1In the morning it was raining. A fog had come over the mountains from the sea. You could not see the tops of the mountains. The plateau was dull and gloomy, and the shapes of the trees and the houses were changed. I walked out beyond the town to look at the weather. The bad weather was coming over the mountains from the sea.

2The flags in the square hung wet from the white poles and the banners were wet and hung damp against the front of the houses, and in between the steady drizzle the rain came down and drove every one under the arcades and made pools of water in the square, and the streets wet and dark and deserted; yet the fiesta kept up without any pause. It was only driven under cover.

3The covered seats of the bull-ring had been crowded with people sitting out of the rain watching the concourse of Basque and Navarrais dancers and singers, and afterward the Val Carlos dancers in their costumes danced down the street in the rain, the drums sounding hollow and damp, and the chiefs of the bands riding ahead on their big, heavy-footed horses, their costumes wet, the horsescoats wet in the rain. The crowd was in the cafés and the dancers came in, too, and sat, their tight-wound white legs under the tables, shaking the water from their belled caps, and spreading their red and purple jackets over the chairs to dry. It was raining hard outside.

4I left the crowd in the café and went over to the hotel to get shaved for dinner. I was shaving in my room when there was a knock on the door.

5Come in,” I called.

6Montoya walked in.

7How are you?” he said.

8Fine,” I said.

9No bulls to-day.”

10No,” I said, “nothing but rain.”

11Where are your friends?”

12Over at the Iruña.”

13Montoya smiled his embarrassed smile.

14Look,” he said. Do you know the American ambassador?”

15Yes,” I said. Everybody knows the American ambassador.”

16Hes here in town, now.”

17Yes,” I said. Everybodys seen them.”

18Ive seen them, too,” Montoya said. He didn’t say anything. I went on shaving.

19Sit down,” I said. Let me send for a drink.”

20No, I have to go.”

21I finished shaving and put my face down into the bowl and washed it with cold water. Montoya was standing there looking more embarrassed.

22Look,” he said. Ive just had a message from them at the Grand Hotel that they want Pedro Romero and Marcial Lalanda to come over for coffee to-night after dinner.”

23Well,” I said, “it cant hurt Marcial any.”

24“Marcial has been in San Sebastian all day. He drove over in a car this morning with Marquez. I dont think theyll be back to-night.”

25Montoya stood embarrassed. He wanted me to say something.

26Dont give Romero the message,” I said.

27You think so?”

28Absolutely.”

29Montoya was very pleased.

30I wanted to ask you because you were an American,” he said.

31Thats what Id do.”

32Look,” said Montoya. People take a boy like that. They dont know what hes worth. They dont know what he means. Any foreigner can flatter him. They start this Grand Hotel business, and in one year theyre through.”

33Like Algabeno,” I said.

34Yes, like Algabeno.”

35Theyre a fine lot,” I said. Theres one American woman down here now that collects bull-fighters.”

36I know. They only want the young ones.”

37Yes,” I said. The old ones get fat.”

38Or crazy like Gallo.”

39Well,” I said, “its easy. All you have to do is not give him the message.”

40Hes such a fine boy,” said Montoya. He ought to stay with his own people. He shouldn’t mix in that stuff.”

41Wont you have a drink?” I asked.

42No,” said Montoya, “I have to go.” He went out.

43I went down-stairs and out the door and took a walk around through the arcades around the square. It was still raining. I looked in at the Iruña for the gang and they were not there, so I walked on around the square and back to the hotel. They were eating dinner in the down-stairs dining-room.

44They were well ahead of me and it was no use trying to catch them. Bill was buying shoe-shines for Mike. Bootblacks opened the street door and each one Bill called over and started to work on Mike.

45This is the eleventh time my boots have been polished,” Mike said. I say, Bill is an ass.”

46The bootblacks had evidently spread the report. Another came in.

47“Limpia botas?” he said to Bill.

48No,” said Bill. For this Señor.”

49The bootblack knelt down beside the one at work and started on Mikes free shoe that shone already in the electric light.

