine, playing coldly and correctly, and then, when the rubber appeared to be lost, he was carried away despite himself. The next hand afforded an opportunity for brilliance, for that injection into his so-far mechanical play of the human quality, the flexibility, the unpredictable cunning which marked the difference between a second-class player and a first-class one. By the fourth lead he had made a fair estimate of the hands. One particular lead might enable him to clear the board, to win every trick and the rubber; with orthodox play the hand would end with his making only twelve tricks and the rubber still in doubt. It was worth trying—but it was now or never. Without hesitation he led his queen of hearts to the ace that his partner was forced to play; he took the next trick and along with it control of the situation, cleared trumps, led out his established winners, saw with satisfaction his opponents discard first the knave and then the king of hearts; and he finally laid down the three of hearts to take the last trick amid the dismay of his opponents.
366“Why, that’s grand slam,” said the old lady who was his partner, quite astonished. “I don’t understand—I don’t see how—we’ve won the rubber after all!”
367It had been a neat piece of work; there was a perceptible glow of accomplishment within him. That was a hand that he would be able to play over in his mind in future while composing himself to sleep. When the card playing was finished and the guests were beginning to leave he was able to meet Barbara’s eye with a more natural expression, and Barbara with a relieved sigh was able to tell herself that her husband was coming out of his unpredictable mood.
368It was as well that he was, for the next few days were bound to be difficult. There was almost nothing for him to do as the Pretty Jane made ready for sea. As a helpless spectator he had to stand by and watch Ransome taking over the command he had held for three years. The Spanish question was likely to be difficult with the French invasion of Spain to restore Frederick VII; there was the Mexican question as well as the Venezuelan question; he could not help fretting over the possibility of Ransome’s mishandling them. On the other hand, there was the small comfort that Hudnutt had so far succeeded in evading capture; Hornblower honestly feared that if he should be apprehended and sentenced while they were still in the island Barbara might take action herself with personal appeals to Ransome or even to the Governor. Barbara actually seemed to have forgotten about the case, which was more than Hornblower had; he was still profoundly disturbed about it, and inclined to fret himself into a fever at his complete lack of power to exert any influence in the matter. It was hard to be philosophic about it, to tell himself that no individual, not even Hornblower, could hold back the working of the inexorable machine of the Articles for the Regulating and Better Government of His Majesty’s Navies. And Hudnutt was a more capable person than he had ever imagined, seeing that he had been able to maintain himself free from capture for a week now—unless perhaps he was dead. That might be best for Hudnutt.
369Captain Knyvett came in person with the news that the Pretty Jane was almost ready for sea.
370“The last of the cargo’s going on board now, my lord,” he said. “The logwood’s all in and the coir is on the quay. If your lordship and her ladyship will come on board this evening we’ll sail with the land breeze at dawn.”
371“Thank you, Captain. I am greatly obliged to you,” said Hornblower, trying not to be fulsome to make up for his coldness at the Governor’s party.
372Pretty Jane was a flush-decked brig, save that amidships she carried a small but substantial deckhouse for her passengers. Barbara had inhabited it for five weeks on the outward voyage. Now they entered it together, with all the bustle of the ship’s getting ready for sea going on round them.
373“I used to look at that other bed, dear,” she said to Hornblower as they stood in the deckhouse, “and I used to tell myself that soon my husband would be sleeping there. It seemed too good to be possible, dear.”
374A noise outside distracted them.
375“This case, ma’am?” asked the Government House servant who was bringing their baggage on board under Gerard’s supervision.
376“That? Oh, I’ve asked the captain about that already. It’s to go in the steerage.”
377“Yes, ma’am.”
378“Delicacies in tin boxes,” explained Barbara to Hornblower. “I brought them all the way out for you to enjoy while going home, dear.”
379“You are too good to me,” said Hornblower.
380A case that size and weight would be a nuisance in the deckhouse. In the steerage its contents would be readily accessible.
381“What is coir?” asked Barbara, looking out to see one of the final bales going down the hatchway.
382“The hairy husks of coconuts,” explained Hornblower.
383“What in the world are we carrying those to England for?” asked Barbara.
384“There are machines now which can weave it. They make coco matting by the mile in England now.”
385“And logwood?”
386“They extract a dye from it. A bright red dye.”
387“You are my unfailing source of information, dear,” said Barbara, “as well as everything else in life for me.”
388“Here’s Their Excellencies coming, my lord,” warned Gerard, arriving at the deckhouse door.
389That meant the final good-byes, in the dying evening. A painful, sad moment; much shaking of hands; kisses on each cheek for Barbara from Lady Hooper; the word “good-bye” repeated over and over again, overwhelming in its finality. Good-bye to friends and to acquaintances, good-bye to Jamaica and to the commander-in-chief. Good-bye to one life, with the next still to disclose itself. Good-bye to the last shadowy figure disappearing in the darkness of the quay, and then to turn again to Barbara standing beside him, permanent in these transitions.
390In the first light of next morning Hornblower could hardly be blamed for being on deck, feeling oddly awkward with the necessity for keeping out of the way, watching while Knyvett warped the Pretty Jane away from the quay, to catch the land breeze and head out of the harbour. Luckily Knyvett was made of sturdy stuff, and was not in the least discomposed at having to handle his ship under the eye of an admiral. The land breeze filled the sails; Pretty Jane gathered way. They dipped the flag to Fort Augusta, and then, with the helm hard over, came round to leave Drunken Cay and Couth Cay on their port side before beginning the long reach to the eastward. And Hornblower could relax and contemplate the new prospect of breakfasting with his wife on shipboard.
391He surprised himself at the ease with which he accustomed himself to being a passenger. At first he was so anxious to give no indication of interference that he did not even dare to look into the binnacle to note their course. He was content to sit with Barbara in two hammock chairs in the shade of the deckhouse—there were beckets to which the chairs could be hooked to prevent their sliding down the deck to leeward as Pretty Jane heeled over—and think about nothing in particular, watching the flying fish furrowing the surface, and the patches of yellow sargasso weed drifting by, gold against the blue, and an occasional turtle swimming manfully along far from land. He could watch Captain Knyvett and his mate taking their noon sights and assure himself that he had no interest at all in the figures they were obtaining—and in truth he was really more interested in the punctuality of mealtimes. He could crack an idle joke with Barbara to the effect that Pretty Jane had made this run so often she could be trusted to find her way home without supervision; and his mind was lazy enough to think that funny.
392It was actually his first holiday after three years of strenuous work. During much of that time he had frequently been under severe strain, and during all of it he had been busy. He sank into idleness as a man might sink into a warm bath, with the difference that he had not expected to find this relaxation and ease in idleness, and (more important, perhaps) in the cessation of responsibility. Nothing mattered during those golden days. He was the person least concerned in all the ship, as Pretty Jane thrashed her way northward, in the burning question as to whether the wind would hold steady to enable her to weather Point Maysi, without having to go about, and he did not care when they did not succeed. He endured philosophically the long beat to windward back towards Haiti, and he smiled patronizingly at the petty jubilation on board when they succeeded on the next tack and passed through the Windward Channel so that they might almost consider themselves out of the Caribbean. A persistent northward slant in the trades kept them from attempting the Caicos Passage, and they had to hold away to the eastward for Silver Bank Passage. Caicos or Silver Bank—or for that matter Turks Island or Mouchoir—he did not care. He did not care whether he arrived home in August or September.
393Yet his instincts were only dormant. That evening, when they were truly in the Atlantic, he felt restless and disturbed for the first time since leaving Jamaica. There was something heavy in the breathing of the air, and something unusual about the swell that was rolling the Pretty Jane so deeply. A gale before morning, he decided. A little unusual in these latitudes at this time of year, but nothing really to worry about. He did not trouble Barbara with his notions, but he woke several times in the night to find the ship still rolling heavily. When the watch was called he noted that all hands were kept on deck to shorten sail, and he was tempted to go out to see what was happening. A clatter outside awoke Barbara.
394“What’s that?” she asked sleepily.
395“Only the deadlights, dear,” he answered.
396Someone had slammed the deadlights against the deckhouse windows and clamped them home—Knyvett must be expecting to ship some heavy seas. Barbara went back to sleep, and Hornblower actually followed her example, but in half an hour he was awake again. The gale was unceasing, and the ship was working considerably in the swell, so that everything was groaning and creaking. He lay in the darkness to feel the ship heaving and lying over under him, and he could both hear and actually feel the vibration of the taut standing rigging transmitted to his bunk via the deck. He would like to go out and have a look at the weather, but he did not wish to disturb Barbara.
