25. CHAPTER XXV. FREDERICK.

North and South / 南方与北方

1Revenge may have her own;

2Roused discipline aloud proclaims their cause,

3And injured navies urge their broken laws.

4Byron.

5Margaret began to wonder whether all offers were as unexpected beforehand,—as distressing at the time of their occurrence, as the two she had had. An involuntary comparison between Mr. Lennox and Mr. Thornton arose in her mind. She had been sorry, that an expression of any other feeling than friendship had been lured out by circumstances from Henry Lennox. That regret was the predominant feeling, on the first occasion of her receiving a proposal. She had not felt so stunnedso impressed as she did now, when echoes of Mr. Thornton’s voice yet lingered about the room. In Lennox’s case, he seemed for a moment to have slid over the boundary between friendship and love; and the instant afterwards, to regret it nearly as much as she did, although for different reasons. In Mr. Thornton’s case, as far as Margaret knew, there was no intervening stage of friendship. Their intercourse had been one continued series of opposition. Their opinions clashed; and indeed, she had never perceived that he had cared for her opinions, as belonging to her, the individual. As far as they defied his rock-like power of character, his passion-strength, he seemed to throw them off from him with contempt, until she felt the weariness of the exertion of making useless protests; and now, he had come, in this strange wild passionate way, to make known his love! For, although at first it had struck her, that his offer was forced and goaded out of him by sharp compassion for the exposure she had made of herself,—which he, like others, might misunderstandyet, even before he left the room,—and certainly not five minutes after, the clear conviction dawned upon her, shined bright upon her, that he did love her; that he had loved her; that he would love her. And she shrank and shuddered as under the fascination of some great power, repugnant to her whole previous life. She crept away, and hid from his idea. But it was of no use. To parody a line out of Fairfax’s Tasso—

6His strong idea wandered through her thought.”

7She disliked him the more for having mastered her inner will. How dared he say that he would love her still, even though she shook him off with contempt? She wished she had spoken morestronger. Sharp, decisive speeches came thronging into her mind, now that it was too late to utter them. The deep impression made by the interview, was like that of a horror in a dream; that will not leave the room although we waken up, and rub our eyes, and force a stiff rigid smile upon our lips. It is therethere, cowering and gibbering, with fixed ghastly eyes, in some corner of the chamber, listening to hear whether we dare to breathe of its presence to any one. And we dare not; poor cowards that we are!

8And so she shuddered away from the threat of his enduring love. What did he mean? Had she not the power to daunt him? She would see. It was more daring than became a man to threaten her so. Did he ground it upon the miserable yesterday? If need were, she would do the same to-morrow,—by a crippled beggar, willingly and gladly,—but by him, she would do it, just as bravely, in spite of his deductions, and the cold slime of womans impertinence. She did it because it was right, and simple, and true to save where she could save; even to try to save. “Fais ce que dois, advienne que pourra.”

9Hitherto she had not stirred from where he had left her; no outward circumstances had roused her out of the trance of thought in which she had been plunged by his last words, and by the look of his deep intent passionate eyes, as their flames had made her own fall before them. She went to the window, and threw it open, to dispel the oppression which hung around her. Then she went and opened the door, with a sort of impetuous wish to shake off the recollection of the past hour, in the company of others, or in active exertion. But all was profoundly hushed in the noonday stillness of a house, where an invalid catches the unrefreshing sleep that is denied to the night-hours. Margaret would not be alone. What should she do? Go and see Bessy Higgins, of course,” thought she, as the recollection of the message sent the night before flashed into her mind. And away she went.

10When she got there, she found Bessy lying on the settle, moved close to the fire, though the day was sultry and oppressive. She was laid down quite flat, as if resting languidly after some paroxysm of pain. Margaret felt sure she ought to have the greater freedom of breathing which a more sitting posture would procure; and, without a word, she raised her up, and so arranged the pillows, that Bessy was more at ease, though very languid.

11I thought I should nahaseen yoagain,” said she, at last, looking wistfully in Margarets face.

12Im afraid youre much worse. But I could not have come yesterday, my mother was so illfor many reasons,” said Margaret, colouring.

13Yod m’appen think I went beyond my place in sending Mary for yo’. But the wraglin’ and the loud voices had just torn me to pieces, and I thought when father left, oh! if I could just hear her voice, reading me some words opeace and promise, I could die away into the silence and rest oGod, just as a baby is hushed up to sleep by its mothers lullaby.”

14Shall I read you a chapter, now?”

15Ay, do! M’appen I shan’t listen to thsense, at first; it will seem far awaybut when yocome to words I liketo thcomforting textsitll seem close in my ear, and going through me as it were.”