50Bills a yell of laughter,” Mike said.

51I was drinking red wine, and so far behind them that I felt a little uncomfortable about all this shoe-shining. I looked around the room. At the next table was Pedro Romero. He stood up when I nodded, and asked me to come over and meet a friend. His table was beside ours, almost touching. I met the friend, a Madrid bull-fight critic, a little man with a drawn face. I told Romero how much I liked his work, and he was very pleased. We talked Spanish and the critic knew a little French. I reached to our table for my wine-bottle, but the critic took my arm. Romero laughed.

52Drink here,” he said in English.

53He was very bashful about his English, but he was really very pleased with it, and as we went on talking he brought out words he was not sure of, and asked me about them. He was anxious to know the English for _Corrida de toros_, the exact translation. Bull-fight he was suspicious of. I explained that bull-fight in Spanish was the _lidia_ of a _toro_. The Spanish word _corrida_ means in English the running of bullsthe French translation is _Course de taureaux_. The critic put that in. There is no Spanish word for bull-fight.

54Pedro Romero said he had learned a little English in Gibraltar. He was born in Ronda. That is not far above Gibraltar. He started bull-fighting in Malaga in the bull-fighting school there. He had only been at it three years. The bull-fight critic joked him about the number of _Malagueño_ expressions he used. He was nineteen years old, he said. His older brother was with him as a banderillero, but he did not live in this hotel. He lived in a smaller hotel with the other people who worked for Romero. He asked me how many times I had seen him in the ring. I told him only three. It was really only two, but I did not want to explain after I had made the mistake.

55Where did you see me the other time? In Madrid?”

56Yes,” I lied. I had read the accounts of his two appearances in Madrid in the bull-fight papers, so I was all right.

57The first or the second time?”

58The first.”

59I was very bad,” he said. “The second time I was better. You remember?” He turned to the critic.

60He was not at all embarrassed. He talked of his work as something altogether apart from himself. There was nothing conceited or braggartly about him.

61I like it very much that you like my work,” he said. But you havent seen it yet. To-morrow, if I get a good bull, I will try and show it to you.”

62When he said this he smiled, anxious that neither the bull-fight critic nor I would think he was boasting.

63I am anxious to see it,” the critic said. I would like to be convinced.”

64He doesn’t like my work much.” Romero turned to me. He was serious.

65The critic explained that he liked it very much, but that so far it had been incomplete.

66Wait till to-morrow, if a good one comes out.”

67Have you seen the bulls for to-morrow?” the critic asked me.

68Yes. I saw them unloaded.”

69Pedro Romero leaned forward.

70What did you think of them?”

71Very nice,” I said. About twenty-six arrobas. Very short horns. Havent you seen them?”

72Oh, yes,” said Romero.

73They wont weigh twenty-six arrobas,” said the critic.

74No,” said Romero.

75Theyve got bananas for horns,” the critic said.

76You call them bananas?” asked Romero. He turned to me and smiled. “_You_ wouldn’t call them bananas?”

77No,” I said. Theyre horns all right.”

78Theyre very short,” said Pedro Romero. Very, very short. Still, they aren’t bananas.”

79I say, Jake,” Brett called from the next table, “you _have_ deserted us.”

80Just temporarily,” I said. Were talking bulls.”

81You _are_ superior.”

82Tell him that bulls have no balls,” Mike shouted. He was drunk.

83Romero looked at me inquiringly.

84Drunk,” I said. “Borracho! Muy borracho!”

85You might introduce your friends,” Brett said. She had not stopped looking at Pedro Romero. I asked them if they would like to have coffee with us. They both stood up. Romero’s face was very brown. He had very nice manners.

86I introduced them all around and they started to sit down, but there was not enough room, so we all moved over to the big table by the wall to have coffee. Mike ordered a bottle of Fundador and glasses for everybody. There was a lot of drunken talking.

87Tell him I think writing is lousy,” Bill said. Go on, tell him. Tell him Im ashamed of being a writer.”

88Pedro Romero was sitting beside Brett and listening to her.