397“Awake, dear?” said a small voice the other side of the deckhouse.
398“Yes,” he answered.
399“It seems to be getting rough.”
400“A little,” he said. “There’s nothing to worry about. Go to sleep again, dear.”
401Now he could not go out because Barbara was awake and would know about it. He made himself lie still; it was pitch dark in the deckhouse with the deadlights on, and, perhaps because of the cessation of ventilation, it was now overpoweringly hot despite the gale. Pretty Jane was leaping about extravagantly, and every now and then lying over so far that he feared lest Barbara should be rolled out of her bunk. Then he was conscious of a change in the vessel’s behaviour, of a difference in the thunderous creaking that filled the darkness. Knyvett had hove the Pretty Jane to; she was not lying over, but she was pitching fantastically, indicating a really heavy sea outside. He wanted so much to go out and see for himself. He had no idea even of what the time was—it was far too dark to look at his watch. At the thought that it might be dawn he could restrain himself no longer.
402“Awake, dear?” he asked.
403“Yes,” said Barbara.
404She did not add, “How could anyone sleep in this din?” for Barbara lived up to the principle that no person of breeding should ever complain about things he was unable, or unwilling, to do anything to remedy.
405“I shall go out on deck if you do not mind my leaving you, dear,” he said.
406“Please go if you wish to, of course, dear,” answered Barbara, nor did she add that she wished she could go out too.
407Hornblower groped for his trousers and his shoes, and felt his way to the door. Long experience warned him to brace himself as he unfastened it, but even he was a little surprised at the raging wind that awaited him; it was wild even though, with Pretty Jane hove to, the door on the after side was in the lee of the deckhouse. He stepped over the coaming and managed to slam the door. The wind was tremendous, but what was more surprising still was its warmth; it seemed to be of brick-kiln heat as it screamed round him. He balanced himself on the heaving deck in the hot, noisy darkness, and timed his rush to the wheel, and he was only just prepared for the extra violence of the wind when he emerged from the lee of the deckhouse. Out of that lee, too, the air was full of flying spray which drenched him and modified his impression of the heat of the air—he was aware of all this by the time he reached the wheel. There were shadowy figures there in the darkness; a white shirt sleeve waved to him to acknowledge his presence, indicating that Knyvett was there. Hornblower looked into the binnacle; it was really an effort to collect his faculties and make the correct deductions from what he could see of the swinging needle. The wind was blowing from well to the west of north. Looking up in the darkness he could just make out that the brig was hove to under the maintopmast staysail, of which only a corner was showing. Knyvett was shouting into his ear.
408“Hurricane!”
409“Likely enough,” shouted Hornblower in reply. “Worse before it’s better!”
410A hurricane had no business to appear at this time of year, a good two months earlier than one should be expected, but that hot breath, the indications of yesterday evening, the direction of the wind at present, all seemed to prove that that was what they were experiencing. It remained to be seen whether they were right in the path of it or only on its fringe. Pretty Jane shuddered and lurched drunkenly as a mass of water came in over her bow, gleaming white, almost phosphorescent, as it raced aft at them; Hornblower hung on desperately as it surged past him waist deep—a nasty warning of what might be still to come. They were in very considerable danger. Pretty Jane might not endure the pounding she would have to undergo, and in any case with the considerable leeway she was making they might be cast ashore, and utterly destroyed, on San Domingo or Puerto Rico or some intervening cay. The wind shrieked at them, and a combination of wind and wave laid Pretty Jane over, over until the deck was almost vertical, with Hornblower hanging on as his feet could gain no hold on the planking. A wave burst against her exposed bottom clean over her, cascading round them, and then she came slowly back again. No ship could be expected to endure that sort of thing for long. A muffled bang aloft, followed by a series of sharper sounds, attracted his attention to the topmast staysail just as it blew out from its gaskets and flew into ribbons which cracked like whips while they lasted. One thundering small fragment remained, whipping from the stay, just enough to keep Pretty Jane’s starboard bow to the sea.
411Daylight was coming; there was a yellow tinge all about them, shut in by the low sky overhead. As Hornblower looked aloft he saw a hump, a bubble, appear on the main yard, and the bubble promptly burst into fragments. The wind was tearing the sail from its gaskets. The process was repeated along the yard, as the wind with fingers of steel pried into the solid roll of the sail to tear it loose, rip it open, split it into ribbons, and then tear off the ribbons to whirl them away to leeward. It was hard to believe that a wind could have such power.
412It was hard to believe, too, that waves could be so high. A glance at them explained at once the fantastic motion of the ship. They were appalling in their immensity. The one approaching the starboard bow was not as high as a mountain—Hornblower had used the expression “mountains high” himself, and now, trying to estimate the height, had to admit to himself that it was an exaggeration—but it was as high as a lofty church steeple. It was a colossal ridge of water, moving, not with the speed of a race horse but with the speed of a hurrying man, straight upon them. Pretty Jane lifted her bow to it, lurching and then climbing, rising ever more steeply as she lay upon the towering slope. Up—up—up; she seemed to be almost vertical as she reached the crest, where it was as if the end of the world awaited her. At the crest the wind, temporarily blanketed by the wave, flung itself upon her with redoubled force. Over she lay, over and over, while at the same time her stem heaved itself up as the crest passed under her. Down—down—down; the deck almost vertical, bows down, and almost vertical on her beam, and as she wallowed down the slope, minor waves awaited her to burst over her. With the water surging round him waist deep, chest deep, Hornblower felt his legs carried away from under him and he had to hang on with every ounce of his strength to save himself.
413Here was the ship’s carpenter trying to say something to the captain—it was impossible to speak intelligently in that wind, but he held up one hand with the fingers spread. Five feet of water in the hold, then. But the carpenter repeated the gesture. Then he tried again. Two spreadings of the fingers—ten feet of water, then. It could hardly be the case, but it was true—the heavy heavings of the Pretty Jane showed she was waterlogged. Then Hornblower remembered the cargo with which she was laden. Logwood and coir; logwood floated only sluggishly, but coir was one of the most buoyant substances known. Coconuts falling into the sea (as they often did, thanks to the palm’s penchant for growing at the water’s edge) floated for weeks and months, carried about by the currents, so that the wide distribution of the coconut palm was readily accounted for. It was coir that was keeping Pretty Jane afloat even though she was full of water. It would keep her afloat for a long time—it would outlast the Pretty Jane, for that matter. She would work herself to fragments before the coir allowed her to sink.
414So perhaps they had another hour or two of life before them. Perhaps. Another wave, cascading green over Pretty Jane’s upturned side, brought a grim warning that it might not be as long as that. And amid the rumble and the roar of the bursting wave, even as he hung on desperately, he was conscious of a succession of other sounds, harder and sharper, and of a jarring of the deck under his feet. The deckhouse! It was lifting on its bolts under the impact of the water. It could not be expected to stand that battering long; it was bound to be swept away soon. And—Hornblower’s visual imagination was feverishly at work—before then its seams would be forced apart; it would fill with water. Barbara would be drowned inside it before the weight of water within tore the deckhouse from its bolts, for the waves to hurl it overside with Barbara’s drowned body inside. Clinging to the binnacle, Hornblower went through some seconds of mental agony, the worst he had ever known in his life. There had been times and times before when he had faced death for himself, when he had weighed chances, when he had staked his own life, but now it was Barbara’s life that he was staking.
415To leave her in the deckhouse meant her certain death soon. The alternative was to bring her out upon the wave-swept deck. Here, tied to the mast, she would live as long as she could endure the buffeting and the exposure, until the Pretty Jane broke up into fragments possibly. For himself he had played out a losing game to the bitter end more than once; now he had to brace himself to do the same for Barbara. He made the decision. On Barbara’s behalf he decided to struggle on as long as was possible. Forcing himself to think logically while the stupefying wind roared round him, he made his plans. He awaited a comparatively calm moment, and then made the perilous brief journey to the foot of the mainmast. Now he worked with frantic rapidity. Two lengths of the main topsail halliards; he had to keep his head clear to prevent his fumbling fingers from entangling them. Then two desperate journeys, first to the wheel, and then to the deckhouse. He tore open the door and stumbled in over the coaming, the lines in his hands. There were two feet of water in the deckhouse, surging about with the motion of the ship. Barbara was there; he saw her in the light from the door. She had wedged herself as well as she might in her bunk.
416“Dearest!” he said. Within the deckhouse it was just possible to be heard, despite the frantic din all round.