16Margaret began. Bessy tossed to and fro. If, by an effort, she attended for one moment, it seemed as though she were convulsed into double restlessness the next. At last, she burst out: “Dont go on reading. Its no use. Im blaspheming all the time in my mind, withinking angrily on what canna be helped.—Yod hear of thriot, m’appen, yesterday at Marlborough Mills? Thornton’s factory, yoknow.”

17Your father was not there, was he?” said Margaret colouring deeply.

18Not he. Hed hagiven his right hand if it had never come to pass. Its that thats fretting me. Hes fairly knocked down in his mind by it. Its no use telling him, fools will always break out obounds. Yonever saw a man so downhearted as he is.”

19But why?” asked Margaret. I dont understand.”

20Why, yosee, hes a committee-man on this special strike. ThUnion appointed him because, though I say it as shouldn’t say it, hes reckoned a deep chap, and true to thback-bone. And he and tother committee-men laid their plans. They were to hou’d together through thick and thin; what the major part thought, tothers were to think, whether they would or no. And above all there was to be no going again the law of the land. Folk would go with them if they saw them striving and starving widumb patience; but if there was once any noise ofighting and strugglingeven wi’ knobsticks—all was up, as they know by thexperience of many, and many a time before. They would try and get speech oth’ knobsticks, and coaxem, and reason wi’ ’em, and m’appen warnem off; but whatever came, the Committee charged all members othUnion to lie down and die, if need were, without striking a blow; and then they reckoned they were sure ocarrying thpublic with them. And besides all that, Committee knew they were right in their demand, and they didn’t want to have right all mixed up wiwrong, till folk cant separate it, no more nor I can the physic-powder from thjelly yogave me to mix it in; jelly is much the biggest, but powder tastes it all through. Well, Ive told yoat length about thisn, but I am tired out. Yojust think for yor’sel, what it mun be for father to have ahis work undone, and by such a fool as Boucher, who must needs go right again the orders of Committee, and ruin thstrike, just as bad as if he meant to be a Judas. Eh! but father giv’d it him last night! He went so far as to say, hed go and tell police where they might find thringleader othriot; hed give him up to thmill-owners to do what they would wihim. Hed show the world that threal leaders othe strike were not such as Boucher, but steady thoughtful men; good hands, and good citizens, who were friendly to law and judgment, and would uphold order; who only wanted their right wage, and wouldn’t work, even though they starved, till they gotem; but who would neer injure property or life. For,” dropping her voice, “they do say, that Boucher threw a stone at Thornton’s sister, that welly killed her.”

21Thats not true,” said Margaret. It was not Boucher that threw the stone”—she went first red, then white.

22Yod be there then, were yo’?” asked Bessie languidly: for indeed, she had spoken with many pauses, as if speech was unusually difficult to her.

23Yes. Never mind. Go on. Only it was not Boucher that threw the stone. But what did he answer to your father?”

24He did naspeak words. He were all in such a tremble wispent passion, I could nabear to look at him. I heard his breath coming quick, and at one time I thought he were sobbing. But when father said hed give him up to police, he gave a great cry, and struck father on thface wihis closed fist, and he off like lightning. Father were stunned withe blow at first, for all Boucher were weak wipassion and wi’ clemming. He sat down a bit, and put his hand afore his eyes; and then made for thdoor. I dunnowhere I got strength, but I threw mysel’ oh thsettle and clung to him. ‘Father, father!’ said I. ‘Thoull never go peach on that poor clemmed man. Ill never leave go on thee, till thou sayst thou wunnot.’ ‘Dunnot be a fool,’ says he, ‘words come readier than deeds to most men. I never thought otelling thpolice on him; though by G—, he deserves it, and I should nahaminded if some one else had done the dirty work, and got him clapped up. But now he has strucken me, I could do it less nor ever, for it would be getting other men to take up my quarrel. But if ever he gets well oer this clemming, and is in good condition, he and Ill have an up and down fight, purring ana’, and Ill see what I can do for him.’ And so father shook me off,—for indeed I was low and faint enough, and his face was all clay white, where it weren’t bloody, and turned me sick to look at. And I know not if I slept or waked, or were in a dead swoon, till Mary come in; and I telled her to fetch yoto me. And now dunnot talk to me, but just read out thchapter. Im easier in my mind for having spit it out; but I want some thoughts of the world thats far away to take the weary taste of it out of my mouth. Read me not a sermon chapter, but a story chapter; theyve pictures in them, which I see when my eyes are shut. Read about the New Heavens, and the New Earth; and m’appen Ill forget this.”