89Go on. Tell him!” Bill said.

90Romero looked up smiling.

91This gentleman,” I said, “is a writer.”

92Romero was impressed. This other one, too,” I said, pointing at Cohn.

93He looks like Villalta,” Romero said, looking at Bill. “Rafael, doesn’t he look like Villalta?”

94I cant see it,” the critic said.

95Really,” Romero said in Spanish. He looks a lot like Villalta. What does the drunken one do?”

96Nothing.”

97Is that why he drinks?”

98No. Hes waiting to marry this lady.”

99Tell him bulls have no balls!” Mike shouted, very drunk, from the other end of the table.

100What does he say?”

101Hes drunk.”

102Jake,” Mike called. Tell him bulls have no balls!”

103You understand?” I said.

104Yes.”

105I was sure he didn’t, so it was all right.

106Tell him Brett wants to see him put on those green pants.”

107Pipe down, Mike.”

108Tell him Brett is dying to know how he can get into those pants.”

109Pipe down.”

110During this Romero was fingering his glass and talking with Brett. Brett was talking French and he was talking Spanish and a little English, and laughing.

111Bill was filling the glasses.

112Tell him Brett wants to come into——”

113Oh, pipe down, Mike, for Christs sake!”

114Romero looked up smiling. Pipe down! I know that,” he said.

115Just then Montoya came into the room. He started to smile at me, then he saw Pedro Romero with a big glass of cognac in his hand, sitting laughing between me and a woman with bare shoulders, at a table full of drunks. He did not even nod.

116Montoya went out of the room. Mike was on his feet proposing a toast. Lets all drink to—” he began. “Pedro Romero,” I said. Everybody stood up. Romero took it very seriously, and we touched glasses and drank it down, I rushing it a little because Mike was trying to make it clear that that was not at all what he was going to drink to. But it went off all right, and Pedro Romero shook hands with every one and he and the critic went out together.

117My God! hes a lovely boy,” Brett said. And how I would love to see him get into those clothes. He must use a shoe-horn.”

118I started to tell him,” Mike began. And Jake kept interrupting me. Why do you interrupt me? Do you think you talk Spanish better than I do?”

119Oh, shut up, Mike! Nobody interrupted you.”

120No, Id like to get this settled.” He turned away from me. Do you think you amount to something, Cohn? Do you think you belong here among us? People who are out to have a good time? For Gods sake dont be so noisy, Cohn!”

121Oh, cut it out, Mike,” Cohn said.

122Do you think Brett wants you here? Do you think you add to the party? Why dont you say something?”

123I said all I had to say the other night, Mike.”

124Im not one of you literary chaps.” Mike stood shakily and leaned against the table. Im not clever. But I do know when Im not wanted. Why dont you see when youre not wanted, Cohn? Go away. Go away, for Gods sake. Take that sad Jewish face away. Dont you think Im right?”

125He looked at us.

126Sure,” I said. Lets all go over to the Iruña.”

127No. Dont you think Im right? I love that woman.”

128Oh, dont start that again. Do shove it along, Michael,” Brett said.

129Dont you think Im right, Jake?”

130Cohn still sat at the table. His face had the sallow, yellow look it got when he was insulted, but somehow he seemed to be enjoying it. The childish, drunken heroics of it. It was his affair with a lady of title.

131Jake,” Mike said. He was almost crying. “You know Im right. Listen, you!” He turned to Cohn: “Go away! Go away now!”

132But I wont go, Mike,” said Cohn.

133Then Ill make you!” Mike started toward him around the table. Cohn stood up and took off his glasses. He stood waiting, his face sallow, his hands fairly low, proudly and firmly waiting for the assault, ready to do battle for his lady love.

134I grabbed Mike. Come on to the café,” I said. You cant hit him here in the hotel.”

135Good!” said Mike. Good idea!”

136We started off. I looked back as Mike stumbled up the stairs and saw Cohn putting his glasses on again. Bill was sitting at the table pouring another glass of Fundador. Brett was sitting looking straight ahead at nothing.