417“I’m here, dear,” she replied.
418Another wave burst over the Pretty Jane at that moment; water came pouring in through the gaping seams of the deckhouse and he could feel the whole thing lift again on its bolts and he knew a moment of wild despair at the thought that he might already be too late, that the deckhouse was going to be swept away at this moment with them in it. But it held—the surge of the water as Pretty Jane lay over the other way flung Hornblower against the other bulkhead.
419“I must get you out of here, dear,” said Hornblower, trying to keep his voice steady. “You’ll be safer tied to the mainmast.”
420“As you wish, of course, dear,” said Barbara calmly.
421“I’m going to put these lines round you,” said Hornblower.
422Barbara had managed to dress herself in his absence; at any rate she had some sort of dress or petticoat on. Hornblower made fast the lines about her while the ship rolled and swayed under their feet; she held her arms up for him to do so. He knotted the lines round her waist, below her tender bosom.
423“Listen carefully,” said Hornblower, and he told her, while they were still in the comparative calm of the deckhouse, what he wanted her to do, how she had to watch her chance, rush to the wheel, and from there to the mainmast.
424“I understand, dear,” said Barbara. “Kiss me once more, my very dearest.”
425He kissed her hurriedly, his lips against her dripping cheek. It was only the most perfunctory kiss. To Hornblower’s subconscious mind Barbara, in making her request, was risking their lives for it—staking ten thousand future kisses against one immediate one. It was womanlike for her to do so, but odds of ten thousand to one had no appeal for Hornblower. And still she lingered.
426“Dearest, I’ve always loved you,” she said; she was speaking hurriedly and yet with no proper regard for the value of time. “I’ve loved no one but you in all my life. I had another husband once. I couldn’t say this before because it would have been disloyal. But now—I’ve never loved anyone but you. Never. Only you, darling.”
427“Yes, dear,” said Hornblower. He heard the words, but at that urgent moment he could not give them their rightful consideration. “Stand here. Hold on to this. Hold on!”
428It was only a lesser wave that swept by them.
429“Wait for my signal!” bellowed Hornblower into Barbara’s ear, and then he made the hurried dash to the binnacle. One group of men had bound themselves to the wheel.
430There was a frantic moment as he looked about him. He waved, and then Barbara crossed the heaving deck as he took up on the line. He had just time to fling a bight round her and pull it tight and seize hold himself as the next crest burst over the ship. Over—over—over. Sluggishly the Pretty Jane wallowed up again. He had an idea that one man at least was missing from the group at the wheel, but there was no time to think about that, for there was the passage to the mainmast still to be accomplished.
431At last that was done. There were four men there already, but he was able to make Barbara as secure as possible, and then himself. Pretty Jane lay over again, and again; it was at some time shortly after this that a fresh monstrous wave swept away the deckhouse and half the ship’s rail—Hornblower saw the wreckage go off to leeward, and noted the fact dully. He had been right in taking Barbara away from there.
432It may have been the loss of the deckhouse that called his attention to the behaviour of the Pretty Jane. She was lying in the trough of the sea, not riding with her bows to the waves. The loss of the windage of the deckhouse, right aft, perhaps made this more noticeable. She was rolling wildly and deeply in consequence, and was being swept by the waves more thoroughly. She could not be expected to survive this for long, nor could the miserable human beings on her deck—of whom Barbara was one and he was another. The Pretty Jane would rack herself to pieces before long. Something was needed to keep her bows to the sea. In the normal way a small area of canvas exposed right aft would bring this about, but no canvas would stand against that wind, as had been early demonstrated. In the present circumstances the pressure of the wind against the foremast and bowsprit with their standing rigging balanced that against the mainmast, keeping her lying broadside on to wind and wave. If canvas could not be exposed aft, then the windage forward must be reduced instead. The foremast should be cut away. Then the pressure on the mainmast would bring her bows on to the sea, increasing her chances, while the loss of the mast would perhaps ease the roll as well. There was no doubt about it; the mast should be cut away, instantly.
433Aft there was Knyvett, bound to the wheel, no more than a few feet away; it was his decision as captain. As Pretty Jane wallowed to bring her deck horizontal for a moment, with water no more than knee deep over it, Hornblower waved to him. He pointed forward to the weather foremast shrouds; he gesticulated; he thought he conveyed his meaning clearly enough, but Knyvett showed no sign of understanding. He certainly made no move to act upon the suggestion. He merely gazed stupidly and then looked away. Hornblower felt a moment of fury; the next roll and submergence made up his mind for him. The discipline of the sea might be disregarded in the face of this indifference and incompetence.
434But the other men beside him at the mainmast were as indifferent as Knyvett. He could not rouse them to join him in the effort. They had a momentary safety there at the mast, and they would not leave it; probably they could not understand what he had in mind. That outrageous wind was perfectly stupefying as it screamed round them, and the constant deluges of water, and the desperate need to struggle for a footing, gave them no chance to collect their thoughts.
435An axe would perhaps be best to cut those shrouds, but there was no axe. The man beside him had a knife in a sheath at his belt. Hornblower put his hand on the hilt, and made himself think reasonably again. He tested the edge, found it sharp, and then unbuckled belt and all and rebuckled it about his own waist—the man offering no objection, merely gazing stupidly at him as he did so. Again there was need to plan, to think clearly, in the howling wind and the driving spray and the solid water that surged round him. He cut himself two lengths of line from the raffle about him, and made each of them fast round his chest with an end hanging free. Then he looked over to the foremast shrouds, planning again. There would be no time to think things out when the moment for action began. A length of the rail still survived its battering there—presumably the weather shrouds had acted as some sort of breakwater to it. He eyed and measured the distance. He eased the knots that held him to the mast. He spared a glance at Barbara, forcing himself to smile. She was standing there in her bonds; the hurricane was blowing her long hair, wet though it was, straight out horizontally from her head. He put another line about her to make her secure. There was nothing else he could do. This was bedlam, this was insanity, this was a wet, shrieking hell, and yet a hell in which he had to keep his head clear.
436He watched his moment. First he almost misjudged it, and had to draw back, swallowing hard in the tense excitement, before the next wave engulfed him. As it surged away he watched Pretty Jane’s motion again, set his teeth, and cast off his bonds and made the rush up the steep deck—wave and deck offering him a lee which saved him from being blown away by the wind. He reached the rail with five seconds to spare—five seconds in which to secure himself, to knot himself to the shrouds as the crest burst over him, in a torrent of water which first swept his legs from under him, and next tore his grip loose so that for a second or two only the lines held him before an eddy enabled him to re-establish his grip.
437Pretty Jane wallowed clear again. It was awkward to fasten the lanyard of the sheath knife to his wrist, but he had to consume precious moments in doing so; otherwise all his efforts so far would be wasted in ridiculous failure. Now he was sawing desperately at the shroud; the soaked fibres seemed like iron, but he felt them part little by little, a few fibres at a time. He was glad he had made sure the knife was sharp. He had half severed the rope before the next deluge burst over him. The moment his shoulders were clear of the water he continued to saw at the rope; he could feel, as he cut, a slight variation of tension as the ship rolled and the shroud faintly slackened. He wondered if, when the rope parted, it would fly dangerously, and he decided that as long as the other shrouds held, the reaction would not be too violent.
438So it proved; the shroud simply vanished under his knife—the wind caught its fifty-foot length and whirled it away out of his world, presumably blowing it out as a streamer from the masthead. He set about the next, sawing away in the intervals of being submerged under the crashing waves. He cut and he hung on; he struggled for air in the driving spray; he choked and suffocated under the green water; but one shroud after another parted under his knife. The knife was losing its edge, and now he was faced with an additional problem: he had severed nearly every shroud—the aftermost ones—within reach and soon he would have to shift his position to reach the foremost ones. But he did not have to solve that problem after all. At the next roll and the next wave, actually while he was struggling under water, he was conscious of a series of shocks transmitted through the fabric of the ship to his clutching hands—four minor ones and then a violent one. As the wave fell away from him, his swimming eyes could see what had happened. The four remaining shrouds had parted under the strain, one, two, three, four, and then the mast had snapped off; over his shoulder, he could see the stump standing eight feet above the deck.