25Margaret read in her soft low voice. Though Bessys eyes were shut, she was listening for some time, for the moisture of tears gathered heavy on her eyelashes. At last she slept; with many starts, and muttered pleadings. Margaret covered her up, and left her, for she had an uneasy consciousness that she might be wanted at home, and yet, until now, it seemed cruel to leave the dying girl.

26Mrs. Hale was in the drawing-room on her daughters return. It was one of her better days, and she was full of praises of the water-bed. It had been more like the beds at Sir John Beresford’s than anything she had slept on since. She did not know how it was, but people seemed to have lost the art of making the same kind of beds as they used to do in her youth. One would think it was easy enough; there was the same kind of feathers to be had, and yet somehow, till this last night she did not know when she had had a good sound resting sleep.

27Mr. Hale suggested, that something of the merits of the feather-beds of former days might be attributed to the activity of youth, which gave a relish to rest; but this idea was not kindly received by his wife.

28No, indeed, M r. Hale, it was those beds at Sir Johns. Now, Margaret, youre young enough, and go about in the day; are the beds comfortable? I appeal to you. Do they give you a feeling of perfect repose when you lie down upon them; or rather, dont you toss about, and try in vain to find an easy position, and wake in the morning as tired as when you went to bed?

29Margaret laughed. To tell the truth, mamma, Ive never thought about my bed at all, what kind it is. Im so sleepy at night, that if I only lie down anywhere, I nap off directly. So I dont think Im a competent witness. But then, you know, I never had the opportunity of trying Sir John Beresford’s beds. I never was at Oxenham.”

30Were you not? Oh, no! to be sure. It was poor darling Fred I took with me, I remember. I only went to Oxenham once after I was married,—to your Aunt Shaw’s wedding; and poor little Fred was the baby then. And I know Dixon did not like changing from ladys maid to nurse, and I was afraid that if I took her near her old home, and amongst her own people, she might want to leave me. But poor baby was taken ill at Oxenham, with his teething; and, what with my being a great deal with Anna just before her marriage, and not being very strong myself, Dixon had more of the charge of him than she ever had before; and it made her so fond of him, and she was so proud when he would turn away from every one and cling to her, that I dont believe she ever thought of leaving me again; though it was very different from what shed been accustomed to. Poor Fred! Everybody loved him. He was born with the gift of winning hearts. It makes me think very badly of Captain Reid when I know that he disliked my own dear boy. I think it a certain proof he had a bad heart. Ah! Your poor father, Margaret. He has left the room. He cant bear to hear Fred spoken of.”

31I love to hear about him, mamma. Tell me all you like; you never can tell me too much. Tell me what he was like as a baby.”

32Why, Margaret, you must not be hurt, but he was much prettier than you were. I remember, when I first saw you in Dixon’s arms, I said, ‘Dear, what an ugly little thing!’ And she said, ‘Its not every child thats like Master Fred, bless him!’ Dear! how well I remember it. Then I could have had Fred in my arms every minute of the day, and his cot was close by my bed; and now, nowMargaretI dont know where my boy is, and sometimes I think I shall never see him again.”

33Margaret sat down by her mothers sofa on a little stool, and softly took hold of her hand, caressing it and kissing it, as if to comfort. Mrs. Hale cried without restraint. At last, she sat straight, stiff up on the sofa, and turning round to her daughter, she said with tearful, almost solemn earnestness, “Margaret, if I can get better,—if God lets me have a chance of recovery, it must be through seeing my son Frederick once more. It will waken up all the poor springs of health left in me.”

34She paused, and seemed to try and gather strength for something more yet to be said. Her voice was choked as she went onwas quavering as with the contemplation of some strange, yet closely-present idea.

35And, Margaret, if I am to dieif I am one of those appointed to die before many weeks are overI must see my child first. I cannot think how it must be managed; but I charge you, Margaret, as you yourself hope for comfort in your last illness, bring him to me that I may bless him. Only for five minutes, Margaret. There could be no danger in five minutes. Oh, Margaret, let me see him before I die!”

36Margaret did not think of anything that might be utterly unreasonable in this speech: we do not look for reason or logic in the passionate entreaties of those who are sick unto death; we are stung with the recollection of a thousand slighted opportunities of fulfilling the wishes of those who will soon pass away from among us: and do they ask us for the future happiness of our lives, we lay it at their feet, and will it away from us. But this wish of Mrs. Hales was so natural, so just, so right to both parties, that Margaret felt as if, on Fredericks account as well as on her mothers, she ought to overlook all intermediate chances of danger, and pledge herself to do everything in her power for its realization. The large, pleading, dilated eyes were fixed upon her wistfully, steady in their gaze, though the poor white lips quivered like those of a child. Margaret gently rose up and stood opposite to her frail mother; so that she might gather the secure fulfilment of her wish from the calm steadiness of her daughters face.