137Outside on the square it had stopped raining and the moon was trying to get through the clouds. There was a wind blowing. The military band was playing and the crowd was massed on the far side of the square where the fireworks specialist and his son were trying to send up fire balloons. A balloon would start up jerkily, on a great bias, and be torn by the wind or blown against the houses of the square. Some fell into the crowd. The magnesium flared and the fireworks exploded and chased about in the crowd. There was no one dancing in the square. The gravel was too wet.

138Brett came out with Bill and joined us. We stood in the crowd and watched Don Manuel Orquito, the fireworks king, standing on a little platform, carefully starting the balloons with sticks, standing above the heads of the crowd to launch the balloons off into the wind. The wind brought them all down, and Don Manuel Orquito’s face was sweaty in the light of his complicated fireworks that fell into the crowd and charged and chased, sputtering and cracking, between the legs of the people. The people shouted as each new luminous paper bubble careened, caught fire, and fell.

139Theyre razzing Don Manuel,” Bill said.

140How do you know hes Don Manuel?” Brett said.

141His names on the programme. Don Manuel Orquito, the pirotecnico of esta ciudad.”

142“Globos illuminados,” Mike said. A collection of globos illuminados. Thats what the paper said.”

143The wind blew the band music away.

144I say, I wish one would go up,” Brett said. That Don Manuel chap is furious.”

145Hes probably worked for weeks fixing them to go off, spelling outHail to San Fermin,’” Bill said.

146“Globos illuminados,” Mike said. A bunch of bloody globos illuminados.”

147Come on,” said Brett. We cant stand here.”

148Her ladyship wants a drink,” Mike said.

149How you know things,” Brett said.

150Inside, the café was crowded and very noisy. No one noticed us come in. We could not find a table. There was a great noise going on.

151Come on, lets get out of here,” Bill said.

152Outside the paseo was going in under the arcade. There were some English and Americans from Biarritz in sport clothes scattered at the tables. Some of the women stared at the people going by with lorgnons. We had acquired, at some time, a friend of Bills from Biarritz. She was staying with another girl at the Grand Hotel. The other girl had a headache and had gone to bed.

153Heres the pub,” Mike said. It was the Bar Milano, a small, tough bar where you could get food and where they danced in the back room. We all sat down at a table and ordered a bottle of Fundador. The bar was not full. There was nothing going on.

154This is a hell of a place,” Bill said.

155Its too early.”

156Lets take the bottle and come back later,” Bill said. I dont want to sit here on a night like this.”

157Lets go and look at the English,” Mike said. I love to look at the English.”

158Theyre awful,” Bill said. Where did they all come from?”

159They come from Biarritz,” Mike said, “They come to see the last day of the quaint little Spanish fiesta.”

160Ill festa them,” Bill said.

161Youre an extraordinarily beautiful girl.” Mike turned to Bills friend. When did you come here?”

162Come off it, Michael.”

163I say, she _is_ a lovely girl. Where have I been? Where have I been looking all this while? Youre a lovely thing. _Have_ we met? Come along with me and Bill. Were going to festa the English.”

164Ill festa them,” Bill said, “What the hell are they doing at this fiesta?”

165Come on,” Mike said. Just us three. Were going to festa the bloody English. I hope youre not English? Im Scotch. I hate the English. Im going to festa them. Come on, Bill.”

166Through the window we saw them, all three arm in arm, going toward the café. Rockets were going up in the square.

167Im going to sit here,” Brett said.

168Ill stay with you,” Cohn said.

169Oh, dont!” Brett said. For Gods sake, go off somewhere. Cant you see Jake and I want to talk?”

170I didn’t,” Cohn said. I thought Id sit here because I felt a little tight.”

171What a hell of a reason for sitting with any one. If youre tight, go to bed. Go on to bed.”

172Was I rude enough to him?” Brett asked. Cohn was gone. My God! Im so sick of him!”

173He doesn’t add much to the gayety.”

174He depresses me so.”

175Hes behaved very badly.”