439The difference it made to the Pretty Jane was instantly apparent. The very next roll ended halfheartedly in a mere violent pitch, as the shrieking wind, acting upon her mainmast, pushed her stern round and brought her bows to the sea, while the loss of the leverage of the lofty foremast reduced the amplitude of the roll in any case. The sea that broke over Hornblower’s head was almost negligible in violence and quantity. Hornblower could breathe; he could look about him. He observed something else: the foremast, still attached to the ship by the lee shrouds, was now dragging ahead of her as she made stern way through the water under the impulse of the wind. It was acting as a sea anchor, a very slight restraint upon the extravagance of her motions; moreover, as the point of attachment was on the port side, she was slightly turned, so that she met the waves a trifle on her port bow, so that she was riding at the best possible angle, with a very slight roll and a long pitch. Waterlogged though she was, she still had a chance—and Hornblower on the starboard bow was comparatively sheltered and able to contemplate his handiwork with some sort of pride.
440He looked across at the pitiful groups of people, clustering bound to the mainmast and the wheel and binnacle; Barbara was out of his sight in the group at the mainmast, hidden from him by the men there, and he was consumed with a sudden anxiety lest further mishap might have befallen her. He began to cast himself loose to return to her, and it was then, with the cessation of the all-consuming preoccupation regarding the ship, that a sudden recollection struck him, so forcibly that he actually paused with his fingers on the knots. Barbara had kissed him, in the lee of the vanished deckhouse. And she had said—Hornblower remembered well what she had said; it had lain stored in his memory until this moment, awaiting his attention when there should be a lull in the need for violent action. She not merely said that she loved him; she had said she had never loved anyone else. Hornblower, huddled on the deck of a waterlogged ship with a hurricane shrieking round him, was suddenly aware that an old hurt was healed, that he would never again feel that dull ache of jealousy of Barbara’s first husband, never, as long as he lived.
441That was enough to bring him back to the world of practical affairs. The remaining length of his life might well be measured in hours. He would more likely than not be dead by nightfall, or by tomorrow at latest. And so would Barbara. So would Barbara. The absurd tiny feeling of well-being that had sprung up within him was instantly destroyed and replaced by a frantic sorrow and a despair that was almost overwhelming. He had to exert all his will-power to make himself master of his drooping body again, and of his weary mind. He had to act and to think, as though he were not exhausted and as though he did not despair. The discovery that the sheath knife still dangled at his wrist awoke the self-contempt that invariably stimulated him; he untied the lanyard and secured the knife in its sheath before setting himself to study the motion of the Pretty Jane.
442He cast himself loose and dashed for the mainmast. The tremendous wind might well have carried him clean aft and overboard, but the upheaving of the stern checked his progress sufficiently for him to swing into the lee of the group at the mainmast and to clutch one of the lines there and hang on. The men there, hanging apathetic in their lashings, spared him hardly a glance and made no move to help him. Barbara, her wet hair streaming out sideways, had a smile and a hand for him, and he forced his way into the group beside her and bound himself next to her. He took her hand in his again, and was reassured by the return of the pressure he gave it. Then there was nothing to do except to remain alive.
443Part of the process of remaining alive was not to think about being thirsty, as the day wore on and the yellow daylight was replaced by black night. It was hard not to do so, once he had realized how thirsty he was, and now he had a new torment when he thought that Barbara was suffering in that way too. There was nothing he could do about that at all, nothing, except to stand in his bonds and endure along with her. With the coming of night, however, the wind lost its brick-kiln heat and blew almost chilly, so that Hornblower found himself shivering a little. He turned in his bonds and put his arms round Barbara, holding her to him to conserve her bodily warmth. It was during the night that he was troubled by the behaviour of the man next to him, who persisted in leaning against him, more and more heavily, so that repeatedly Hornblower had to take his arm from around Barbara and thrust him fiercely away. At the third or fourth of those thrusts he felt the man fall limply away from him and guessed he was dead. That made a little more room about the mast, and he could put Barbara squarely against it, where she could lean back with her shoulders supported. Hornblower could guess that she would find that a help, judging by the agonizing cramp in his legs and the utter weariness of every part of his body. There was a temptation, a terrible temptation, to give up, to let everything go, to let himself fall to the deck and die like the man beside him. But he would not; that was for the sake of the wife in his arms more than for himself; because of his love rather than because of his pride.
444With the change in the temperature of the wind came a gradual moderation in its violence; Hornblower during those black hours would allow himself to hope at first, but he became more and more convinced of it as the night wore on. At last there was no denying the fact. The wind was dying away—the hurricane was moving away from them, most likely. Sometime during the night it was only a strong gale, and later on Hornblower, lifting his head, made himself admit that it was nothing more than a fresh breeze which would call for only a single reef—a topgallant breeze, in fact. The motion of the Pretty Jane continued to be violent, as was only to be expected; the sea would take much longer to die away than would the wind. She was still pitching and plunging wildly, heaving up and racing down, but she was not being swept by the waves to nearly such a great extent, even allowing for her improved behaviour, bows to sea. It was not great cataracts of water that came surging by them, dragging them against their bonds to lacerate their skin. The water ceased to be waist high; later on it only surged past their knees and the spray had ceased to drive past them.
445With that Hornblower was able to notice something else. It was raining, raining in torrents. If he turned his face to the sky a few precious drops fell into his parched, open mouth.
446“Rain!” he said into Barbara’s ear.
447He released himself from her arms—he did it actually roughly, so anxious was he not to waste a single second of this rainstorm. He took off his shirt—it tore into rags as he dragged it from the lines that encompassed him—and held it out in the invisible rain that lashed down on them in the darkness. He must not waste a second. The shirt was wet with sea water; he wrung it out, working over it feverishly, alternately with spreading it in the rain. He squeezed a fragment into his mouth; it was still salt. He tried again. He had never wished for anything so much as now, for the rainstorm to continue in this violence and for the sea spray not to be driving too thickly. The water he wrung from the fragment of shirt could be considered fresh now. He felt for Barbara’s face with the sopping wet object, pressing it against her.
448“Drink!” he croaked into her ear.
449When she put up her hands to it he guessed from her movements that she understood, that she was sucking the precious liquid from the fabric. He wanted her to hurry, to drink all she could, while the rain persisted; his hands were shaking with desire. In the darkness she would not know that he was waiting so anxiously. She yielded the shirt back to him at last, and he spread it to the rain again, hardly able to endure the delay. Then he could press it to his mouth, head back, and gulp and swallow, half mad with pleasure. The difference it made to squeeze that water into his mouth was beyond measure.
450He felt strength and hope returning—the strength came with the hope. Perhaps that shirt held five or six wine glassfuls of water; it was sufficient to make this vast difference. He spread the shirt again above his head, to soak it again in the torrential rain, and gave it to Barbara, and when she returned it to him in the darkness he repeated the process for himself. And when he had squeezed it almost dry he realized that while he was doing so the rain had ceased, and he felt a moment’s regret. He should have saved that wet shirt as a reserve, but he ceased to chide himself. Most of the water in it would have drained out, and there was still enough spray in the air to have made the remainder undrinkable in a few minutes.
451But now he could think better; he could soberly decide that the wind was moderating fast—the rainstorm itself was an indication that the hurricane had gone on its way, leaving in its wake the prodigious rains that were not unusual then. And there, over the starboard bow, was the faintest hint of pink in the sky, not the threatening yellow of the hurricane, but the dawn of a different day. He felt for the knots that held him bound, and by slow degrees he fumbled them undone. As the last one released him he staggered back with the heave of the ship, and sank back with a thump and a splash into a sitting position on the wet deck. That was a fantastic pleasure, to sit down, hip deep in the water still washing over the deck. Just sit, and very slowly flex and straighten his knees, to feel life returning into his dead thighs; that was heaven, and it would be a seventh heaven to put his head down and allow sleep to overcome him.
452That was something he must not do, all the same. Sleeplessness and physical fatigue were things that must be stoically ignored, as long as there was a chance that they would survive, and daylight increasing round them. He heaved himself up to his feet and walked back to the mast on legs that would hardly obey him. He released Barbara, and she at least could sit down, deck awash or not. He eased her until her back was to the mast and then passed a line around her again. She could sleep in that fashion; she was already so weary that she did not notice—or she gave no sign of it if she did—the doubled-up corpse that lay within a yard of her. He cut the corpse loose and dragged it with the heave of the ship out of the way, before attending to the other three there. They were already fumbling with the knots of their lashings, and as Hornblower began to cut the lines, first one and then another opened his mouth and croaked at him.
453“Water!” they said. “Water!”
454They were as helpless and as dependent as nestlings. It was apparent to Hornblower that not one of them had had the sense, during that roaring rainstorm in the dark, to soak his shirt; they could hardly have failed to hold up open mouths to the rain, but what they would catch then would be a trifle. He looked round the horizon. One or two distant squalls were visible there, but there was no predicting when or if they would pass over the Pretty Jane.