37Mamma, I will write to-night, and tell Frederick what you say. I am as sure that he will come directly to us, as I am sure of my life. Be easy, mamma, you shall see him as far as anything earthly can be promised.”

38You will write to-night? Oh, Margaret! the post goes out at fiveyou will write by it, wont you? I have so few hours leftI feel dear, as if I should not recover, though sometimes your father over-persuades me into hoping; you will write directly, wont you? Dont lose a single post; for just by that very post I may miss him.”

39But, mamma, papa is out.”

40Papa is out! and what then? Do you mean that he would deny me this last wish, Margaret? Why, I should not be ill, be dyingif he had not taken me away from Helstone, to this unhealthy, smoky, sunless place.”

41Oh, mamma!” said Margaret.

42Yes; it is so, indeed. He knows it himself; he has said so many a time. He would do anything for me; you dont mean he would refuse me this last wishprayer, if you will. And, indeed, Margaret, the longing to see Frederick stands between me and God. I cannot pray till I have this one thing; indeed, I cannot. Dont lose time, dear, dear Margaret. Write by this very next post. Then he may be herehere in twenty-two days! For he is sure to come. No cords or chains can keep him. In twenty-two days I shall see my boy.” She fell back, and for a short time she took no notice of the fact that Margaret sat motionless, her hand shading her eyes.

43You are not writing!” said her mother at last. “Bring me some pens and paper; I will try and write myself.” She sat up, trembling all over with feverish eagerness. Margaret took her hand down, and looked at her mother sadly.

44Only wait till papa comes in. Let us ask him how best to do it?”

45You promised, Margaret, not a quarter of an hour ago,—you said he should come.”

46And so he shall, mamma; dont cry, my own dear mother. Ill write here, nowyou shall see me writeand it shall go by this very post; and if papa thinks fit he can write again when he comes init is only a days delay. Oh, mamma, dont cry so pitifully, it cuts me to the heart.”

47Mrs. Hale could not stop her tears; they came hysterically; and, in truth, she made no effort to control them, but rather called up all the pictures of the happy past, and the probable futurepainting the scene when she should lie a corpse, with the son she had longed to see in life weeping over her, and she unconscious of his presencetill she was melted by self-pity into a state of sobbing and exhaustion that made Margarets heart ache. But at last she was calm, and greedily watched her daughter, as she began her letter; wrote it with swift urgent entreaty; sealed it up hurriedly, for fear her mother should ask to see it: and then to make security most sure, at Mrs. Hales own bidding, took it herself to the post-office. She was coming home when her father overtook her.

48And where have you been, my pretty maid?” asked he.

49To the post-officewith a letter; a letter to Frederick. Oh, papa, perhaps I have done wrong: but mamma was seized with such a passionate yearning to see himshe said it would make her well againand then she said that she must see him before she diedI cannot tell you how urgent she was! Did I do wrong?”

50Mr. Hale did not reply at first. Then he said:

51You should have waited till I came in, Margaret.”

52I tried to persuade her—” and then she was silent.

53I dont know,” said Mr. Hale, after a pause. She ought to see him if she wishes it so much; for I believe it would do her much more good than all the doctors medicineand, perhaps, set her up altogether; but the danger to him, Im afraid, is very great.”

54All these years since the mutiny, papa?”

55Yes; it is necessary, of course, for government to take very stringent measures for the repression of offences against authority, more particularly in the navy, where a commanding officer needs to be surrounded in his mens eyes with a vivid consciousness of all the power there is at home to back him, and take up his cause, and avenge any injuries offered to him, if need be. Ah! its no matter to them how far their authorities have tyrannisedgalled hasty tempers to madnessor, if that can be any excuse afterwards, it is never allowed for in the first instance; they spare no expense, they send out shipsthey scour the seas to lay hold of the offendersthe lapse of years does not wash out the memory of the offenceit is a fresh and vivid crime on the Admiralty books till it is blotted out by blood.”

56Oh, papa, what have I done! And yet it seemed so right at the time. Im sure Frederick himself, would run the risk.”

57So he would; so he should! Nay, Margaret, Im glad it is done, though I durst not have done it myself. Im thankful it is as it is; I should have hesitated till, perhaps, it might have been too late to do any good. Dear Margaret, you have done what is right about it; and the end is beyond our control.”

58It was all very well; but her fathers account of the relentless manner in which mutinies were punished made Margaret shiver and creep. If she had decoyed her brother home to blot out the memory of his error by his blood! She saw her fathers anxiety lap deeper than the source of his latter cheering words. She took his arm and walked home pensively and wearily by his side.