176Damned badly. He had a chance to behave so well.”

177Hes probably waiting just outside the door now.”

178Yes. He would. You know I do know how he feels. He cant believe it didn’t mean anything.”

179I know.”

180Nobody else would behave as badly. Oh, Im so sick of the whole thing. And Michael. Michaels been lovely, too.”

181Its been damned hard on Mike.”

182Yes. But he didn’t need to be a swine.”

183Everybody behaves badly,” I said. Give them the proper chance.”

184You wouldn’t behave badly.” Brett looked at me.

185Id be as big an ass as Cohn,” I said.

186Darling, dont lets talk a lot of rot.”

187All right. Talk about anything you like.”

188Dont be difficult. Youre the only person Ive got, and I feel rather awful to-night.”

189Youve got Mike.”

190Yes, Mike. Hasn’t he been pretty?”

191Well,” I said, “its been damned hard on Mike, having Cohn around and seeing him with you.”

192Dont I know it, darling? Please dont make me feel any worse than I do.”

193Brett was nervous as I had never seen her before. She kept looking away from me and looking ahead at the wall.

194Want to go for a walk?”

195Yes. Come on.”

196I corked up the Fundador bottle and gave it to the bartender.

197Lets have one more drink of that,” Brett said. My nerves are rotten.”

198We each drank a glass of the smooth amontillado brandy.

199Come on,” said Brett.

200As we came out the door I saw Cohn walk out from under the arcade.

201He _was_ there,” Brett said.

202He cant be away from you.”

203Poor devil!”

204Im not sorry for him. I hate him, myself.”

205I hate him, too,” she shivered. I hate his damned suffering.”

206We walked arm in arm down the side street away from the crowd and the lights of the square. The street was dark and wet, and we walked along it to the fortifications at the edge of town. We passed wine-shops with light coming out from their doors onto the black, wet street, and sudden bursts of music.

207Want to go in?”

208No.”

209We walked out across the wet grass and onto the stone wall of the fortifications. I spread a newspaper on the stone and Brett sat down. Across the plain it was dark, and we could see the mountains. The wind was high up and took the clouds across the moon. Below us were the dark pits of the fortifications. Behind were the trees and the shadow of the cathedral, and the town silhouetted against the moon.

210Dont feel bad,” I said.

211I feel like hell,” Brett said. Dont lets talk.”

212We looked out at the plain. The long lines of trees were dark in the moonlight. There were the lights of a car on the road climbing the mountain. Up on the top of the mountain we saw the lights of the fort. Below to the left was the river. It was high from the rain, and black and smooth. Trees were dark along the banks. We sat and looked out. Brett stared straight ahead. Suddenly she shivered.

213Its cold.”

214Want to walk back?”

215Through the park.”

216We climbed down. It was clouding over again. In the park it was dark under the trees.

217Do you still love me, Jake?”

218Yes,” I said.

219Because Im a goner,” Brett said.

220How?”

221Im a goner. Im mad about the Romero boy. Im in love with him, I think.”

222I wouldn’t be if I were you.”

223I cant help it. Im a goner. Its tearing me all up inside.”

224Dont do it.”

225I cant help it. Ive never been able to help anything.”

226You ought to stop it.”

227How can I stop it? I cant stop things. Feel that?”

228Her hand was trembling.

229Im like that all through.”

230You oughtn’t to do it.”

231I cant help it. Im a goner now, anyway. Dont you see the difference?”

232No.”

233Ive got to do something. Ive got to do something I really want to do. Ive lost my self-respect.”

234You dont have to do that.”

235Oh, darling, dont be difficult. What do you think its meant to have that damned Jew about, and Mike the way hes acted?”

236Sure.”

237I cant just stay tight all the time.”

238No.”

239Oh, darling, please stay by me. Please stay by me and see me through this.”

240Sure.”

241I dont say its right. It is right though for me. God knows, Ive never felt such a bitch.”

242What do you want me to do?”

243Come on,” Brett said. Lets go and find him.”