455“You’ll have to wait for that, my lads,” he said.
456He made his way aft to the other group around the wheel and binnacle. There was a corpse here still hanging in its lashings—Knyvett. Hornblower took note of the fact, with the terse requiem that perhaps with death overpowering him there might be some excuse for his not attempting to cut away the foremast. Another corpse lay on the deck, among the feet of the six survivors here. Nine men had survived of the crew of sixteen, and apparently four had disappeared entirely, washed overboard during the night, or perhaps during the night before. Hornblower recognized the second mate and the steward; the group, even the second mate, were croaking for water just like the others, and to them Hornblower made the same grim reply.
457“Get those dead men overboard,” he added.
458He took stock of the situation. Looking over the side, he could see that Pretty Jane had about three feet of freeboard remaining, as close as he could judge while she was pitching extravagantly in the still-turbulent sea. He was conscious now, as he walked about right aft, of dull thumpings under his feet corresponding to the heave and the roll. That meant floating objects battering on the underside of the deck as they were flung up against it by the water inside surging about. The wind was steady from the northeast—the trade wind had reasserted itself after the temporary interruption of the hurricane; the sky was still gloomy and overcast, but Hornblower could feel in his bones that the barometer must be rising rapidly. Somewhere down to leeward, fifty miles away, a hundred miles, two hundred perhaps, was the chain of the Antilles—he could not guess how far, or in what direction, Pretty Jane had drifted during the storm. There was still a chance for them, or there would be if he could solve the water problem.
459He turned to the tottering crew.
460“Get the hatches up,” he ordered. “You, Mr. Mate, where are the water casks stowed?”
461“Amidships,” said the mate, running a dry tongue over his dry lips at the thought of water. “Aft of the main hatchway.”
462“Let’s see,” said Hornblower.
463Water casks constructed to keep fresh water in would also perhaps keep sea water out. But no cask was ever quite tight; every cask leaked to some extent, and only a small amount of sea water percolating in would make the contents unfit to drink. And casks that had been churned about for two nights and a day by the surging sea water below decks would probably be stove in, every one of them.
464“It’s only a faint hope,” said Hornblower, anxious to minimize the almost certain disappointment ahead of them; he looked round again to see what chance there was of a rain squall coming.
465When they looked down the open hatchway they could appreciate the difficulties. The hatchway was jammed with a couple of bales of coir; as they watched them they could see them move uneasily with the motion of the ship. The water that had invaded the ship had floated up the cargo—Pretty Jane was actually supported by the upward pressure of the cargo on the underside of the deck. It was a miracle that she had not broken her back. And there was not a chance of going down there. It would be certain death to venture amid those surging bales. There was a general groan of disappointment from the group round the hatchway.
466But another possibility was present in Hornblower’s mind, and he turned upon the steward.
467“There were green coconuts for the use of the cabin,” he said. “Were there any left?”
468“Yes, sir. Four or five dozen.” The man could hardly speak, with thirst, or weakness, or excitement.
469“In the lazarette?”
470“Yes, sir.”
471“In a sack?”
472“Yes, sir.”
473“Come along,” said Hornblower.
474Coconuts floated as lightly as coir, and were more watertight than any cask.
475They pried up the after hatch cover and looked down at the heaving water below. There was no cargo there; the bulkhead had stood the strain. The distance down to the surface corresponded to the three-foot freeboard remaining to Pretty Jane. There were things to be seen there—almost at once a wooden piggin came floating into sight, and the surface was nearly covered with fragments. Then something else floated into view—a coconut. Apparently the sack had not been fastened—Hornblower had hoped he might find a whole sackful floating there. He leaned far down and scooped it up. As he rose to his feet again with the thing in his hand, there was a simultaneous wordless croak from the whole group; a dozen hands stretched out for it, and Hornblower realized that he must maintain order.
476“Stand back!” he said, and when the men still advanced on him he pulled out his sheath knife.
477“Stand back! I’ll kill the first man to lay a hand on me!” he said. He knew himself to be snarling like a wild beast, his teeth bared with the intensity of his feeling, and he knew that he would stand no chance in fight, one against nine.
478“Come now, lads,” he said. “We’ll have to make these last. We’ll ration ’em out. Fair divs all round. See how many more you can find.”
479The force of his personality asserted itself; so did what remained of the common sense of the crew, and they drew back. Soon three men were kneeling round the hatchway, with the others leaning precariously over them to look over their shoulders.
480“There’s one!” croaked a voice.
481An arm went down and a coconut was scooped up.
482“Give it here,” said Hornblower, and he was obeyed without question; another was already visible, and another after that. They began to pile up at Hornblower’s feet, a dozen, fifteen, twenty, twenty-three of the precious things, before they ceased to appear further.
483“With luck we’ll find some more later,” said Hornblower. He looked round the group, and over at Barbara huddled at the foot of the mainmast. “Eleven of us. Half a one each for today. Another half each tomorrow. And I’ll go without for today.”
484No one questioned this decision—partly, perhaps, because they were all too anxious to wet their lips. The first coconut was chopped open at the end, with desperate care lest a drop be spilt, and the first man took a drink. There was no chance at all of his drinking more than his half, with everyone grouped round him, and the man destined for the other half snatching it from his lips at every sip to see how far down the surface had sunk. The men forced to wait were wild with eagerness, but they had to wait all the same. Hornblower could not trust them to make a division without fighting or waste unless he was supervising. After the last man had drunk he took the remaining half over to Barbara.
485“Drink this, dear,” he said, as at the touch of his hand she blinked awake from her heavy doze.
486She drank eagerly before she took the nut from her lips.
487“You’ve had some, dear?” she asked.
488“Yes, dear, I’ve had mine,” said Hornblower steadily.
489When he returned to the group they were scraping the thin jelly out from inside the nuts.
490“Don’t damage these shells, lads,” he said. “We’ll need ’em when we get a rain squall. And we’ll put those nuts under her ladyship’s guard. We can trust her.”
491They obeyed him again.
492“We got two more up while you was away, sir,” volunteered one of the men.
493Hornblower peered down the hatchway at the litter-covered water. Another idea came into his mind, and he turned to the steward again.
494“Her ladyship sent a chest of food on board,” he said. “Food in tin boxes. It was put aft here somewhere. Do you know where?”
495“It was right aft, sir. Under the tiller ropes.”
496“M’m,” said Hornblower.
497As he thought about it a sudden motion of the ship tossed up the water below in a fountain through the hatchway. But it ought to be possible to reach that chest, break it open, and bring up its contents. A strong man, able to stay submerged for long periods, could do it, if he did not mind being flung about by the send of the water below.
498“We’d have something better to eat than coconut jelly if we got those boxes up,” he said.
499“I’ll have a go, sir,” said a young seaman, and Hornblower was inexpressibly relieved. He did not want to go down there himself.
500“Good lad,” he said. “Put a line round yourself before you go down. Then we can haul you out if we have to.”
501They were setting about their preparations when Hornblower checked them.
502“Wait. Look for’rard!” he said.
503There was a rain squall a mile away. They could see it, a vast pillar of water to windward streaming down from the sky, well defined; the cloud was lower whence it fell, and the surface of the sea which received it was a different grey from the rest. It was moving down towards them—no, not quite. The centre was heading for a point some distance on their beam, as everyone could see after a moment’s study. There was an explosion of blasphemy from the grouped hands as they watched.
504“We’ll get the tail of it, by God!” said the mate.
505“Make the most of it when it comes,” said Hornblower.
506For three long minutes they watched it approach. A cable’s length away it seemed to stand still, even though they could feel the freshening breeze around them. Hornblower had run to Barbara’s side.
507“Rain,” he said.
508Barbara turned her face to the mast, and bent down and fumbled under her skirt. A moment’s struggle brought down a petticoat, and she stepped out of it and did her best to wring the salt damp out of it as they waited. Then came a few drops, and then the full deluge. Precious rain; ten shirts and a petticoat were extended to it, wrung out, re-extended, wrung out again, until the wringings tasted fresh. Everyone could drink, madly, with the rain roaring about them. After two minutes of it Hornblower was shouting to the crew to fill the empty coconut shells, and a few men had sense and public spirit enough to wring their shirts into them before returning to the ecstasy of drinking again—no one wanted to waste a single second of this precious rain. But it passed as quickly as it came; they could see the squall going away over the quarter, as far out of their reach as if it were raining in the Sahara Desert. But the young hands of the crew were laughing and joking now; there was an end to their care and their apathy. There was not one man on board except Hornblower who spared a thought for the possibility, the probability, that this might be the only rain squall to touch the ship for the next week. There was urgent need for action, even though every joint and muscle in his body ached, even though his mind was clouded with weariness. He made himself think; he made himself rally his strength. He cut short the silly laughter, and turned on the man who had volunteered to venture down into the steerage.
