10. Let Us Open the Casket

Number The Stars / 数星星 / 细数繁星

1You are all here now,” Uncle Henrik said, looking around the living room. I must go.”

2Annemarie stood in the wide doorway, looking in from the hall. The baby slept now, and its mother looked tired. Her husband sat beside her, his arm across her shoulders. The old mans head was still bent.

3Peter sat alone, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. It was clear that he was deep in thought.

4On the sofa Ellen sat between her parents, one hand clasped tightly in her mothers. She looked up at Annemarie but didn’t smile. Annemarie felt a surge of sadness; the bond of their friendship had not broken, but it was as if Ellen had moved now into a different world, the world of her own family and whatever lay ahead for them.

5The elderly bearded man looked up suddenly as Uncle Henrik prepared to go. God keep you safe,” he said in a firm but quiet voice.

6Henrik nodded. God keep us all safe,” he replied. Then he turned and left the room. A moment later Annemarie heard him leave the house.

7Mama brought the teapot from the kitchen, and a tray of cups. Annemarie helped her pass the cups around. No one spoke.

8“Annemarie,” Mama whispered to her in the hall, “you may go to bed if you want to. It is very late.”

9Annemarie shook her head. But she was tired. She could see that Ellen was, too; her friends head was leaning on her mothers shoulder, and her eyes closed now and then.

10Finally Annemarie went to the empty rocking chair in the corner of the living room and curled there with her head against its soft, padded back. She dozed.

11She was startled from her half sleep by the sudden sweep of headlights, through the sheer curtains and across the room, as a car pulled up outside. The car doors slammed. Everyone in the room tensed, but no one spoke.

12She heardas if in a recurring nightmarethe pounding on the door, and then the heavy, frighteningly familiar staccato of boots on the kitchen floor. The woman with the baby gasped and began, suddenly, to weep.

13The male, accented voice from the kitchen was loud. We have observed,” he said, “that an unusual number of people have gathered at this house tonight. What is the explanation?”

14There has been a death,” Mamas voice replied calmly. It is always our custom to gather and pay our respects when a family member dies. I am sure you are familiar with our customs.”

15One of the officers pushed Mama ahead of him from the kitchen and entered the living room. There were others behind him. They filled the wide doorway. As always, their boots gleamed. Their guns. Their helmets. All of them gleamed in the candlelight.

16Annemarie watched as the mans eyes moved around the room. He looked for a long time at the casket. Then he moved his gaze, focusing on each person in turn. When his eyes reached her, she looked back at him steadily.

17Who died?” he asked harshly.

18No one answered. They watched Annemarie, and she realized that the officer was directing the question at her.

19Now she knew for certain what Uncle Henrik had meant when he had talked to her in the barn. To be brave came more easily if you knew nothing.

20She swallowed. My Great-aunt Birte,” she lied, in a firm voice.

21The officer moved forward suddenly, across the room, to the casket. He placed one gloved hand on its lid. Poor Great-aunt Birte,” he said, in a condescending voice.

22I do know your customs,” he said, turning his gaze toward Mama, who still stood in the doorway. “And I know it is the custom to pay ones respects by looking your loved one in the face. It seems odd to me that you have closed this coffin up so tightly.” His hand was in a fist, and he rubbed it across the edge of the polished lid.

23Why is it not open?” he demanded. Let us open it up and take one last look at Great-aunt Birte!”

24Annemarie saw Peter, across the room, stiffen in his chair, lift his chin, and reach slowly with one hand toward his side.

25Mama walked quickly across the room, directly to the casket, directly to the officer. Youre right,” she said. The doctor said it should be closed, because Aunt Birte died of typhus, and he said that there was a chance the germs would still be there, would still be dangerous. But what does he knowonly a country doctor, and an old man at that? Surely typhus germs wouldn’t linger in a dead person! And dear Aunt Birte; I have been longing to see her face, to kiss her goodbye. Of course we will open the casket! I am glad you suggested—”

26With a swift motion the Nazi officer slapped Mama across her face. She staggered backward, and a white mark on her cheek darkened.

27You foolish woman,” he spat. To think that we have any interest in seeing the body of your diseased aunt! Open it after we leave,” he said.

28With one gloved thumb he pressed a candle flame into darkness. The hot wax spattered the table. Put all these candles out,” he said, “or pull the curtains.”

29Then he strode to the doorway and left the room. Motionless, silent, one hand to her cheek, Mama listenedthey all listenedas the uniformed men left the house. In a moment they heard the car doors, the sound of its engine, and finally they heard it drive away.

30Mama!” Annemarie cried.

31Her mother shook her head quickly, and glanced at the open window covered only by the sheer curtain. Annemarie understood. There might still be soldiers outside, watching, listening.

32Peter stood and drew the dark curtains across the windows. He relit the extinguished candle. Then he reached for the old Bible that had always been there, on the mantel. He opened it quickly and said, “I will read a psalm.”

33His eyes turned to the page he had opened at random, and he began to read in a strong voice.

34O praise the Lord.

35How good it is to sing psalms to our God!

36How pleasant to praise him!

37The Lord is rebuilding Jerusalem;

38he gathers in the scattered sons of Israel.

39It is he who heals the broken in spirit

40and binds up their wounds,

41he who numbers the stars one by one . . .

42Mama sat down and listened. Gradually they each began to relax. Annemarie could see the old man across the room, moving his lips as Peter read; he knew the ancient psalm by heart.

43Annemarie didn’t. The words were unfamiliar to her, and she tried to listen, tried to understand, tried to forget the war and the Nazis, tried not to cry, tried to be brave. The night breeze moved the dark curtains at the open windows. Outside, she knew, the sky was speckled with stars. How could anyone number them one by one, as the psalm said? There were too many. The sky was too big.

44Ellen had said that her mother was frightened of the ocean, that it was too cold and too big.

45The sky was, too, thought Annemarie. The whole world was: too cold, too big. And too cruel.

46Peter read on, in his firm voice, though it was clear he was tired. The long minutes passed. They seemed hours.

47Finally, still reading, he moved quietly to the window. He closed the Bible and listened to the quiet night. Then he looked around the room. Now,” he said, “it is time.”

48First he closed the windows. Then he went to the casket and opened the lid.