244Together we walked down the gravel path in the park in the dark, under the trees and then out from under the trees and past the gate into the street that led into town.

245Pedro Romero was in the café. He was at a table with other bull-fighters and bull-fight critics. They were smoking cigars. When we came in they looked up. Romero smiled and bowed. We sat down at a table half-way down the room.

246Ask him to come over and have a drink.”

247Not yet. Hell come over.”

248I cant look at him.”

249Hes nice to look at,” I said.

250Ive always done just what I wanted.”

251I know.”

252I do feel such a bitch.”

253Well,” I said.

254My God!” said Brett, “the things a woman goes through.”

255Yes?”

256Oh, I do feel such a bitch.”

257I looked across at the table. Pedro Romero smiled. He said something to the other people at his table, and stood up. He came over to our table. I stood up and we shook hands.

258Wont you have a drink?”

259You must have a drink with me,” he said. He seated himself, asking Brett’s permission without saying anything. He had very nice manners. But he kept on smoking his cigar. It went well with his face.

260You like cigars?” I asked.

261Oh, yes. I always smoke cigars.”

262It was part of his system of authority. It made him seem older. I noticed his skin. It was clear and smooth and very brown. There was a triangular scar on his cheek-bone. I saw he was watching Brett. He felt there was something between them. He must have felt it when Brett gave him her hand. He was being very careful. I think he was sure, but he did not want to make any mistake.

263You fight to-morrow?” I said.

264Yes,” he said. “Algabeno was hurt to-day in Madrid. Did you hear?”

265No,” I said. Badly?”

266He shook his head.

267Nothing. Here,” he showed his hand. Brett reached out and spread the fingers apart.

268Oh!” he said in English, “you tell fortunes?”

269Sometimes. Do you mind?”

270No. I like it.” He spread his hand flat on the table. Tell me I live for always, and be a millionaire.”

271He was still very polite, but he was surer of himself. Look,” he said, “do you see any bulls in my hand?”

272He laughed. His hand was very fine and the wrist was small.

273There are thousands of bulls,” Brett said. She was not at all nervous now. She looked lovely.

274Good,” Romero laughed. At a thousand duros apiece,” he said to me in Spanish. Tell me some more.”

275Its a good hand,” Brett said. I think hell live a long time.”

276Say it to me. Not to your friend.”

277I said youd live a long time.”

278I know it,” Romero said. Im never going to die.”

279I tapped with my finger-tips on the table. Romero saw it. He shook his head.

280No. Dont do that. The bulls are my best friends.”

281I translated to Brett.

282You kill your friends?” she asked.

283Always,” he said in English, and laughed. “So they dont kill me.” He looked at her across the table.

284You know English well.”

285Yes,” he said. Pretty well, sometimes. But I must not let anybody know. It would be very bad, a torero who speaks English.”

286Why?” asked Brett.

287It would be bad. The people would not like it. Not yet.”

288Why not?”

289They would not like it. Bull-fighters are not like that.”

290What are bull-fighters like?”

291He laughed and tipped his hat down over his eyes and changed the angle of his cigar and the expression of his face.

292Like at the table,” he said. I glanced over. He had mimicked exactly the expression of Nacional. He smiled, his face natural again. No. I must forget English.”

293Dont forget it, yet,” Brett said.

294No?”

295No.”

296All right.”

297He laughed again.

298I would like a hat like that,” Brett said.

299Good. Ill get you one.”

300Right. See that you do.”

301I will. Ill get you one to-night.”

302I stood up. Romero rose, too.

303Sit down,” I said. I must go and find our friends and bring them here.”

304He looked at me. It was a final look to ask if it were understood. It was understood all right.

305Sit down,” Brett said to him. You must teach me Spanish.”

306He sat down and looked at her across the table. I went out. The hard-eyed people at the bull-fighter table watched me go. It was not pleasant. When I came back and looked in the café, twenty minutes later, Brett and Pedro Romero were gone. The coffee-glasses and our three empty cognac-glasses were on the table. A waiter came with a cloth and picked up the glasses and mopped off the table.