509“Put two men to tend your line. The steward had better be one of ’em,” he said. “Mr. Mate, come for’rard with me. We want to get sail on this ship as soon as may be.”
510That was the beginning of a voyage which was destined to become legendary, just as did the hurricane which had just passed—it was called Hornblower’s Hurricane, singled out not only because Hornblower was involved in it, but also because its unexpected arrival caused widespread damage. Hornblower never thought that the voyage itself was particularly notable, even though it was made in a waterlogged hulk precariously balanced upon bales of coir. It was only a matter of getting the hulk before the wind; a spare jib-boom (the only spare spar surviving the storm) made a jury mast when fished to the stump of the foremast, and the sacking from coir bales provided sails. Spread on the jury foremast, these enabled them to get the Pretty Jane before the trade wind, to creep along at a mile an hour while they set to work on extemporizing after sails that doubled her speed.
511There were no navigating instruments—even the compass had been dashed from its gimbals during the storm—and on the first two days they had no idea where they were, except that somewhere to leeward lay the chain of the Antilles, but the third day proved fine and clear and dawn had hardly broken before a hand at the mainmast head saw the faintest, tiniest dark streak on the horizon far ahead. It was land; it might be the high mountains of San Domingo far off or the low mountains of Puerto Rico somewhat nearer; there was no knowing at present, and even when the sun had set they were still ignorant—and they were thirsty, with small appetite for the meagre ration of corned beef that Hornblower doled out to them from the recovered stores.
512And despite fatigue they could sleep that night on their coir mattresses on the deck that an occasional small wave still swept. Next morning the land was nearer still, a low profile that seemed to indicate it might be Puerto Rico, and it was in the afternoon that they saw the fishing boat. It headed for them, the fishermen puzzled at the strange vessel bearing down on them, and it was not long before the boat was alongside, the mulatto fishermen staring at the group of strange figures waving to them. Hornblower had to urge his dazed mind, stupid with lack of sleep and fatigue and hunger, to remember his Spanish as he hailed them.
513They had a breaker of water on board, and they had a jar of cold garbanzos as well; there was a can of corned beef to add to the feast. Barbara caught, even though she spoke no Spanish, two words of the excited conversation that went on.
514“Puerto Rico?” she asked.
515“Yes, dear,” said Hornblower. “Not very surprising—and much more convenient for us than San Domingo. I wish I could remember the name of the captain-general there—I had dealings with him in the affair of the Estrella del Sur. He was a marquis. The Marqués de—de—Dearest, why don’t you lie down and close your eyes? You’re worn out.”
516He was shocked anew at her pallor and look of distress.
517“I’m well enough, thank you, dear,” replied Barbara, even though the strained tone of her voice denied her words. It was one more proof of her indomitable spirit.
518It was when they were discussing what to do next that the second mate showed the first sign of any spirit. They could all desert the waterlogged hulk and sail into Puerto Rico in the fishing boat, but he stoutly refused to do so. He knew the law about salvage, and there might be some value still in the poor hull, and certainly in its cargo. He would work the Pretty Jane in tomorrow himself, and he insisted on staying on hoard with the hands.
519Hornblower faced a decision of a sort he had never yet encountered in a varied career. To leave the ship now savoured of desertion, but there was Barbara to think of. And his first reaction, that he would not dream of deserting his men, was promptly ended by his reminding himself that they were not “his men” at all.
520“You’re only a passenger, my lord,” said the mate—it was odd how “my lord” seemed to come naturally again now that they were in touch with civilization.
521“That’s so,” agreed Hornblower. Nor could he possibly condemn Barbara to another night on the deck of this waterlogged hulk.
522So they came sailing into San Juan de Puerto Rico, two years after Hornblower had last visited the place in very different circumstances. Not unnaturally their arrival set the whole place in an uproar. Messengers sped to the Fortaleza, and it was only a few minutes later that a figure appeared on the quay which Hornblower s swimming eyes contrived to recognize, tall and thin with a thin moustache.
523“Mendez-Castillo,” he said, saving Hornblower any further trouble about remembering his name. “It grieves me greatly to see Your Excellencies in such distress, even while I have much pleasure in welcoming Your Excellency again to Puerto Rico.”
524Some sort of formalities had to be observed, even in these conditions.
525“Barbara, my dear, allow me to present Señor—Major—Mendez-Castillo, aide-de-camp to His Excellency the Captain-General.” Then he continued in Spanish. “My wife, la Baronesa Hornblower.”
526Mendez-Castillo bowed deeply, his eyes still busy estimating the extent of the weakness of the new arrivals. Then he reached the very important decision.
527“If Your Excellencies are agreeable, I would suggest that your formal welcome by His Excellency should be postponed until Your Excellencies are better prepared for it.”
528“We are agreeable,” said Hornblower. In his exasperation he was about to burst out violently regarding Barbara’s need for rest and care, but Mendez-Castillo, now that the point of etiquette was settled, was all consideration.
529“Then if Your Excellencies will give yourselves the trouble of stepping down into my boat I shall have the pleasure of escorting you to make your informal entrance into the Palace of Santa Catalina. Their Excellencies will receive you, but formal etiquette need not be observed, and Your Excellencies will be able to recover from the dreadful experiences I fear Your Excellencies have undergone. Would Your Excellencies be so kind as to come this way?”
530“One moment, first, if you please, señor. The men out there in the ship. They need food and water. They may need help.”
531“I will give an order for the port authorities to send out to them what they need.”
532“Thank you.”
533So they went down into the boat for the brief trip across the harbour; despite his mortal fatigue Hornblower was able to note that every fishing boat and coasting craft there was hurriedly getting to sea, presumably to examine the chances of salvaging or plundering the Pretty Jane; the second mate had been perfectly right in refusing to leave her. But he did not care now. He put his arm about Barbara as she drooped beside him. Then up through the water gate of the palace, with attentive servants awaiting them. Here were His Excellency and a dark beautiful woman, his wife; she took Barbara under her protection instantly. Here were cool dark rooms, and more servants scurrying about in obedience to the orders His Excellency volleyed out. Valets and maids and body servants.
534“This is Manuel, my principal valet, Your Excellency. Any orders Your Excellency may give him will be obeyed as if they came from me. My physician has been sent for and will be here at any moment. So now my wife and I will withdraw and leave Your Excellencies to rest, assuring Your Excellencies that our sincerest hope is for your rapid recovery.”
535The crowd thinned away. For one more moment Hornblower had to keep his faculties alert, for the doctor came bustling in, to feel pulses and to look at tongues. He produced a case of lancets and was making preparations to draw blood from Barbara and it was only with difficulty that Hornblower stopped him, and with further difficulty prevented him from substituting leeches for venesection. He could not believe that bleeding would hasten the cure of the lacerations Barbara bore on her body. He thanked the doctor and saw him out of the room again with a sigh of relief and mental reservations regarding the medicines he promised to send in. The maids were waiting to relieve Barbara of the few rags she wore.
536“Do you think you will sleep, darling? Is there anything more I can ask for?”
537“I shall sleep, dearest.” Then the smile on Barbara’s weary face was replaced by something more like a grin, perfectly unladylike. “And as nobody else but us here can speak English I am free to tell you that I love you, dearest. I love you, I love you, more than any words that I know can tell you.”
538Servants or no servants, he kissed her then before he left her to go into the adjoining room where the valets awaited him. His body was crisscrossed with angry welts still raw where, during the storm, the force of the waves had flung him against the ropes that held him to the mast. They were horribly painful as he was sponged with warm water. He knew that Barbara’s sweet tender body must be marked in the same fashion. But Barbara was safe; she would soon be well, and she had said that she loved him. And—and she had said more than that. What she had told him in that dark deckhouse had drawn out all the pain from a mental wound far, far deeper than the physical hurts he now bore. He was a happy man as he lay down in the silk nightshirt with the elaborate heraldic embroidery which the valet had ready for him. His sleep was at first deep and untroubled, but conscience awoke him before dawn, and he went out onto the balcony in the first light, to see the Pretty Jane creeping into the harbour, escorted by a dozen small craft. It irked him that he was not on board, until he thought again of the wife sleeping in the next room.
539There were happy hours still to come. That balcony was deep and shaded, looking out over harbour and sea, and there he sat in his dressing gown an hour later, rocking idly in his chair, with Barbara opposite him, drinking sweet chocolate and eating sweet rolls.
540“It is good to be alive,” said Hornblower; there was a potency, an inner meaning, about those words now—it was no hackneyed turn of speech.
541“It is good to be with you,” said Barbara.
542“Pretty Jane came in this morning safely,” said Hornblower.
543“I peeped out at her through my window,” said Barbara.
544Mendez-Castillo was announced, presumably having been warned that His Excellency’s guests were awake and breakfasting. He made inquiries on behalf of His Excellency, to receive every assurance of a rapid recovery, and he announced that news of the recent events would be despatched at once to Jamaica.
545“Most kind of His Excellency,” said Hornblower. “Now, as regards the crew of the Pretty Jane: are they being looked after?”
546“They have been received into the military hospital. The port authorities have stationed a guard on board the vessel.”
547“That is very well indeed,” said Hornblower, telling himself that now he need feel no more responsibility.
548The morning could be an idle one now, only broken by a visit from the doctor, to be dismissed, after a new feeling of pulses and looking at tongues, with grateful thanks for his untasted medicines. There was dinner at two o’clock, a vast meal served ceremoniously but only sampled. A siesta, and then supper eaten with more appetite, and a peaceful night.
549Next morning was busier, for there was now the question of clothes to be dealt with. Dressmakers were sent in to Barbara by Her Excellency, so that Hornblower found all the mental exercise he needed in acting as interpreter over matters demanding a vocabulary he did not possess, and shirtmakers and tailors sent in to him by His Excellency. The tailor was somewhat disappointed on being told that Hornblower did not wish him to make a complete uniform for a British rear admiral, gold lace and all. As a half-pay officer, with no appointment, Hornblower did not need anything of the sort.
550After the tailor came a deputation, the mate and two members of the crew of Pretty Jane.
551“We’ve come to inquire after your lordship’s health, and her ladyship’s,” said the mate.
552“Thank you. You can see her ladyship and I are quite recovered,” said Hornblower. “And you? Are you being well looked after?”
553“Very well, thank you.”
554“You’re master of the Pretty Jane now,” commented Hornblower.
555“Yes, my lord.”
556It was a strange first command for a man to have.
557“What are you going to do with her?”
558“I’m having her hauled out today, my lord. Maybe she can be patched up. But she’ll have lost all her copper.”
559“Very likely.”
560“I expect I’ll have to sell her for what she’ll fetch, hull and cargo,” said the mate, with a note of bitterness in his voice—that was to be expected in a man who had received his first command only to face losing it instantly.
561“I hope you’re lucky,” said Hornblower.
562“Thank you, my lord.” There was a moment’s hesitation before the next words came. “And I have to thank your lordship for all you did.”
563“The little I did I did for my own sake and her ladyship’s,” said Hornblower.
564He could smile as he said it; already, in these blissful surroundings, the memory of the howl of the hurricane and the crash of the waves sweeping Pretty Jane’s deck was losing its painful acuteness. And the two seamen could grin back at him. Here in a viceregal palace it was hard to remember how he had stood, with bared teeth and drawn knife, disputing with them possession of a single green coconut. It was pleasant that the interview could end with smiles and good-will, so that Hornblower could lapse back into delightful idleness with Barbara beside him.
565Seamstresses and tailors must have worked hard and long, for next day some of the results of their efforts were ready to be tried on.
566“My Spanish grandee!” said Barbara, eyeing her husband dressed in coat and breeches of Puerto Rican cut.
567“My lovely señora,” answered Hornblower with a bow. Barbara was wearing comb and mantilla.
568“The señoras of Puerto Rico wear no stays, fortunately,” said Barbara. “I could bear nothing of the sort at present.”
569That was one of the few allusions Barbara made regarding the lacerations and bruises that she bore all over her body. She was of Spartan breed, trained in a school which scorned to admit physical weakness. Even in making her mock-formal curtsey to him as she spoke she was careful to betray none of the pain the movement cost her; Hornblower could hardly guess at it.
570“What am I to tell Mendez-Castillo today when he comes to make his inquiries?” asked Hornblower.
571“I think, dear, that now we can safely be received by Their Excellencies,” said Barbara.
572Here in little Puerto Rico was to be found all the magnificence and ceremonial of the court of Spain. The captain-general was the representative of a king in whose veins ran the blood of Bourbons and Hapsburgs, of Ferdinand and Isabella, and his person had to be surrounded by the same ritual and etiquette, lest the mystic sanctity of his master should be called into question. Even Hornblower did not come to realize, until he began to discuss the arrangements with Mendez-Castillo, the enormous condescension, the extreme strain put upon palace etiquette, involved in the back-stairs visit Their Excellencies had paid to the battered castaways who had claimed their hospitality. Now that was all to be forgotten in their formal reception.
573There was amusement to be found in Mendez-Castillo’s apologetic and nervous mentioning of the fact that he could not expect the same formalities as had welcomed him on his last visit. Then he had been a visiting commander-in-chief; now he was only a half-pay officer, a distinguished visitor (Mendez-Castillo hastened to add) but an unofficial one. It dawned upon him that Mendez-Castillo expected him to flare out and to be offended at being told that this time he would be received only by flourishes and not by a full band, by the salutes of the sentries instead of by the turning out of the whole guard. He was able to confirm his reputation for tact by declaring quite truthfully—his candour was mistaken for the most diplomatic concealment of his own feelings—that he did not care in the least.
574So it turned out. Barbara and Hornblower were smuggled unobtrusively out of the postern gate of the palace and escorted into a boat, to be rowed round to the massive water gate where Hornblower had made his previous entrance. There with slow and solemn step they passed in through the gate, Barbara on Hornblower’s left arm. On either hand the sentries presented arms and Hornblower acknowledged the salute by taking off his hat. As they came into the courtyard beyond they were welcomed by the flourishes that Mendez-Castillo had promised. Even Hornblower’s tone-deaf ear could assure him that there was no stinting of those flourishes. Long drawn out, continued until Hornblower wondered how the trumpeter’s breath could last so long; and he could guess from the variation between squeakiness and dullness that the trumpeter was displaying a considerable virtuosity. Two more sentries stood at the foot of the steps beyond, presenting arms; the trumpeter stood at the top of the steps over to one side, and he put his instrument to his lips for a further series of fanfares as Hornblower removed his hat again and he and Barbara began the climb. Tremendous, those flourishes were; even though Hornblower was bracing himself to make his ceremonial entrance into the great hall he could not help darting a glance at the trumpeter. One glance called for a second glance. Pigtailed and powdered; dressed in a glittering uniform; what was there about that figure to demand his attention? He felt Barbara on his arm stiffen and miss her step. The trumpeter took his instrument from his lips. It was—it was Hudnutt. Hornblower almost dropped his hat with surprise.
575But they were over the threshold of the great door, and he must walk steadily forward with Barbara if he were not to ruin all the precious ceremonial. A voice bellowed their names. Ahead of them at the end of an avenue of halberdiers were two chairs of state backed by a semicircle of uniforms and court gowns, with Their Excellencies sitting awaiting them. On Hornblower’s last visit the captain-general had risen and taken seven steps forward to meet him, but that had been when he was a commander-in-chief; now he and Barbara were only private persons and Their Excellencies remained sitting, as he and Barbara went through the moves they had been instructed to make. He bowed to His Excellency, having already been presented to him; he waited while Barbara was presented and made her two curtseys; he bowed again as he was presented to Her Excellency; then they drew a little to one side to await Their Excellencies’ words.
576“A great pleasure to welcome Lord Hornblower again,” said His Excellency.
577“An equally great pleasure to make the acquaintance of Lady Hornblower,” said Her Excellency.
578Hornblower went through the form of consulting with Barbara as to how he should reply.
579“My wife and I are deeply appreciative of the great honour done us by our reception,” said Hornblower.
580“You are our welcome guests,” said His Excellency, with a finality in his tone that indicated the end of the conversation. Hornblower bowed again, twice, and Barbara went down in two more curtseys, and then they withdrew diagonally so as to allow Their Excellencies no glimpse of their backs. Mendez-Castillo was on hand to present them to other guests, but Hornblower had first to pour out to Barbara his astonishment at the recent encounter.
581“Did you see the trumpeter, dear?” he asked.
582“Yes,” answered Barbara, in an expressionless tone. “It was Hudnutt.”
583“Amazing,” went on Hornblower. “Extraordinary. I’d never have believed he was capable of it. He broke out of prison and he climbed that fence and he got himself out of Jamaica over to Puerto Rico—quite remarkable.”
584“Yes,” said Barbara.
585Hornblower turned to Mendez-Castillo. “Your—your trompetero,” he said; he was guessing at the Spanish word for “trumpeter,” and he put his hand up before his mouth in a gesture that indicated what he was trying to say.
586“You thought he was good?” asked Mendez-Castillo.
587“Superb,” said Hornblower. “Who is he?”
588“The best of the musicians in His Excellency’s orchestra,” answered Mendez-Castillo.
589Hornblower looked keenly at him, but Mendez-Castillo preserved a diplomatic lack of expression.
590“A fellow countryman of yours, sir?” persisted Hornblower.
591Mendez-Castillo spread his hands and elevated his shoulders.
592“Why should I concern myself about him, my lord?” he countered. “In any case, art knows no frontiers.”
593“No,” said Hornblower. “I suppose not. Frontiers are elastic in these days. For instance, señor, I cannot remember if a convention exists between your government and mine regarding the mutual return of deserters.”
594“A strange coincidence!” said Mendez-Castillo. “I was investigating that very question a few days ago—quite idly, I assure you, my lord. And I found that no such convention exists. There have been many occasions when, as a matter of good-will, deserters have been handed back. But most lamentably, my lord, His Excellency has altered his views in that respect since a certain ship—the Estrella del Sur, whose name you may possibly recall, my lord—was seized as a slaver outside this very harbour in circumstances that His Excellency found peculiarly irritating.”
595There was no hostility; nor was there any hint of glee in Mendez-Castillo’s expression as he made this speech. He might as well have been discussing the weather.
596“I appreciate His Excellency’s kindness and hospitality even more now,” said Hornblower. He hoped he was giving no indication that he was a man who had just been hoist by his own petard.
597“I will convey that information to His Excellency,” said Mendez-Castillo. “Meanwhile there are many guests who are anxious to make your lordship’s acquaintance and that of her ladyship.”
598Later in the evening it was Mendez-Castillo who came to Hornblower with a message from Her Excellency, to the effect that the marquesa quite understood that Barbara might be tired, not having fully recovered yet from her recent experiences, and suggesting that if her ladyship and his lordship chose to retire informally Their Excellencies would understand; and it was Mendez-Castillo who guided them to the far end of the room and through an unobtrusive door to where a back stairs led to their suite. The maid allotted to attend to Barbara was waiting up.
599“Ask the maid to go, please,” said Barbara. “I can look after myself.”
600Her tone was still flat and expressionless, and Hornblower looked at her anxiously in fear lest her fatigue should be too much for her. But he did what she asked.
601“Can I help in any way, dear?” he asked as the maid withdrew.
602“You can stay and talk to me, if you will,” answered Barbara.
603“With pleasure, of course,” said Hornblower. There was something strange about this situation. He tried to think of some topic to relieve the tension. “I still can hardly believe it about Hudnutt—”
604“It is about Hudnutt that I wanted to speak,” said Barbara. There was something positively harsh about her voice. She was standing more stiffly and more rigidly than usual—no back could ever be straighter—and she was meeting Hornblower’s eyes with a kind of fixed stare like a soldier at attention awaiting sentence of death.
605“Whatever is the matter, dearest?”
606“You are going to hate me,” said Barbara.
607“Never! Never!”
608“You don’t know what it is I’m going to tell you.”
609“Nothing you could tell me—”
610“Don’t say that yet! Wait until you hear. I set Hudnutt free. It was I who arranged for his escape.”
611The words came like sudden forked lightning. Or it was as if in a dead calm the main topsail yard had fallen without warning from its slings onto the deck.
612“Dearest,” said Hornblower, unbelieving, “you’re tired. Why don’t you—”
613“Do you think I’m delirious?” asked Barbara. Her voice was still unlike anything Hornblower had ever heard; so was the brief bitter laugh that accompanied her words. “I could be. This is the end of all my happiness.”
614“Dearest—” said Hornblower.
615“Oh—” said Barbara. There was a sudden overwhelming tenderness in that single sound, and her rigid attitude relaxed, but instantly she stiffened again and snatched back the hands she had held out to him. “Please listen. I’ve told you now. I set Hudnutt free—I set him free!”
616There could be no doubting that she meant what she said, truth or not. And Hornblower, standing unable to move, staring at her, gradually reached the realization that it was true after all. The realization seeped through the weak places in his unbelief, and as he thought of each piece of evidence it was as if he were marking off a new height in a rising tide.
617“That last night at Admiralty House!” he said.
618“Yes.”
619“You took him out through the wicket gate into the gardens!”
620“Yes.”
621“Then Evans helped you. He had the key.”
622“Yes.”
623“And that fellow in Kingston—Bonner—must have helped you, too.”
624“You said he was something of a villain. He was ready for adventure, at least.”
625“But—but the scent the bloodhounds followed?”
626“Someone dragged Hudnutt’s shirt along the ground on a rope.”
627“But—but even so—?” She did not need to tell him; as he said those words he made the next deduction. “That two hundred pounds!”
628“The money I asked you for,” said Barbara, sparing herself nothing. A ten-pound reward would not avail if someone were willing to spend two hundred pounds to help a prisoner escape.
629Hornblower knew all about it now. His wife had flouted the law. She had set at naught the authority of the navy. She had—the rising tide reached suddenly up to a new level.
630“It's a felony!” he said. “You could be transported for life—you could be sent to Botany Bay!”
631“Do I care?” exclaimed Barbara. “Botany Bay! Does that matter now that you know? Now that you’ll never love me?”
632“Dearest!” Those last words were so fantastically untrue that he had nothing else to say in reply. His mind was hard at work thinking about the effect of all this on Barbara. “That fellow Bonner—he could blackmail you.”
633“He’s as guilty as I am,” said Barbara. The unnatural harshness of her voice reached its climax there, and a sudden softness came back into her voice with her next words, an overwhelming tenderness which she could not help as she smiled her old quizzical smile at this husband of hers. “You’re only thinking about me!”
634“Of course,” said Hornblower, surprised.
635“But you must think about yourself. I’ve deceived you. I’ve cheated you. I took advantage of your kindness, of your generosity—oh!”
636The smile changed to tears. It was horrible to see Barbara’s face distort itself. She was still standing like a soldier at attention. She would not allow her hands to cover her face; she stood with the tears streaming down and her features working, sparing herself nothing of her shame. He would have taken her into his arms at that moment except that he was still immobilized by astonishment, and Barbara’s last words had set a fresh torrent of thought pouring through his mind to hold him paralyzed. If any of this were to come out, the consequences would be without limit. Half the world would believe that Hornblower, the legendary Hornblower, had connived at the escape and desertion of a petty criminal. Nobody would believe the truth—but if the truth did find credence, half the world would laugh at Hornblower’s being outwitted by his wife. There was a horrible gaping chasm opening right beside him. But there was already this other chasm—this awful distress that Barbara was suffering.
637“I was going to tell you,” said Barbara, still erect, blinded by her tears so that she could see nothing. “When we reached home I was going to tell you. That’s what I thought before the hurricane. And there in the deckhouse I was going to tell you, after—after I told you the other. But there wasn’t time—you had to leave me. I had to tell you I loved you, first. I told you that, and I should have told you this instead. I should have.”
638She was advancing no excuse for herself; she would not plead; she would face the consequences of her act. And there in the deckhouse she had told him she loved him, that she had never loved any other man. The last realization came upon him. Now he could shake off the astonishment, the bewilderment, that had held him helpless up to that moment. Nothing counted in the world except Barbara. Now he could move. Two steps forward and she was in his arms. Her tears wetted his lips.
639“My love! My darling!” he said, for, unbelieving and blinded, she had not responded.
640And then she knew, in the darkness that surrounded her, and her arms went about him, and there was no such happiness in all the world. There had never been such perfection of harmony. Hornblower found himself smiling. He could laugh out loud out of sheer happiness. That was an old weakness of his, to laugh—to giggle—in moments of crisis. He could laugh now, if he allowed himself—he could laugh at the whole ridiculous incident; he could laugh and laugh. But his judgment told him that laughter might be misunderstood at this moment. He could not help smiling, though, smiling as he kissed.